Sarah Riutta's Journal
Hey guys! I *was* going to post this earlier, but I have FINiSHED MY STORY!!! But, I have decided not to post the final two chapters...sorry! You will have to email me for 25, and 26 will not be out for a while!! Gotta go..byes!
Current mood: cold.
Current music: Eyes Down-Eels.
Heres chappie 24, im thinking to end my story in 1 or 2 chapters!!! well,enjoy! byes!!
It was Tuesday morning, and Christina was woken up by her phone ringing.
"Christina. I have to hurry. But are you going to come tomorrow morning?"
"Jackie. No. Look, I thought about it, and you are just using me to get off easy. I know I'm the most persuasive person in the school and so do you, plus you just talked to me out of the blue. So No."
"Christina, it's not like that at-" The line went dead. Christina wasn't fully aware of what she just did. As she became more and more awake, she felt like killing herself. She decided to send an appology email instead. She got on her computer and opened up her mail account and remembered the message from Jackie from a while ago. She'd read it later. Right now there were more important matters. Christina started to write an email and couldn't word it right. Christina didn't know what to do. She spent a good hour trying to word it right before she got hungry. She went downstairs and made herself a sandwich for lunch. Turkey sandwich, and a can of pop. She never said she ate healthy. She took that up to her computer and ate as she typed and thought. What she wanted to say she couldn't translate into words for some reason. She wasn't sure why either. Then it hit her. She wasn't supposed to make this email. It was fate somehow. She got off her computer and turned on her sterio. Christina lay on her bed, not knowing what to do today. She was to tired to walk. Fate didn't want her writing that email. She felt like writing something but didn't know what. Then the idea hit her. She'd write her version of what's happened so far. Jackie could write her version...if they ever become friends again. But no matter what, Christina was going to write her story. And starting from the beginning of 9th grade took a few hours. She got up to the part where Jake asked her out when her mom called for her. Time really does fly. She went down, ate dinner, and then came back up. She didn't feel like writing so she decided now would be a good time to read Jackie's email.
Hi. It's Jackie. After getting a lot of oppinions on this, I've decided to send this email. Well, as soon as you and Jake met you sort of shut me out. And you know what? It isn't fun. So whenever you would call me, I felt like blowing up. And worst of all, you didn't seem to really notice or care. And then we just kind of started avoiding each other. And i really want to know what is happening here? I wanted to be your friend until we were old and sitting on rockers at some smelly nursing home. And I wanted that. Because you were my bewst friend through everything. The fights, the young heart breaks, and now you aren't there. You are a part of me and when you just ignored me, I felt like I lost a part of myself. And I hope that you feel this way too, because I want to be your friend again. Right now i hate you, but I'm glad to be your friend. You're the best friend someone can have.
Christina didn't know what to think. All she knew was that she screwed up big time.
Current mood: exhausted.
Current music: So Yesterday-Hilary Duff.
Chapter 23!!!! Yay!!! Enjoy!!!
Christina sat at her computer for three hours before finally getting a reply. It seems sort of silly to not have just called, but Christina couldn't say it. She couldn't believe it, much less say it. But when she got a reply, she read it immediately.
I told you. All I did was burn down the Math Lab. I need help. I'm going to get sentenced wednesday morning and everyone will be there. You need to go. I don't want to do it all by myself. It's at 7:30am. Please go. I have to get off now. I have been grounded for the rest of my life practically. Grrr.
Christina read, and re-read the email over and over until she realized her mom had been reading over her shoulder.
"Sorry honey. But dinner is ready." Christina hadn't realized how much time had passed since she had talked with Jackie. Christina got up and went down for dinner. She didn't eat a whole lot since she was too worried about Jackie. But then something hit her. Why was Jackie suddenly talking to her? She knew something wasn't right. She deffinantly missed something here. But What? Christina didn't care though. She just wouldn't go to help Jackie. She was probably just using Christina to vouch for her since Christina is the most persuasive person in the school. Christina wasn't falling for it though. Christina wished she hadn't given her the album now. She was about to call her mom to ask for it back, when someone called Christina.
