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I Hate Everything [10 May 2004|11:54am]
[ mood | crushed ]
[ music | The Clash - Anarchy In The USA ]

Don't even think of making me change my mind

1 Someone Just For Me| Let Me Be With You

GUESS WHAT [12 Mar 2004|10:02pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | DSVCDVFBB - Me It's a GOOD SONG ]

I LIED

NEW BLURTY AT: THEY CALL ME RUDE


HAR HAR

SEE YE THERE

1 Someone Just For Me| Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* THIS IS THE END ~*~*~* [03 Feb 2004|08:50pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Sarah Brightman - Time To Say Goodbye ]

gj: daveyshavok

add me if you want

as for this

you can consider this dead

it never existed

it was all in your mind

Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* Just Take Your Mouth Off Interrupt ~*~*~* [18 Jan 2004|10:54am]
[ mood | curious ]
[ music | Yellowcard - Empty Apartment ]

Painting Alert:

Read more... )

I think it turned out good

You may not be able to see the words because it's so small
but it says " Summer I painted a scene that lit the stars for me. Said I can erase it for you dear "

Yes AFI - Now The World roxxors my boxxors

1 Someone Just For Me| Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* You Can't Fuck With This ~*~*~* [11 Jan 2004|11:32am]
[ mood | crazy ]
[ music | 311 - Transistor ]


The black ocean is the sky above. Tiny lights bob. What star you from?


Read more... )
Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* Believe Me I'm Just As Lost As You ~*~*~* [08 Jan 2004|10:08am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | AFI - Bleed Black ]

*-. 10 Things I Hate About You .-* ( I counted 15 )...
I hate the way you talk to me.
and the way youcut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots.
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick.
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it- I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh.
Even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around.
And the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close.
Not even a little bit.
Not even at all.


Sound like ANYONE I know??

Hell yeah it does

Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* Am I The Only One? ~*~*~* [03 Jan 2004|07:15pm]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | AFI - Now The World ]



Summer, I painted a scene that lit the stars for me.
Said "I can erase it for you dear."
That summer created those words that came to life in three.
They were denied by you.
Summer I laid down below a glitter adorned night
and silently sparkled my own way.
Summer I laid down by you and shared my frail light.
You gave the dark to me.
I looked inside to find the one I sent away.
I nearly froze when I stepped inside to find the flowers turned to gray.
I closed my eyes and kissed them one last time.
I wanted this excoriation.
I thrive on this self mutilation.
Summer, a morning so pale, alone when they found me.
As I remained sleeping I heard them say
"This summer created a boy of abject misery."
He was designed by you.
So like a lost child I will hide, and like a lost lie I will find a
way to return to the one who made me.
Cover your eyes and we'll die together.
Will you cry for me? Will you cry for me, or will you die with me?
I've been a lonely one.
I've had this whole world drained from me.
Am I the only one?
I've had this world drained from me.
Summer, I painted a scene that lit the stars for me.
Said "I can erase it for you dear."
4 Someones Just For Me| Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* Say You Will Follow Me ~*~*~* [31 Dec 2003|08:22am]
[ mood | groggy ]
[ music | AFI - This Time Imperfect ]

I made a animation on animation shop:

Read more... )

I like it

I think

4 Someones Just For Me| Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* Saving ~*~*~* [29 Dec 2003|09:13pm]
[ mood | crushed ]
[ music | AFI - The Leaving Song ]

Friday nights are killing me
I fall asleep pen in hand
There's something you should know
I could have died with you
And Boston is the reason
I'm feeling so blue
Cities aren't a way to cure a disease
And I don't even know
Why you listen to me
A razor wristed kid
Looking forward to ends
If love was a bridge
You'd be the one in the fens
All the kids are fucking dead
I write with love and a gun to my head
these days aren't going to last too long..


Nothing is real
And I want you to know
That I'm not alright
When you tear open my chest
I'll try not to flinch
Won't make promises
You taught me that I'm still losing what's left out
My self esteem
And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams

The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So I'll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know
The easiest thing to fake's a feeling to fool someone else
And I've been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell



btw

Kevn likes to lead girls on


go figure...

v.v..

2 Someones Just For Me| Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* I'm Not Foolin' ~*~*~* [23 Dec 2003|03:42pm]
[ mood | determined ]
[ music | Alkaline Trio - Maybe I'll Catch Fire ]

Maybe I'll Catch Fire
Alkaline Trio

This house is full of ears but I can't talk to anyone
They've heard this one a thousand times
Most exciting thing I do - hang half way out a third floor window,
Maybe throw lit cigarettes down
And maybe I'll catch fire
Something warm to hold me
Something pure to burn away the darkness that hides inside my mind
All that evil shit's not hard to find
I guess I only claim to be nice.

