| 12:58p |
Sadness
Last nite, I dreamt many dreams. I woke up several times and kept going back into these weird dreams, and Spoon was in every one of them. In the first, we met up somewhere...neither here nor there...and had such a great time together, the 2nd I was staying at some haunted house/hotel on a business trip to Shreveport..it was weird, lots more to it that I can't remember.....and I had to watch him picking up on all these other women...he brought two women home at once, and I watched him undress them and start to have sex with them while I hurried and got ready for work at the Shreveport office (I was still on business)...at first it bothered me, but then I realized it didn't....I didn't care...the last dream or part of...I remember that I finally wanted to have sex with him, but as usual once I start getting horny, his horniness has worn off and he wanted nothing to do with me in a sexual sense and kept telling me no..I remembered that I'd thought I should wait and not have sex with him when I see him again, b/c once he gets that he completely changes in his attitude to me....like he' s got what he wants...I also dreamt somewhere in there that where ever he was he was dead, he died, and I had to let that absorb and it hurt...I felt that lost feeling I always thought I'd feel if he died...where do I go now? I always knew my heart could go and find and reside in spoon and now he was gone..he was living far away, and I heard of his death, I was so destroyed I couldn't even cry...just a lost, sad, broken feeling inside..
Current Mood: sad |
| 1:05p |
A Surprise Meeting
These are actually the conglomerate of dreams I had over the weekend. Friday night I dreamt of Spoon. I wish I had written these down when I remembered them more vividly. I had just moved into my new place, but it wasn't my Tula St. aptmt. It was in a big city, like Chicago or New York. Some friends and I were returning, walking, to my place and this person standing in front of the building catches my eye. I lock eyes with him, and immediately I know those eyes! It's Spoon. I run up to him, throwing my arms around him, and bury my face in his chest. I was so happy to see him and he was obviously very happy at my response to his surprise visit. I showed him the apartment, which was pretty big and I remember we made out for a bit.
Current Mood: excited |