"Christina. Did you hear about Jackie?" Jake. Just what she needed...
"Are you going?"
"Why should I? She just wants to use me."
"Well, obviously you-" Jake stopped.
"Well obviously I what?"
"Nothing. Well, I guess I won't see you there then."
"Jake. I'm sorry."
"Oh that. It's ok Christina. I was being a jerk dating two girls. The other girl never wants to speak to me again. At least you said something to me." They both laughed.
"Very true." Christina felt so much better talking to Jake. Not as a boy friend, just as a friend. She felt like everything could be cured by talking to a friend.
"Mom's yelling at me. I've been on the phone all day with everyone about...you know. I'll see ya sometime."
"Bye Jake." Christina hung up her phone. That was the weirdest conversation she has ever had with a guy. It was also the longest. Christina knew that by the time Jackie got kicked out of school everything would be a lot easier for Christina. But she wasn't sure she wanted it like that.
Current mood: sleepy.
Current music: So Yesterday-Hilary Duff.
Chapter 22!!! My story should end in the next 3 or 4 chappies!!! Enjoy it while it lasts!!!!
It was Monday morning. Christina woke up and knew she needed to go for a walk. She got up, changed her clothes, and went outside. It was freezing out, but Christina didn't really care. She needed to walk to Jackie's house and give her the album. It would probably work wonders for her too. Christina kept hoping for Mrs. Jackson to drive by and see her, but it was lunch time so she's probably picking up little kids now. Christina walked the 10 long miles to Jackie's house in an hour and a half. She knocked on door, wanting to go in but knew she couldn't stay.
"Why hello Christina! Why aren't you in school?"
"It's a very long story. But if you could give this to Jackie that'd be great." Christina took the album out of her coat and gave it to Jackie's mom.
"I'll do that. Would you like a ride home?"
"No thank you. I need some time to myself." Jackie's mom gave Christina some hot coca mix and told her to make some as soon as she got home. Christina said she would, and left. She pulled out her MP3 player and found some God Charlotte on it. She listened to her music the whole way home.
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Christina walked into the house and went over to the TV. She couldn't remember the last time she watched TV anyways. She only found soaps, kiddy shows, and home cooking channels. There was never anything good on, even though everyone said the best stuff is during school hours. She made a mental note to tell them all that they were wrong. Christina had an hour before school let out and she could call someone. Just then the phone rang.
"Christina. Good, you're there." It was Jackie. But school wasn't out yet, why was she calling?
"Jackie, what's up? Why are you calling? Schools still in, you can't be home, can you?"
"I'm still in school. I'm using the pay phone. They'll find me soon so I have to hurry."
"Jac, what's going on?"
"Christina, I burned down the Math lab." Christina couldn't say anything.
"Chrissy, are you still there?"
"Yeah. I'm here. But-wait, you what?!" Christina couldn't believe any of this. Something was wrong here. Jackie was joking. She had to be.
"I told you. But I have to go before I'm late for Science." Jackie hung up the phone and Christina dropped the phone on the floor. She couldn't believe Jackie. This was not the Jackie she knew. Christina hung up the phone and went to send an email to Jackie. She needed to know more.
Current mood: okay.
Current music: Someday-Nickelback.
Chapter 21!!! My story will probably be done today at this rate!!! But my final chapter will remain a mystery for a week or so, and then I will post it!!! Well, byes!!
The next morning Christina ached all over. But it was a good aching. She lay in her bed for about an hour before she got up and decided to go on her computer. She checked her email, and found she had 100 messages. Most were junk, but she found one from Jackie. She opened it up and found a long email. She knew she couldn't read it right now, so she put that email in her folder for all of Jackie's emails. Christina then read all the funny forwards from other people and had a good laugh. She then deleated all of her emails, junkk and forwards, and had one other email. It was from Principal Lydon. Christina opened it.
