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[Nov16'2008 03:42PM] |
I gained nearly 30 lbs. Just updating to say that I'm back...and I'm restricting a lot. College is killing me. Anyone have some good thinspiration sites?
Thanks girls,
Liv
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[Nov12'2008 03:25PM] |
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so, i lost 5 pounds so far.
thank you, god.
my boyfriend keeps calling me other girls names.
kill me?
if he calls me Arielle one. more. time.
i will never, ever, eat again.
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[Nov01'2008 04:56PM] |
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hey ladies
hope everyone had a slim halloween,<3
(intake)
toast: 100
1/2 turkey sandwhich: 150
dannon yogurt: 60
total: 310 c
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[Oct27'2008 11:59PM] |
ugh, fail. i've been soo hungry lately. i dont know what it is. this weekend was terrible, even with purging. i'm back up to 124lbs. so,
height: 5'7"
weight: 124
st goal: 117
lt goal: 112
:(
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[Oct27'2008 02:43PM] |
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hello everyone :]
my intake wasn't spectacular, but i think it's acceptable, only because i'm just getting into the swing of my old habits. i'd like to do a lot better.
intake:
(2) soyjoy bars: 280
(1) small deli potato salad: 250
total: 530c
i hope everyone is doing better than me :[
stay strong<3
xx
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[Oct20'2008 08:12PM] |
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today went horribly.
of course, i binged.
but i feel obligated to fast tomorrow,
and it'll work.
plus, i usually fail the first day of a big start; caving under the pressure and stuff.
tomorrow will be perfect, now that i got the binge out of the way.
i can feel it.
i hope everyone else had a fantastic day,
xx
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[Oct19'2008 07:50PM] |
cant stop binging.
ps; i have severre binge and purge.
im talking aboutt 15 000 calories maybe more?
throw up hmm..lately likee 20 times or more a day.
my life, is food oriented. there is nothing else on my mind anymore.
nothing but how to avoid food, how to get food, when to purge food.
im so scared of it, so addicted to it. i hate and love it.
my life is consumed, there is nothing else..
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[Oct19'2008 09:11AM] |
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hi everyone :] I'm Kalinne.
i'm new here, but i've known about this community for years. i've had ana & mia tendencies since i was twelve.
when i was younger my lifestyle was more ana, but as i'm getting older i'm leaning more towards mia.
my life has been falling apart the past few months, and i think if i kick myself back into shape it'll help measure everything out. i've been really lazy lately but i hope that being in a community will help. i'm always here if anyone wants to talk about their progress or anything really.
age: 16
height: 5'10"
hw (highest weight): 138
lw (lowest weight): 110
cw (current weight): 131
stgw (short term goal weight): 120
ltgw (long term goal weight): 100
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[Sep26'2008 09:35PM] |
hello loves, my name is Bailey, im new to this community so i figure i should summarize my life? aha.
Ive had an eating disorder since i was 12, i had the emotional aspect of an eating disorder since iwas 8.
Im kind of crazy.
anywy stats:
Age: 18
Height: 5'7
HW: 153
LW: 104
CW: 106
stgw: 100
ltgw: max 95
so yes.
i have anorexia with bulimic episodes.thee wonderful binge and purge syndrome..
bmi is 16 something..
anyway looking forward to this community!
bye to all!
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[Sep02'2008 01:40AM] |
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today i ate a sandwich and a pot noodle which is 886 calories. i've lost like 4 pounds in two days. need to keep it up, it's hard when the people i'm staying with love kfc and there's loads of fast food round here, and i don't even know where the supermarket is because i've never been here before. but i'm eating fruit only tomorrow!
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[Aug29'2008 01:58AM] |
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i need some advice on what i should do to strengthen my hair. i'm losing weight, but i'm also losing hair volume and i'm concerned about the amount i brush out after showering. help pleeease? what should i do?
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[Aug01'2008 06:46PM] |
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this community is so dead :( i suggest everyone go to the pro anorexia community on lj, if youre not already a member that is. :)
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[Jul15'2008 03:13PM] |
I went to an eating disorder teen support group...
i don't feel like it helped..
seeing the thin girls just made me want to strive to looose more.
ugh
i hate purging..
why can't i stop?
i'm afraid to keep going, but i'm afraid to get fat.
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[Jul14'2008 01:13AM] |
my weight gain has been so out of control lately that i'm seriously considering turning to blow to help me. i know that it's a horrible idea, but i honestly can't stop binging. and the worst part about it... i'm pretty sure my family knows, so i try to hide it by not purging right away. and by the time i acutally do get to purge, there's basically no point, because my body has absorbed all the calories.
has anyone else had these thoughts?
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[Jul07'2008 08:31PM] |
i haven't been on here in forever. how is everyone doing?
because i haven't had a successful fast in a couple of months.. i've been binging and purging 3 or 4 meals a day. i can't stop eating :\ and because of this, i weigh 130ibs now.
so, i'm in need of some inspiration.. everyone tell me how many days they have had a 0cal fast for.
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[Jul01'2008 03:34PM] |
So yea. Im here.
Long story short, I have issues.
heres my stats:
age:17
height:4"11
hw (highest weight): 200lbs
lw (lowest weight): 115lbs
cw (current weight): 130lbs
stgw (short term goal weight): 100lbs
ltgw (long term goal weight): 90lbs
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[Jun04'2008 03:09PM] |
i was so awful today and its only 3 o clock. wake and bake, peanut butter and jelly on toast and peanut butter chocolate ice cream for breakfast....purged. pizza and pulled pork sandwich...purged. went running in the forest preserves for 2 hours...came home...fried chicken and pudding, purged.
what
the
fuck
is wrong
with me, i was finally starting to see my belly flatten.
and now my throat hurts and im gonna get a headache.
i have to go to work but i seriously need to take some laxatives.
