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i'm in love with Jennifer Garth..completely and udderly in love with her..ive never been so much in love..and its the best feeling in the world..thank you so much for those of you who support us..and to those who dont...your negativity isnt gunna stop us from loving each other..nothing can stop that...we're away with each other for awhile..no one knows where we're at..because its not important to you..we'll be back soon
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[10 Jul 2003|01:57am] |
im leaving..im going somewhere..i dont know when ill be back but it wont be soon..y'all have a fun time you fucking crazy bunch of psychos..
-walks out of the house with his dogs following him and slams the door walking to his truck..get gets in and speed off-
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[09 Jul 2003|11:07pm] |
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-sighs- unfortunatly im back in cali..back to all the fighting..back to everyone being bitchy..but there is one good thing..back to the woman im in love with..most of y'all prolly know who she is..but if you dont then you will certainly find out soon..i know im gunna get shit from people about this..people just nto understanding..but i love her..-sighs-
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| peace out california... |
[05 Jul 2003|01:24pm] |
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-pulls out his bags and sets them on his bed and looks down at Dallas and Darla staring up at him- I know babies i know daddy's gotta go away for awhile..no worries i'll be back soon -bends down and kisses them on the head scratching them behind the ears..he walks over to the phone and dials the number for his travel agent..making arrangements for the plane tickets he hangs up and walks to the closet pulling out his clothes and throwing them on the bed..he goes into his bathroom and gets his toothbrush and shampoo and walks back out throwing them in his bag...hears the phone ring and answers it..hangs up quickly and goes over to Dallas and Darla- Lets get you packed up..your coming with me -walks into their room as they follow him tails wagging..he gets their things and folds his clothes and packs his suit case...presses the button on his answering machine recording a new message- Hey its Ashton...im going away for awhile...not sure when i'll be back..leave one here or if its a dire emergancy call my cell phone..i'll be checking my messages..peace out -lets go of the button and walks out to his truck throwing his stuff in the bed...he opens the door for the dogs and they climb in...he walks back up to the house and gets their crates and puts them in the bed..turning to the door he locks it and takes the spare key with him as well..he walks to the car shutting the passanger door and walks over to the driver side...he climbs in starting up the truck- Farewell California..i hope to see you in the distant future -he speeds off down the street to the air port-
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[03 Jul 2003|01:35am] |
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-blinks as the tears fall from his eyes- i just got off the phone with my mom..
Michael..Michael got a heart... the surgery went fine..hes recovering..god..i dont know what to say..thank you god for keeping my brother with me..thank you god..
-wipes the tear as he clicks update-
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[01 Jul 2003|09:29pm] |
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-looks around frantically after waking up from a nightmare..relizes he passed out on the couch and gets up quickly- wheres michael..-grabs his keys and runs out of the door-
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[30 Jun 2003|01:13am] |
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-walks into his room at his parents house and throws his suitcase on the floor and collapses to the bed with his tear stained face burried into the pillows...gets up and walks over to the computer and sits down in front of it..stairs at the blank screen for 10 mins before typing-
amy lost the babies..her mom pushed her down the stairs..she broke up with me..
shit happens
Michael is in really bad shape..doesnt look like the hearts gunna come through..but i just cant stop praying..ive spent more hours in that church in the past 3 days then i have my entire childhood..is that bad? Hilary has been so amazing..shes been really supportive and doing stuff for my family..i love this girl with all my heart..thank you hil..im gunna go..get something to eat and talk to my mom..havnt eaten in 2 days..i dont know when ill be home..happy birthday luca..i love y'all..please pray for michael..
-clicks update and then somberly walks down the stairs-
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[27 Jun 2003|06:42pm] |
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-grabs his plane ticket and his suitcase sighing he picks up his cell phone and calls hilary
Hil baby ill be over in about 10 mins ok so please be ready to go
-hangs up the phone and tucks it in his pocket as he grabs his car keys and pets his doggies on their heads scratching them behind the ears- Dont worry kids alyssa is gunna take good care of you...and ill be back as soon as i can -goes over to the table and begins to right a note to amy and then sets it on the counter sighing..picks up his back and goes to walk out the door..shutting and locking it behind him-
( Amy )
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[27 Jun 2003|12:51am] |
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-sighs- so my brother is in the hospital again..his new heart is starting to fail..-blinks as a tear rolls down his cheek- almost lost him once..i cant do it again...hes my brother..my twin brother..my other half..my best friend...-looks away as a steady flow of tears run down his cheek-
havnt seen amy in 2 days..im a little no im really worried...im sure shes fine tho right..
