tuesday... 02/10/04
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11:03 pm
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yeah, life is going on. been looking at apartments with my 3 amigos in the rock squad...phil, delp and ghiates (sp?). things are looking good there, we just need to sign the contract. should be a hell of a time next year. also, phil and i are probably going to visit pat in florida over spring break, that is also going to be amazing. its a long drive, but hey its florida. really excited for that.
2 stupid tests tomorrow... school is gay.
watched l.a. confidential. really enjoyed it.
soulseek comes highly recommended. by me. for all your p2p file sharing needs.
as for the band... we're actually doing well, coasting on a steady twice a week practice schedule that seems to be working nicely. i need to get off my ass and write songs, however school is making me lazy. we actually have a few shows lined up in march. so yippee. we need to record soon.
current music: disciple, something corporate
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sunday... 02/08/04
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6:20 pm - dead!
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went and saw the butterfly effect with a full car of gangstas last night. but the movie...holy cow, blown away. i wanted it to never end. it was so damn good. oh we also screwed around in the mall and ate with some of steve's hos at eat n park afterwards. very enjoyable night. its funny how phil has self esteem issues and he has to put down the coolest person around him (me) in order to make himself feel higher. haha. penis.
as for the sickness, i'm totally fine right now. eerie. 2 full fledged days of nonstop torture, followed by a day of it at only half intensity... now gone without a trace. weird... ok i'm over it.
got a new haircut yesterday. its only a slight modification of what i already had, but much more versatile. it also needs to grow out a bit i think.
fidanza avoided band practice today. he's dead! dead!
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saturday... 02/07/04
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10:33 am - i'm not as stupid as i look
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i've finally put this fucking puzzle together.
it took me so long, but now that i did... its absolutely marvelous.
no more of this song lyric bullshit. fuck me for being gay for like almost a month.
here's the absolute crazy thing... i know none of you are going to believe this at all... but last night, about an hour after i finally put everything together, i was feeling a bit thirsty so i decided to get up and get a drink. when i was out in the kitchen i realized that most of my illness symptoms were hardly even there any more. i shit you not. i know they didnt just go away immediately, but its still fucking weird.
IT'S FUCKING TIME TO ROCK, BABY
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friday... 02/06/04
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11:08 pm
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you know i can't help but notice i'm having trouble forgetting you. am i missing something? because when i get home i still sit by the phone and think of all the nights we could have shared and i hope that somewhere they are still waiting for us.
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9:48 am - xsickx
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my kittie was being very sympathetic towards me this morning, it was nice. yeah i'm still pretty sick, the only thing keeping me alive is tylenol and webcomics. speaking of webcomics....recent highlights from my top 3:
children are soccer balls
girly movies
it is, actually
anyway. i think i've slept more in these 2 days than i do in a week. its crazy. oh, and speaking of sympathy (see first sentence of the post), feel free to leave me some. that would be great.
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12:06 am - bitch, i'ma kill you
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thursday... 02/05/04
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8:13 pm - i am so cold
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i was in bed from 11 pm last night until 7 pm today, periodically getting up to get a drink. i really dont remember ever feeling this bad in my life. i seriously felt like i was going to die this morning and this afternoon, i could hardly stand up. i had a temperature of 102. however i feel a tad better right now, dont know if thats because of the tylenol or what. my mom is making me chicken noodle soup right now.
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wednesday... 02/04/04
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4:31 pm - i think of you and my heart breaks open
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i am so damn sick today. it sucks. missed most of my morning classes because i couldnt get to sleep last night, and i needed it badly. so i just slept in. cancelled my lesson also, but i still have to go to my orientation to ed night class. its gay. oh and guess what else is tonight.... fucking ron jeremy, hell yes. its actually a debate with him and susan cole (now magazine) on the degradation of women in porn or something.
stupid women. all they do is think about themselves.
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monday... 02/02/04
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8:02 pm - you're fucking welcome.