This house is full of eyes but I can't look at anyone
They've seen this face a thousand times
Most relaxing thing I do - hang half way out a third floor window,
And look at rocks if I fall out
Well maybe I'll fall hard
Something tough to break me
Something sharp to rip into my insides and bleed out all that pain
Sorry I don't even know your name
I guess for me it's easy this way.

Maybe I'll catch fire
Something warm to hold me
Something pure to burn away the darkness that hides inside my mind
All that evil shit's not hard to find
I guess I only claim to be nice
Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* Patrick Moore Plays The Xylophone ~*~*~* [22 Dec 2003|03:47pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | AFI - Morning Star ]

Kevin's being really nice to me

Maybe I jumped to conclusions again


ANYWAYS
I dunno

I need to looks back at my journal and start making it cool again XD

I've had so many personal posts

Maybe too many

but if you do wanna read my personal posts and you have a deadjournal:
http://www.deadjournal.com/users/solitaryecho

You go there!

Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* I Got Your Picture ~*~*~* [21 Dec 2003|08:50pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | Jimmy Eat World - Sweetness ]

WOO
I forgot in my angst I HAVE PICTURES!!
HERE:
Read more... )

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~*~*~* The Day The Music Died ~*~*~* [21 Dec 2003|06:33pm]
[ mood | satisfied ]
[ music | AFI - Death of Seasons ]

About Kevin:
Yeah You care so much about me BULLSHIT
Choosing someone you've known over someone you just met? Yeah NICE!
Ditching people for your crush is cool. Yeah I've done it ZERO times
BTW that kthanksbye shit is fucked up
Making out with me Wenesday and then acting like you don't want me around with Kathleen around. Yeah I'm sure she wouldn't want to hear that...
Treating people who love you like shit has become fashionable I guess. MAD PROPS TO YOU
yeah and about LYING. I did that when I was COOL wait I was never cool. Oops I forgot
Talking shit abour your friends is cool too I guess. For someone who only wants 9th grade friends I guess you would want to make me hate you??
BTW My Kristen..NAHHHHH
The things that are important to me aren't important to you. and i wonder why i get upset sometimes?
BTW Getting mad at me for simple things like wanting to hang out with you? YEAH I LOVE THAT secretly





About Kathleen and Her Friend:
Yeah try to kick my ass
BTW your 14
Get mad at me for hanging around Kevin? OH OK That's mature
Moping is cool as well. I love guilt trips
AGAIN Talking about people who don't even concern you is fun. Yeah I did that in HIGH SCHOOL oh wait
your in high school. That explains alot. Too bad that doesn't get you anywhere.
I still see Kevin whether or not you know. BELIEVE me. Every Wenesday. And Kevin probably doesn't tell you about it
BTW you win
Good for you because from what I saw of you.
It's not going to last

About Myself:
WOW I just don't give a fuck

2 Someones Just For Me| Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* Kuala Lumper ~*~*~* [20 Dec 2003|09:21am]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | AFI - Silver and Cold ]

Ok Well last Wenesday I went over Kevin's house and it was weird
because he was all putting his arm around my waist and kissing my cheek etc.
and then he called me " his krissi-ten "

OK I get it?


I think last week I kept bumping into Chris
I hung out with him
and we had a talk

yeah that talk was bullshit

and then I bumped into him on Tuesday and she showed me all the e-mails girls send him


Is anyone seeing a pattern here?
because I sure as hell am


Today I'm going over Kevin's around 1

This should be interesting?

I think?

Ya

Keep it real

or fake

Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* A New Day Has Come ~*~*~* [16 Dec 2003|02:55pm]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | Celine Dion - A New Day Has Come ]

