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Thursday, July 29th, 2004

9:46 pm

Live Chat
This is a live chat. When more than one people are on this site, they can talk to each other. Just checking to see if it works. If it does, feel free to chat on it.

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9:44 pm

Live Chat
I decided to try this... It's a live chat. When more than one people are on my site, they can talk to each other and stuff... Just checking to see if it works. And if it does, feel free to use it.

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7:53 pm

Quiz Results

You Are a Feminine Beauty!

You make any guy feel like a man, simply by standing next to him

You have a classic womanly appeal - and you've got a look for every occasion

This doesn't mean that you can't kick back in (designer) jeans and sneakers

You just prefer to be girly and sweet as often as possible

What Type of Beauty Are You? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

You Are A Woman!

Congratulations, you've made it to adulthood.

You're emotionally mature, responsible, and unlikely to act out.

You accept that life is hard - and do your best to keep things upbeat.

This makes you the perfect girlfriend... or even wife!

Are You a Girl or Woman? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

You Will Be a Traditional Bride!

You're the type of girl who is feminine, old fashioned, and totally traditional.

You've been dreaming of your wedding day since you were young

And you can't wait to be a princess in your big white gown.

It's likely that you'll have a big family wedding and take your husband's name

While a huge affair will be fun, just don't go all Bridezilla about the color of your napkins!

What Kind of Bride Will You Be? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way

You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to

Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets

No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

You Are Ready to Get Married

You've done more than dream about the dress and the honeymoon

In fact, you spend a good deal of your time thinking about what makes a relationship work

And from your answers, it looks like you have the skills to say "I Do" and mean it

You've dated enough, learned your fair share, and you're ready to settle down.

Are You Ready for Marriage? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

You Don't Have a Boyfriend Because You are Too Shy

When a guy gets to know you, he finds a great catch

Problem is... you're too shy for most guys to get to know.

From meeting someone to dating, you usually have your guard up.

And while you're just holding back, it makes you seem like you've got something to hide.

Why Don't You Have a Boyfriend Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

You Should Be With a Water Sign!

Your best match is a Cancer, Scorpio, or Pisces

Why? You crave intimacy and connection in your relationship

And while most guys can't open up enough for you, a Water Sign can

Not that you're whole relationship will be soul gazing

A Water Sign matches your goofy sense of humor - and desire to help others.

What Sign Should You Date? Take This Quiz :-)>

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

Current Mood: moody
Current Music: "Desiree" by Keith Urban

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Thursday, June 3rd, 2004

11:42 pm

...
Can I tell you a secret?...

I'm a bad friend.

Current Mood: sorry
Current Music: "On The Coast of Somewhere Beautiful" by Kenny Chesney

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Tuesday, June 1st, 2004

9:30 pm

Grr.
I'm having an icky ugly day. Lounging in an oversized faded sweatshirt and eating cookie dough ice cream out of the box. Don't we all have those days? You know why we have cookie dough ice cream binges? Because of guys. Men make us miserable.

Okay, I have made a test for all my friends to take and fill out to show how well they know me. All you have to do is copy it and paste it into the comment thing and reply to it and stuff. hehe.

They start out easy.

1. What's Allison's favorite color?
2. What's Allison's middle name?
3. When was Allison born?
4. What is the name of Allison's first crush? (bonus if you know where I met him and how old I was)
5. Who was Allison's first concert?
6. What is Allison's dog's full name?
7. What name did Allison give her favorite shirt in sixth grade?
8. Who was Allison's first best friend?
9. What is Angel's full name as a bad.... dude?
10. What is Allison's favorite drink and food?
11. Who was Allison's first boyfriend?
12. What grade was Allison in when Eddie and her mother got married? (bonus if you know when they're anniversary is)
13. How many holes were there in Sky's heart?
14. What song did Allison sing at her grandfather's funeral?
15. Where was the first event Allison sang at solo?
16. What brand makes Allison's hearing aids?
17. Which ear is Allison going deaf in?
18. Who is Allison's best friend?

Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: KEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNYYYYYYYYYY

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Monday, May 10th, 2004

9:09 pm

Poor Abandoned Blurty
Okay guys, I'm going to write something here that I hope you will find to be helpful.

