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Hiatus [24 Sep 2003|05:35pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Placebo-Pure Morning ] I'm sorry I haven't updated or commented much lately. School is a bitch. It's taking up way too much of my time... so much that I can't manage a million journals anymore. I'm going to put this one on hiatus until things slow down. I understand if you want to delete me from your friends lists, but I will be back! Take care, everyone. I'm only keeping my Livejournal and Greatestjournal. If you have one or both of them, please PLEASE add me there. Livejournal: kitsune_youkai Greatestjournal: tastetherainbow 6 comments|post comment

>.>; [19 Sep 2003|06:11pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Do As Infinity-Fukai Mori ] I hate homework. It's evil; yes, it is. 3 comments|post comment

Yey. [12 Sep 2003|09:35pm] [ mood | blank ] Hooray for this week being over. I just realized that it was the first full week of school... I thought it was the second. >.<; I've had tons of homework this week. Our printer hasn't been working, and all my homework needs to be typed, so I've been going over my dad's really late every night to use his. We were planning on getting a new printer this weekend, but now we're supposed to be getting a whole new computer. I have to find a place to store all my image files. I don't know where the hell I'm going to put all my music. >.< I don't really want a new computer. It's too much hassle, and I'll lose too much. Then again, my computer's over five years old and hasn't been working right for a long time. I'm undecided. Anyway, sorry for not updating in a while! ^^;; School is so time consuming. >. 3 comments|post comment

Meh. [08 Sep 2003|06:58pm] [ mood | listless ] [ music | Shiina Ringo-La Salle de Bain ] My mom just left. She got annoyed and walked out of the house. Actually, that was about 45 minutes ago. >.>;; *sighs* My sister broke her calculator and asked to use one of mine. I got out my old graphing calculator, and she got all mad because she doesn't know how to use it. I said I'd explain it to her, and she stomped upstairs. I guess my mom had a bad day at work she snapped quickly. She never went to sleep last night, so I'm sure that had something to do with it... School is "eh." I want to drop Creative Writing. As Lori would say, 'I don't dig this workshop crap, man.' We have to share EVERYTHING we write with the class. Forget writing about anything personal... we have to break off into groups so people can tear apart our writing in front of us while we're not able to defend or explain our work. It also pisses me off that my teacher doesn't like fantasy. That's what I write, so screw her. I'll even move to a Study Hall instead if I absolutely need to. Oh, and I hate Mr. McBride. He makes me miss Miss Bill, that bastard. I hate his little ten question quizzes. Half of the questions are putting historical events into chronological order. If you mess one up, they're all wrong... and dates. I HATE memorizing dates. I've never had such an anal teacher before. He's so boring besides. He drones on with his dull voice barely audible over the class behind us. He should die. post comment

Copied from my Livejournal: [07 Sep 2003|07:49am] [ mood | weird ] I need to update more. ( Wednesday, Septemer 3rd--First Day of School. >.< ) That about sums it up. Oh, yeah... and I don't think I can make it to the end of this year. I'm going to need to be institutionalized. *nod* ( Wednesday, Septmeber 3rd--Dumping My Boyfried ) He's going around telling everyone it was mutual. He called me a bitch because I told him he was in denial. He said, "Even when I dump someone, I let them say it was mutual!" That's weird. 2 comments|post comment

Last day of summer. [02 Sep 2003|09:17pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | Nittle Grasper-Make Me Shining ] I was very busy today. I had a lot to get done before tomorrow: my first day of school. o.o;; I'm proud to say that I was barely on the computer at all today... compared to how often I'm normally on. I actually showed some initiative. I spent most of my afternoon sewing again. I honestly was not planning on ever studying my vocab as needed. I ran out of markers when I was coloring my shirt, so I called my mom and asked her to pick some up. That left me with nothing to do, so I actually studied! When I study out loud, I find it easier to concentrate. I still haven't even glanced at the information on the authors. Our test wouldn't be the very first day of school, right??? o.o;; I'd better look over it a little before I go to bed. I'm sure I'll be able to study more tomorrow night. Anyway, I feel better than I did yesterday. I've accepted the fact that I have to go to school, and I know I'll grow tired of it quickly and won't like it, but I've put up with it many times before, so it doesn't really seem like anything I can't handle. I just hope I'm not stuck in any of my classes with people I can't get along with. We'll see... post comment

