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06:06pm 29/08/2003
 
mood: snotty
music: Yeah yeah Yeahs - don't know the name of the song!
Well that was a pretty darn good couple of weeks!!!
Where do I begin? This won't be as detailed as I originally wanted because I didn't keep a written journal of events in the end. But still, I'll try and remember as much as I can!
I won't really put all the details of the days in between the festivals, cos they'd pretty much be the same! I was with Steve, alone, in an empty house! Twas very fun, if you know what I mean!

V festival, Saturday 16th August 2003
Arrived at about midday, it was extremely warm and me, being stupid and not insistent enough, didn't put on any suncream. I burnt within half an hour! Still, we had a look around the shops for a little while before watching some of the bands. I bought a black canvas belt with white hearts on it and a pink aliceband with flowers on it.

BANDS I SAW:-
Reel Big Fish - funny! Lead singer was sick so he just danced. His bandmate sang instead!
Athlete - Every song sounded the same. Not bad but a bit yawnsome.
Killing Joke - Dire. Bad 80's rock that should have stayed there. Highlight was the two 2 year old kids of some die-hard fans that were moshing better than the adults! They loved it! And they were SO cute!
Foo Fighters - Same as last year really. Great but nothing new.
Coldplay - AWESOME. The band I went to V for. Was Awestruck! Totally fabulous!
Saw Steve's mate Anish there, walking around in an orange boiler suit. Was totally random - we didn't know he had arranged to go! That was about it. Took us an hour to get out the carpark and another half hour to leave the festival site.

Reading Festival, 21-25th August 2003

People I camped with:- Steve, Chris, Dave, Nick, Vicki, Kelly, Rambo, Jodie, Anish, Craig, Mark and Little Dave

THURSDAY: Spent the morning in the queue of cars trying to enter the site. Once we were there, we parked in Brown 1 carpark and then went to find the others that were camping with us. They had caught the train down. We originally wanted to camp in the Green area cos it was closest to the arena but it was full up so we headed back to the Brown area. We found a spot inbetween Brown I and Brown J, near the path. Luckily, me and Steve picked gap in the spot that was furthest away from the walkway. Would have been hell otherwise (people end up trampling all over your tent and it gets covered in dust and shit). It took HOURS to get the tents up, mainly due to the fact that the ground was really dry and rock hard. The tent pegs were bending back on themselves! Still, we managed to get ours sturdy enough for the weekend, surprisingly! The evening was spent BBQing and chatting with the others. It was a nice evening which wasn't complete without the original campsite chant "Bollocks!". Slept surprisingly well!

FRIDAY: Headed for the arena for midday to catch the first of the bands. Inme were cool - have seen them before! Went to see Billy Talent after in the Carling tent - they were shite. Left after about 3 songs to see Saves the Day in the Radio 1 tent. Wanted to see them last year but didn't get to. Ian (Steve's mate that we met up with - he was camping with another mate, John) was literally wetting himself - he loved them! They weren't too bad! Then we went back to the main stage to see Less Than Jake. Quite amusing! After that, we went back to the campsite for a beer and a rest, before heading back to see The Darkness who were fantastic! A local band (near me, anyway) who've suddenly got really big! They are so good! They pulled the biggest crowd over the weekend, even beating the headliners! Well, except Metallica but they are like, one of the biggest bands in the world! After that, Placebo came on stage - a band I've wanted to see for so long! They were pretty good but I would have prefered to see them headline. Not because I think they're good enough but because they sound better at night and it's more atmospheric. Suits the music better I think. Anyways, Brian Molko got deliberately pushed over by one of his bandmates which was tres amusing! First time it's happened on stage apparently. Took a break for food and peeing before watching Linkin Park. They were surprisingly really good! Only let down was the "we fucking love you guys" after every song. It was like "shut the fuck up and play".
Went back to the tents after that. Had a laugh with the others and slept. Jodie shagged some scottish bloke. It was to become, bizarrely, the joke of the weekend in our little group. Simple things please simple (and drunken) minds!

