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yea me n sean broke up. and im surprised at MYSELF cuz im upset about it. i love havin a bf and the whole i love you to0! thing bein said ..yea i kno ima dork but i jus NEED a bf right now, i love havin one. im sick of bein single n the good guys are always taken by the stupid, ugly, bitchy gurls who have N0 idea how amazing these guys are n they dont deserve them. soo yea we actually broke up online, wow great. i guess its probly better cuz it woulda hurt AL0T more on the phone. so we started to exchange sum hurtful words. well the fight started becuz he was bein a total dick. he was askin me how far we would go in the movies! wtf we were supposed to chill friday n hes askin how far we guna go .. um i saw u fuckin 3 times in my whole life asshole, chill the fuck out n now im gettin mad again! why did i even go out with him? yeaa i kno y, becuase im so desperate for sum1 to love me n for a boyfriend whos affectionate like he was. he was always all over me, sayin he loves me, tryin to hold my hand ..i WANT THAT! i need that...oh god, w/e im insane, nothin good like that happens to me...and wen it does it doesnt last too long. so anyway, hurtful words were said. but since he's so stupid, all's he had was to call me a bitch n a smut, etc, etc. i had a whole lot more shit to say to him ;] so i asked him 'why do u wear shirts that dont fit u? buy sum shirts that actually do! you wanna be ghetto pimp." and i told him he never shoulda passed 1st grade lmao i am G0OD! ya gotta admit it, i kno wat im doin wen it comes to ex boyfriends and ex boyfriends with a whole lotta anger n stupidity :] soo after a lil fun i had i said fuck u, fuck off bye. that was mainly it. god, he actually told me wanted a serious relationship n he was so happy he had a gurl like me. wow what a bunch of lies....that i was dumb enough to believe. i trust ppl wayyyy too easily. fuck trust, fuck lies. fuck all that stupid shit that always gets to me. im upset over all this, and i duno y. i liked the boy alot, i think. he did break my heart even if i didnt love him, he did. he told me now to cry...dum shit ..and i told him haha u think ima cry over ur dumass? ........and wat did i do? i cried. thats all i ever do anymore, whats wrong with me? hey, its not the end of the world! i gotta get cheerful n im guna be chillin with my best friend soon n now were both single, so its time to get sum new boys already. summer's still pretty much starting, kinda. got 2 months to have boyfriends n to PiMP it! hehe well lets hope the summer can only go up from here :: crosses fingers ::
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