Weed's Journal
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Date:2004-02-05 03:59
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Mood: cranky
Music:There's Gotta Be More To Life--Stacie Orrico

Today I was in a horrible mood. My Wednesday's are sooo long. I mean 10:10 to 6:35 with two one hour breaks. They just suck all of the energy out of me. I hate them. I have just been so depressed lately, but I don't know why. I get happy sometimes but I haven't just been especially happy in a long time. It feels like I am on withdrawal but of what I don't know. Lindsay just gave me some really good points. I probably needed to hear them.. She is definitely a day brighter upper. I feel like everyone uses me. People want me to download songs for them, print out their hw, let them copy my old work, blah blah. Maybe I am just over exaggerating what is going on. I do indeed love my friends but sometimes I think too much into small stuff....Maybe I am meant to be sad? Maybe my happiness is just a facade to hide my true inner despair. Am I longing for something? Maybe I have a chemical imbalance in my brain? Today has just been a rough day...I have test it seems like everyday for the rest of my life. I have an english test tomorrow, math test Monday and chem test Tuesday. I don't freak out over tests but I just think that this week and the beginning of next week are going to suck... And add some Colin on top and that makes the day even worse.. I don't know what do think or do about him. I swear every boy I have every talked to in my life puts me on a constant rollercoaster. this semester is definitely a lot slower than last semester.. I mean honestly I do nothing anymore but like hw.. life is sucking big time right now. maybe if I was a bit more emotional I would take my friend liz'a idea and just have a "good cry" and feel better. but that's not me. I need something else....

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Date:2004-01-29 03:01
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Security:Public
Mood: cranky
Music:Come Over--Aaliyah

Well nothing too special about today. I went to chemistry and me and Luke talked practically the entire time about nothing. He was trying to keep his balance on the bus without holding the handles. I donned the bus the biggest skateboard alive. it was funny..then. so after chem I went to eat with Susan and I ate about 2 bites of corn dog and 3 fries because I was doing my math hw. In math class I studied hardcore for my nutrition test. And I know people look as nutrition class as a joke but it is REAL in there. Food Pyramid my ass.. That test was slightly difficult. He is very knit picky about his question which sucks. After that I went back to the dorm and me, Liz, and Clarissa went to look at apartments. I think Crossing Place is where we are going to live. I even got the guy to give us free t-shirts. Cool. After that I messed around and didn't study for my Sex test like I should have. I had the entire crew in here at 10:30 watching Dave Chapelle. It was really funny even the part when he gave this white family from the 60's the last name Niggar and used it punfully throughout the sketch. I was cracking up. I invited Colin over to watch but that was his male bonding show in Morrill so I had my own female bonding in my room watching Dave... I then studied my Sex with Lindsay and Susan waiting for him to call me so we could "kick it." He called but he was sleeping and I was studying so I didn't get to enjoy each other's company today. Susan and Lindsay were hounding me about it but I get really shy about stuff like that so I didn't say too much....I don't understand what kind of relationship we have... I can't explain it but kicking it with him has more benefits than a good job.. ifyaknowhatimean.. jk. I am pretty pissed that I have 2 test back to back then I realized that I have at least one test every week until spring break.. that sucks man...

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Date:2004-01-28 03:57
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Mood: thankful
Music:Encore--Jay-Z

Well well I haven't updated in about 3 months, but actually not to much has changed. I had a pretty decent first semester. I had 2 A's a B and a B+. A 3.65 GPA isn't half bad I hear. I wanted a 3.77 but my English teacher did not give A's and my math teacher told me I was about 1 point from a b+. But it's all good. Today was a pretty good day. I start my Tuesday Thursday classes at 2:10 which absolutely rocks. so I sleep til about 12:30. I love it. I didn't go to sleep after hanging out with B. Mells and Colin (mostly him though) last night until 4 in Hotel Morril. They both were pledging this first semester so they were "busy". It was fun. I miss hanging out with boys. They are more fun and more down to earth, but since I live an a girls dorm with f'ed visitation rules. hanging out with boys is limited. The boy I hung out with last semester Luke got back with his gf this weekend and boy was he excited. He really liked this girl and I am very happy for him. He is awesome smiling and happy now so I am very happy for him even though I know this well basically get rid of our fun time, it's for a good reason.
This semester is already very different than last semester. It kind of started to change before we left but now everything has turned 180 degrees. The old crew is slowly but surely breaking up. It used to be me, Erica, Nat, Megan, Susan, and Cassy. That has definitely changed. After Susan birthday last year her and Ryan have been damn near inseparable. She tells me to "embrace" him but I think he just steals her away. Erica was talking to this guy that she kicked it with but they don't kick it anymore so now she hangs with Natalie. Natalie is in her own little world and is totally oblivious to the things that see says, but that's another story. Megan and Cassy kick it hardcore now. She taking her to Lee County this weekend. I mean I don't think I have hung out with Megan one night since I have been back. Reminder: This is week 3. So she is always over this kid named Patrick's house. And I myself also to kick it with some different people, but I still talk and chit chat with those available in the old crew. I talk to Liz, Courtney, and Clarissa now. Those are possibly my apartment mates for next year. I talked to my mom about it and she seems to be pretty cool about it. She just wants me to send her the paper with all the numbers and garbage on it. That should be fun. Liz is in my major so we are going to try and set up the exact same schedule so we won't have to rip and run all day. The girls are really fun and are really a nice group of girls. I hope I can live there. So the crew is breaking up but it's all good. If we were to never hook up and hang out every again I personally would never forget the fun I had or the craziest girls I ever met my first semester of college. Much love to all of them.

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Date:2003-10-29 18:00
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Mood: good
Music:Splash Waterfalls--Ludacris

What's the Deal?