SATURDAY: The morning was pretty much the same as previous mornings except slightly grubbier. The fact that it was so dry and dusty meant that all of us were covered in a thin film of dirt which was to get thicker as the weekend progressed. No amount of babywipes could shift it completely! At 12pm I went with Jodie to go and charge her phone at the 'recharge zone' - it took her an hour to get to the front of the queue and I missed Funeral for a Friend and King Prawn (name intrigued me) as a result. Was meant to meet Steve afterwards at the Burger Bar but he never showed up. He said he did but we didn't see him. Must have just missed him when we gave up and went back to the tents for food.
At about 2.30 we headed back to the Radio 1 tent to watch Jet. They were pretty good. Afterwards was The Rapture whom I wasn't that impressed with but Steve enjoyed them.
We went back to the Main Stage cos Jodie was meant to be watching The Libertines. But due to a timetable change they had already played and she'd missed them. It caused much amusement back at the tents with Little Dave, who thinks they are shit.
We didn't head back to the arena until about 8 after that cos there wasn't much on. Me and Steve went to see Hundred Reasons who were really really good! Got a bit squished and I had a bit of a headache so instead of going to see Two many DJ's in the Smirnoff tent, I headed back to the tents to lie-down. Unfortunately, the others, who had stayed there all evening, had got rather wrecked. And loud. They ended up advertising Sex With Jodie to anyone that walked past! If they were scottish, it was even better! They even made a banner!! I have to admit it was rather funny but after a while I just wanted to sleep! Suprisingly I did sleep in the end!

SUNDAY: The last day. Found out that Jodie shagged Chris overnight and Nick shagged some random girl whom he thought was called Helen but it turns out it wasn't! I spent the first part of the day on the shitters. I think I'd had a dodgy burger the night before. It wasn't bad as such, just more regular than usual. And the portaloos are really not somewhere you wanna spend much time in. Still, at midday, arena opening time, we went to the main stage. We watched Sugarcult (pretty cool!), Biffy Clyro (not so cool), All American Rejects (big disappointment) and The Used (really good!). Decided to go back to the tents after that cos I was tired. Steve stayed in the arena watching various bands so I didn't see much of him but still. Me and Jodie went back to the camp and got a little pissed! Then we headed back in time to watch Hot Hot Heat (crap), Grandaddy (crap), The Yeah Yeah Yeahs (pretty cool!) and The Music (fab!). Everyone else was watching Metallica. In hindsight I wished I'd seen them instead cos apparently the atmosphere was electric! Something we didn't quite get watching The Music. I'm just not a huge fan of Metallica's music but I suppose, you didn't really have to be at a festival like Reading. Still, I had fun all the same. We headed back to the camp after that - avoiding burning toilet rolls, tents and exploding gas cannisters. Seriously, it turns into a huge riot on the last night and apparently our Brown camp (our camp) was the worst. I still slept through the worst of it. Jodie slept with Dave - but ONLY slept! Think she wore herself out!
In the morning we headed home. Took us from 9.30am till 12.30pm to get off the site!! it was crazy!! But still, once we were finally home, and after we'd sorted out the leaking tank in the attic (which had left a HUGE wet patch on the landing), showered and rested, we could finally chill out and reminisce on what a fabulous weekend it was! Here's to next year!
 
     

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update   
09:40am 13/08/2003
  Well I said I was gonna update either sunday or monday and, well... I forgot! Sorry! But it's not like there's been loads happening to write about.
Ok lets see...
Thursday, went to Steve's - in the evening we went to see Keratose at the Pink Toothbrush. They, as usual, were crap. I only go along cos I'm usually visiting Steve anyway and I'm not gonna sit at home like a pleb whilst he goes and has fun. Nah, I'll sit in the corner and get pissed! Always good! Chatted to Adam, Heidi and Marc - I think Heidi and Ad have some unfinished business to sort out. She wants to fuck him, he doesn't want to fuck her. But they snogged and he hasn't really told her that he wants nothing more. Oh well!
Friday we went to Lakeside AND Bluewater. Shopping malls have really lost their novelty nowadays. Although I did buy a little badge that said "I love dick" on it. Thought it was amusing!! And Spirit had a sale on - HALF PRICE Indian Rose clothing!!! And I had no money :( Oh well! The new Paul Frank stuff looked fab though!
Saturday Steve worked so I stayed in. We went to his grandparents' 50th wedding anniversary do in the evening. Was a bit boring but the "groovy grandpa" (as I nicknamed him) on the organ, as the evening's entertainment, kept me amused! Man, old people really know how to dance!! They don't stop!!! Tis funny!
Sunday, Steve worked all day and it was far too hot to do anything except sit infront of the fan! Was apparently 101 degrees (officially recorded 10 minutes across the water from where I was staying) which is an all time record for Britain! Then I came home in the evening which wasn't fun cos the heat had affected the lines.
Monday I worked, Tuesday, I went to Lowestoft to pick up Jo and get some t-shirts to customise (go me - all arty farty!). And today, nothing except updating this journal so far!! I'm going to Steve's tonight for 12 days!! Wahoo! We're going to V festival AND Reading so I am SO excited!!!! Will update next when I've been to both! Will have so much more to say then!
Bye for now!
 
