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Thursday, January 29th, 2004
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10:20p - Maybe things can get better. Maybe things will get better.
Well, today I went back to school. It was two hours late though, thank goodness. My mom woke me up around 7:30ish and my room was still dark so I realized we had school. Oh well. I was bored, so I put on red lipstick and black eyeliner, because I love that look. Gwen Stefani and Marilyn Monroe looks rule.
School wasn't that interesting but we had shortened periods so that was fun. And I took a walk outside in the snow during lunch.
And during Gym, Lindsay congratulated me for putting my red lipstick on my lips instead of my eyes. But she was almost being... well, nice to me today. That was a little odd, but certainly a change for the better.
After school, I skipped the bus (if people say they skip school, isn't it possible to skip the bus?) and went to Connections. I'm quite glad I did. I love my Connections friends.
After Connections, I talked to Mel and John for a while and their friends Amber and Hannah and those were good times. John turned his skirt into shorts by ripping parts of it and deciding to sew up part of it at home. Good fun.
As soon as Mom picked me up after school, we decided to go home before heading over to my new tutor's house. On the way home, she tried convincing me that Mrs. Berenstein would be helpful and tried using analogies and crap to explain that I was a gifted student who could hone her skills, yada yada yada. It didn't help. She told me I was a "diamond in the rough", and that I was like a diamond in a mine that wasn't beautiful and cut yet, because I was gifted but not all studious and crap yet. So I said, "Thanks for saying I'm not beautiful. I love you, Mom, and you're usually a good mom, but sometimes you just suck at parenting. I mean, I always feel like a 'doll-child', like how Nora felt in A Doll's House." So we both ended up pissed and hurt. She said I was twisting her words around. No, I wasn't. You said I wasn't beautiful; I heard you loud and clear. *sigh*
We went home and I took the dog out for a walk. After I finished walking her, we put her back in her crate and drove to Mrs. Berenstein's house.
She was really kind and pretty helpful so I think I'll stick with her for a while and see if she can help me with "study skills".
After we got home again, we ate dinner, and I didn't do my homework. >XD I got online, of course. I talked to Mel for a while, and I found out she had an online journal. I read it, and that was fun.
I also talked to DJ for a bit. We got some things cleared up a bit. He said he might burn me a Brand New CD. I find that funny because Mel hates Brand New and all emo, and DJ and John love it, and I'm just like, "Well, I'll give it a listen..." Haha, I love my friends. So, things are getting better.
I have three songs stuck in my head. Two reflect how I feel, and one I just heard on the radio today. Heehee. I still have blink-182's "I Miss You" stuck in my head. Earlier this evening on the radio, I heard Weezer's "Hash Pipe", which has nothing to do with how I feel. >XD And now I have the Beatles' "Getting Better" stuck in my head. Even though things still suck, they are looking up a bit. Maybe because the worst month of my life will be gone after Saturday? Maybe.
"I’ve got to admit it’s getting better/A little better all the time" - "Getting Better", The Beatles
Perhaps.
16 days until the worst holiday ever invented
current mood:  hopeful
current music: "Getting Better", The Beatles (7 comments |comment on this)
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