We have determind to susspend you until you are able to clean up the gymnasium. The aporroximate cost to clean it, if you hire someone, would be $1500.00. If you are to hand clean it, without any help, it would take roughly 30 days. We will give you a few choices. You can hand clean it, and hire someone, and it will only cost $575.00, and take about 15 days. Or you can spend all $1500.00 and not do a thing. Or do it yourself for free. We will supply all cleaning supplies. We are awaiting an e-mail back when you have deicided.
"Well, Old Man Lyndenburg, that's just to bad, because you will never see me clean it up, and I do not have the money." Christina deleated the email and felt a little better. A little. She went downstairs and grabbed some snacks from the kitchen, then came back upstairs. She threw the snacks on top of her bunk bed, then climbed up, sterio remote in hand. She turned on her sterio, trying to find the spot where she stuck her Good Charlotte cd. She found it, and listened to the whole thing through a few times. Then she heard her mom calling for her to come eat dinner. She turned off her sterio, and took all of her garbage from her snacks downstairs, and had dinner.
"Christina, what's wrong?" Christina's mom looked at Christina worridly as Christina entered the kitchen.
"Nothing. Just tired." Christina yawned fakely to back it up. Her parents glanced at her, but decided it was good enough, and they began to eat. There was some casual talk amongst them, but Christina didn't really say much. She didn't feel like talking to them. She knew who she needed to talk to. She stood up unexpectedly and muttered that she was done, and went back up to her room. She took out the present Mrs. Jackson gave her, and brought it to the top bunk bed. She opened it up, and looked at the photo album. The cover picture was of Christina and Jackie their first day riding on the bus. There was numerous pictures of them laughing together on the bus, some of them when they were young, some when they were older. One picture Christina could barely look at. It was of her and Jackie the last day Christina rode the bus. They were both crying, hugging each other. Christina didn't know why Mrs. Jackson had these pictures, but Christina knew that her and Jackie needed to talk. Christina got off her bed and picked up her phone and called Jackie. No answer. Christina tried IMing Jackie, but she didn't reply. Christina went back to the album. She spent all night looking at it, and eventually fell asleep.
Current mood: tired.
Current music: Things I'll Never Say-Avril Lavigne.
Heres chapter 20 for y'all!!
Saturday afternoon. That morning Kate had called Christina to tell her the time of the party, and where it was. Christina jotted it down and rushed off to give it to her mom. She then had spent the rest of the morning picking out an outfit. She didn't know if she should wear black, or a deep purple. It was at 9 at night, so black would probably look best. Christina went with the black outfit and hung her purple outfit back in her closet. Christina then needed to pick out jewelry, make-up, and shoes. She decided she would need some lunch before she did that. She went downstairs and she smelt her favorite meal...McDonald's. She walking into the kitchen and pulled out her BigMac, large fry, and large coke. Everything tasted so good to Christina. She scarfed it all down, then went back up to her room to complete her wardrobe. Her eye shadow could be any dark color she decided, and got rid of very few eye shadows. She studied all of them for a moment, then kept the blacks, deep purples, and deep blues. She then set those aside and took out her lip glosses. She didn't know what to use that wouldn't make her stick out a ton. She just picked good ol' pink. She then set it aside her eye shadows...deep purple worked good. It was going to be dark there anyways, no one would notice. She then set both those aside and started to decide about her hair. This whole ritual of preparing for the dance went until 7:30pm. Her mom called her down for dinner, and Christina ate quickly so she could get dressed in time. She rushed into the bathroom and started to braid her hair. Her mom came in and helped, and were done by 8pm. Then Christina put on her make-up and outfit, and as she stepped into her shoes, 8:45pm rolled around. She and her mom went out to the car and drove to the school where the party was at. When they arrived, Christina's mom just dropped Christina off without a word. Christina walked into the school and checked in and continued onto the gym. She opened the door and was greeted by a huge uproar. Looks like the party has begun.
The party started out with loud music, and it was consistent. There were a few slow songs, all of which Christina had danced to, but a lot of fast ones. Christina had talked with probably everyone in there at least once, and she felt exhausted. Then she was asked to go up onto the stage to talk. She didn't know why, and was going to ask when Kate stepped up to the mic.