-.-;; [01 Sep 2003|09:03pm] [ mood | restless ] [ music | The Ataris-Boys of Summer ] I can't believe this. It's crazy... this whole 'it being September and my having to go back to school' thing. I already feel sick. I'm so stressed; I'm just a mess, and school hasn't even started yet. I'm so miserable and depressed during the school year. Summer was so liberating. I forgot what it was like to feel pressured and have so much stress to deal with. It isn't fair. I shouldn't have to give up that feeling. I hate school. >.< I had to study today. I realized that I'd completely forgotten about my vocabulary list. I looked at the front of the packet, and it said that our test would be the first week of school. There are exactly 100 words, so I have about two days to memorize them, which wouldn't be too bad if I felt like I'd accomplished anything with my studying today, but I can't concentrate. I also realized that there was background information on both authors that I had to memorize, so I need to do all that tomorrow... my last day of summer vacation. I can't wait until September is over... I can't stand having to start over like this. Studying is my least favorite task in the world. I can't make myself do it... especially not in summer. I had so many things that I wanted to get done tomorrow, but I suppose that school comes before my own pleasure. I just have to tell myself how angry I'm going to be if I let myself slack off like I did last year. I let too many small things get to me. Sometimes I don't know how I got this far, how I managed not killing myself out of frustration. I really need to not be my own worst enemy. I need to calm down. I should just get up really early tomorrow and do everything first thing in the morning... or something.. yeah. 2 comments|post comment

Screen name... [31 Aug 2003|10:35pm] [ mood | blah ] If anyone's interested I just had to change my AIM screen name. Sam gave my old one out to a bunch of people... one of whom was Brittany. >.< Now all these people have been bugging me, so it's been changed to NoxiousLollirot. Over and out. post comment

*scratches her head* [27 Aug 2003|07:21pm] [ mood | distressed ] [ music | Shiina Ringo-Koufukuron ] Well, today was... er, yeah. Today was one of my days that's just a big nothing. >.>; So uneventful.. It's really weird. I'll be getting ready to start college in about two years. It seems like such a short time from now, and I know that when it comes, it'll feel like I was typing this entry just a day earlier. Each day individually, however, seems to take an eternity to reach it's end. Alex and I would have this discussion often... how can the days and weeks go by so incredibly slowly while the months and years are gone before we realize what's happening? I guess life just sucks that way. Anyway, this curfew thing is having strange effects on me. I never had a curfew. Um, the day they brought Inuyasha back to Adult Swim, I was told that I had to be in bed by 11. That's some new thing now... My mom has suddenly lost faith in my ability to rise at 5:30 a.m. and feels that this is some sort of preparation for school. I'm offline by 10, and in bed 11... then I stay there and squirm around for two hours until I fall asleep. I also keep waking up around 4:30 a.m. This week is probably the week of the least amount of sleep I've ever had. Strangely, I don't feel at all tired, though nothing I say really makes much sense. School starts exactly one week from today! I couldn't be dreading it more. Gah, and I still have to finish The Great Gatsby. I haven't picked it up in over a week. I think I have two chapters left. I wanted to finish it by last Wednesday, but I'm not interested enough. I was honestly planning on studying my vocabulary list this week, but I'm not up to it. I doubt anyone else is doing that either, so I don't feel TOO bad. 2 comments|post comment

Blank [25 Aug 2003|10:05am] [ mood | blank ] [ music | Do As Infinity-Yesterday & Today ] I'm home again. Finally... I'll be home for the whole week, which is exactly what I wanted. I really liked getting to spend the weekend at my dad's, contrary to what I expected. Usually we're all yelling at eachother, but when Becky isn't there, haha, it goes well. Saturday night, Rose was flipping through channels. I wasn't paying attention, but she then said, "Uh oh, Nicki. Look who it is." The Crow was on! I found it weird that my two favorite movies were on two nights in a row. It was like, "Here, so you don't get bored while you're away from home." Good old idiot box... I couldn't get to sleep until 4:30 a.m. Again, I woke up after four hours of sleep. Rose was in the kitchen talking to my dad about something she thought she wanted to do, so I went in and found out that she wanted to drive for an hour and a half down to Cape May to go to historical Cold Spring village. I was trying to make eye contact with my dad and let him know: "Please.... no!" but it didn't work. I had been to that village when I was about seven or eight. It wasn't any better yesterday than it was then. >.< After we got Rose to admit it was a little sad, she proposed we go to the Cape May zoo while we were in the area. I haven't been to a zoo in years. I've been asking my mom to take us to the one in Philly... the Cape May one is a little small... but my mom never thought I was serious. We went. It was nice, but none of the animals were even out, and the ones that were, looked really miserable. All I wanted to see were the otters, and they were sleeping. We then went out to dinner at a Chinese/Japanese restaurant, came home, and watched The Crow... again. I got home to my house around ten last night. I talked to my mom a little about her trip, then went online and let the world piss me off again. I just thought of something I needed to do but completely forgot about it. At least I now have something to think about.. 2 comments|post comment