The Generic Teenager Stereotype
Do you drink [alcohol]?:Yes
Do you party a lot? How often?:nah
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?:nah
How often do you use the word like in an average hour?:sometimes when I get over carried away I can use it alot
Do you skip classes? How often?:yes, every MATH class
Do you have casual sex? Protected?:no
Do you steal?:no
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?:not to school, maybe around the house
Do you drool over celebrities?:no
Do you watch a lot of TV?:no
Do you ever watch the News?:yes sometimes
Do you even care about world issues?:no
Do you read books often?:yes
Are you failing a lot of your classes?:actually I got 3 B's and a A
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?:yes
Do you smoke cigarettes?:no
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?:yes XD 7 11's roxxor
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?:yes
Do you cuss a lot?:yes i have been known to do that
Are you desperate to fit in?:no
Are you intelligent?:yes
The Goth Stereotype
Black lipstick?:yes
Black eyeliner?:yes
Black eyeshadow?:no
Black trenchcoat?:no
Black boots?:yes
Black fishnets?:yes
Black nail polish?:yes
Cigarettes?:no
Heavy metal music?:no
Marilyn Manson?:no
Kittie?:no
Cradle of Filth?:no
Constant frown and perpetual angst?:sometimes
Do you like to be seen as:???
Are you an intellectual?:yes
An atheist?:yes
Horrible home life?:yes
Hopelessly depressed?:sometimes
Suffering with suicidal idealations?:sometimes
Self-mutilation?:no not yet
The Punk Stereotype
Plaid?:YES!!!!
Big black boots?:YES
Mohawk?:well no but mohawks are hot
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]:yes
Loud, confident and opinionated?:YES XD
Wild hair colors?:yes
NOFX?:yes
Rancid?:yes
Well versed on political scandals and outrages?:no
A:yes ? O__O
The Jock Sterotype
What's your IQ?:I have no idea
Do you watch a lot of sports?:no
Play a lot of sports?:no
Talk a lot about sports?:no
Do you do anything, really, but think about sports?:yes
Are you arrogant?:maybe a little but I try not to be
Are you a male or female whore?:female
Are you homophobic?:no
Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?:no
But really you're a quivering mass of insecurity?:yes
Boobs = yes?:well i have them sooo no
Parties = yes?:no
Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = yes?:
The Girl Stereotype
Do you spend a lot of time on your appearence?:sometimes
Have you ever been on a diet?:yes
How much did you lose?:10 pounds
Was it not so much a diet as it was an eating disorder?:It wasen't adiet but it wasen't a eating disorder. I have bad anxiety attacks and in the morning I would throw up and because I threw up I'd be really careful about eating.
Make yourself throw up?:no
Make-up?:yes
Low-cut tops?:sometimes
How big are your boobies? [Cup size]:C
Do you flip your hair when you talk, even if you don't realize it?:yes
Giggle a lot?:yes
What's the deal with boys?:umm they suck?
Thongs?:no
Pretty bras?:no and yes
YM, Teen, Cosmo, et al?:no
Who's the weaker sex?:there is no weaker sex
Are you a feminist?:no
Do you think Brad Pitt is hot?:no
How often do you shave your legs?:once a week
How about your armpits?:everyday
Are you emotional?:yes
Especially when on your period?:yes
This Or That [Oh, that old coconut.]
Originality or Acceptance?:originality
Independence or Companionship?:companionship
Stability or Freedom?:freedom
Personal or Interpersonal?:personal
Introvert or Extrovert?:introvert
Popularity or Isolation?:isolation
Unique or Loved?:loved
Understood or Individual?:understood
You or Them?:them

How Stereotypical You Are... brought to you by BZOINK!

Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* And I'd Listen To You Cry ~*~*~* [12 Dec 2003|04:11pm]
[ mood | numb ]
[ music | AFI - Silver and Cold ]

Gemini
You should be dating a Gemini
21 May - 20 June
This mate is inquisitive, entertaining and
charming, liberal, broad-minded and youthful.
Though Gemini has a tendency to be impatient,
gossipy and sometimes irritable, this twin has
the ability to expresses his or her pent up
emotions during sex!


What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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Chris is a Gemini O___O;;

Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* Sweet Tapdancing Christ ~*~*~* [09 Dec 2003|02:25pm]
[ mood | shocked ]
[ music | The Get Up Kids - I'll Catch You ]

OKAY

Well allll remember Chris riiiight?

The one that dissapeared

omfg


i just saw him

and he made me walk to his car

and we talked

and he said he's afraid of being in love but he likes me

and he said he was falling in love with me but he pushed me away because he ws afraid of being hurt

and he kissed me

and he hugged me

and he said I was beautiful

and he said we should definately hang out sometime and I should call him @_______@

and DAMN IT

I <3 HIM


I just don't want him to push me away again

I'm not the aggressive type usually

I mean I don't like chasing after guys

so if he pushes me away again I dunno


but i heaaartt him

ughhh

Now HE'S GOING to be on my mind all freaknig day

like he already wasen't

I mean I do think about him alot


and for him to just pop out of nowhere when I was walking to the library was like

fate came knocking on my door

or something O____O

IT TWAS FATE

I TELL YOU ALL!!

man I am so happy now

don't get me wrong

I still have some things to contend with but Chris made me feel soo much betterrr


@_________________________________________@

I dunno

I dunno what I want now


Should I hang out with Chris and get directions to the freaking ska show next week

He definately needs to know who No Regrets is

but seriously

Advice? pleasssee I need it x.x

2 Someones Just For Me| Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* L Is For The Way You Look At Me ~*~*~* [07 Dec 2003|11:18pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | Reel Big Fish - Take On Me ]

OMFG

I jsut got back from Kevin's house

and damn it

I got cuddled, kissed, and LOVED etc.

