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Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
2:35 pm	MOVING I'm moving to livejournal. For updates, go to: http://www.livejournal.com/users/bigdavemsu/ Oodles out. (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 19th, 2004
8:00 pm	FOC and FOCfest are now officially over. I feel like I haven't slept in days... but I'll sleep well tonight, I'm sure. Dr. Campoy comes tomorrow to observe me over at Benton Middle School. Woohoo! Steve's having some serious issues... but I'm trying to simply support him and only slightly nudge him in general directions. I don't want to get too involved with what I know is a very delicate situation. I trust he'll work everything out for the best, though. I spent some good time with him this past week, and I'm pretty sure he's thinking fairly well right now... except for his blatant lying about me being "off-base" on his web journal. I'm fine, pal. ;) Anyway... oodles at ya. The fraternity is going really well. We had our first smoker... had 14 guys show up, and expecting more at the second. We actually had too MANY brothers show up to help this weekend at FOC at one point... and Joel Roberts and myself are starting to work on a Jazz Festival for the spring semester sponsored by Phi Mu Alpha Gamma Delta. Good times... good things... I'm loving it. Preached twice today. Went well. Got a lot of studying in myself this last week for those sermons... which was good. My study time had gone down as of late. It was nice to get back into the swing of things as they should be. Halo action has been increased, as well, and I'm eagerly awaiting Halo 2. Gah. Anyway... hope all of you are well. Just felt like blogging. Oodles out. (Comment on this)
Friday, September 17th, 2004
2:00 am	Feeling the need to rant. So what is it about drinking alcohol that everyone is so completely obsessed with? What is so freaking awesome about the stuff that in order to have a "good time," everyone has to be intoxicated? Why is it, that when you are inviting "friends" over, you have to be somewhat sloshed in order to have a good time with them? Why is it that, when on a natural high, or things are going well, you need to celebrate by flooding your system with a despressent? Aside from my complete abhoring of drinking in general, as I believe it utterly and completely sinful in all ways, I'm against it on grounds that it doesn't DO anything positive. It takes away your reasoning ability, it takes away your ability to control your body, and it makes some people into people totally unlike themselves. Why do that? Why purposely do something that you KNOW is going to mess you up? Why drink, get drunk, and do it again when the last time you did, you can only remember waking up next to a toilet seat sitting in your own vomit and crap? Why feel the need to "fit in" or "conform" when doing so makes you so completely different from who you generally want to be? How in the world can people be disgusted by smokers and not drinkers? How in the world do you begin to justify doing something that you know is stupid from the start? How in the world do you force yourself to drink something that (from what I'm told) tastes absolutely dreadful over and over again, knowing how much damage it does to you? I don't get it. I'm happy alcohol has never touched my lips. I'm happier still that I know it never will. I wish, though, that someone could at least try to help me understand what it is that is so freaking incredible about it. Because all I ever see from it is a TON of mistakes and regrets from those that take part in it. In general news of my life, though... couldn't be better. Just with this weekend coming up, and a few conversations I noticed tonight... this has been on my mind. More lately than ever. I just don't get it all. SOMEONE enlighten me, please. I hope all of you are doing well... and are sober. ;) Oodles out. Current Mood: chipper (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 15th, 2004
9:18 am	So... the events of the week have been amazing. My car's broke - water pump went out on it. I'm driving John's car for the moment ('94 Mitsubishi 3000GT), and trying to sell it for him by parking it on the curb of Hughes Street. I think he's asking $5500 (which I think is pretty reasonable) or best offer.... so if any of you want it, lemme know. Had a date last night. Her name was Annie. Got to know her a lot. Figure we're gonna be little more than friends, but hey - ya never know. Had a good time just sitting around talking, watching tv, etc. Said we'd have to do it again sometime when it wasn't so late that there was so little to do. Regardless, she's a nice girl and I can now say without question that I've gone out with a hottie. ;) Things are good at Murray. Classes are going well, friends are doing pretty well for the most part... fraternity is starting to really take off. I'm really happy about the efforts of some of our brothers right now. Oodles out especially right now to John Power, who withdrew from school due to health reasons - I miss you, bro. Oodles to Brant, who I'm sure is feeling the car wreck today. Oodles to Bofe, too. You know why... and I still love ya, buddy. I get to see Josh Smith this weekend (I think, maybe). He, along with quite a bit of the rest of the sourthern shore was evacuated due to Hurricane Ivan. That'll be cool. I'm getting better at Halo, thanks to continued coaching from Steve. Though his constant requests for me to skip class to play are not welcomed, the instruction and good times are. Oodles at ya, buddy. All things considered... I'm doing pretty freaking nice. Hope you all can say the same. Oodles out. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, September 10th, 2004