Secrets of Life:

1. There's nothing more beautiful than gazing into a child's innocent, promising eyes.

2. Don't waste money on a therapist because talking to a dog will provide the same satisfaction.

3. Every little girl need a field to run in.

4. Don't bother with guys, since they're all evil in the end. And don't bicker with friends over them. Because it truly isn't worth it.

5. The greatest stress reliever is to jump on your bed in your undies with a karaoke microphone (hairbrush) in one hand and sing and dance to some horrible pop song that you would never admit to knowing in real life.

6. Hugs will solve all your problems.

7. Never sacrifice your morals for something that you will regret later. You won't be sorry.

8. All you need is love.

9. Never underestimate the power of a good bra.

10. Cling with all your might to those you love, because, they may not be there the next day. Make sure you don't take them for granted, or you'll spend the rest of your life suffering because of it.

11. Don't Worry. Be Happy.

Some of these may seem ridiculous, but based on my short life that I've had so far, this is all you need.

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Sunday, May 2nd, 2004

12:31 am

After my Buffy watching spree...
My aunt is obsessed with Buffy, hence where I get it from. And she always relates to to real life claiming that the show really DOES have a lot to do with real life. Today we watched the "Angel" episode of the first season. (damn, fine that boy is.)

So she's talking to me saying, " See how real life this is? Most ventriliquist puppets come to life, but are really people with curses on them. And they are not evil, as most people think. And also, the guy you like, of course, is a vampire."

And suddenly a thought pops into my head. "OMIGOD! ALEX HAS FANGS!"

Current Mood: worried
Current Music: "Some People Change" by Kenny Chesney

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Friday, April 30th, 2004

7:48 pm

Just a thought...
Maybe the only reason Eddie married my mother was to get this house. He grew up poor in a tiny house with 7 siblings, and all he's wanted his whole life was a big house and yard. Seriously, you should have seen his old house. Maybe he thinks we're rich too. Yeah, sure. My grandparents were "well-off" not "rich." Whatever. He's such an asshole, I wouldn't put it past him. He seems so happy to have gotten rid of my grandfather. Maybe it was his plan to kill him and stick him in a shitty nursing home. You should see him on the tractor, like he's won some competition and it's all HIS now. And the way he shows off "his" house. OH, FUCK HIM!!!! I'm sick of being around these fucking people.

Okay, maybe I'm a bit bitter, but I have every right to be.

Current Mood: infuriated
Current Music: "I Always Get Lucky With You" - Kenny Chesney

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7:18 pm

Life Sucks... Tremendously
Ugh, everything seriously sucks.

I get such shit from Eddie. God, this is my fucking house too! Hell, it's more of my house than his. He never asks me if I think it's a good idea to fucking remove the carpet "to expose the finished wood flooring" underneath the fucking stairs. People can die on those stairs. And the dogs can't use them at all. He also doesn't ask me if I comfortable with absolute fucking asshole strangers walking through the office. GUESS WHAT?!?!?! I HATE ALL THE ABOVE! Can he at least replace the carpeting? No, because I have no say in anything. His exact words. Fuck them. Fuck everyone. My mother won't let us change anything or clean any crap out of this house. She wants to keep it as a shrine to my grandparents. WELL GUESS WHAT, BITCH? WHEN YOU FUCKING DIE, I'M GOING TO HAPPILY TRASH YOUR SHIT!

You know what they're doing? They're driving me away. Seriously, college is only three years away. And I plan on going to Vanderbilt, which is pretty damn far. After college, I am never coming back. I'm going to get my own cell phone and give it to select trustworthy people. And if I ever call Sky, it will be one someone else's phone. I will lose all fucking contact with them. They're all so fucking stupid. I can't stand it. I'm trapped in a fucking nightmare. They do this to me on purpose. My mother treats me like shit, hoping that I will have a low self-esteem so that way I can take care of her because I'll have a fear of the world. She also yells and screams at me until I do her work for her. HOW MUCH FUCKING WORK CAN SHE HAVE? She has no fucking job, she never cooks, never does laundry, never CLEANS, never changes out of her pajamas, never does anything. Yeah, I want to stay in this fucking town and end up like her. Bullshit. I'm getting the hell out of here. And I will never spend one minute in this house when I can drive, which is less than a year away. SO IN YOUR FACE, ASSHOLES!

