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Blue Moon Dreams
Full Moon/Blue Moon
Last night was the first time this has ever happened to me. I had tossed and turned all night, and ended up falling asleep around 3:00 am (exactly) finally. I am not sure if it was the weirdness I'd been feeling all night due to the Blue Full Moon, the ‘Witching Hour" of 3AM - or both. If I fall asleep at 3 AM, I always go into really creepy, trippy astrals. I went into this strange astral, though I was conscious dreaming, it was more of a dream. I was with Amber and we went and woke Johnnie up. It was like we were children again. We were going to sit down and try to do something - unsure what it was, it was some type of spiritual thing - we had tried before but it hadn't worked. It was strange yet so real. We were looking up at the Moon, commenting on it being the Blue Moon, and then it sort of melted away and all the clouds started turning into shapes and actual pictures. Amber and I were watching this. All of a sudden, I was closer to consciousness and realized I was astraling. Instead of being able to calm myself, and take control of it as I've been doing - I freaked out I heard (and saw in my mind's eye - not in my vision) the glass sliding door at Pa's being opened. I needed to wake up and I started freaking out. I could see Gillian on me and see Baret next to me and kept crying out and trying to move - but of course my body was not moving. I suddenly and very abruptly came slamming back into my body and into waking consciousness. This happened so abruptly that I literally gasped out loud as if I were just coming up from underwater and had been needing air. It was so loud it woke up Baret, who thankfully started shaking me awake because I kept slipping right back in. I gasped again, not as loud, and the third time came out of it enough to turn myself over and into Baret's arms. I immediately started shaking - sobbing and laughing at the same time. It was an enormous wave of emotion. I think the combination of the Blue Moon (even though it was the day after the Moon, this 3 am would have officially been Dec. 1), about to start my monthly cycle, and the Witching Hour that caused this coming back into my body as if I had stopped breathing. I was very shaken after this.
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