11:58 am	No, Steve. No. So here I sit, waiting for my Jazz Appreciation class to begin... which I have YET to go to... since SCHOOL began. They DO take attendance... 10 times. At random times. And it accounts for 25% of the grade for the class. And as I have made the decision to go, and have informed my classmates, Jason Schwenker, Chuck Reed, and James Amundson to expect me........ Steve Stone sits next to me BEGGING me to back to his room and play Halo. Now this is where I call this into question. Becuase we've been having some mad Halo action lately. To this I'll easily admit. However, I also realize that when Halo 2 comes out, I will more than likely be skipping class to play it. So it doesn't make much sense to do this now. However, STEVE seems to think that Halo should come before school. One would have thought PERHAPS last fall would've taught him otherwise. *deep sigh* Sorry, Steve. I'm going to class. Oodles, buddy. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
10:06 pm	Getting caught up. Everything in my life is finally starting to catch back up with me. It's been a whirlwind of excitement. But I'm enjoying classes, finally caught up on homework, and officially enrolled as of about 3:55 this afternoon (made the first of several payments over at Spark's Hall). Beth is still pretty sick after having surgery this past week. She's kind of weak, and lost 7 pints of blood afterward, but they've got her on meds and good stuff to make her feel better. Mom's staying with her in the meantime. Shout out to all my buddies... especially some of my newly made ones. And a big one to Steve Stone, who found out today that he can stay in school. I told you, dude. Seriously... one of these days, you're going to start listening to me... Anyway... I hope all of you are having truly blissful days. Oodles all around. Dave Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 4th, 2004
5:22 pm	Had a lot going on lately... but I think this pretty much is how I'm feeling. Thanks, Travis. You da man. "It's A Great Day To Be Alive" I got rice cooking in the microwave Got a three day beard I don't plan to shave And it's a goofy thing but I just gotta say Hey, I'm doing alright Yeah I think I'll make me some homemade soup Feelin' pretty good and that's the truth It's neither drink nor drug induced No, I'm just doin' alright And it's a great day to be alive I know the sun's still shinin' when I close my eyes There's some hard times in the neighborhood But why can't every day be just this good? It's been fifteen years since I left home Said good luck to every seed I'd sown Give it my best and then I left it alone Oh I hope they're doin' alright Now I look in the mirror and what do I see? A lone wolf there starin' back at me Long in the tooth but harmless as can be Lord, I guess he's doin' alright And it's a great day to be alive I know the sun's still shinin' when I close my eyes There's some hard times in the neighborhood But why can't every day be just this good? Sometimes its lonely Sometimes its only me and The shadows that fill this room Sometimes I'm fallin', desperately callin' Howlin' at the moon Well I might go get me a new tatoo or Take my old Harley for a three day cruise Might even grow me a fu man chu And it's a great day to be alive I know the sun's still shinin' when I close my eyes There's some hard times in the neighborhood But why can't every day be just this good? And it's a great day to be alive I know the sun's still shinin' when I close my eyes There's some hard times in the neighborhood But why can't every day be just this good? Current Mood: peaceful Current Music: Travis Tritt - words above... music in the studio. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 1st, 2004
2:57 pm	What hurts most about doing what you feel is the right thing sometimes is that you often hurt people you don't want to. And though you now it's right for you, it hurts those you care about. Which hardly makes you feel like you're doing what's right. I'm sorry to any and all I've hurt. Truly sorry. I'm only doing what my heart and what God is telling me is the right thing for me. Oodles out. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
2:04 pm	Hating it all. I have hit a wall. Face first. And I have absolutely no desire for things to continue. There is so much bullcrap going on... in almost every facet of my life right now... and it all is just seeming to stay around, simmer, and make my life as crappy as it possibly could be for the present time. I don't like Racer Band anymore, I'm hating most of my classes, I'm getting crap from family about the lack of time I'm spending with them, stressed about money, physically exhausted from lack of sleep, hating working on the house, tired of being lied to by "friends," tired of drama that continues to come up that I thought had been worked out, and generally just ready for everything to go away. I want to start this semester over. I really want to start LAST semester over... because I would changed some things... more exactly, most things, that happened. And I think I'd be a lot happier right now, and a whole heck of a lot less stressed. Yet through it all, I'm keeping myself sane. I'm being content, looking to the GOOD things that ARE happening in my life. I'm enjoying hanging out with friends that I'd neglected for far too long, the fraternity is doing WONDERFUL, Campus Lights is starting to take shape, and I'm making some new friends that I think I'm really going to enjoy being around. My spiritual life continues to grow, and with everything that's been happening lately, that's a true blessing, as I've relied on the power of prayer more than I believe I ever have before. So I suppose while I truly am hating a lot of the crap that's just been hurled at me all at one... I'm taking it pretty well in stride and making the best of it. I'm not happy... but I'm not unhappy. Just content... and ready for things to move on and get better. Oodles all around. Current Mood: blah Current Music: 4th floor air conditioner unit (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 31st, 2004