Situation #1- Kelly and Stacy/ Haley's Talk

To make a long story short basically Stacy nor Kelly talk to me anymore. It was a sudden transition but I was cool throughout. Stacy and Kelly got real cool and started hanging out hardcore and I would go to talk to Stacy and this awkwardness would linger in the air and I would just leave because it felt weird. So then me and Kelly got cool but she just wanted too much of my time and she always wanted to go outside and smoke cigarettes and I just wasn't down for that U know. I do do work and stuff and she was against drinking and I mean I am no alcoholic but it is a every weekend thing. lol. So something happened and she would get mad at me and I was like..whatever and she was like I hate bitches. and I just walked away and then she started being an asshole and she always hangs out in the lobby with the RA's so when I wouldn't hang out with her she would say loud "YOU GOING TO DRINK IN MEGAN'S ROOM?" I gave her the ugliest looks and I was like..no Kelly. that type stuff is so childish I can't stand it. I can't stand people like that. So I went in Stacy's room one day and her away message was like I need a ride to Nashville so she could get to Memphis and see her mom. I was like. well Susan's going I'll see if U can ride. So I got this broad a ride and then U know what? when she got to Memphis safely she called Kelly? Who Who got her the ride? I just don't understand. I was just like. umm hmm I see how people are. So I went and talked to my great suitemate Haley about it. So she had real good ideas and she was like U need to talk to Stacy. SO I saw Stacy and she said hey as she looked on the ground and ran away and Kelly was in her doorway and she just closed the door. I was like..ok. So like 2 days later she was passing out papers to all the suites and she came to mine and she was like. How have U been? and I was like good. and I am glad to see you didn't die on the way to Memphis since U didn't call me and I got U the ride. She didn't say anything and we just tripped and then Crazy Ashley came and talked to us about her big bday bash and she used my bonus bucks to buy fruit punch for the hunch punch.
(I know I changed subjects but they are all related.) So we sat in the hallway and we all talked about getting drunk and they talked about "blazing" So Ashley invited me to the party at 12 am but I had a test so I studied til about 12:18 and I walked to her room and when I walked by 2 RA's are at her door. I am like uh oh and the entire hallway smells like Vodka or Everclear so I go talk to Suzanne who lives on my floor and she tells me about how they got a Noise Disturbance and they got a search warrant to search the room and they didn't find any alcohol because they poured it all out. It was crazy drama and they found nothing and I didn't get any and my money went for the party..darn it.. haha stanky RA's. I have decided that the cooler RA's are on the higher floors. 9-12 or all awesome. My new RA/friend is Michele. She is a sophomore who is the RA on 11 and she's really cool and spastic and just a nice person. We have started hanging out and it's all good. She asked me to live with her next year. I was like. cool man. She introduced me formally to the other "brown" RA Lana. Lana can come off as a bia bia but she is really cool.

Situation #2- Where is my husband?

Luke is my new guy friend. He is definitely the number one candidate for the my mixed babies daddy. He's a cool guy. Me and him went to eat lunch one day, the haunted corn maze, and we studied psychology in the library at like 1 am. I was like hey let's go to the library and I'll help U study psych with Megan. He's cool. We talk online most of the time. He decided that we should sit together in Chem lecture. I was like cool. So he waits for me to get there. how nice of him.. I think we are studying for chem sometime this week. fun fun.

Kalen is so sexy. I mean he really is. After deciding not to talk to Colin anymore I decided that he was the new sex symbol. We flirt when we see each other and stuff. But I doubt if it goes any further than friends. He is a little to spicy and attractive for my taste. oh well.

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Date:2003-10-29 17:09
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Mood: cynical
Music:It's About Life--Lillux

Well I'll do the Colin situation first. Well sometime last week we were talking on the phone and he was like let's talk seriously or whatever and i was like"are u sure u don't want to do this in person?" and he was like he didn't care and i was like. ok we'll talk now so basically we talked about last year and the haricut incident and him working the graveyard shift and then we got to the present and i was like. ok what happened at the premier? I was like so why did you try and talk to Krystal? He was like..I was getting the number for someone else. And he laughed.. I was like...who? He was like i can't say and i was like the only person u were at the club with was Tim.. I, knowing all parts of ths story and seeing straight the boy bullshit i was like . SO why would Tim talk to Tiffany about you and Krystal talking if he wanted to talk to her?? There was an uncomfortable silence and he sad damn.. I was like.SOO do you want to tell me another story now? Of course you guys all know me and u know i don't get hyped up or raise my voice over anything important. my nonchalantless kicked him in the ass... So then he basically said that he talked to krystal to get my attention back. I was like you know this plan would have worked on some stupid girl. I waslike. it was a pretty good plan because they definitely called me like good friends should and told me the story. I was like.. you expected me to call you and cuss u out huh? He was like no. I was like you know that's not me. He was like yea. I was like you know i saw through ur plan and KNEW u wanted me to call u back and that's why i never called u back. By this time my Susan walked in and i was like. what time are u leaving and he was like in an hour and i was like can i call u back? he was talking all sad by now and he was like.. u getting off the phone with me? i was like yea i got company. bye. and i hung up. I stood up and started pounding on my chest. I was like..Susan i am REAL and i got him sooo good. ahaha I am the shizzle. So i call him back and he's not in the room and then i call him like 2 days later. I really want to hear what he has to say. so ironically he is standing outside of my domr (seriously guys i think he stalks me a little. i see him every now and i never saw him this much an the first entire month and a half of school.) So he takes me to this lil back cove so we can talk. we sit there and chit chat and he comes breathing in my face and i just turn my head. lol. He's crazy. i declare. no smoochies from me. He can have my cheeks as long as i have nothing to do with it. so we sit out there for about and hour and then we leave. He never calls me unless he sees me so i saw him in the UC a couple of days later and i nod my head and this girl is like "HEY COLIN" i am like oh goodness he's got a groupie right next to me so i casually ask. how do u know colin? and she is like i met him in Veronica's room.. I am like Veronica's room. VB? what is he doing in there? i am like..cool. and then her friend Kim is like yea Shana like him. even COOLER! i thought. So we leave and i look at my phone and he spotted me out like half an hour before i saw him and he called me and left a message... so then i call VB that night to find out why he was in there. we start off casually but i get to the point and apparently he was just up there with some of his guy friends. but i could have sworen he wasn't supposed to be in girls' rooms....hmmm.. Then VB tells me that he is talking to Ladavia (yes the one from MDL ladies) and i am like that's it i am never talking to him again. and i thanked her for the info and hung up. i think i am destined to be a nun..

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Date:2003-10-27 04:00
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Mood: cranky
Music:Milkshake--Kelis

I really have a buttload of things to talk about. I keep having to type them without details because i don't have time let's see what i am going to talk about really soon. Erica D. drunk off her ass..Pictionary-Charedes (sp?), Kelly again, me and Haley's talk. Stephen D. Taylor!!, and Michele.. I think that's about it. Where is my husband? Well i won't update tomorrow I have a Anthropology exam and the majority of it is on monkeys. I think i would rather be shot in the toe then to learn about some damn sifaka monkeys and their prehensile tails!! I want to go to sleep, but i have to finish this english paper. I might just give it the middle finger and get in the bed. We'll see...

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Date:2003-10-23 01:03
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Mood: blank
Music:Roun' the Globe--Nappy Roots

Man I haven't updated in who knows when. Let's see what has been happening. I can't remeber everything that has happened but I know that school sucked really badly before we went on Fall Break. I was in DESPERATE need of a break. I didn't want to go to class and it sucked. I decided the Monday before Fall Break to go home. I asked Erica's sister to take me and she said yes and was very straight and happy about it so I wasn't too worried. Tuesday Erica comes in my room and is like. My mom doesn't want us to come home. I am like WHAT?! She doesn't want Ebony to drive with me in the car, but that was never actually stated. Now they are blaming me going on Erica caring about me more than her sister and that she put her in this situation. I am like..goodness gracious. Leave my ass here if it is going to start all this ruckus. Erica;s about to cry and I am just laughing because that is just how i am. I already had everything planned I talked t omy Aunt Lisa and she already had my g-mom cooking me some spaghetti and fried chicken and I was going to surprise my mom and just be in the house when she got there. It was going to be funny. So Erica updates me on the drama eveyr hour or so so finally Ebony grows some balls and is like..we are going! be ready at 11:30. I then realized that the Dawkin family is crazy and that I will definitely need to find another ride next time just because it would be less trouble. I talked to some other people and Luk, candidate for my mixed babies dad, said he would take me but he had to bring some guy back so I would need to find a way back. I had the girl Ashley from my math class to take me home if possinle, actually she offered so it was all good.