Er.. [23 Aug 2003|08:31pm] [ mood | blank ] Sorry if I'm all... not comment-y until later tomorrow. I'm finally back online, but it's at my dad's house. I hate dial-up internet, and I do not have the patience for this. I can't wait to shut this down so I can get away from the computer. >.< I was picked up yesterday night. My dad actually didn't come to get me until about 10:30. He fell asleep almost as soon as we got to his house. He has digital cable, which isn't a big deal, but Donnie Darko was on HBO 2 last night! I was so excited. It's one of my favorite movies in existence. ^__^; I made Rose watch it with me, but she fell asleep too... The movie ended at two. I fell asleep maybe an hour later... but just for a few minutes. I had to sleep on the couch which was very uncomfortable. Rose was still on the floor, and my dad wandered up into bed. I kept waking up until about 4:30 in the morning when Rose finally got up and went to bed, so I could turn off the t.v. I got fewer than four hours of sleep. My dad came in and woke me up at 8:00 a.m. o.o;; He wanted to take me with him to get his new van lettered. Yeah, well, we were standing at the place for a while. It took... TWO AND A HALF HOURS!!! It was THE longest... no.. there've been longer.. but it was a really LONG time to be waiting. I was too tired to complain. The girl there was really friendly and kept trying to talk to me. I'm really not friendly, but I didn't want to be mean, so I just pretended to be interested. Ultimately, I spent five hours today running errands with my dad. When we got home, I finally sat down to rest, and Rose came in and asked me to run errands with her. We went to buy things to make dinner. I somehow ended up making 4/5 of dinner but only ate the mushrooms. o.O; After dinner we went to Home Depot to buy crap for her pond, and came home to spend a few hours trying to get the stupid foutain working. I'm so tired, so.. sorry, but I'm going to read everyone's entries tomorrow night when I'm own my own computer that doesn't suck serious ass. Over and out... post comment

\^_^/ [22 Aug 2003|12:12pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | Do As Infinity-Tangerine Dream ] I finally changed my layout! I really like this one, even though I'm not too crazy about the color scheme... it's a little too girly for me. Still, it's a nice change. ^.^ 15 comments|post comment

Yey. [21 Aug 2003|11:49pm] [ mood | blank ] I got to be in my own home today! Except that I didn't because I was home all day, but er... I was at least somewhere near my hometown with my immediate family and not "on vacation." My mom wanted my sister and me to go to the mall for school clothes. I don't like malls, really because of the crowds. I don't function well in crowds.. Fortunately for me it wasn't crowded. Good old weekdays... We also didn't have to go to 'our' mall. I'm convinced that the Cherry Hill mall is much cheaper.. ^-^ I got some clothes, but I'm not much for clothes shopping.. trying stuff on. >.< I always end up wearing the same stuff over again anyway. I did, however, get to go into Suncoast. As soon as I walked in, I spotted an Ein plusie, and I had to buy it. I'm usually really stingy with my money and talk myself out of buying stuff, but I didn't hesitate to get the little guy. So cute.. ^_^ My day was really busy, but I don't really find myself with much to say about it.. not much of interest at least. Anyway, my mom and my sister are leaving tomorrow. I'll get to have four hours to myself during the evening before I leave for my dad's. *sighs* No more cable internet.. post comment

Blah.. [20 Aug 2003|01:05pm] [ mood | blank ] So after being home for one day, I left AGAIN. I get to be home tomorrow, and then on Friday I'm going to stay at my dad's! >.< I miss living in my own house. I was kind of hoping I could spend the last few days of my summer at home. School starts in less than two weeks, and it makes me very sad. I am not at all ready to go back. Last year was a nightmare, and I'm afraid this year is going to be worse... Anyway, my short little vacation in the mountains was much better than my long-ass vacation at the shore. We left really early on Monday and didn't do much of anything once we got there. Yesterday, though, my mom and sister want to go to a water park. We're in the poconos, the high is about 70, and I didn't feel like going to a water park... I spent most of the afternoon in the shade reading Gatsby. I haven't read any of it in about a week and completely forgot what was going on. Anyway, I spent about 20 minutes that day in the sun when I let them drag me into a wave pool. I lost my top... My mom grabbed it, and I had to walk out of the pool holding my chest in my hands. I think I handled it well considering the fact that I don't really handle ANYTHING well. Strangely I had a dream that I lost my top the night before. Heheh, the next night I had a dream about gum... about getting several gumballs out of one of those machines. Then I woke up. It was around 4:45 a.m. I woke up with gum in my hair! o.o; Kind of crazy. I spent 15 minutes trying to get it out. I got about half out. I then had to wake up my mom to help me. My head hurt so much, but we got it all out after about half an hour. My head still hurts. It was awful. I handled that well too, though. I didn't curse or cry. I just said, "Aw, crap" and started going at it with a comb and some conditioner. After the three-hour carride, I am home again. I didn't miss much, did I? It's hot in here, and I don't feel well, but there's no place I'd rather be. 2 comments|post comment

