| 9:45a |
On the Run
After going back to sleep around 3 a.m., I had the most unique yet "real-like" dream. I dreamt Mom and I ended up in Florida (but it was sort of more like Cali). Lauren lived there with the kids in this cool apartment. We hung out, and Mom came back home. I was going to stay the night with Lauren, and help her move back to Louisiana the next day. It was so peaceful and wonderful in this place, that I didn't want to leave. I never saw the kids, but I knew they were around (they were older, in their early teens..Kayla had dyed her hair brown). There ends up being a party at her apartment and all these people come, including Lauren's boyfriend (some guy I didn't know that she'd met in Florida). He was hitting on other women, and then started trying to mess with me. I told him no way, but Lauren said it was okay, she liked him to do that. Then, the cops showed up outside. There were lots of drugs at this party (Lauren's boyfriend apparently was a big drug dealer). I remember Spoon had showed up at some point, and I ran around frantically looking for him as we snuck out. Everyone was getting busted outside, and people were running around the house dumping drugs in toilets and out windows. We went outside, and had to sit down like we were in an auditorium. I looked over and saw an image to my right, of something from my past. It was Spoon and I from years ago, when we'd been together. I couldn't comprehend what I was seeing, but something or someone told me it was a "glimpse". I watched as he and I walked into this gym-type place and sat down on folding chairs. We looked cool..and freaky...very me and Spoon. My hair was long, and braid-dreaded, and pulled into a kinky ponytail..looked very cool. Spoon's hair was his usual wild, sort of long look, but not dreaded. We sat down, and the old me looked straight at the now me...we locked eyes..but she didn't see me. Spoon and I were holding hands, and talking to other people around us, but we kept glancing back at one another, and smiling, and joking. It felt so right seeing us being "us" again. Then, we got in a car and left, trying to outrun the cops. It was Lauren, the boyfriend, and me and the kids. I was so upset and kept wanting to cry..thinking of how I would lose my job, and ruin my life if we got caught. We were trying to make it back to Louisiana. We stopped, eventually, because we had to, right before we got out of Cali/Florida. It was at a mall, we split up to find bathrooms. I saw cops, and started walking the opposite way, and then I saw cops frisking Kayla & Kenneth near the bathrooms. I found Lauren right after and told her they'd gotten the kids. They got us right after. They started to read me my rights, and told me to repeat after them, and they suddenly slapped handcuffs on me, and told me I was under arrest b/c I had just admitted to being a part of it. I kept telling them I was innocent, and I was. I had no drugs at the party, but I was afraid someone had stuck something in my things that were at Lauren's apartment (my purse mainly). I wondered if Spoon had gotten away. I kept crying and crying....knowing Lauren and he were going away for a long time, the kids would be stuck in foster homes, and my life was ruined and I was innocent.
Then I woke up. It felt so realistic, sad, and scary.
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