On Wednesday I took my Math quiz early and turned in my english paper after Chem lecture and ran to the dorm so we could leave at 11:30. The ride was fine. I slept most of the way and got home and me and Lisa watched Oprah and then my mom came in and I was just sitting on the couch and she started screaming it was funny. I missed my crazy mom. haha. She took me shopping and I ate good food. Kristin, AJ, Kimery, Kandace, Joseph, and Travis all came over my house at one point. I went to the doc. Found out i had a viral infection. I nicknamed my VI ! I am soo cool! Then I saw Lisa and it was cool. It was not too weird. We saw Texas Chainsaw Massacre and she spent the night at my house and she left at 7 am because I got out of the bed and she couldn't go back to sleep without me in it. I went to the beauty shop and then I saw Kill Bill with Kristin, Joseph, and Travis at Peabody Place. It was good. I saw Robert Watson!! Where has he been? I was just talking about him that day and I saw him. I was happy to see my ol prom date. He looked good even though he was dressed like a bum. It's all good. We exchanged new cell numbers and then i went in and saw Kill Bill. It was really bloody and different, but it was good and I definitely have to see the next one in Feburary. My mom took me shopping and i bought some new sneaks and two lil outfits and 2 paris of gray pants some jeans and a couple shirts and other stuff. It was good.

Erica and Ebony came and got me about 11:30 and we left and luckily Kimery's mom bought me this eye thing that blocks out light when u put it over ur eyes and i wore that this time and i slept just about until we got to Knoxvegas. lol.. We when and ate at McAllister's and i was sick and didn't eat and i said hey to Stacy who was talking to Kelly as usual which makes it awkard and then i left. That's a new subject. I have a couple of subjects i plan to write journal entries on....Susan Sapp. My in-depth convo and post convos w/ and about Colin Fitzgerald...the Kelly Stacy situation...Kalen. ah Kalen. First i'll update about the lame part of school...school work. haha

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Date:2003-10-14 02:23
Subject:Recap
Security:Public
Mood: high
Music:I Like the Way You Move--Big Boi

Quick recap...

Monday- boring classes

Tuesday- boring classes

Wednesday-boring class, flag football, and me and Kelly did the sumo wrestling thing with the fat people suits. It was pretty cool. Except for she cheated and Leslie and Stacy decided to jump on me to. I think they gave me a concussion. on the rizzle

Thursday-More boring classes. Lab. We (Susan, Megan, Cassy, and I) went to Tonic the club. We had some goodies before the party. That made Tonic 10 times better. I got all the white guys Susan got all the black guys and Cassy and Megan got numbers and some "loving" from some other guys. Susan was toasted. along with everyone else.

Friday- Went to Frat Row. after boring classes. Had some more goodies. Partied with Megan's friends from ETSU. Met Megan's man at Buffalo Wild Wings..

Saturday- What a day... The game didn's start til 7:45 and we started pregaming about 5. I pressed out my hair which took like an hour and a half. It looked out except the top so i put a fitted hat on backwards. I was looking like a hot hot hot girl. Lol. Went to "pregame" We had some other guests at the pregaming event. Jack Daniels and Captain Morgan came along. So me and Jack and Captain hung out heavily with our friend coke. Then Susan came in and she wanted Jack by himself. So we had Jack and chased it with Captain Morgan and Coke. And by this time I could no longer see straight and I really wanted a Hot Pocket. Walking to my room was the hardest thing ever. I did better with my eyes closed. Me and Susan had extremely good seats I-6. We couldn't walk throught the lobby so we got off on 2 and took the steps. We went and got me some chick fil a and somehow I walked to the game. We got there and i couldn't keep my eyes open. I definitely passed out at the Vols Georgia game. I slept the entire 1st half. It was nuts. We were right next to the band and I heard nothing. Apparently 15 people asked was I ok. I woke up and we were getting killed. We were on the jumbotron 3 times though. We went out to Frat Row after that. It was ok. I came in and I talked to Michele the RA on 11 until 5 am. That was nuts.

Sunday- Got up and went to A dramatic monologue thing with Erica. THen I had alot of HW especially English to do but I can't remember what I was doing. so about 11 Megan and company decided that i need to forget the HW and go to Cotton Eyed Joe's with them. We stayed there until like 230 am. We did really cool line dances and there was a body shots man there. It was the craziest thing i have ever seen. He motioned me over there and he had a cherry and I tried to take it out of his hands but instead he fed it to me. It was nuts. I came home and stayed up til 5 doing hw.

Monday- Got up in 4 hours and went to boring chemistry lec. Found out in english that a revision to her was an actually rewrite of the entire paper. She's a nut. Went to math and partially understood. Found out we have a quiz wed. That's wonderful. My fall break will be great since i will have my entire suite and possibly the entire floor to myself. Cooool. I had lunch with Luke today. That was fun. He's a cool guy,

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Date:2003-10-06 02:26
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Mood: mellow
Music:ABC--Jackson 5