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where have you gone?
how does time pass by so fast
seems like yesterday
you and i
we could relate
but you know how things change
but is it me? or is it time?
now i’m stuck looking back
on something that i’ll never have again
all this time with regret
i just lost today
worrying about yesterday
can’t live in yesterday
all this time with regret
i lost today
worrying about yesterday
i lost today
and no i’ll never forget about you
i lost today
i just came to terms that i’ve lost you
on with my life.
"all in a year", comeback kid
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saturday... 01/31/04
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2:54 pm
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Each time you turn a corner, you are right back to where you were
and your only hope is that forgetting might make a door appear.
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thursday... 01/29/04
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11:44 pm - "ALL THIS TIME WITH REGRET"
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lee on the mic.
so bury your dead didnt show up, and the other opening bands were all pretty dull. lots of assholes during suffocate faster, which i hate. however, comeback kid was well worth the price of admission. the show kept my mind off everything. hardcore music itself helps me through things. when i am down, hardcore is always there for me. i feel like the comeback kid song "all in a year" was written specifically for me. maybe i'll post the lyrics someday. if you're lucky.
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wednesday... 01/28/04
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2:58 pm - schedule of events for my therapy appointment tomorrow.
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**THURSDAY JANUARY 29th in ERIE PA**
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COMEBACK KID (Facedown Records hardcore)
EVERGREEN TERRACE (Eulogy Records hardcore)
BURY YOUR DEAD (Eulogy Records hardcore)
SUFFOCATE FASTER (Brutal hardcore from Cinnci)
ANNE-GORHA (Meadville's hardcore heros)
5 PM SHARP
10 BUCKS
Forward Hall
2502 Peach St Erie PA
miketorti@erieshows.com with questions
www.erieshows.com for directions
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tuesday... 01/27/04
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7:42 pm - i am not moving on.
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so my dad does not in fact have ms. however his headaches are still there, and they are still unexplained. he's been in a bad mood as of late. i hope he gets better.
also, my hard drive is indeed gone. i lost everything. its strange how i really dont even care that much.
if the following is going add to the stress in her life, and not help her sort her crises out, she should not read any further.
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sunday... 01/25/04
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7:40 pm - just a few drags to go
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i promise i'll start updating like a normal person soon. i apologize to everyone.
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saturday... 01/24/04
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4:42 pm - where did we go wrong
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I feel the blood rushing up
the words from you like a blow to the sternum.
I can't hold back now
my mouth is watering two fold
with the flavor of myself in the meaning.
I lost my head again.
Where did we go wrong?
My concern.
I lost my head again
but this time the apology is written across your face
with unhealed lacerations.
As I choke on the things I wish I had said
blame me and go ahead with your life
as you always did.
And force my stomach to purge the words
I might have eaten
in a victorious feat of self indulgence.
I simply lost my head again.
I lost it all when I heard your voice
in a tone like the storm that never strays.
From the sepulcher I call my mind.
Sentiments of you, they will never stray.
sentiments of you, it dies today
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thursday... 01/22/04
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6:48 pm
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and i was just informed that my dad might have multiple sclerosis. mark january 2004 as the month i wished never happened.
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4:57 pm - why can i relate to every song on this album
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I want to bring you all that is in my heart
I want to give you my everything
But I’ve failed you so many times
How can I stand here before you
When I begin to steal what only belongs to you?
I am able to bring you nothing that isn’t already yours
I am so ashamed of what I ever called my own
Take what I have, take these broken remains
What can I give you that you don’t already deserve?
You laid down your life when I refused to give mine
behind me lies another fallen soldier, as i lay dying
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tuesday... 01/20/04
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6:36 pm
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5:06 pm
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well i'm not taking this nearly as well as i thought i would.
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saturday... 01/17/04
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5:47 pm - what a waste of a day
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well not really. i just played video games basically all day. thats not totally wasting time. just sort of wasting time. we were planning on playing halo tonight, but people have other plans and the roads are bad. so it looks like i'll be doing nothing tonight. only 2 more nights left in the weekend. must. do. something.
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