I got fed up with the jackass family, so I left to Kathy, Carol, and Auntie's house. They like me there, and at least treat me like I'm human, and talk to me, which THEY don't do. I was also going to help set up for the tag sale tomorrow. Well, apparently they don't like me either. They're mad at me because my mother is such an asshole. Seriously. They got irritated by the mess the house is because my mother can't part with anything, the fucking pat rack. So I wasn't wanted there, either. Hell, what else is new? No one wants me.

Lately, I've been having a hearing change. I've been losing low frequency and becoming more sensitive to high frequency. And of course Emily MUST whistle in her fake soprano-ness. I can usually put up with it, but today I was so irritated I asked her to stop. And Emily decided to push her luck, of course. She said, "Why?" and I told her because it hurt my ears. Then she asked why again, and I explained my frequency situation. Then, being the asshole she is, she asked why again, just to get a rise out of me. I told her if she asked why again, she'd get a serious whacking. And she did. So I did. And she complained, and I got yelled at by Carol since, I'm in a crabby mood. I FUCKING WONDER WHY!

OMIGOD, I HATE PEOPLE!

Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: "I'm On Fire" by Kenny Chesney

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Thursday, April 29th, 2004

8:34 pm

Sorry, My Apologies
I'm very sorry to those without lives that check my blurty every day in hopes that I have updated. I feel I have let you down. And also, Sorry to my blurty. I neglected you. Forgive me?

Okay, one reason why I haven't updated lately is that there truly is nothing to write. Seriously. I'm sorry I'm so boring. Can't help it.

Well, I have developed an addiction to LJ icons. And I think it sucks that LiveJournal and Blurty limit you to only 3 icons. I have about 500 and I love them all. I have mean/funny ones that are awesome! I have a ton! You will see my blurty icon change quite frequently.

I feel sick. blah. Being sick sucks. Yesterday, I honestly thought I was going to die, that's how sick I felt.

I've also developed an addiction to "Buffy The Vampire Slayer." I never knew it was such a good show. I've only watched the first five episodes, and I'm already hooked. Poor Xander, he loves Buffy, but she loves that stupid Owen. And she loves Angel. Can't blame her there. So -- who's hotter, Angel or Spike? If you say Angel, ALL THE WAY! If you say Spike, you're on my hit list.

Also, Britney Spears is a fucking whore. It might sounds mean, but hell, it's fucking true. I hate her so much. Because of her, the only kinds of clothes girls can buy are whore clothes, and I don't want to show off my ass crack or boobs like some people ... (ass-crack girl... now SHE irritates me). Guys expect girls to be slutty and easy like Britney. It just sucks.

Today I had a meeting with my guidance counselor and I got my schedule. Math first thing in the morning. Two years in a row. That sucks ass. But, guess what? I'm being recommended for Honors History, although I requested academic. Should I take it on? I don't know... I'll have to think about it. It would look good on my record and stuff, but I'm not sure if I'm capable and able to have a heavier workload. It would require a ton of extra time, and I'm just not sure...

I went to Carol's after school today, hoping to watch "Buffy". I got there and Auntie wanted me to help her pick up all the sticks and branches from the yard to make it ready for mowing. I got 1.5 hours of community service for doing that. hehe. And I helped Carol with her presentation before she went to class. Carol and Kathy say that I should be teacher because I'm good with people and very smart. Don't they know I'm a horrible suck-up? No "Buffy" today. Damn. No Angel. Angel....

By the way, Holly has lyme disease. Poor baby. I hope she gets better. She was obviously sick. Poor baby. Poor naughty dog.

There's a tag sale to be ready for on Saturday. I need to compile my crap and contribute and be ready. DAMN! I've gotta get going on that. And I have a lot of crap, too.

Erin's being condescending to me and that is making me mad. I'm sick of people regarding me as stupid and worthless. People don't know who I am, they have no fucking clue. Not even my best friend. How sad.

