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[05 Nov 2006|01:16am] |
i REALLY love my mom
more then anyone;
but lately all i've been doing is bitching at her
and i can't stop
and then i feel bad about it
but i just keep spazzing
and shooting my mouth off.
wtf is wrong with me :[
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[05 Nov 2006|12:13pm] |
My younger brother will be turning 17 in April, and he's a junior.
He's going into the airforce and since he did so well on his ASVAD test, he will be going to boot camp in June.
He's going to do his senior year in the service, and most likely be sent to Iraq.
I always thought my brother was rather annoying, I mean, he's my younger brother.
SECRET: I've never been more scared in my life, I really don't want him to go.
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[05 Nov 2006|12:32pm] |
my best friend's favorite thing is drugs. any kind
his promises mean nothing,cause he can never keep them
he's stood me up, made me cry a ridiculous amount of times & been arrested
i am so in love with him though.
no other guy comes close to him.
he will never know this.
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[05 Nov 2006|03:37pm] |
when i see happy couples
i get wickedjealous.
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[05 Nov 2006|04:39pm] |
2 days ago if I could have gotten up the strength to stop sobbing miserably and get out of fetal position on my bed, I honestly think I would have killed myself.
It was a weird feeling, I didn't think of it as selfish or anything. It was such a strange compelling need inside of me that family and friends and everything meant absolutely nothing to me.
That was without question the worst day of my entire life and for the first time in a long time I just want to sit around and wait to die.
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[05 Nov 2006|05:49pm] |
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[05 Nov 2006|07:12pm] |
i lie about this one all the time
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[05 Nov 2006|07:32pm] |
i took his virginity last night.
he was my second.
i feel kinda bad about it all.
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[05 Nov 2006|08:14pm] |
if you tell me one more fucking story about your boyfriend,
i am going to hurt you.
he somehow comes up in every conversation we have.
seriously, i don't fucking care.
go have sex with him please and leave me alone.
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[05 Nov 2006|08:24pm] |
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We finished in August. He's bringing it all back up.
I'm scared I'm going to fall for him and spend a month crying over him AGAIN.
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[05 Nov 2006|08:32pm] |
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[05 Nov 2006|09:43pm] |
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[05 Nov 2006|10:27pm] |
i miss him. :[
im going to sleep.
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[05 Nov 2006|10:34pm] |
(not actually me)
secret: i wish that i could be better than you for once.
you're better looking, smarter, friendlier, nicer, taller, thinner, better at sports,
more understanding, know how to handle stress, experienced more,
going to go farther than me in life, more involved in school, i think
my parents probably like you more.
i don't get it. how come you're so perfect?
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[05 Nov 2006|10:46pm] |
sorry, no picture.
i guess i'm new cause i've never posted before
but i've watched the community forever
i'm pregnant
and i'm schedualed for an abortion on tuesday
cause i cant have this baby.
my friend doesnt want me to and she just sent me this link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jjxiw7DLJYs
and now i cant stop crying
i dont know what im going to do
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[05 Nov 2006|11:15pm] |
all i ever think about is my next cigarette
good thing i've never tried hard drugs.
i really want to quit
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