10:10 am	If you're happy, and you know it clap your hands *silence* Oodles out. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 30th, 2004
4:18 pm	Lots of good times lately. Fraternity meeting last night was only 45 minutes. Awfully happy about that one. Got a lot done. Steve and I had the first official Huddle House run of the semester last night. Mike happened to join us, and I had more fun hanging out with him than I've had with him in quite some time. We sat there until nearly two o'clock, which I felt hardcore this morning. But it was worth it. Good times. Went most the day without my cell phone. Obviously, I had left it in Steve and Mark's room. I just retrieved it moments ago, as Mark had found it lodged in the recliner. Things are good. Classes are rockin. I'm having a blast. And I think I'm gonna do Jazz Band I again. HAW. Oodles out. Current Mood: okay Current Music: "How am I doin'?" - Dierks Bentley (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
11:27 am	Woohoo! Racer Band Camp is over. I had fun, reached my burnout state, and then got really amped about it all over again. I think we're gonna have a good year. The baritones are freakishly loud, and the band sounds absolutely GREAT. We freaking rock. Had a little drama happen... I think it's sorted out now. Enjoying being single for a change. I thought I hated it, but I kind of enjoy the time off from dating at the moment. I need to sort of clear my head, realize what type of girl I really want to be with, and then start back in the right frame of mind. I figure that's still quite a ways off... but I think I'm beginning already to feel a lot better about some choices that I've made as of late. School starts today. Yeehaw. I'm taking a bunch of classes over, and a few that I had left to take... might even take a grad class or two. But I'm basically just going to lay back and relax and have a good time this semester. I think I'm due one of those. Anyway... that's about all that's going on. Working on the house, moved in to Hughes Street, and glad to be back in Murray for the time being. Hope everyone is doing well. Oodles of lovin' at all of ya. Oodles out. Current Mood: refreshed Current Music: Bandstand Boogie on www.racerband.com (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 31st, 2004
1:11 pm	Two weeks of band camp down, one week to go. Lone Oak's looking pretty decent. Good luck, kids. Cried a lot. Realized these kids were the ones that I started on low brass instruments when they were just sixth graders. I did really well until some of them came up, hugged me, and started crying. It was rough, but I was proud of the effect I've apparently had on them. Things are good. Reidland's band camp is this week. Looking forward to it. School starts up in a few weeks. It'll be good to be back in Murray for a while. Steve called - he's coming back. I've got to do some calling myself and get in touch with some friends that I haven't really heard from or spoken with much since school got out. Hope you're all doing well. Things on my end are going better than I deserve them to be. Oodles out. Dave Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: none (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 15th, 2004
4:01 pm	Well, crap. I shot a freaking nail through my left middle finger yesterday with the nail gun. Hurts like a mothercuss, and it made me have to go get an impromtu tetanus shot at Primecare. But I'm better today. Things are otherwise wonderful. I'm feeling about as good as I have in the last month or two. And all the bad stuff that's happened is beginning to seem either not-so-bad, or at least making good sense for happening the way it did. Anyway... not a lot else to say, I don't guess. Hope all is well with all of you. Oodles out. (Comment on this)
Monday, July 12th, 2004
3:05 pm	Sorry for the downtime. Lots of things have happened. Hardly any of them good. But I'm trying to go on, anyway. I got to a point just a few short weeks ago where it was obvious that things couldn't possibly get worse. And I was right. They've slowly started to get SOME better. Not much... but it's a work in progress. Anything good that happened to me over the last year pretty much is no longer around, and I'm making due with what I HAVE been blessed with. Over that last couple of weeks, I've began to REALLY work on studying the Bible... something that I've done in the past, but not to the degree that I'm doing now. It's really the biggest comfort when things look down for you. And I'm really feeling about as firm in my faith as I ever have, and can't wait to learn more from it. I'm not trying to convert anyone or anything... just trying to strengthen my OWN faith right now. And it's working wonders. I can't say much for what is new in my life. The house continues to take shape, and we've received several encouraging comments concerning its progress. I look forward to it being a pretty good summer job from here on out until I can't work anymore. It's been a lot of fun. Family's doing good. Jessica and John's little baby girl is expected something within the next few weeks. That will be a very wonderful time for our family. Reagan Elise should be born on August 2nd, so they say. I can't wait to be an uncle to yet another little angel. I HAVE been getting to spend a great deal of time with some friends, lately. Autumn, Callie, Steve, and all my bro's in the fraternity - thanks, guys. You all have helped me out the last few weeks more than you know. I love my family, but I'm not sure I would be anywhere close to as happy as I am now had it not been for your recent friendship and willingness to talk. Thanks. Guess that's it. Oodles all around, ya'll. Can't wait to see all of you again in the fall (the Murray crew, that is). Oodles out. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 18th, 2004