     

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hurrah!   
10:46am 07/08/2003
 
mood: hungry
music: Coldplay - Trouble
I get to see Steve today! I've missed him so much. It's only been two weeks but still, that's too long to be apart from someone you love. I know we speak twice a day and there's always MSN but it's never the same. We end up arguing cos there's nothing to talk about (we're both in dead-end jobs and there's only so much we can say about them). When we're with each other, there isn't the need to have to talk all the time. We're just happy being with each other. But you can't exactly sit there on the phone or on MSN and just 'be in each other's comany' really - you have to say something. It can be hard. Still, it's only a minor downside of long-distance love. Everything else is fantastic!
He's got an interview today. In fact, right at this very moment, he's probably being interviewed! I hope it goes well. He deserves to be in a better job. It'll make him so much happier. And he's intelligent enough to handle it.
I hope the trains don't run too slow today. There are speed restrictions because of the heat. But still, I'd rather be running slow than stopping for ages in the middle of nowhere. Anyone who catches the train regularly will know exactly what I mean! And especially in this weather with, no doubt, a train without air-conditioning *shudders at the thought*
I won't be updating till Sunday or Monday. If anyone's reading this, that is!
 
     

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Just a few things about me....   
05:20pm 06/08/2003
 
mood: thoughtful
music: A - Good Time
found this in an old journal of mine (saves me doing a new one)...


ABOUT YOU
Name: THERESA
Birth date: APRIL 27TH 1982
Zodiac sign: TAURUS
Chinese Zodiac Sign: YEAR OF THE DOG
Siblings: 1 YOUNGER SISTER
Pets: 1 DOG, CALLED SANDY

APPEARANCE
Piercings: 3 IN LEFT EAR, 2 IN RIGHT. PREVIOUS PIERCINGS: 4TH HOLE IN LEFT EAR AND BELLY BUTTON.
Tattoos: NONE
Height: 5'0" (SHORT-ASS!)
Hair color: BROWN
Eye color: BLUE
Glasses: NOPE BUT I NEED THEM!
Righty or lefty: LEFTY!!
Innie or outtie: INNIE

DESCRIBE...
Your heritage: 1/16 SWEDISH, 1/4 IRISH AND THE REST ENGLISH.
The shoes you wore today: ADIDAS SUPERSTAR TRAINERS, WITH SILVER STRIPES.
Your hair: SHOULDER LENGTH, BROWN, LAYERED, BORING.
Your eyes: URM, DEEP-SET, BLUE, SMALL...THATS ABOUT IT.
Your perfect pizza: MEAT FEAST RULES EVERYTIME!

CURRENT...
Location: SUFFOLK, ENGLAND.
Clothes: PURPLE VEST-TOP AND SARONG - TIS HOT OUTSIDE!
Mood: STRANGELY HAPPY!
Make-up: BROWN EYE SHADOW, MASCARA - THAT'S IT.
Taste: CHOCOLATE!
Hair: TIED BACK IN A PONY TAIL.
Annoyance: NOT BEING ABLE TO FIND A COMMUNITY THAT I REALLY WANNA JOIN.
Smell: MY PERFUME: HUGO BOSS - WOMAN
Thing you ought to be doing: MOVING MY ARSE COS I'M GETTING PINS AND NEEDLES IN MY FOOT FROM SITTING ON IT TOO LONG.
Fingernail color: AU NATURAL.
Desktop picture: THE USUAL MAC BACKGROUND.
DVD in player: NOT SURE!
Worry: TOO MANY TO MENTION
Crush: BRANDON BOYD!
Shampoo: PANTENE PRO-V.
Favorite celebrity: DERMOT O'LEARY!