"Hey everyone! Hope y'all are having a fabulous time!" Screaming and cheering. "As you all know the Christina Jones is here, and she's going to say a few words!" Kate stepped back and push Christina forward.
"What do I say?" Christina mouthed to her.
"Just talk." Whatever.
"Hey guys. Um...how's everyone doing tonight?" More cheering and screaming. "Well..." Christina got an idea. "Do y'all like the song Shake Ya Tailfeather?" Obviously everyone did since there was more cheering and screaming. "Well, how about we play that song?" Christina just wanted off that stage. Asking for a song was a good way to do it. "And anyone who wants to dance, come on up here!" Well, at least Christina could get off stage. She ran off as a flood of people came up. They'd thank her later. The tv news person was getting it all. Christina went up to the "bar" and got a Pepsi as she watched everyone up there dancing. She was trying really hard not to laugh. She glanced at the clock, which said 1:00am. Last song. Good timing then. Christina sat for about half the song before she was dragged up onto the stage. Why not? Christina started dancing. She was having a ton of fun, and as the song ending a siren sounded.
"All right y'all, have a good time?" Christina cheered with everyone else. "Well, this party is partied-out! It's 1am and we have another party to be at in a half hour!" Everyone cheered, not knowing why, then everyone went towards the door. Christina followed.
"Hey, Christina!" She heard Jake calling her name.
"Oh. Hey Jake."
"Look, I'm sorry. But I just didn't really think you'd be mad at me. I was wondering if you want to go out with me again." Jake was really stupid for thinking Christina wouldn't have cared.
"I'd never date you again even if you are the last person alive!" Christina turned around and headed outside, feeling proud of herself.
Current mood: bouncy.
Current music: So Yesterday- Hilary Duff.
Ok, here it is!!! Just keep in mind, Jake will say his part finally. But brace yourselves. Not to much tho...
You know, walking can sure make your feet sore. Or badly bruised leg. That was why Christina was standing at the bus stop waiting for the next bus. She has been waiting for a good half hour when finally a bus pulled up. It was an empty school bus. Christina pretended to not see it, hoping it would leave, but the driver hopped out instead.
"What ya doin' out here in the cold Christina?" Oh no. Not her old bus driver. Mrs. Jackson. Christina looked up at her and wondered how she would get out of this one.
"Um...hi Mrs. Jackson." Christina decided she would have to tell her the whole story...great. Just great.
"Why aren't you at home Christina?" Huh? Why am I not home? You aren't supposed to want to know that!
"Um...well...I wanted to get out of the house I guess..."
"Here, let me give you a ride home." Mrs. Jackson motioned for Christina to get on the bus, then she followed. Christina sat down in the first seat, where she always had sat. Mrs. Jackson closed the doors and drove off, towards Christina's house. The ride there was a silent one and Christina would've thanked Mrs. Jackson for that, but she didn't want to break the silence. She hopped off the bus at her house and Mrs. Jackson handed her something.
"I think you will like it, Christina." Mrs. Jackson closed the doors and left before Christina could ask what it was. She srugged and went back inside the house to open up the package. As she watched the wrapping flow to the floor, what she saw before her was unbelievable. She couldn't look at it now, so she put it back in the box and brought it up to her room. She lay on her bed and sighed. She needed something to do. Why not call Jake? Christina sat up, dialed his number, and waited. He had to be home by now. He always gets home around this time for something or other.
"Hello?" Dang. It was his mom.
"Hello. Is Jake there?" Christina crossed her fingers.
"Yes, just a minute. May I as who's calling?"
"He'll be just a moment dear." Jake's mom seems so nice Christina thought. She smiled. Then Jake's voice filled her ear.
"Hey." Christina swallowed. She had to ask, now or never.
"Hey. Jake...remember when you were trying to tell me something?"
"Y-yeah..." Christina didn't like the uneasiness in his voice.
"Well, I was wondering if I could ask what you were going to say?" There was a long pause. Followed by a gulp.
