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[12 Jul 2006|12:27am] |
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i'm glad i finally got to talk to jenni. she's a great person, & yes she may have had her mishaps in the past but the past is the past & it's time for everyone to let go.
all i can do is wonder what life is going to be like now. i've pretty much given myself a clean slate, ready to move forward and meet new people - express myself openly, and not be the submissive one constantly taking shit off of everyone else. i've got strength, greater than most because i've worked for it. i've worked for every ounce of dignity i've retained & the fact remains that i'll always have a cockyness about me when it comes to it.
i guess my desire to make it clear to the world that i am never threatened overbears my desire to just be me sometimes. but i am me, because i don't want to be anyone else. i don't care anymore, and it's easier to say than do. but i can do this, for myself and for everyone else. now i can finally sit back, enjoy life, listen to the rain, smell the roses, and love it all.
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[12 Jul 2006|05:01pm] |
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killswitch engage - the element of one |
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the sound of your voice is music in my ears. the sight of your chest rising & falling, as you rest peacefully and drift away into dreamland, comforts me more than anything ever has.
i don't just want you, i need you.
i don't just love you, i'm in love with you.
i don't just care for you, i protect you.
i don't just want to hold you, i never want to let go.
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