| 9:51a |
Love & Death
The first of the dream sequence that I remember is being with Spoon. It is hard to describe, but we were at some type of school or dormitory. I would leave to do something during the days, but the evenings I came back and spent with him (or evenings to days, maybe). I never minded leaving him because I knew we'd be together again soon. We'd go shopping or just hanging out in parks (we do that a lot in my dreams of us) and that old magic was back (it always is in the dreams). I told him I feared losing his love, and he took my hand and told me that he loved me still and that he always would, no matter what. It was something along the lines of "I have always loved you, and I always will."
One day I had to drop a lot of people off at different places, including Spoon. Mom was asking me to pick up all these people and bring them places when I went to see Spoon. During this time, we learned that Pa was missing. The police came and told us he had been found dead, and that he had committed suicide. We didn't believe it, and Mom, Amb, John, and I went to the site (it was out in one of the fields on Hwy. 411) that his body had been found. It still hadn't hit me, I could not accept that he was dead. Because everything was still under investigation, we could not have a proper funeral, and I kept asking Mom what we were going to do. As I gazed upon the site where he'd been found, I became angry, hurt, and sad and the police there told us he had been kidnapped from his home, brought out here, and then murdered. I kept thinking of how scared he must have been.
I woke up then.
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