"Well, see, this is kind of hard for me to say...but, see, I-I...I'm seeing someone else." Christina almost dropped the phone. Not because she was going into denile, not because she never knew he would do that, but because he actually told her. But Christina wasn't going to date a cheater. She had to use every ounce of strength she had left to tell him those final words she will probably ever say to him.
"Jake, I hate you." She hung up the phone. Not because she didn't truly hate him, but because she didn't want to know the responce. She put her phone back and lay back down. She had to face it. Her life was falling apart.
Hehe i finished this a day ago but i could post it since i finished at like 11:00pm lol...well, heres 16 AND 17!!!
"What was she thinking?"
"She stole my car!"
"Driving without a license!"
"She stole my car!"
"She is going to be in some deep trouble when she comes too."
"SHE STOLE MY CAR AND NOW IT'S RUINED!!"
"Honey, call down, it's not that bad. That's what insurance is for."
"BUT SHE CRASHED, IN MY CAR, AND NOW I DONT HAVE ONE!!!" Christina opened her eyes. She was in a hospital bed somewhere. She could only remember the horns honking, the car hitting her side, and the airbag blowing up in her face. Everything after that is blank. Christina could see her mom's tears, her dad's red face, and a lot of doctors monitoring her. She sat up and looked at everyone in the room.
"I wanna go home."
"Christina honey, you need to stay here until they release you."
"I WANNA GO HOME!" Christina stood up and heard several monitors make a flat-line sound. Chrstina pulled the wires and electrodes, and everything off her and strode out of the room. She heard a male doctor tell the others to let her leave, she would be fine. Christina silently thanked the doctor as she left the hospital. She was fully of bandages and her arm was in a sling, so everyone gave her funny looks as she left. She didn't really care though. She just wanted to go home and sleep. And maybe go to school. She hopped in her dad's car and waited for her parents. They showed up carrying a brown paper bag and a piece of paper. Christina just srugged it off. They climbed in and looked at Christina menicingly.
"I just want to go home." They both turned around and her dad started the car and backed out quickly. He then drove out of the lot, and Christina realized that she was in Milwaukee. She saw the Children's Hospital behind her as they left. She had been there once before. But this time she was on the third floor. Only the really sick kids go there. Not good. But Christina just lay in the back seat and relaxed as they drove home.
When they got home Christina snuck up to her room, locked the door, climbed into bed and reached over for her phone. She listened to all the messages that were left on her machine. The first one was from Jake.
"So, heard you were busted for that painting thing. Bummer. Well, guess I won't be seeing you for a while. Call me sometime."
"Hey...um. What's going on Christina? You got busted for spray painting stuff in the gym. Maybe you should, like, get help or something." Jackie. Ugh. The first five were like that, then came the newer ones.
"Christina? Its Jackie. Look. I know you feel lonely, but stealing a car? How low do you get? I seriously think you need to see someone soon."
Jackie was the only one to diss her on her car-stealing act. All the rest were congrats. Christina felt a little proud of herself. A little.
The next morning Christina rose at 10am. She didn't question why her arm had a big cast on, why she wasn't going to school, and why her left leg was completely black and blue. She just went to the phone and dialed in a number.