Well we get on the road and we definitely don't know where we are going and Megan's like..oh yea I have never driven here before..great. We drove and drove and I DJed the whole time. She told me she enjoyed my selection. I tried to mix up some talking and some music. We were driving at like 11 pm and it is just us and this Explorer on the road. So the Explorer starts playing games with us and cutting us off so of course Megan retaliates. We laugh haha and then we are like..man we need some gas. We thought the game was over. The Explorer on the other hand did not. They followed us as we got off. We turn. They turn. We are going down the street and we, mostly Megan, was freaking out about them following us. I am just laughing. She is like if the follow us into this gas station we are fucking flying out of here. So we turn into they..turn into the gas station and we FLY out of there and go down the street. It was nuts. We go all the way down the street get out and get some gas and as MEgan is about to get back in the car they drive to the same gas station as us. and I am like..ohh shizzah. Then we get back on the interstate and they finally turn off somewhere. thank goodness We keep driving and Megan creeps to like 85 and I am like the speed limit is 65 and then she would slow down a little bit. So we get to Nashville, Illinois and then she gets the party started and buys some water and pours it out and pours in some Bacardi Razz. We get to her cousin's house and wait on him for like an hour and to pass away the time we take some shots of Razz. I don't know what I was thinking but I forgot that this stuff was pure. So I took this huge gulp and I was like..ohh goodness and it burned all the way down. I was like.ohh I need something to eat or else I am going to puke my brains out. She takes some more and then some guy name Nick pulls up and he looks cute until he gets out of the car and he is a little too thick for our taste. Then another car pulls up and it is these 2 girls and this guy, It's really dark but this guy seems to be really cute, yet a little short. He dressed really preppy which I think is just soo sexy. So he comes over there and talks to us and he gives me and Megan hugs and he tells me I am a good hugger because I do the chest pat when I am finished. lol. He is really nice looking. Really. But he is there with some chick. grrr Her cousin Mitchell finally arrives and he is really cute, but a little too cute for me. He kind of reminded me of Zach Morris. He tells us the party got busted and then we go into Mitchell's house and we hang out and I see the cute guy, Eric, get up and he has on these really tight jeans and these jeans show his extremely nice ass. I mean the nicest I have ever seen on a white boy in my life. I was impressed. He got extra points for that. Then we hang out and we decide that we are all tired and we start watching the man apart with Vin. We sit on the couch and we fall asleep. Mitchell was telling me and Megan we could have our on bed and that just seemed so absurd to me. I always just sleep with my friends. I mean I guess we don't know each other that well but I promise not to rape her. So I get up and go get in the bed and then Megan comes in later and popped me in the bed and woke me up to tell me she was going to sleep. so unnecessary. So I was sleeping good then she wakes me up and I see Eric and she is like. we have to take Eric home because Mitchell is in there going at it with Brandy. I am like..grr whatever so he helps me find my shoes and I can't find my jacket so I just wrap up in a blanket. We go outside and then we take him home and he is walking up to his door and I was like.. Megan I think I would be pissed if he didn't have such a nice ass. She just starts cracking up. We get back and go to sleep and then they wake me up to go meet her family blah blah. We get some lunch and meet his friend Engley (that's his last name) he is fairly attractive. He was a big time farm boy and he had to rush and eat because he had to go "disc" a field. wtf! We then go back and take a nap I think. Then we wake up and we are trying to find a party and apparently some pot. We went and ate at little Nashville. I was feigning for some chicken so we went there and it was pretty good. We leave there and go back and get ready blah blah. Hang out some more and went to a bonfire party. then we just went to Nick's and watched Jackass movie and ate pizza and took shots. I took like 4 and I think my body started to shake. That's when I knew I had enough. lol. Then we just came back to Mitch's and went to sleep. Megan slept on the couch and I had the bed. I am starting to think she thinks I have cooties. I also now know that I hate to sleep by myself if I know I could be sleeping with anyone. I hate it and plus it's cold. I need that extra body heat. I slept all alone in someone else's house and someone else's bed. We woke up and left. Sleeping in a basement definitely eliminates the whole wake up with the sun thing. I figured it was like 10 am. It was more like 1 pm. We got up and talked with her family and her g-mom decided to be the paparazzi and was just snapping pics left and right and we took one with me, Megan, engley, and Mitchell. Hopefully that one will turn out cute. So we leave and now we have to go backwards with the forward directions. umm fun. We go and this is a 440 mile and it is supposed to be like 7 and a half hour or 8 hour trip. Well me and Megan decided that we were tired and ready to go home. We are driving and I am looking for cops because if they pull us over Megan is fa sho going to jail since she has open and closed liquor in her trunk. We are just driving and jamming and by the time we know it we are in Tennessee and we are like oh shit we went through 2 states in 2 hours and 30 minutes. We got to Knoxville in less then 6 hours. lmao. We also figured out that a little Saturn can get up to 103 mph. haha don't ask how.. Fun times. It was a pretty good time in little Nashville. I enjoyed myself. Good times good times..

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Date:2003-10-06 01:43
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Mood: ecstatic
Music:On the Road Again

Ok so nothing really interesting happened on thursday i went to lame lab. Then I was supposed to go out to tonic since my UT id has October 1st as my bday but I didn't go. Oh well. I had to get ready to go out of town with Megan the next day so I decided to wash clothes. I hadn't washed clothes in forever so i washed like 50 pounds of clothes. That was fun. Then everyone left and I hung out in Megan's room because everyone on my floor was gone. Friday i woke up and went to English and that was lame. It was like 10 people in the class. I was number 5. Then I went to Math for no reason. I never learn anything in there. My whole back section was debating on leaving. We stayed though but it was definitely worthless. I came to the dorm and hung out with Kelly and Stacy for a while before I left they all were like don't go don't go. I was like whatever kids I am so going. So I take a shower and pack and blah blah and then we get on the road.....

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Date:2003-10-01 03:28
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Mood: energetic
Music:Bootyz in Motion CD

Let's recap...Saturday we had an incredible football game. I was on the 50 yard line and we stood up the whole game. I hated that but the game was great. I sat with Haley, Brittany, Amanda, and me. We left the game and we were like. WHOO HOO let's party. I was so excited about the game and everything so I definitely was ready for a party. I kept calling people and everyone was seeming leaving me. I sat in the hallway with Kelly and we talked. She's a cool girl. So I finally caught up with Susan and then Erica and I was looking for Megan but she was already gone. So we get ready and I go to Megan's room to talk to Rachel and she is just way way drunk and she was like. Do u want some of this crown royal. I was like..yea. She was like here you can have some. So I used one of my cups that I left down there and she gave me a nice amount. I took this thermostat and walked up the one flight of steps and I took it to Susan's room because that was the place where the post game pre party drinking was happening. I then went and ate some chunky soup and 2 bags of Doritos so I could have some food on my stomach. I like swallowed that and then went to Susan's room when Erica finally got ready. We get in there and she has some Bacardi O3 waiting on us. I was like. cool. So we started off with a few sips of that then we all had 2 shots of Crown chased by some Coke then we downed the Bacardi because it was already like 1 and we had to go. Then me and Susan go to Megan's room and we have some Parrot Bay, which is this really good coconut rum that doesn't taste like alcohol at all and that's how it gets u. I had 3 shots of that too. SO in about 20 minutes I had consumed a lot of liquor. A lot more then usual.... I before this previous date had never been drunk. Got close once but still wasn't drunk. Well it definitely happened Saturday. I was gone in 10 minutes. I mean I was having the best time of my life in the elevator. I even chose to sit down once. It was crazy. "We" called the blinky to come pick us up because the party was too far away to walk. We wait for it seems like forever for the bus and by this time all of us are like delirious. Apparently drunks are just really happy people. I just wanted to just hug and hold people all night. So my hugging partner for the night was Megan. haha. We went to this party we thought but in my afterthoughts I just realized that I just stood in a parking lot for 3 hours, but I thought the party was real fun... I think I was supposed to throw up because of the brown and clear liquor mix but I didn't. So this drunk guy tried to kiss me blah blah and then we walked back at like 4 something and Megan's cussing out cars because they are too loud. We went to gus' to eat then we came home and I took 2 Excedrin and drank some water and went to sleep.

The next day to everyone's surprise amber has no hangover but my stomach is just a rumbling away. We get up and go eat and take Jessica back to this girl's apartment so her and Joey can go back to lee county. I think he was mad at me because we didn't hang out.. I think I did some hw and something else I don't remember.