Carol was telling me about the book, "Catcher in the Rye" and it related to me so much, how sad. Everything she said went through my head as "Omigod, that's -- me!" That's probably bad cos the kid is a jackass that gets caught up in bad things. Maybe that's why people like Erin treat me like I'm stupid -- cos I am.

Grrr. Life sucks. If I were to write an autobiography, that would be the title.

Maybe the xenophobia is getting to me. (you KNOW)

Seeyah.

"She calls me baby. she calls everybody ba-bay."
Damn John Mellencamp. I like his music. Damn. Who Knew?

For someone that has nothing to say, I sure have said a lot. Okay, Bye for real now.

Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: "Just Pretend" by Elvis Presley

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Thursday, April 22nd, 2004

3:20 pm

A shitload more of fanlistings
http://fan.undercover-freak.net/htb The "Harder To Breathe" Fanlisting
http://peach.versicle.net The Peach Colour Fanlisting
http://bodyshop.diletante.net The Body Shop Fanlisting
http://www.geocities.com/blindingly_white/erik/main.html The Official Erik von Detten Fanlisting
http://www.oh-hush.net/ds The "Don't Speak" Fanlisting
http://fan.the-good-girl.net/ashton The Ashton Kutcher Fanlisting
http://exquisite.beautifulone.net/bradpitt The Brad Pitt Fanlisting
http://jake.gerl.org The Jake Gyllenhaal Fanlisting
http://www.these-dreams.net/puma The Puma Fanlisting
http://www.happy-endings.net/aar The "Time Stands Still" Fanlisting
http://psyche.nu/drive/ The "Drive" Fanlisting
http://justcarmen.com/itsmylife The "It's My Life" Fanlisting
http://fan.whispered-tears.net/william The Prince William Fanlisting
http://fans.seventh-sin.org/blueberry The Blueberry Fanlisting

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Monday, April 19th, 2004

4:47 pm

Funny how the only thing I feel like saying is "blah"
Today was supposed to be my appt. for my depression/sleeping problem. What bullshit. I refused to go. *stupid people* Why can't my mother realize that in our household, it's always better to be alseep than knee-deep in shit and awake?

You know how I avoided the appt.? I slept. Or at least pretended to. Which only furthered their beliefs that I have a seriously sleeping problem. They are so stupid, I almost want to laugh in their faces. *almost*

Looking at recent picture of Lisa, I think she had botox. Her face looks very stiff and weird. Doesn't she know she's pretty without it? She's one of those lucky people with pretty parents. Damn her.

My brother came in. Aw, he's so cute. I love him so much.

Kathy, since I am not in Florida with all my friends, is inviting me to "go to Florida" with her. That means she wants me to come down to her house and watch the videotapes of when we went when I was 6 years old. Which also means I get to watch them torture me and trick me and stuff. I swear they are more like annoying big sisters than aunts.

I was in one of those moods so I wrote a song that I call a "really-need-to-get-this-crap-out-from-inside-of-me-and-i-don't-care-if-it-don't-rhyme-or-sound-pretty" song. I'm too lazy to think of a title.

Here ya go:
how can one hate
the one they love
just for not caring
or knowing you're alive
the way you can hate
yourself for their lack of attention
and disrespect yourself
just so they can see you
how can i hate you
when you don't know me
nor do i know you?

Ah, it's a piece of crap. But I felt you were worthy enough to read it.
(Yes, that was a diss)

Sorry. (hehe). "Seeyah layer Awigayers. In a why crododyles."
In case you did not know, That is Sky-Speak.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: "Live Those Songs" by Kenny Chesney

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Sunday, April 18th, 2004

6:47 pm

ugh... (again)
I spent all day at church. I went to 11:00 mass, then at 1:00 I went to Father Ted's 75th birthday party for community service hours. 75 is a shitty number.

I am so out-of-my-mind bored. I have nothing to do.

blah.

