| 11:36a |
Well... I screwed up. Made a mistake, lied to Amanda, and shot myself in the face. Feel like crap, want to die, and feel simply awful for hurting when she did nothing to provoke or encourage what I did.
Why do people feel compelled to lie when they think it will make someone feel better about a situation?
Do we honestly think it's going to feel better than lying to them?
Do we seriously think it's not ever going to hurt them that we lie to them?
Do we somehow reason that sparing them a small amount of upsetness warrents being completely dishonest to them?
I don't know why I did what I did anymore. I have no clue.
I'm just sorry that I did it, especially over something so trivial.
Now I'm just left hoping that someway, somehow, I can win the trust back from the only girl I've ever been in love with.
Here's hoping.
Oodles out. |