Big Dave's Blurty

Hating it all.
I have hit a wall. Face first. And I have absolutely no desire for things to continue.

There is so much bullcrap going on... in almost every facet of my life right now... and it all is just seeming to stay around, simmer, and make my life as crappy as it possibly could be for the present time.

I don't like Racer Band anymore, I'm hating most of my classes, I'm getting crap from family about the lack of time I'm spending with them, stressed about money, physically exhausted from lack of sleep, hating working on the house, tired of being lied to by "friends," tired of drama that continues to come up that I thought had been worked out, and generally just ready for everything to go away.

I want to start this semester over. I really want to start LAST semester over... because I would changed some things... more exactly, most things, that happened. And I think I'd be a lot happier right now, and a whole heck of a lot less stressed.

Yet through it all, I'm keeping myself sane. I'm being content, looking to the GOOD things that ARE happening in my life. I'm enjoying hanging out with friends that I'd neglected for far too long, the fraternity is doing WONDERFUL, Campus Lights is starting to take shape, and I'm making some new friends that I think I'm really going to enjoy being around. My spiritual life continues to grow, and with everything that's been happening lately, that's a true blessing, as I've relied on the power of prayer more than I believe I ever have before.

So I suppose while I truly am hating a lot of the crap that's just been hurled at me all at one... I'm taking it pretty well in stride and making the best of it.

I'm not happy... but I'm not unhappy. Just content... and ready for things to move on and get better.

Oodles all around.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: 4th floor air conditioner unit