| 10:33a |
This should really be broke into a bout four entries... but I don't want to split them up, because I'm lazy.
1) Had some bad times last week. Those of you that read this probably either know, knew, assumed, or had no idea that I broke things off with Amanda last Thursday. It took me until late Friday afternoon to reach my final decision concerning what to do with us... and it was basically a realization that I could not be happy with myself at all unless I gave me and her another chance. Because I love her too much... and even though I believe I had a derned good reason to break up (even if momentarily), I think I made a better one in deciding to try again. We're not where we were... but we're where we need to be. Which is in love. And I'll take that, right now. :)
2) Valentine's Day this year was my first ever where I wasn't single through the day. It's more fun with a Valentine. I hope all of you reading this either have or will experience it. I had a blast.
3) Ongoing drama... I think Steve and I are slowly forcing ourselves to become best friends. I look at him now, and hardly recognize him in some ways... for the better. I'm not sure what or who decided to make the changes to his life that he's made... I know of a few that might have HELPED... but I'm glad he's done them. I can look at him now, and tell anyone that he's a great guy and mean it (sorry, pal... I couldn't, when I first met you). He's still got some things to work on... but oodles all of over the place to you, bud. Oodles.
4) SLEEP. That's right. Haven't had it. Yet. Since Sunday at 8:00am. You look at the time. I want to die. I think I've had a cummulative sleep total of about 12 hours since Wednesday night... and it's ALL catching up to me RIGHT NOW. GAH!!!!! Oh, well. I'm meeting Steve shortly. Then I'm dying on the bed. Things will be much better soon.
Oodles out.
P.S. - I think I just agreed to do Racer Band next fall. Thanks, babe. :(
P.P.S. - I ACTUALLY think it might be fun this year. Seriously. We'll see. ;) |