Monday I went to classes and it was cold outside. I think it sucks we u start ur day walking 4000 feet in 40 degree weather. It's just not fair. I went to chem lecture and tried to stay awake. Went to English and had fun. Got the old chem exam from Scott.. Went to Math and hated every moment. Had lunch with Allison. that was nice. Came home and studied for chem, went to vball practice..went to Stacy's room and laughed with her and Leslie and Kelly for a while about bob's..lmao

Tuesday went to anthropology. skipped scholarship class, made advising appointment, went to breakfast with Haley, Brittany, and Hopper..went to sleep til 2. woke up went to discussion. stressed over test. me, luke (candidate for mixed babies daddy) and shana studied in the black cultural center for 4 hours... went to eat with them.. went to test at 7. ACED THE BAD BOY!! oh yea. then came home and studied for math quiz.. helped Megan study for psych test....ate pizza with Kelly... killed my guy in the assassins game (thanks Jason!) took caffeine pill..am typing journal because I can not go to sleep (thanks Megan...)

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Date:2003-09-27 15:32
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Mood: thankful
Music:I'm Loving It--Justin Timberlake

I decided to wash my hair today. What was I thinking? I start washing my hair about 4 something. Our shower was clogged so I took a shower in Erica's room. I washed my hair in their shower and since I have no idea what I am doing I got soooo much soap in my eyes I thought at one point I was going to die. I don't think I conditioned it as well as I should have..I finished and then it was just all cute and curly and then I went in my towel to show Stacy. She was just mesmerized by it. She thought that I should just leave it natural like that. I think not. Then she told me to do it in her room. I was like ok whatever. I made the mistake because I didn't do enough to it when it was wet and that screwed me from the get go. I then tried to braid it and untangle it. That all sucked. It sucked. The whole hair washing experience sucked. Just to make a long story short I think I worked on my hair for about 6 hours before I was completely finished. It didn't even look bad though. The top part looked at lot better then the back probably because I got tired when I was doing the back and I couldn't see it. I got dressed and me, Susan, Erica, Liz, Jo, and Courtney went out again. Susan tells me that they have some jello shots in their room so I am like cool. let's go. The girl who made the jello shots was like yea it's like a little jello and 2 and half shots of Captain Morgan's in each cup. I was like.. cool. Me and Erica had 3 each. I tried to tell Erica she was a lightweight but she thought she was just cool. I was like all right Erica... I suddenly just got really excited. I was just happy to be alive. I mean I just wanted to breathe the fresh air and take it all in. I was just happy. I was just dancing and laughing and having a good time..not drunk. just happy. We left and went to the lacrosse party. I just finished my hair so I wore a skirt and this little black Roxy shirt. I was "hot" as Haley told me. I went to the party and the first person I see is Kalen. So I speak and he gives me a good hug and tells me that he is intoxicated I was like. I know. We chit chat and we are like yea call me if you find a good party and he is like don't forget about me. I was like. I won't see ya. I go back and find Erica and the crew and we talk with this guy Tony from our scholarship class and we all just sit there and talk and then I saw my "football man" He's the guy in our class that plays football. He's cute in his own way. He way dark but he has beautiful dimples. We talk to him and he talks to us for a long time then we exchange phone numbers blah blah. Now his name is Ben the football man. Then I see Susan who wants me to hook up with her friend Russell. We chit chat but then I leave and come back and Russell is gone and there is a cute little skinny guy Brian standing there. I talk to him for a while and he puts his arm on my shoulder and we still talk and he was like..you wanna make out? I was like no. He was like ok good. I was like what if I said yes he was like I would probably be hesitate because ur cute and I would think you were playing. I was like yea and I'd seem like a slut. He was like yea. So he left and then I saw this guy Jason from my math class I have always thought that he was cute. He has a that surfer boy look to him. I like that and he wear his hat cocked. Most white boys don't do that. So we talk and he is completely drunk but we have a decent convo. Then he is like yea and I like that guy and he points to Kalen. I was like. yea I like him too he's a cool guy. So we go talk to him about surfing and skating and he says he likes my Roxy shirt and then he leaves and then we stay a little longer before me, Susan, and Erica go get something to eat from Krystal's. blah blah. We can't find anymore parties and then we just go back to the room and go to sleep. Oh yea before we went to the lacrosse party Joey called me and told me to come to Buffalo Wild Wings and talk to him so we drop by and I see Ashley and Lauren there and then I see Joey and I just say hey and tells him to call me tomorrow.haha.

I woke up today around 1 something. I am so happy we have a night game tonight. I woke up thinking that then I talked to Megan and we went to eat brunch. We met up with her, Rachel her roomie, Brittany Hooper, Amanda, and some other girl that lives on the 2nd floor. We were eating and just having a good time then it started raining. And they are like let's just run to the dorm. It's not far but still I worked on this hair for too damn long yesterday to get in wet. Me and Megan get to the door at the same time and we see the rain and we have a HELLLL NO in unison the moment we saw the rain. I lucky had on spandex and some Spongebob boxers, so I took my boxers off and put them on my head. I wasn't going to go but I was like whatever everyone else left me. I had on sneakers thank God. So I put those boxers on my hand and I took off. I passed that people who started before me and rain in the lobby. This girl's mom was like, "does she have shorts on her head?" It was funny. Then I rented Love and Basketball from the SCRA and me and Stacy are supposed to watch it when she gets off of desk duty at 4. Fun. I think it is soo cool how like other girls envy my RA. They are always like man I wish my RA was cool like that. Stacy saw Brittany Hopper in the same shirt she had on last night come in today and she was like..Hey cool shirt. Brittany was like shut up in a playing way. That's cool. I am lucky to have a kick ass RA. I also love my suitemates. I woke up and Haley left me a bag of Reese's cups on my desk. aww i love Haley. I love this school. I love the people here. I am enjoying almost every minute of my time here, except for the work time. I love UT!!

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Date:2003-09-27 03:20
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Mood: sleepy
Music:I'll Be--Edwin McCain

