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A Hidden Message?
Full Moon in Scorpio
Stress about finding my new apartment yesterday led to some disturbing dreams. I dreamt this dream that I was with Spoon for 2 or 3 days. We were having a wonderful time together, as we do in dreams. I went somewhere on the 4th day, and he was to come and meet me later. Shawna showed up with no Spoon. I immediately felt the old panic come back. ‘Where is he?' I asked. She told me he'd met up with some people and went off with them. He told her to tell me he'd get in touch with me later. He called, finally. I was sick with worry and aggravation as in the old days. I begged him to come back, that I missed him and had been enjoying spending time with him. Finally, he consented. ‘I'll come back,' he said. He told me if I came to get him, he'd come back with me. I was freaking out b/c I could find no way to go and get him! It was too late (2 or 3 in the AM at this point) to call Patrick or Mom. He told me he was in Crowley, LA. I couldn't figure out where that was or what big city it was next to. Hammond? Slidell? Finally, Brandon told me if I could find out where Crowley was, he'd bring me to pick Spoon up. But I couldn't! I even got online and looked at Yahoo! Maps, but Crowley seemed not to exist, though I knew and know that it does. I woke up with that panicked and sad feeling I used to get when he'd pull such stunts. Have the thought that I should actually look up Baton Rouge to Crowley on Yahoo! Maps and see the distance...something relevant will be there whether in distance or something else.
Ed's note on 10 July 2001...I have somewhere, on some disk, where the next day I saw Crowley come up on a boiler inspection at work, and it was right next to Rayne, my co-worker told me..she said she was from Rayne..our dog's name. And the name of facility was The Smoker's Place or something like that. Relevant it seemed. Try and find the disk. 7:48 PM
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