LAST...
Movie you rented: CAN'T REMEMBER!
Movie you bought: CAN'T REMEMBER!
Movie you saw: BRUCE ALMIGHTY
Song you listened to: PISTOLA - INCUBUS
Song that was stuck in your head: A - GOOD TIME
Song you've downloaded: ZERO 7 - DESTINY
CD you bought: INME - OVERGROWN EDEN.
CD you listened to: A FREE CD WITH X-RAY MAGAZINE
TV show you've watched: NEIGHBOURS.
Had a nightmare: CAN'T REMEMBER!
Said "I love you" and meant it: LUNCH TIME - TO MY BOYFIEND.
Ate at McDonald's: A WEEK AGO.
Dyed your hair: BACK IN JUNE JUNE
Brushed your hair: THIS MORNING.
Washed your hair: THIS MORNING.
Cried: TWO DAYS AGO.
Called someone: LUNCHTIME
Smiled: JUST NOW.
Laughed: LUNCHTIME
Talked to an ex: YEARS AGO!

LAST PERSON...
You touched: MY MUM
You talked to: MY MUM
You hugged: MY MUM!
You IM'd: ADAM
You yelled at: STEVE
You had a crush on: BRANDON BOYD
You kissed: STEVE.
Who broke your heart: STEVE - WHEN I HAVE TO SAY GOODBYE TO HIM. IT BREAKS MY HEART EVERYTIME.
Person that called you: STEVE - AT LUNCHTIME.

WHAT IS...
Your most overused phrase: "BLOODY HELL" "SHIT" "MWA" "FAIR DO'S" "GOOD GOOD"
Your thoughts first waking up: THANK GOD IT WAS JUST A DREAM.
The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: THEIR SMILE....!

DO YOU...
Have a boyfriend or girlfriend: YES!! A YUMMY BOYFRIEND.
Have a secret crush: YES...
Remember your first love: YES!
Still love him/her: NO.
Consider love a mistake: NO.
Wish you could live somewhere else: YES! LONDON!!!
Think about suicide: SOMETIMES....
Believe in online dating: YES AND NO. YOU CAN START FRIENDSHIPS AND FLIRTING ONLINE BUT YOU CAN'T HAVE A PROPER RELATIONSHIP ONLINE.
Want more piercings: YES - MY TONGUE. BUT STEVE WILL DUMP ME IF I DO!
Want more tattoos: DUNNO IF I WANT ANY YET!
Drink: MOST WEEKENDS! USUALLY OF THE VODKA AND COKE VARIETY. OR STRONGBOW IF I'M HORNY!
Like the taste of alcohol: SOME KINDS!
Do drugs: ONLY PRESCRIPTION MEDICATION!
Smoke: NOPE!
Have sex: WHENEVER I SEE STEVE!
Like cleaning: ONLY WHEN I'M PISSED OFF - IT'S A GOOD RELEASE OF FRUSTRATION.
Like roller coasters: HELL YEAH! I WENT OT ALTON TOWERS FOR MY 21ST IN APRIL!
Write in cursive or print: BOTH.
Carry a donor card: NO.
Cuss: YES
Take a shower everyday: YES
Want to get married: YES
Type with your fingers on the right keys: MOST OF THE TIME!
Get motion sickness: USED TO ALL THE TIME! NOW, ONLY IF I'VE GOT A HEADACHE WHEN I'M TRAVELLING.
Think you're attractive: ONLY OCCASIONALLY.
Care about looks: SOMETIMES.
Think you're a health freak: URM... NO.
Get along with your parents: MOST OF THE TIME.
Play an instrument: PIANO, RECORDER, CLARINET.
Sleep with stuffed animals: YES - A STUFFED DOG FROM STEVE.
Have a dream that keeps coming back: YES - USALLY ABOUT A GUINEA PIG AND A RABBIT THAT I'VE FORGOTTEN ABOUT. DON'T ASK!!
Read the newspaper: ONLY AT WORK WHEN I'M BORED.
Have any straight friends: YES
Pray: YES
Go to church: SOMETIMES.
Have any secrets: A FEW.
Talk to strangers who instant message you: NO.
Wear hats: NEVER - THEY DON'T SUIT ME!
Hate yourself: SOMETIMES.
Have an obsession: BIG BROTHER, CHOCOLATE, STEVE!
Collect anything: NOT REALLY. I DID HAVE A COLLECTION OF TRAIN TICKETS IN MY RAILCARD HOLDER - NOT COS I WANTED THEM. JUST COS I COULDN'T BE BOTHERED TO BIN THEM!
Have a best friend: STEVE IS MY BEST FRIEND AND BOYFRIEND.
Like your handwriting: GOD NO, IT'S TERRIBLE! LEFTIES ARE NOT KNOWN FOR THEIR NEAT HANDWRITING!
Have any bad habits: WELL I HAVE THE USUAL FARTING/BELCHING/PICKING NOSE HABITS THAT EVERYONE HAS. OTHER THAN THAT I PUT MYSELF DOWN TOO MUCH AND TAKE THINGS FAR TOO PERSONALLY.