Let's see the day after this little incident in Megan's room. Thursday rolled around and I went to Anthropology. I really didn't feel like going but I went anyway. I am happy I went. Today of all days, our teacher decides to go over every damn bone in the human body in about 45 minutes. I was like..wtf.. Then she started talking about some primates and she completely lost me there. I just zoned out. After that I went home and went to sleep until it was time to go to lab. I really didn't pay too much attention to the lab lecture and then we had a quiz. I think I got a couple of points taken off because of gay sig figs. I was sitting next to one of my mixed baby daddies candidates Luke. what a cutie. He told me that we need to study. I was like. I know buddy.. I know. Then we went to lab and me and Allison actually stayed in the lab the entire 3 hours. We were lost for like minutes which got us completely behind. It sucked. So we made up our numbers for our experiment so the teacher wouldn't take points off. Ha. Then I came home and knew I had to go to that stupid health thing for my little scholarship. I went with Erica and got there 5 minutes late looking like a bum. We sit in the back and I spot out Nickyla and Kalen on the front row. Mostly Kalen but Nickyla too. I ask Erica does she want to sit up there she says no and I move up there and I talk to Nickyla because all the guys are gone so when they get back I sat next to Trey and Kalen. They are cool guys. My little community service friends. So we just sit there and chit chat and laugh and then I run back because I always attend the little gay programs at South Carrick because I support my RA. I went and it was like 25 girls in there. This one was called get drunk with ur RA. Ha. So I went and then I saw Stacy and she threw the water filled condom at me because I slapped her with it and threw it in her room before I left for the meeting. It was funny. Then I threw it back at her and it "busted" on her leg. Hilarious. I sit through the lame program and have 2 virgin strawberry daiquiris. They were good and they were talking about date rape and the ruthies they put in there so they put Tic-Tacs in some drinks. Mine had one so I was like."YEA I GOT DATE RAPED" I thought it was funny. I get back to my room and Susan is like Amber do you wanna go to the Edwin McCain concert. Stacy said something about it so I was like sure why not. Me, her, Erica, Jo, Liz, and Courtney pile in Susan's Camry and go. It was a great show. It was a junkie there acting a fool and that doubled the entertainment of the show. haha. I saw Stacy there with her friend Tiffany aka Missy Sex Pots. haha She was surprised I knew that nick name. it was funny. We left and dropped Erica off at the dorm and we went to a kegger and then some guy's apartment and hung out until about 2:30. It was ok. better then being in my dorm room. I come back and go to sleep and walk up a hundred times before I have to go to English. I skip my bath and me and Brittany walk to the bus stop. I try and do my English reading on the bus which almost turns out to be a disaster because I almost fell. haha I get to class and the English class crew..me, Emily, Lizzy, and Krista are like yelling something at me and laughing at me because I am trying to do my English right in front of English class. Fun times. We go to English and have a nice convo about schools and how the area depends on the school's budget and junk like that. We then talked about our favorite high school memory. I had so many, but the one that stuck out was when I won the pie eating contest in 11th grade. It was great. Then our teacher said her favorite memory was when she was in the 1st grade and a little white boy walked up to a little black boy and said,"Nigger" and she said the little black boy stood straight up and puffed out his chest and said, "White Trash." Everyone was laughing. I was thinking she was completely insane but that's just me. lol Then I went me and Allison went to eat and we saw Stacy walking and I was like..you never walk? and she said that she slept through her lab and that she couldn't make it up. That sucks because she was talking to a girl on our floor. That sucks. I went to Math Class and got my test grade. There were 34 F's on this test, and yes I was a member of the F club, BUT I did good on my online hw which helps ur grade so I got a 72...that's a C hahah YEA! I passed. I tried to pay attention but I really just hate that class. I went home and today was the day I planned on washing my hair. ahahaha that's a good story.

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Date:2003-09-26 02:20
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Mood: blank
Music:I Learned --Whitney Houston

Well let's see what's new. Monday night my wonderful, grand, terrific RA Stacy Leigh Nale, won RA of the month out of all of the RA's all over campus. YEA! She definitely deserves it, even though I joke about how she shouldn't have got it....She was so happy and apparently she thought she won Miss America because they say that she acted A FOOL when they announced that she won. I watched finished Watching Meet Joe Black.. it was ok. Brad is a hottie..definitely. I woke up and skipped my shower before 8 o clock classes that has been just so common lately and I went to Anthropology and she posted our grades on the lil bulletin board. I was looking for my social security number but I didn't see it then someone pointed out that there was an extra row just mixed in on the paper. I found mine and I couldn't believe it. I stared at it for a while. I was looking at the other grades and the majority of the people didn't do too hot on the test which made me somewhat nervous. But I found my name and found a nice 94 next to it along with 100% of all the other grades. Fantastic. I was confident about the test anyway but I was happy with the grade. The girls I sit by got a 78 and a 62 respectful. that sucks. they said they didn't study anyway..So that brightened my day then I went to the lil stank scholarship class. It's fun but I still wish I didn't have to go. It was funny I had them in there cracking up because they were talking about how football players don't have enough time. I was like that's LIE I see Todd everyday and I talked about how our lil suite decided that we ALL dated Todd blah blah.. It was funny. Then I came home, took a nap, woke up, skipped shower chance number 2, studied for my chemistry quiz, and studied on the bus. I think I did pretty good.
Wednesday I went to chemistry lecture on time and talked to Dustin, Emily, and Lizzy. That was fun. Then we went to English and discussed some stupid passage we had to read. I love college because you don't get conduct grades. It's pretty awesome. My teacher just tells me to shush..haha..I went to math class early hoping one of my friends' was there but I stopped coming in there when me and Allison started hanging out so I think she doesn't like me as much as she did before. aww. So I sat in there and did my math hw from like 2 days earlier and then my girl Jenny Bell came in and she was like let's not go to math. I was like..cool. It was pretty funny because Allison said she wasn't coming and I called her and told her to bring her ass to class and she didn't answer so as I was leaving she was like screaming at me and calling me a pus. It was funny. We walked to Jenny's car and we went to my dorm and hung out for a while and then I had to go to my scholarship meeting so she dropped me off in front of the UC and I went to the meeting and talked to my lil scholarship woman. She's cool. She told me that I had to eat more and that I needed to come to the AAA Movie Night. I'll only go if Kalen comes. haha. It's so sad. I hate boys who are cute and everybody wants him. That's why I would never talk to him. He is like too wanted for me. He has dreads, he cute, smart, and he sings and dances and he gets 25 extra points from me because he is light skin...yum yum. So then I walk back and I saw Stacy and we went and rented "Fear" and we watched it and then Leslie came in and watched it. All three of us were definitely spooning in the lil twin bed. haha and we kept pushing Leslie off. Funny. Then we went to the get free ice cream from the 4th floor with Ross. Then we went back and finished Fear and I went and saw that Jenny called me and we went to Megan's room. (BTW.. I pointed out Kalen to Stacy and Leslie at dinner and in Stacy's words.."DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN. It was hilarious.) So we go to Megan's room and Jenny is definitely rolling up a fatty. I am like. cool. Let's smoke on a non-smoking floor and smoke out the window. cool that's cool. So she gets it started and they offer me some and I am like guys I can't inhale. then it got to little and I am like naw gimmie a big one. Before this Megan gave me some Mountain Dew and told me that this Bacardi Razz was good. So I mixed them and it was pretty good. So they get to blunt #2 and they are both pretty high and I am trying to air the room out we have already taped the smoke detector shut, but the room has and obvious haze. I still call myself Drug Free but what I did was wrong. I didn't actually smoke weed so I think I am still drug free. We were all worried that Megan's roommate would come in and freak out about it. Megan suggested that they "shotgun" me some. I am like whatever. what is that? So basically you smoke backwards and I just suck in as hard as I can and this went on for about 4 seconds and Megan's roomie Rachel comes in the room talking about how her mom is outside and how you can smell it all the way down the hallway. We are like. oh shit. So at this point Jenny got scared and dropped the joint in Rachel's clothes and picked it up and it was just crazy. Rachel is waaaaaay pissed. So I leave and go to my room all nervous and take a dump and when I walk down the stairwell I can smell it. I was like. oh no! So I finish and I call Jenny's phone and tell her that it was really strong down there and that I would bring some air freshener. So I sprayed the steps from 11 to 12 and the hallway and her room. We were cool. Never again will I be in a room with people smoking weed in a dorm room. I have learned my lesson.