He told me that everytime he asked the girl out she changed the subject
so I'm hoping she KEEPS DOIN IT
because I'm hoping that maybe Kevin will get sick of asking her

I can only wish x.x

It was seriously the BEST DAY

http://www.deadjournal.com/users/solitaryecho

GO THERE TO READ ABOUT IT!

6 Someones Just For Me| Let Me Be With You

~*~*~* WTF ~*~*~* [06 Dec 2003|09:08pm]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | Mandy Moore - I Wanna Be With You ]

Ok

Kevin told me he loved me

REALLy loved me

this is seriously fucked up

I don't know what to think anymore. Everytime I think one way I'm forced to think another way.

Truthfully I was just trying to get over Kevin and move on but then he said that
AND he told me that as soon as he got into college we would be ok


but honestly WTF?

He can't not love me one day
and then love me another day

Seriously
He broke up with me
and I said fine

because I love the kid to death. He is not only or was not only my boyfriend but he was also my best friend.
I seriously believe that he's the one for me because I've never felt like this ever

and I know he feels bad about liking the other girl

and he said the reason he liked her was because she reminded him of me
because I asked him if she reminded him of me

THEN I came to the conclusion that he loves me but I can't be there for him all the time and this girl IS there for him and he's reminded of me by her BUT at the same time she's not ENTIRELY me so it's not the same

and he agreed with that

but it's like where do we go from here?
He already told me that he can't stop liking her and I don't want to force him. Forcing him most likely wouldn't work anyway but I don't want to pressure him etc. I don't want to be overprotective. I don't want him to sit at home and not go hang out with his friends because my brain forces me to think bad feelings

I don't want to make a big deal about it because I feel if I do I may make him really mad and then he'll decide to go out with her.

I mean I seriously love his kid to death. I never want to see him sad or in the state that he is now so I try and forget about us going out and I try to act like a friend to him.
but then he has to go and say he loves me...

In a way it kinda reminds me of a bible story
and I'm not religious at all

but that story about the two mothers to take the kid to the king and then kig decides to cut the baby in half but the real mother cries out and say that the other women can have her.

THAT story came to my mind
and I was just boggled

and that poem:

If you love something set it free
If it comes back it's your comes to mind to
and that's exactly what I am trying to do

and it's killing me

I would do ANYTHING for this kid and that is why I'm doing this even though it makes me sad
even though it hurts me
I'm doing this because I love him so much


ugh this is the weirdest situation I've seriously EVER been in

@_____________________@

Man I suck at life.

Anyways
http://www.deadjournal.com/users/solitaryecho

There's more of an explanation in there
Some of the stuff I wrote over in here but there's a whole lot more of how i'm feeling etc


I guess the only thing I can do is hope for the best and pray
yet again

even though I'm not religious

Christmas is coming

There should be a miracle right?

x.x

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~*~*~* Just My Luck ~*~*~* [03 Dec 2003|10:02pm]
[ mood | blank ]
[ music | AFI - This Time Imperfect ]

Ok
Well me and Kevin broke up

He broke up with me for a ninth grader

Unbelieveable

Sorry but I don't see how an 18 year old can possibly have a substaintial relationship with a 14 year old

It's gross

and it's funny Kevin always told me he thought that was gross

Then again he also told me he would never dump me
and he loved me

and stuff like that

And he still continously continues to tell me that
Like for instance

He did say that is things gowrong with her that he'll go back out with me

Ok you fucking jerk
I'll go out with you again..
Yeah i'll punch him in the face for putting me through this shit
He's going to have to ask if he wants me back...

Hence The Used lyrics

Then is said

It would be gross if I was his sister
and when I asked him why
He told me i knew why

Well obviously I don't know if i asked him?

Am I supposed to take that as he's hinting that he still loves me?

wtf??!!


AND THEN he tells me he still wants to hang out with me which is fine but he probably expects me to be MYSELF
Happy, and Obnoxious

Well I can definately say that isn't going to happen
Im most likely going to be my good old quiet self, head plastered to the ground etc.


Although he'll probably get me laughing x.x
That problem with that boy is that he always knows how to make me laugh...



and I know him like a book...

Trust me

1 year and 3 monts will do that to you.

but I'm in a bad mood regardless altohugh this adds alot to it

i'm sick
I threw up
and I'm achy

and to top it ALLL off
I have college classes tommorow that I really don't feel liek going to
and yet I am going to force myself to go
because I am a good student

ha hahahah

Let's all laugh at me now
Kristen does damages once again

Only this time I definately wasen't over-protective
and I definately did a good job

Kevin himself said he loved me and I was perfect?!!

wtf??!!

Guys make no sense
and I hate them...

if you want to read more about " how I feel "
you can check out my deadjournal
http:www.deadjournal.com/users/solitaryecho

10 Someones Just For Me| Let Me Be With You

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