"Hey, Jackie, um...it's Christina. I was just wondering if you could come over after school or something...but if you can't that's fine. Bye." Christina knew it was pointless, but she needed someone to talk to. And she was getting pretty desperate at this point. She put down the phone and wanted the old days back. When she and Jackie were friends, when she didn't get all emotional over everything, when she...knew what happiness was like. Christina hugged her phone and rocked back and forth on her bed trying not to cry. She sat there until she felt hungry, when she got up and made herself a lunch. Peanut better and jelly. Jackie always made the best ones. Christina ate it slowly, and then gulped down some milk. She knew she couldn't mope around all day, so she decided to go for a walk. She grabbed her light jacket from the closet and stepped outside. The cold air hit her hard. She shivered and walked down the street, and suddenly not feeling her sitches anymore. She put her hand up to her chin, and they weren't there. Christina felt like jumping, but she had a cast on her arm and her leg was pretty sore so she just kept on walking. She put her hands in her pockets and felt her MP3 player. She pulled it out and turned it on. What did she have on here anyways? Thing's I'll Never Say by Avril blasted in her ears. She laughed as she turned the volume down. She started walking a little faster, not knowing where to go. Only knowing that she was happy. She walked down to the Uptown Park listening to My World by Avril, and walked downtown along the highway listening to Grow Up by Simple Plan. She then was listening to I'd Do Anything by Simple Plan when suddenly she found herself at the foot of the school. She checked her watch. Lunch hour here, 12:20pm. She walked around back to see who all was there, and saw the whole school laughing and yelling. Then one of the popular girls saw her and screamed. Soon there was a stampede towards her. Christina turned around and ran, knowing that no one was aloud off campus since of some stupid kid that got run over last year. They all stopped at the end of the courtyard and looked at her.
"Yo, Christina, how you feeling?" Christina stuggled to find her voice in her throat.
"F-fine I guess. How would you feel if you were in a car crash?" She heard a big wave of laughter, then saw the principal's office door open through a window. "Hey, Old Man Lyndonberg's coming!" Christina hear the stampede run back to their tables as she walked off towards her house once again. But for some reason she found a strange pond instead. She walked over to it and touched it with her hand. It was surprisingly warm. Christina took her shoes and socks off and put her feet in. It felt so good. She felt happy, soothed, and warm. This was all she needed. Just this.
Current mood: stressed.
Current music: I'm With You-Avril Lavigne.
I finished like 3 hours ago but i had to go to weight training....
By the time Christina stopped running, she had no clue where she was. She gasped for breath, and her world started spinning. She staggered as she groped around for a bench to sit on. As she sat down she felt the rain soaking through her clothes. Great. She knew people would come looking for her, but she didn't want to be found. She knew she would have to hide. But where? She lay on the bench and began to think. She didn't know of any nice places near by. She could just leave the state somehow. But she knew that would never happen. Not even if she had a car. A car. She was 15, almost 16, she could probably drive a car. But she didn't have a car to drive. She sighed and got up again and walked to her house.
Just as Christina suspected, her mom had left her car at the house. Christina snuck inside the house and looked for the keys. They were right where they always were-over the fireplace. Christina grabbed them and ran outside to the car. She started up the car and felt instantly soothed. She backed out of the driveway and almost hit the mailbox. Real smooth. She put the car in drive and started off slowly. She began to pick up speed and felt as if she knew how to drive. Which she doesn't. She drove down the road and onto the highway, heading north out of the huge city of Milwaukee. She had no clue what she was doing, yet she didn't care. Who knew driving could be so much fun! Christina drove north, leaving all her troubles behind. She felt as if driving can make you feel like you own the world. Christina was hungry since she hadn't eaten breakfast that morning. She pulled into the local 7/11 and searched for her mom's wallet. Right under the seat where it always is. Christina took it and went inside, getting a large Diet Coke, three bag of chips, and a package of Gobbstoppers. She went to get ice for her drink, and nothing came out. She walked up to the counter and asked for some ice.
"Hun, that ice machine never works when it rains. You can live without it." Christina glared at him and walked out casually, climbing back into her mom's car and starting it up again. She pulled out of the lot and got back onto the highway. It was still pouring rain by the time she got out of Milwaukee. She drove for about 20 minutes before the rain let up slightly. Christina thought the silence was creapy, so she turned on the radio. Thing's I'll Never Say by Avril Lavigne filled the car. Christina felt so happy at the moment, she almost forgot she killed someone, stole a care, and was driving without even a permit. But that didn't matter to her anymore. All that mattered was that she was happy, and it seemed that nothing could bring her down.
I'm feeling tons better, and I'm writing chapter 15 now!!! You should see it out in the next 24 hours i garrentee!!! Byes!
Current mood: creative.
Current music: My World-Avril Lavigne.