| 6:32a |
Regrets & LOTR
I can't remember the first dream I had - only fragments of it. I remember that it was about him, Spoon. He'd come to me and I'd treated him complete disgain - really horribly. He went away thinking I truly hated him and then my heart broke with realizing he believed that and would probably never try to bother me again. I thought of never seeing him again and I couldn't stand it. I was running - running and trying to find him to tell him that I was awful and I didn't mean the way I acted, that I did love him, I would always love him as my dearest friend and first love and I didn't want him to be sad and go away forever.
This coincides with the dream I had the week of his birthday (the 11th) where I was in car and passed him hitchhiking on the Interstate. Whoever I was with wouldn't stop and I saw Spoon recognize my car and look so dejected. I got away about two hours later and drove back out to that stretch of Interstate, but I couldn't find him. I was so upset - had someone picked him up, had he just left? He had needed me and I'd let him down and I was just crying and crying.
My last dream was about the elves of LOTR. I can't remember exactly what all was going on, but I remember a marriage, and everyone growing older as humans do because of some curse. Then the alarm went off.
Current Mood: sad |