>.>; [17 Aug 2003|11:06pm] [ mood | blank ] J-Rock encounter by annana Name Year encountered January 24, 2009 Who did you meet? Mana Hugs given/received 19 Souvenier A CD Do they remember you? You drugged them! Created with quill18's MemeGen! Anime Bishounen Match by c_chan LJ Username: Age: Favorite Number: Your Match: Shuichi (Gravitation) Created with quill18's MemeGen! ^__^ I just got back, and I'm being forced to go away again! ;.; My grandparents went to Pennsylvania and are staying in the mountains for a week. My mom is taking my sister and me to visit them for three days. We're leaving tomorrow... I know three days isn't long, but I still don't want to go. I can't take any more "vacations." I need to pack all over again. I MUST remember to recharge my batteries... It's going to be a long ride, and I have a feeling my CD player is going to be giving me problems. post comment

..... [16 Aug 2003|01:37pm] [ mood | relieved ] I am SO glad to be home... o.o;;; I'll tell all about my week later... 2 comments|post comment

Going Away [09 Aug 2003|10:14am] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | Yoko Kanno-Blue ] Hey, everyone. I'm about to leave today to go away on vacation for the week. I'll be back a week from today, so don't delete me from your friends lists! >.<;; I'll update again and catch up on all your entries as soon as I get back. I hope everyone has a good week, and I hope that mine isn't as lousy as I'm expecting. ^.~ See you all again soon! 7 comments|post comment

No concert for me [08 Aug 2003|10:26pm] [ mood | okay ] Most of the people I know went to Warped Tour today. I didn't... heheheh. I wouldn't have minded going, but I didn't mind staying home. There are definitely some bands there worth seeing, but take the amount of bands I'd like to see, multiply it by.. 7, and you'll have the amount of bands that were there that I wouldn't care to see. Take the amount of bands I'd like to see, multiply it by.. 15, and you'll have the amount of people whom I know that were there that I wouldn't care to see. In the past, you may have had to ask if anyone you know was going to Warped Tour... these days, it's pretty mainstream. You're more likely to ask, "Is anyone not going to Warped Tour?" So it was nice and quiet around here today. ^.^ Anyway, I'll be gone all next week. I'm leaving tomorrow and will be back next Saturday... post comment

>.>; [07 Aug 2003|07:56pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Spirited Away-Futatabi ] You are Shinya. Which Dir en grey Member Are You? brought to you by Quizilla Always... it's insane. Today was.. nothing... My mom and I got in an interesting little conversation a few minutes ago. It started out with her complaining about my being a loner and how it's partly my fault and partly the fault of my computer. Apparently I'm "not normal," and it causes her to worry. I skillfully changed the subject to my future career. We somehow ended up talking about where I was and was not going to college and whether or not I've chosen a practical profession. She's still bent on the idea of my needing to join more extracurricular activities while in high school. Next year I'm going to be forced to volunteer. This way I can trick colleges into thinking that I care about the community. That's what they're looking for.. People who pretend to give to society, so I should be set after my junior year. By the way, somtime Saturday I'll be going away... off to the shore again. This time I have to go with my dad's mother. It's her way of making ammends after not having contact with us. She and my dad were fighting for a WHILE, and we forgot we had another grandmother. She was never the loving type. I guess it's good. Instead of trying to buy my sister and me with gifts, she'll be spending time with us, but I feel awkward, and I don't really want to go. We'll see how it is.. 2 comments|post comment

I can't drive... la la la.. [06 Aug 2003|09:39pm] [ mood | good ] [ music | Trigun-Closing Theme ] I'm in a good mood. This song might be what does it to me... I thought I was going to have to go back to DMV tonight. They're only open on Wednesday nights. I decided that assuming I had to go back in April was good enough for me, so that's what I'm going to do. Instead, I took a quick trip to the sports complex to drop my sister off at her soccer practice. I almost got in an accident. First of all, I was wearing the wrong shoes. I know that sounds like a poor excuse, but they were really stiff, and I couldn't tell how much pressure I was applying to the pedals. I'm not experienced enough to drive in my Zim flip-flops... ^__^ Anyway, I ended up missing the turn into the field. When I realized it, I slowed down, but it was too late, so I picked up speed right away. My sister started to yell at me because now I had to turn around, and she was going to be late, blah blah blah... we started to argue quite nastily, and I almost... as Biff would say... I almost "creamed" a car that was pulling out of an illegal park. For the rest of the trip, I was a mess. I felt like the worst driver on the planet. Really, it seemed like I couldn't even control the car. I couldn't really tell when the pedal was beneath my foot. -.-; So glad to be home... I was planning on starting The Great Gatsby for school this week, but I'll do it while I'm away next week. I guess when I come back, I can start studying. I'm really not ready for school to start. post comment

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