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[Jun01'2008 04:14PM] |
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i doubt any of you guys remember me but i used to post regularly about 5 or so months ago i don't know.
i gained about 12 pounds! D:
i'm sooo unhappy.
i need to get back on track.
here are my current stats.
age: 18
height: 5"4
cweight: 132 lbs
short term goal: 120 lbs
long term goal: 110-below.
i'm starting a fast tomarrow since i've already eaten lunch.
i have about 3 weeks and 2 days to lose this weight.
wish me luck.
stay strong.
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[May31'2008 02:07PM] |
I so fucked it up today
i was doing okay too
:(
hope you're all doing better
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[May29'2008 11:15AM] |
Everyone, and i mean everybpdy that i know is constantly telling that im too thin, im tiny and that i need desperatly to put on weight, but since i got really sick a couple of years ago and was diagnosed with a kidney disease right at the peak of my ana, everyone was able to blame that for my weight. now though im better and still basically the same weight, maybe 5lbs max difference.
The thing is, i can not see it at all. not the slightest bit, i look in the mirror and see someone as big, if not bigger than all of my friends, even though i wear the smallest size they sell in the common clothes shops were i am. My new friend who i believe is absolutely tiny and gorgeous gave me some clothes that she didnt wear anymore and they all fit me. And for the first time ever i looked in the mirror and actually saw that my arms were mainly bone, my ribs were visable through the top and to be totally honest, i liked it. But then a few seconds later, it was gone and i just looked my normal old disgusting self.
Its kind of made me think, maybe i am tiny and i dont need to be constantly worrying and unhappy with everything i eat. But know that will never happen cos i still look in the mirror and see fat.
Sorry its kind of long but i havent been on here in so long, since my bf knows what kinda stuffs on this site and if he ever finds it in my history its big trouble.
hieght: 5'10(ish) 178cm
cw: 103lbs
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[May16'2008 11:24AM] |
Hey,
Im sick of bullshit. Just plain over it. I mean fuck what have i ever actually done to anybody yet people are always treating me like shit and walking all over me. I just dont know what to do anymore. I cant be honest with anyone about how i feel so im back here once again.
Oh and as i was randomly abused by a girl who i thought was a friend she was like oh and and is it true you cut your foot? I mean W T F ? ! ? Its bad enough theyre spreading rumours about me but that? Every single group i pick to be my friends ends up fucked up. I think im going to give up trying to be social and just go with the flow, you know be my own person and all that shit.
My friend, well more of an aquantence hung herself a month ago and i dont really know why but i really upset me. I just guess it hit close to home ya know. And its all i can think about, i visit her bebo page everytime im online and listen to the song whe requested every single day. I just keep thinking about it more and more and more. I mean what if she made a mistake and what if there is nothing after this, just nothing. What about her baby girl. What about everything, the sky, trees, snow? I mean what if its just nothing but black? But then what if its not. There must have been a reason to want something else so bad. I mean fuck we all think about it. But i dont want to be forgotten, like what if there is NOTHING after this, and then eveything else you've done is forgotten and the only thing showing that you were ever like anything at all is a plaque in the cemetery and a body in the ground? I just cant let it go ever. My boyfriend said i was obsessed, and maybe i am but i just cant let it go. I mean her friends obviously cant live without her and she thought she had nothing going for her. I dont even have friends and im still here. Maybe someones trying to tell me something. That i should just fuck off and never come back.
Fuck im so confused and wish i just had someone to talk to and answer my questions but no im all alone with no one to save me now.
Also im flat chested as fuck, i mean i dont even need to wear a bra yet i do cos otherwise it looks like theres nothing there. I cant stand it, the one thing i completely despise about my body. Im about 105lbs and almost 6ft tall and i still think im fucking fat. well not everywhere, just concerntarted in places. I just dont know what to do to fix it. Im on the contraceptive pill and im sure thats spossed to help but its not. Im thinking maybe those pills they try and sell you over the internet. I mean if i could fix this, maybe i would feel better about myself. And i know my boyfriend notices and see him looking at other girls and i know he wishes i was like that....
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[May13'2008 07:12AM] |
ok, friday night i weighed myself, 125lbs.
I got really drunk and didn't eat anything..
I weighed myself saturday evening and 122lbs. I was SO happy.
Saturday I ate a salad a few cheese-sticks
and sunday I ate Chinese.. lots of it.
Weighed myself Sunday night. 126!!! is that even possible or is my scale fucked up?? & I didn't throw up any this weekend either.
oh and another thing. I've gained like 10 pounds since last summer but I can still fit into my tinee-tiny shorts.. I'm really curious to where all my weight is going? erm:/
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[May12'2008 12:31AM] |
i'm extremely pissed right now and need somewhere to rant.. and you guys are the only ones who i can talk to about this, so....
every time i go to "shower" (i'm actually purging before i shower) my parents or siblings are always knocking at the door, telling me to hurry it up.. even when i ask them if anyone needs the washroom before i go in. it makes me so mad. like tonight, i went in to "shower" and before i could even get in the actual shower, my sister was kocking at the door, telling me to hurry up. and on top of that, she stood outside the door until i got out. and i wasn't even done purging. ugh.
sorry about ranting.. i just had to get it off my chest.
love all you girls ♥ hope everyone is doing well :)
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