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Date:2003-09-22 18:08
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I went to sleep around 2 and woke up at 9:19 to go to breakfast with Stacy at 9:30. I definitely had a 10:10 but I didn't tell her because I know she would have made me go on time. I went about 20 minutes late. lol It was just lecture anyway and I have never missed it. I'll tell her later that I had a class. She bought me breakfast too. She said it was good. That'd good. Apparently she stayed up til 6 talking to some chick on the floor. I was like if that was me u would have kicked me out at 1:30. She's such a good RA she talked to that girl all night knowing that she had a test and stuff and she still didn't cancel breakfast. I think she said she failed her test because her and Lindsay were studying the wrong stuff. I wish her the best in that class. It's a 200 level class so she should make an A or whatever since she's a senior. OM GOODNESS I looked at the weather for today and it was like one inch of rain. I was like ok no big deal. So I got my lil umbrella and then that's when we went to breakfast. Do u guys know it rained ALL DAY today. Nonstop. From 9 this morning til about 5:30. I mean like constant raining. Me and Allison left math and it was a girl about 15 feet in front of us walking on the side walk and this truck picked up like 4 feet of water and totally drenched her. We laughed but it was sad. I thought I had my lil scholarship appointment meeting today so I walked all the way over to find out that it is wed. that sucks. I walked back in the rain and I think my left arm is going to have pneumonia it was totally sucked. It was some stupid people around her without and umbrella or a hood. I saw this girl and she just looked sad and sick.. I got to my floor and Stacy is there talking to the elevator men whom I think like her..Apparently our favorite elevator guy got laid off. I really liked Adam he brightened my day by taking my from the 12th floor to the 1st nonstop. I am sad he left. So Stacy comes to my room and she looks at the yearbook and told me that Steve was fine and that we looked really pretty on Winter Ball day. Ha Winterball was a mess. Then we decided to watch a movie in the RA lounge.ohh I am not supposed to be down there. oh breaking rules. So we go down there after we checked out Meet Joe Black. The VCR down there is broken so I see Shana on the elevator and borrow hers and me and Stacy get in her bed and watch the movie. We invited Leslie the RA on 6 to come but she was in a stank mood. I think she has been pissed at Stacy for some time now. I think she is the jealous type. umm that's kind of childish. Oh yea in class today we had to read this excerpt from this lady who just seemed to hate white people and she stereotyped them and was talking about how all of them were against her. So I am the only black girl in English and I think it makes some of them keep their comments, but I hate that. They can say whatever and I can say whatever in return and if it happens to be HOODY HOO and some niggas come out of the bushes and stomp them then that's just my 1st amendment. right? I'm just kidding..Anyway no one was saying anything and then this girl Krista talked about how she didn't like it and to everyone's amazement I was like. I didn't like it either. So we talked about that and I was like. She was talking like she was in slavery and I looked and she wrote this in 1989. She needs to wake up. It was cool I respect Krista a lot more for just coming out and saying it. Well I think I am about to go eat din din. See ya

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Date:2003-09-22 18:01
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So last time I updated it was Friday I think and everyone was gone and I was left in the suite all alone. Friday after we watched like 10 episodes of SATC I came back to my room so Stacy and her bf Meredith could have some quality time. I think Erica came in my room talking about let's go do something and I was like..nah. I think I went to sleep about 1:30 am which is probably the earliest I have been to sleep since I have been here. I had a good sleep and then I had to wake up at 7:24 to get to the UC and be there by 8. Erica and I were late but that's besides the point. I had a Juicy Juice with Arthur on the side and we walked to the buses. We sat out there and chit chatted and we saw Nickyla and Brittany and the other black people from the school there too doing community service. It's this really cute guy Kalen that everybody knows and he we speak but I don't make too much of it because he is one of those really cute dudes and that is just out of my league. He is light skin and has dreads. He can dance and he can sing. Amazing guy and he's in engineering so he is at least a tad bit smart. He sat in the back with this girl Jamie and everyone knows that Jamie likes him I barely know her and I know that much. The lil Central Crew decided to stay on the bus as long as possible so we stayed on there and got off at a lil church that looked like it was in the middle of South Memphis. We get out and they give us this orange vest, which makes us look like we are criminals from the jail, and some gloves. So we break up into groups and it is me, Kalen, Erica, Travelius, and Brittany in like Group 3. We had fun and picked up all the trash and shit around a whole block. He was like don't pick up any syringes or condoms. I was like.. whoever finds a gun wins the game! So no one found a gun but I think I found a old bag of crack and Travelius found a bra so he won. I chit chatted with him and Kalen most of the time and then he was like, " Aren't you Jordan's little sister?" I was like," No but we are like sister and brother so I guess he thinks he is older then me." I just kept on going and didn't notice anything and then he said something to me and I was like what did u say and he was like nothing. I don't know what he said so I'll just leave it at that. As I picked up Vodka bottles and cigarette butts I was like..why was he asking Jordan about me?? ummm Then he was like. I could tell u were different and I like that..he was referring to when I told him he looked partially gay on his picture..he liked my honesty. ah ha.. So we left there and he sat with Jamie on the bus ride back and I went to sleep..I don't know what will or will not materialize from this but we will see. We came back and I was trying to take a nap and I think Stacy came in here harassing me..So I couldn't go back to sleep so I called her room and I was asking her was she watching SATC.. she was like yea come in here. So I got my spongebob blanket and went in there and we watched the last 4 episodes and we read the 5th and the beginning of the 6th season @ HBO.com.. Yea we are lame-so..lol whatever. Then her and Meredith were in there getting ready to go and I dl some songs for her and sent them to her and then I sent some songs from her computer to mine. blah blah. When they left I went to my room and went back to sleep and Erica was calling me again talking about let's go do something. I was like nope. I went to sleep and slept til like 12 when Stacy came in there waking me up so I could tell Meredith goodbye. Oh yea this whole weekend I didn't have my UT ID or my keys or anything. I left them at Allison's when I went over there Friday. I was to messed up about it. Cassy gave me her key and Stacy bought my food all weekend. It was soo nice. She is so nice. Then on Saturday I decided that I was the King and Stacy and Meredith were my peasants. So we "role-played" for a while. I was like u peasants open the door. And just silly stuff like that but apparently they premeditated a mutiny. I was locked out of Stacy's room then I had to watch her lick all over my hamburger. I just passed out on the floor. I walked in and I looked at Meredith and told her very seriously that I was completely disgusted at her behavior and that she should have opened the door. She just laughed and keep on eating. I ate my hamburger by the way. So I am not gonna give too many more details about my weekend except for Vanilla and Favorite Scars. um that's enough for me to remember what happened haha.
Sunday Cassy and everyone in my suite and they all enjoyed the game blah blah. Haley came back and her mom came over and Brittany came back and lost her cell phone and was cussing Todd out. I went and talked to Susan and she is apparently a lil genius. I talked to Stacy and Lindsay for a tad bit. I went to the snack machine and bought them some snacks so they could study for their test with snacks. They thought it was sweet and decided to give me hugs... I left and typed my English paper while Cassy sat here and yapped about herself for an hour.. I tried to go to sleep but I just kept thinking about stuff and I couldn't go to sleep.