4:13 pm	Things are much better, now. I'm working for my brother-in-law, building a house in Hardin. I'm getting fit, tan, and really tired every day... but I love it. Amanda and I are back together, and doing better. That alone keeps my spirits high. Family's good. Mom and Dad just got in from Washington State - Dad had to go there for work. Everyone else is doing good. Peyton turned seven, John and Jessica are due August 2nd with Reagan Elise Carmichael, and both sisters are doing just swell. Not a lot else going on. Been studying and reading a lot more lately. Nice to see I'm getting SOME things accomplished this summer. Hope all of you are having great days. Oodles out. Current Mood: tired Current Music: the dull stirring of Amanda's PC fan (Comment on this)
Friday, May 28th, 2004
8:16 pm	Well... here's a host of updates: School's over, and I'm happy to have the summer free. Unhappily, I'm not finding ANY employment. So it looks like I'm going to be helping Jason (my brother-in-law) build a house. This, I'm sure, will end up being okay because it will 1) allow the summer to pass quickly, 2) provide SOME source of income, and 3) hopefully help me in a pursuit to "tone up" a bit. I'm about tired of being out of shape. Family life has improved drastically. Things seem to be going very well there, with the exception that everyone seems to have been getting sick a lot lately. Mamaw is moving out, and we're helping her with that. I think tomorrow morning will see most of that action. Tomorrow afternoon, it would appear that I'm helping Jason with the house he's starting building (the footer should be done tomorrow), and then tomorrow night, we're all (sans Beth, Chad, and kids) having a "Lord of the Rings" marathon at Ellen and Jason's house. Tons of fun there. I've started composing sermons as of late. I figure with the number of opportunities I've been having to preach, I might as well work ahead so I don't have to stress for two weeks working on a lesson. This way, I can just reach in a file cabinet and pull a "new" one out. It's really helping me keep my mind off of other worries and problems in life, and also strengthening my faith a great deal... both of which have helped me more than words can addequately express. Then there's Amanda... the girl I love, and currently can't really be with. Through a simply WONDERFUL string of events, we broke up last weekend, decided to go back out, and then broke up again the following day. Which has sent my heart shattered into a hundred directions. But I'm bringing all the pieces back in, and she's trying to sort things out for herself in the meantime. A lot happened, and a lot is on both her and my own mind. I'm confident that we will both be okay with the decision that is made... it's just rough not knowing at this point exactly what that decision will be. But as for the two of us, we ARE getting along well. I haven't really seen too many others. Autumn Pate gets back in town (Paducah) this coming week, so I'm sure I'll be seeing her often. Her living two and a half hours away at MTSU put a kink in our friendship, but we somehow survived six years. It'll be good to hang out for the summer before she leaves again for school in Louisville. Phil's wedding is rapidly approaching, so I'm trying to get all the "best man stuff" together. I figure he'll be happy with his bachelor party. I've still got to get ahold of Josh McGuire and figure out what he's thinking - Josh, if you're reading this - holler. Not a lot else going on. Missing my friends. Missing Murray life. Missing having something to do during the day. But hoping it will all be okay within the coming days and weeks and months. Oodles all around, guys. I love you all. Oodles out. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 14th, 2004
3:45 pm	Nine Months, and I Still Love Her Yep. Me and Amanda, as of today, have been with one another for nine months. Through all the problems and seemingly ignorant fights we've had, I know I wouldn't change a second of my time with her if I had to. She's meant the world to me over the past few months, and is the single reason I've maintained my sanity lately. I love you, babe. Happy 9 Month Anniversary. Oodles of lovin, straight at ya. Dave (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 11th, 2004
2:35 pm	Summer's going okay. Looks like I'll be working in Paducah, and that kind of sucks, as I won't be able to be with Amanda as much as I'd like. But we'll make it work. I won't be working most nights, so I should be able to spend time with her then... and I'll be being paid enough to where gas money shouldn't be a problem. We're coming up on nine months of being with one another this Friday. It's been the best nine months of my life, in terms of relationships. I love you, babe. School's done for a while. I'd check my grades, but it seems that I owe Sparks Hall some money. So I guess I had best go take care of that before I get purged from next semester. Not a lot else going on. Staying at home the last few weeks has reminded me why I enjoyed living in Murray (away from the parents) so much the last few years. But I'll make it. :) Hope anyone that reads this is having a good summer so far. Take care, guys. Oodles out. Current Mood: okay Current Music: The fan of Amanda's computer. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 4th, 2004
11:05 pm	Finals Week. Yay. I have one final. One. And it'll be over after tomorrow. Moving into Hughes Street sometime soon. Loving Amanda more every day. Drama's ended. Life's good. I'm a happy guy. Oodles out. (2 Comments |Comment on this)