DO YOU BELIEVE...
In witches: YES
In Satan: YES
In ghosts: YES
There is life on other planets: YES
In God: YES

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
Long distance relationships: THEY'RE HARD WORK BUT SO WORTH IT IF YOU BOTH LOVE EACH OTHER ENOUGH.
Using someone: ITS WRONG BUT I'VE BEEN GUILTY OF IT.
Suicide: VERY SELFISH.
Killing people: I'M INTRIGUED TO KNOW WHAT GOES ON IN THE MIND OF A MURDERER.
Doing drugs: BAD EXCEPT CANNIBIS. IT'S NO WORSE THAN ALCOHOL. JUST BE CAREFUL.
Premarital sex: ITS A PERSONAL THING - UP TO YOU AND YOU ONLY.
Driving drunk: NEVER DO IT!

FAVORITE...
Soap operas: CAN'T BEAT NEIGHBOURS!!!
Food: CHOCOLATE!!
Things to talk about: LOVE, HUMOROUS SUBJECTS, MUSIC, SEX, LIFE.
Sports: URM.... DON'T DO SPORT.
Clothes: CAN'T BEAT JEANS AND T-SHIRT.
Movies: COMEDY, TWISTED THRILLERS, HORROR.
Band: INCUBUS, INME, FEEDER, FOO FIGHTERS, COLDPLAY, THE MUSIC, THE VINES, YEAH YEAH YEAH'S - THE LIST GOES ON....
Holiday: 5 WEEK TRIP AROUND NEW ENGLAND.

NUMBER OF...
Times I have had my heart broken: ONCE OR TWICE.
Hearts I have broken: 3.
Girls I have kissed: 1
Boys I have kissed: 8
Continents I have lived in: 1
People I would classify as true, could-trust-with-my-life-type friends: 1 OR 2.
Scars on my body: LOADSA LITTLE ONES FROM IV'S.

IN THE PAST 30 DAYS, DID/HAVE YOU...
Drink alcohol: YES
Smoke: NOPE.
Done a drug: PRESCRIPTION MEDICATION ONLY!
Made out: HELL YEAH!
Go on a date: YES, MANY DATES WITH BLOKEY!
Go to the mall: YES - THE JOYS OF LAKESIDE *YAWNS*.
Been on stage: NOPE.
Been dumped: NOPE.
Gone skating: NOPE.
Made homemade cookies: NOPE BUT I WISH I HAD NOW!!
Been in love: YES!
Gone skinny dipping: ONLY IN THE BATH!
Dyed your hair: NO.
Stolen anything: NO.

HAVE YOU EVER...
Cried over a girl/boy: YES!
Lied to someone: YES.
Been in a fist fight: NO.
Been arrested: NO.
Played a game that required removal of clothing: HA HA - A FEW!
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: YES!
Been caught "doing something": *blushes* YES!
Been called a tease: YES.
Gotten beaten up: NO.
Shoplifted: ONLY THE ODD 1p CHEW WHEN I WAS LIKE, 6.
If so, did you get caught: ONLY BY MY MUM.

