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The Ex and the Ever-Flowing Snot
I believe the first of these dreams happened on Friday night, June 8th. I dreamt many dreams, but only one stood out and was able to be recalled. Shawna & I went to New Orleans. We sat at a bar in the Quarter with open doors that looked across the street to another bar that was all open. I remember getting excited when I realized it was a bar that Spoon worked at, and I wondered if he'd be working that particular evening. Shawna and I ordered our drinks, and as I watched, I Spoon coming into work. I tried to hide by leaning back in my chair b/c I didn't want him to see me until I walked over there and surprised him. But, as I thought this, he looked up and caught my eyes. His face did that surprised-look.."oh, hey it's you!" and he smiled. I began drinking. I remember I didn't yet want to go over b/c I was having this problem with non-stop snot flowing from my nose. It was embarrassing and horrifying! I kept wiping my nose, but it wouldn't stop. People kept trying to talk to me, but I kept shooing them away, concentrating only on wiping at my nose and hiding from his view. I ended up getting smashed drunk. The next thing I remember, I was waking up in the passenger side of Shawna's vehicle (which happened to a sport utility...probably Ford Explorer) and not remembering leaving or getting in the car. We were almost home, and I was devastated to realize I'd left without going to tell Spoon hello and chat with him. I started crying and couldn't stop. Shawna said we were too close to home to turn back now, and she was tired. It was daylight. I just kept crying and crying...worried that he would think I didn't want to go over and say hello to him. The dream changed when we arrived at my family's house (who were black) and I believe the father was murdered.
Last night's dream - I can only remember a small piece of. We, Spoon and I, were somewhere, around my family or friends, and ended up in a room alone and kept kissing and making out. It is possible that this dream actually occurred on the 8th and the first one on the 7th, but with each passing day I remember less of them...their time of occurrence and factual happenings.
Ed's note on 10 July 2001...don't know if I noticed it back then, but this dream happened around what would've been our 5th year anniversary
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