Nikki's Friends

10:42PM

only the lonely know what nights like this do to me.

7:21PM

When you hear this chorus
Do you miss the way the world was spinning for us?
Do you hurt the way that I do?

4:40PM

im sorry dear i haven't been sleeping
because when i have i woke up and thought it was winter
im sorry love for leaving you out
my head is an empty house when you're not around

im sorry dear i haven't felt much like company
but if september won't bring you to me
then i don't care

i'm sorry dear for ignoring the phone
i've got clumsy feet and clumsy toes to keep me from home

4:35PM

I miss the thrill of grammar school romances. I miss the junior prom and graduation dances, the gossip in assembly hall.
I'm homesick, that's all.
I miss the gang that hangs around at Miller's, devouring chocolate sodas, with those whipped cream fillers, the girl I promised I would call.
I'm homesick, that's all.
I miss the midnight services on Christmas Eve and the joy when Christmas morning came. I miss the scramble for the wishbone every Sunday and the big Thanksgiving football game. I miss the times I had to set the table. I miss the rolls my mother made when she was able, the fragrant bonfires in the fall.
I'm homesick, that's all.

4:32PM

Are you tired of being alone? So make it now. God, I need to build it up, tear it down. I found another way; you know how. I felt something in someone's house. If you could be anything, what do you think you'd trade for me? You make it clean. I am the living ghost of everything you needed in a hypocrisy. Just speak, because I'm fooling around with the devil and it's out. I'm tired of being alone. Yeah, I'm tired of being alone. I felt the Lord begin to peal off all my skin and I felt the wave within reveal the bigger mess that you can't fix. Well, I'll get down on my knees, just show me everything. I swear I need a home. I swear, you'll never know.

4:30PM

]: i have two tickets to Brand New at Lupo's in providence, RI if anyone wants to buy them, i'm selling for 20$ each. i'm so upset, i cant gooo.

3:21PM

Please put on that record again
and I will put on that shirt you've been
wearing around
you've been wearing around
it?s times like this I think too much
it?s times like this I think too much
oh please don't think too much
oh please don't think too much

cause I can?t let you in
cause these walls have been built
no I can?t let you in
cause these wall have been built

but you said I?m out on a ledge
come stand with me
I need the company
I need the company

My face has turned red
But it?s not from something you just said
Oh I?m blushing on the inside
It?s those damn green eyes
And panel by panel and piece by piece this all fits together but its not what you think
Oh there I go again
Oh there I go again

You said I?m out on a ledge
Come stand with me
I need the company
I need the company and
I'm trying to get you in
I'm trying to get you over and
I'm trying to get you in
I'm trying to get you over and
I'm trying to be brave
I'm trying to be brave
I'm trying to be brave
I'm trying to be brave

But you?re listing to every word I say and I?m trying not to give it away
I like to keep my cards so close
You like to keep that console on
And all my broken hearts
and all my forgettable false starts
well you can have them right now
but you better not look away
You can have 'em right now but you better not look away
this me tying to be brave
You can have 'em right now but you better not look away
this is me tyring to be brave

3:10PM - HELP!

i'm writing an argumentative research essay on the don't ask don't tell policy in the military, and i need more reasons to support its repeal. and anything you can think of to help me support my arguments that i'm trying to present.

i have a parallel of integration issues previously in the military and how they are sort of the same thing.
i'm aware that its a VOLUNTEER military but we let go of very capable service members who are WILLING to make the ultimate sacrifice.
how much money is spent for kicking out soldiers, how much we've lost resource wise (linguist, pilots, etc.)

anything is appreciated.

10:27AM

I’m sick and tried of the way that I feel.
I’m always dreaming and it’s never for real.
I’m alone with my deep thoughts.

I’m alone with my heartache and my good intentions.

I work to eat and drink, to sleep jus to live.
Feels like I’m never getting back what I give.
I got a sad song and my sweetheart.

And all I really ever need is some love and attention.

11:44AM

foolish lies well can't you see
I tried to compromise
'cause what you say ain't always true
And I can see the tears in your eyes
And what you said now
Can't stop the words from running through my head
And what I do to get through to you
But you'd only do it again

So follow the leader down
And swallow your pride and drown
When there's no place left to go
Maybe that's when you will know

3:21AM

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognise your beauty's not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart

2:48AM

She drives away she's feeling worthless
Used again, but nothing's different.
She could stay the night but knows he doesn't care.
Home by three a deafening quiet.
The porch light is off, guess they forgot it.
She'd cry herself to sleep but she don't dare.

2:39AM

I don't care what you think
as long as it's about me.

2:34AM

I know my screaming and shouting won't keep you
I know, I know, I know. You're still my love.

2:28AM

it'll be over my dead body,
so get out while you can.
cause you ain't woman enough
to take my man.

2:11AM

This is the last straw, she says.
And I won't wait for you forever
while you run around like JFK
you watched that poor girl
waste the best years of her life
I'll be damned if I am going out,
I will not go out that way.

10:41PM

Further evidence that Saves The Day is incredible...

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There's a beautiful sky tonight & if you were by my side then we could share it, but you are gone.

So come at me with your moon & burn me in the stars, 'cause nothing matters anymore.

If I could only see you now, for about an hour, maybe just a minute. Just to ask,
what has he got that I don't have? Is it his brown eyes? I know blue eyes get boring, but I'll wear dark glasses all the time & hey, if you want me to, I'll take a knife to my own bright eyes.

Well, I'll give you a thousand reasons that tonight you should grant me this one wish. Like the one year of my life that I gave to you & now you put me through hell. You break me up. I should hate you, but I can't replace you in my heart.

Why am I so pathetic? I don't get it. Why you won't return my calls? Can't you look at me once? And please if you got a minute, enjoy this lonely sky with me. It'll swallow us whole if we only let it.

If this sky's going to eat us then I'd like to be digested into a million pieces with you.

I'd love to be scattered to hell with you.

To hell with you.

1:01AM

I don't want to wait for our lives to be over.
I want to know right now; what will it be?

11:06PM

Wake up all alone, sending postcards back to home. On the road
If the medication works could I be the way I was? In control?
You painted a picture. I'm the worst type of sinner you know.
You painted a picture happier than I can afford.
Nobody can save me. Nobody can say what I'll do if I'm alone...

11:06PM

I talked for hours to your wallet photograph,
and you just listened.
You laughed enchanted at my intellect.
...Or maybe you didn't.