THE FUTURE
Age you hope to be married: I'D LIKE TO BE MARRIED BY THE TIME I'M 30.
Numbers and names of children: 1 KID AT A TIME WILL BE FINE. NO MORE THAN 2. DON'T KNOW ABOUT NAMES YET.
What do you want to be when you grow up: ANYTHING TO DO WITH DIGITAL/GRAPHIC DESIGN.
What country would you most like to visit: AMERICA (AGAIN) - SO COOL THERE! CANADA - WOULD LOVE TO VISIT THE ROCKIES.



And here's something else I found...

THERESA
The name of Theresa has created a congenial nature with the desire to associate in friendship and understanding both socially and in the business world. Peaceful and settled conditions appeal to you and you are naturally desirous of having the security of a home, where your life could follow a definite pattern, and where you would not have to make major decisions. You find it difficult to take a definite stand, partly because you lack confidence, and also because you dislike any issues which create dissension between people. Procrastination is a weakness of your nature, causing an inability always to complete your plans or to concentrate for long. You need to see a concept presented completely in detail before you can understand it, and if you cannot understand it, you come to your own conclusion and often fail to listen to and reason out another's point of view. You resist being forced into change and could become almost impervious to new ideas. You desire refinement, understanding, and appreciation, yet sometimes your outward attitude does not reveal your innermost feelings, and thus you have never felt truly understood. Your name has given you a desire for heavy, rich foods, which cause sluggish digestion. You could suffer with constipation, stomach, or intestinal disorders, or disturbances in the fluid functions of the body.
 
     

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still no luck...   
04:53pm 06/08/2003
 
mood: mellow
music: Incubus - Pistola
Well it's been two days now, since I made a blurty. Still no luck with the finding a community thing. Maybe I shouldn't look so hard. Or maybe I should stop looking for just one 'right' community and instead join a few that seem cool. I dunno, eh? Miss indecisive!
Still, I've come across some interesting journals to read in my spare time. I like to read other people's, probably more than writing in my own! I need inspiration from others, I guess. I prefer journals that are updated every day. I like to read about the everyday-ness, not just the major events. It sounds really stalker-like but it's a better way of getting to know the person. I don't think I would ever comment or anything cos then it's like, entering their private life. And you don't know whether you are wanted. Oh I don't know!! I suppose it is the whole point! Public journals are for the public to read. So maybe it's not so stalker-like after all.
Anyway, I suppose I should update my interests list. It's a little thin in content at the moment. Plus I should really add one of those questionniare things about me to this journal. Just so you know ALL about me! Maybe that's not such a good idea.... only kidding!
 
     

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can't think of a subject...   
10:20pm 05/08/2003
 
mood: discontent
music: Incubus - Warning
So I need to update my journal with a more interesting subject that 'testing' - anyone who's reading this journal so far will have already left and locked the door behind them. So far I haven't really done much worth writing in this journal about! I've been having a look for a decent community to join. I haven't really found anything as yet, that's my cup of tea. I keep coming across either RPG communities, pro-ed communities or claiming communities. None of these are really what I wanna join. I want a community thats creative but not just about one thing (icons, layouts, etc.) I wanna see general creativeness come across, not just 'requests' from non-creative people! I wanna be with people that are deep but not necessarily depressed (I've been down that road - am recovering). I wanna see fun and laughter, but not sugary-sweet girlie girl chat, I wanna see real emotion, but not all pain and misery. Just real people that are themselves. Every blurter is real, don't get me wrong, it's just I haven't found a community that covers all that yet. They're either too specialised or way too random! I dunno! I suppose once I've found a subject that I care about then maybe a specialised one would be good. Just I'm not hugely passionate about anything in particular, except my boyfriend! I would like to be a passionate person one day! Ramble ramble ramble....
 
     

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my first entry...   
06:23pm 04/08/2003
 
mood: restless
music: unfortunately, I have Busted in my head
blah de blah de blaahhh. yes this is boring but the first page will only ever be a testing page. Gotta figure out how much of this journal I'm allowed to modify on a free account!
Ta ta for now.
 
     

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