| My new addiction |
[21 Nov 2003|10:31pm] |
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Stone Temple Pilots |
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Is chocolate covered coffee beans. Wooeee! Yummy goodness :p. Got groceries today, we was needing it lol.
Talked to Mom on Nut's AIM yesterday, it seems she has Barrett's Esophagus, and extensive damage to her esophagus. She'll have to take medication for the rest of her life, and have a damn endoscopy every year. Total bummer. She's on nexium right now and she isn't hurting at the moment, so that's good.
You know, sometimes I just don't know how to feel about things. Last weekend Nut stayed with me, and when I brought her here that Friday there was a message on the answering machine from someone I did not in my wildest dreams expect. It was someone once close to Joey and who screwed us royally years ago, pitiful and looking for a friend.
I wasn't happy. Ok, I was enraged. But should I really hate this person anymore? It's been the better part of a decade now, she has a kid and lost loved ones, and wants to make a life change. Her only friend here is Joey, she's lived in a faraway state for years. He called and talked to her. I was mad about that.
After hearing the story, I'm still not happy. I'm hoping she doesn't call here while I'm here to answer the phone, lol. I don't know what I might do. Like I said, I just don't know what to feel anymore sometimes. She even mentioned to Joe how she has few female friends--is she honestly thinking I want to be her friend? Could I be her friend? Do people really change, get better, grow up? Could I fucking trust someone like that again?
Sigh. Ima go get drunk now lol.
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