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i love gays. they are better shoppers & gossipers :D
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PS. im sorry that was so big :( i dont know what happened. Xo
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[03 Dec 2006|03:17am] |
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i feel really suicidal tonight. :[ i'm scaring myself.
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[03 Dec 2006|12:48pm] |
I got pulled over Friday night,
barely 24 hours after I got my lisence.
I was terrified, I kept thinking my parents
were going to kill me if I got a ticket,
and I was trying to think of whether I
could have been speeding...
Want to know what I did wrong?
I forgot to turn on my god damn lights.
I haven't told anyone,
and I don't intend to.
That is by far the stupidest thing I've ever done.
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[03 Dec 2006|01:38pm] |
i always tend to think i'm better than everyone else.
and i'm not.
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[03 Dec 2006|01:50pm] |
i hate it when people get mad because their ex boyfriend/girlfriend is going out with someone
that they think they're prettier than.
i mean, did it ever cross your mind that maybe they have a better personality?
looks aren't everything
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[03 Dec 2006|02:09pm] |
What we hate, we make.
I feel like ranting and letting this out.
I had another breakdown.
I have self pity, as much as I don't like/want to.
I know, somehow it is my fault I don't have a best friend anymore.
I just hate doing nothing on weekends, and knowing the fact
I have absoutly no one to ask to go to the mall with or the movies like I used to.
Sure, I have some school friends but no one I can see myself doing those things with.
And I have the boy I'm together but not with, but that's not the same as having a girlfriend.
I don't know when my last sleepover was, probabally on my birthday a few months ago.
My best friends live across the country and it sucks. I am breaking. As much as I don't want to admit it I am. I cut up every picture last night of my old best friends. It doesn't help I have no one to talk to about personal things, I've kind of learned to keep it all to myself but I know one of these days I'm going to burst/break again. Slowly, but its happening I'm reducing my eating, I did something I used to do again that I promised I wouldnt. I miss my old life, I don't like suicidal thoughts and I think it's stupid but I continue on getting them. I don't like feeling sorry for myself.
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[03 Dec 2006|02:27pm] |
i hate it when i ask someone
what time it is and they round.
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[03 Dec 2006|03:37pm] |
i know i shouldn't do things like this. it's wishful thinking and it sort of hurts.
but at the same time... it's kind of fun
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[03 Dec 2006|04:00pm] |
i constantly pick at and criticize
my personality and apperance
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[03 Dec 2006|04:16pm] |
Romance is dying.
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[03 Dec 2006|05:00pm] |
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I'm so tired of being lonely
Secret:I wish someone else would come into the picture...someone to hold me, be with me, care for me...even though I pretend I'm alright being alone
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[03 Dec 2006|05:26pm] |
I loved laying in bed with you all day.
and I love how you'd kiss my forehead whenever you hugged me.
I want to be with you.
I'm really scared you don't feel the same way
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[03 Dec 2006|06:44pm] |
secret: Every time i see you, it takes every bit of my self control not to pounce on you and kiss you
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[03 Dec 2006|06:46pm] |
i am scared of growing up, not because of responsiblities, but because college life is parties. and i never feel included in anything, so i turn into a cold, unsocial, ugly girl with no friends.
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[03 Dec 2006|06:49pm] |
he is my dream man. i'm overly obessessed.
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[03 Dec 2006|07:03pm] |
We've wanted this for so long, and now that we finally have a chance you want someone else.
I said I'd be okay with it, I've said I'd work on being okay with it.
But the thing is I'm not and I don't think I will be not for awhile.
It hurts how easy this is for you and how you can act like its nothing.
But for as long as shes in your life our friendship is going to go to hell.
I can't pretend I'm okay with this anymore.
I'm done.
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[03 Dec 2006|07:14pm] |
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i want to be funny.
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[03 Dec 2006|07:55pm] |
Secret: I'd actually like to be in that group of 'cool' girls who cause drama!
If that makes me sad, or disliked, so be it. :]!
P.S. No reference to the MEAN girls part.
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[03 Dec 2006|08:32pm] |
The only reason i started cocaine was because Kate moss did
pathetic?
URM YESH
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[03 Dec 2006|08:33pm] |
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[03 Dec 2006|09:40pm] |
...this could go on all night.
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[03 Dec 2006|10:33pm] |
I'm so glad we're back together.
SECRET: I'm scared to death I'm going to lose you again.
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[03 Dec 2006|10:47pm] |
ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS HIM.
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[03 Dec 2006|11:58pm] |
i realized yesterday that im their fat friend...
its going to stop. by next semester, im going to be BEYOND skinny...
secret? im really only doing this because im tired of THEM complaining about THEIR bodies
(my 4 best friends are size zero, zero, two and four. Im an 11)
i hate doing this for other people, but i dont know of any other way to force myself into it.
i can't wait to go home.
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