so jess and alyssa hate me..what can i do..i just..cant take anything right now..im sorry to everyone for all that ive done..i just..yea bye
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[26 Jun 2003|12:42am] |
so faith has the flu..lol thats always good..spent some more time in the hospital..neh its all good no worries
im gunna go lie down tho..i have a headache
peace to your mom
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[25 Jun 2003|12:53am] |
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got me a truck today..its pimp shit..its a black dodge 2500 with a 6 inch lift dianmond cut grill..ya know the works but anyway..i guess alyssa tried to kill herself today and it landed joe in the hospital too..crazy shit..but yea nothing really happend today..i wasnt around much..had meetings and shit and then i spent 3 hours at the dealership and then i came home and amy dragged me to the hospital -looks over at her sleeping- im gunna go sleep now..night
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| as i drift and die... |
[23 Jun 2003|05:48pm] |
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-sighs- so i got in a car accident this morning..gash above my left eye..black eye..and my slipped disk from football is hurtin me..anyways thats not important
so amy and i got in another fight..she told me she wasnt ready to have the babies..and so..because she had mentioned it to people before..i told her that she could have an abortion if she felt that it was best..even tho itd kill me inside i just wanted her to be happy ya know..and well we got in a huge fight and she thinks i dont want the babies and she thought i didnt care about her and that ripped my heart out and crushed it..how could she think that..ive done everything i can to make her know that shes loved..my put my heart out on my sleeve completely and gave it to her..and -stops and looks away- i dont know what else i can do to prove it to her that i love her..it just seems like nothing is good enough..-sighs- i dunno i think things are getting better..pray jesus they are..i needa go call some people about my car..goodnight
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[23 Jun 2003|01:30am] |
haha well lets see..called the rest of my family today to tell them the news..going back to iowa very soon so my family can meet amy..my mom said she really liked her by talking on the phone with her..so im really happy..god i have so much to do..and i need my amy..i love you baby
goodnight guys
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-tears well up in his eyes and he stares at the screen in shock-
Amy..Amy's Pregnant..I'm..-swallows hard- I'mm gunna be a daddy...i cannot believe it..i just..i dont know what to say..i dont know what to do..i just...i gotta call so many people...i..wow...
Amy: i love you more then anything..thank you for bearing my child..my child..-sigh- i love you more then life amy..and we created a child together..your my everything amy..god i love you baby...
i needa go sit down..and comprehend everything..goodnight
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[21 Jun 2003|12:19am] |
they found faith..thank god they got her away from that bitch..faithy i love ya sweetie!!
i gave her my nana's necklace..that was meant for my daughter..i love that little one as if she were my own..and i always want her to remember me..so yea..im gunna go play with the pups..night
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[20 Jun 2003|02:12am] |
today was outta control...i got amy her puppy today..her name is Darla Shes my daughter lmao and Dallas is my son..Jessi is taking one of the puppie from the litter and hilary and eliza are supposed to as well...so yea anyways lyss is in the hospital because she mixed alc with meds..thats always good..blah then ok..eliza found this little girl in the park named faith..and god i got attached to that little girl so fast..i love her like she was my own..and the fuckin psycho bitch kat comes and taked her right out of amys arms..she has that little girl tied and gagged somewhere...all i know is we gotta get her back..this is bitch is pathetic and sick and twisted and -cracks his knuckle and glares in hatred- i will get that little girl back...im gunna go to sleep with my baby..whom i asked to move in with me today..who knows soon i might be able to but out the ring
peace easy
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| i love how i can never trust anyone |
[19 Jun 2003|01:23am] |
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-hangs his head and curses under his breath-
well this went well...ok i played a joke on mandy yesterday..and i asked her to sleep with me..then i showed her the camera haha mandy its a joke..right...well someone fucking told amy i was serious and everything fucking blew up on me and all this shit is happening and i just dont know fucking what to do...everyone hates me..amy doesnt trust me..hilary is..god i dont even know about hilary...-holds my face with my hands- i dont know what to do about hilary...i want to be there for her so bad but im always so busy and it seems like i dont have time for her anymore..and i feel fucking terrible to all hell..i just dont even know...well everyone is a bunch of shit talkin back stabbers...seems like there are seldom people here i can trust which is sad...brought my doggie home today..i name him Dallas...hes like my son now..follows me every where...i can actually pick him up now..it'll be about a week and a half before he gets to big for me to hold..well im gunna go for a drive...i need to think about some stuff...amy i love you..
goodnight everyone
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| I'm guilty..and your guilty too... |
[18 Jun 2003|12:36am] |
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new lay out...like it?
k thats beside the point..ok so i didnt do much today..actually lol i guess kinda did..i got everything set up for when i bring my doggy home tomorrow..hes a 7 week old bull mastiff puppy...still havnt thought of a good good name for him..i think i'll name him Dallas..i dunno yet...anyway k so i saw amy for a little bit today..then she just took off....? allright well..? then hilary..im so worried about her..shes been sooo distant from me the past couple of weeks..like shes been acting kinda strange and not hilly..and im worried..i have no clue what it could be..none what so ever..fuck i dont even know..hilly baby..i love you sweetheart..always and forever you'll be my lil sis..nothing with change that
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