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: LeAnn Rimes (again)

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Saturday, April 17th, 2004

9:56 pm

Realization
Okay, I figured out what's wrong with me. (stop snickering)

I have to stop idolizing the guys I like, because then they become unapproachable and therefore beyond human in my mind. Hence what has happened with me liking Alex. I can't ever be his friend. Hell, I can't even have a normal conversation with him. But I can idolize him. Doing that shit SUCKS! Stupid Allison. *slaps across face*

I did that last year, but the guy I liked was the biggest asshole yet. And he proved not to be idolization-worthy. In fact, I hate him now. It took me over a year to figure that out. Stupid Allison. *slaps across face*

Right now I'm listening to LeAnn Rimes, because I figure that if I can sing like her, I might have an ounce of talent. Not working. I suck. I can't sing. What the hell am I doing? Who am I fooling, I have absolutely no talent. WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING IN VOCAL CLASS AMONG THE MOST TALENTED PEOPLE IN MY SCHOOL?????!!!!

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: LeAnn Rimes

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4:16 pm

I've basically wasted my first day of Spring Break...
Well, I woke up at noon. I had "breakfast" at 1 p.m. which consisted of two pancakes grossly drowned in syrup. Where is my doggie when I need her? lol.

I took a bubble bath for the first time in what seems like forever. I went in at 1:30 and I got out at 3:30, just in time for my aunt to tell me it was time to go to church... oops.

Nothing too fascinating. I found some cute 101 Dalmation "tattoo" bandaids, so I have them all over my arms. Sky has one too, but he really does have a boo-boo from falling on the porch.

I'm trying to write a song about an occurrence that happened yesterday. I think it's a piece of shit, but I think that about most of the songs I write.

Speaking of shit, this room smells like cat shit. Eddie must be moving some crap from the old house in here. Eddie and my mother are so filthy and gross, it must be illegal to make us live in such a shithole.

Oh well. Seeyah.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: "Hands Down" by Dashboard Confessional

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Friday, April 16th, 2004

11:23 pm

Wahhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Well, everybody left today. Damn. Everybody I know went to Florida without me. And don't think I didn't try to go with them. I did.

And to those of you that abandoned me, I'd like to point out that it was over 90 degrees today. Seriously. I was dying, cos I had on a dark blue shirt and jeans, and the walk home has never seemed so looong. I hope it rains in Florida. (hehe, I'm kidding. I hope you're having a great time... without me)

It was yet another day in the boyfriend epidemic. Ugh. Why can't I have a boyfriend, too? I understand if no one likes me and I'm ugly and stuff, but it's not fair. =(. I can't help it if I got the fugly genes.

I'm already bored. My mother booked an appointment for me at the doctor's because I "sleep too much" and apparently "depressed". Maybe she thinks she's being a good mother by suddenly being attentive. Ah, she's full of bullshit.

I wish Alex cared. I wish someone cared. All I've got is Sky, and I think I'm asking too much of a baby. But Sky doesn't like me for some reason. He likes his crappy parents better. (bad judgement on his part)

And if that weren't bad enough, I got in a fight with kiwi. I know you all are wondering how that can be possible, but don't underestimate me.

Seeyah.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: "Behind Blue Eyes" by Limp Bizkit

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Thursday, April 15th, 2004

6:08 pm

Damn
All my friends are leaving me and going on the Band/Camerata fieldtrip tomorrow. I'm gonna be all alone over spring break. Damn.

Now that everybody is going to be gone, I have nothing to do. I think I should see if I can sleep for a whole week straight. I'll warn my family so they won't bother me. If I do that, I just know the won't be able to resist the tempation of irritating me. And I guess I'll eat a lot so that way I won't starve. But what will happen if I have to go to the bathroom? Ugh, I give up.

The Croatian kid is cute. yeah. But he doesn't like me. Oh well.

What am I going to do without vocal? and Alex, I mean, who else am I gonna write about for songs so that way I can hurry up and make my volume 2?

Who should I ask to the semi-formal? I like two new guys, but one of them is out of my league, and the other might have a girlfriend. It would be embarassing to ask him out if he did. The whole thing could be embarassing.
Damn.

Why do I have to be a boyfriendless loser? Life sucks.

Seeyah.

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: "Are You Lonesome Tonight" - Elvis Presley. yes I am, Elvis.

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