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Date:2003-09-19 23:40
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Mood: touched
Music:Hella Good--No Doubt

This brings me to Thursday night. It's a whole heap of people in my room. Me, Cassy, Lindsay, Brittany, Haley, Todd, Susan, and Amanda from Lee County, They all have plans for tonight I on the other hand have a math test and an English paper due Friday. I decline the invites to Tonic the club and I sit in my room. Apparently every person that I talk to on the 12th floor was gone and or drunk. Brittany was drunk and gone to Tonic, Brittany's cheerleader friends were drunk and gone to Tonic, Haley was just drunk and gone, Cassy. drunk and gone to Tonic, Amanda drunk and gone. Ashley and Lauren drunk and gone..to TONIC! my friend Susan who came to visit me decides to go to Tonic to. She is also drunk and gone. STACY is drunk and gone..I decided to call her phone and sing LONELY the song to her. It was funny. We were also supposed to go to breakfast Friday but with her going out I saw that that wasn't going to happen. I go to my room and type my paper and then at like 2 am Stacy IMs me and is talking about how we can go to breakfast and is telling me that she is drunk but she won't let me come over there. then she invited me over because somebody bought her something to eat and I could have some. She was totally toasted. It was soo funny. Her brain was at an all time low rate. It was hilarious. So instead of us going to breakfast we compromise on us watching one sex and the city episode and no breakfast. That was fun. We had quality time. After watching that I invited this game to test and see if some one is drunk. It's called. Foot Fight. It's a game u play with no shoes and empty space. The point is to step on the other person's foot. This may seem lame but think about how challenging this would be to an intoxicated person...Stacy for example really sucked at this game and I was just laughing. It was fun. I helped motivate Stacy because I know how bad she wants to go to Grad school and she needs really good grades this semester so she was talking about half assing on a paper and I was like NO STACY. WE ARE GOING TO GRAD SCHOOL. SIT DOWN AND TYPE THAT PAPER RIGHT..She was like.Amber ur right. I was like I know...She told me that I was an awesome person blah blah. More sappy sassy stuff. I love her so I want her to do her best in everything. Then I go to sleep.
Friday comes around and I again skip that bath and go right to english and me and Allison hang out afterwards as we stress over this test. I think I did ok on the test. I think I passed, but I really studied for it I studied for hours on Thursday. On Thursday me and Stacy decided to just watch Sex and the City after I get out of class on Friday. So since I have no key to my room and no ID I go str8 to her room and then we watch like 20 minutes of one episode. She has to go and sit at the desk for 15 minutes and I finish the episode then when she comes in I have to watch it again. You know how time passes as u are having fun or watching episode after episode of SATC. Well that happened just like the old times when me and Lisa used to watch it all the time at my house. In total I stayed in Stacy's room from about 2:30 til about 9 something just watching SATC. I think we watched about 10 episodes. It was great. We had a lil dinner break but that lasted about 30 minutes. We stopped because he best friend from Memphis was coming to visit her and she was soooo excited. I saw that Stacy made her her own sign. I was like. Why does Meredith get her own sign? She was like do u want me to make u ur own sign? I was like. No. Then she was like. Have you looked at the fire door by ur room. I was like No. Then I had to walk to my room for some reason and there on the fire door was this huge sign that said. " I Love Amber" I was touched, I just laughed about it though, but it was a special little sign. My Stacy *sigh* I think the other night when she was drunk she called me every name in the book. I was a bitch, whore, and a "Chinese Chink" lmao it was hilarious and today she called me a pus..Can't u just sense the love?? Now I am in my room on a Friday night not doing anything. Joey called me. He was on his way to W. VA. That was nice of him, So I everybody in my suite is gone. Britt and Todd went to Bristol, Cassy went with Ashley to Gainsville for the Florida game, and Haley went with Jenny to Franklin. I couldn't go anyway because I have to do community service tomorrow. yuck. So I just sitting up in my room. Did I mention that Colin called me for the first time Wednesday night. How random? Well I am about to go to sleep..Holla. love the Chinese Chink..lol

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Date:2003-09-19 22:54
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Mood: groggy
Music:Yall Don't Know Me At All--Bubba Sparxxx

Now I will talk about this week. The days are pretty lame. I just come in here and chit chat with my suitemates and usually my RA but she was kind if MIA this week. I guess she was attending to real problems with the other residents. ha. We as a suite thought that we were breaking up with OUR boyfriend Todd. or Brittany's bf Todd. Apparently he gets on all of our nerves sometimes and he is always in here. It's crazy. I decided that we should take a vote and it was 3 to 1 that WE break up with Todd. That didn't happen though. We were close though. Very close.I had an anthropology test Thursday and ironically I had the worst headache of my life that day. My brain was hurting after I hit it on a very sharp edge of this stank computer desk. It was hard to stand up and even see straight. I wrote Stacy and note on her door and was like. If I pass out just take me to the hospital. seriously I was hurting. I took some sinus medicine and that didn't help. I think it was sinus plus a lil stress on the side. I had a math and anth. test that week plus the 9 I got on my math quiz out of 25. That is NO good, but he drops the two lowest quiz grades. Thank God. Haley had some friends over and I went over there and talked to her friend Belo and Jenny. They were cool. Jenny was cool as heck though. We got tight. She was talking about going to Target I invited myself as a joke and then we all went to the Super Target in Farrgut were Haley and Belo are from. They gave us a lil bootleg tour and then we came back. I think the fresh air and good lol giggling helped relieve my headache. I came back and studied and of course I jinxed myself and I was like. I am gonna wake up and be late for anthro tomorrow. Cassy slept in Ashley's room because she is a pus and can't sleep alone and Lauren was with her cuz Erica. I woke up singing the song on my alarm clock and then I looked at it and was like...it's 8:16 on the clock thus meaning it's 8:06 thus meaning I have 4 minutes to get to my class for my test. Well ain't that a bitch. I woke up and brushed my teeth put on some sweats and went to my class. I got there about 11 minutes late. That's pretty good since the class is like 15 minutes away from my dorm. I think I did pretty good. I met this kick ass girl Amy in the laundry room one day. I think I may have wrote about her before but whatever. I came back and went to sleep and slept through my bath time until it was time to go to Chemistry. I am trying to remember when was the last time I had a bath...Wed. maybe? oh well..We had a lab and my lab partner Allison and I kind of argued but we'll be ok. Whatever. Oh yea here's my big event of the week. When I was younger we always learned to walk in front of the bus correct? well I got off the bus one day and was the only one who got off and I walked to the front and the bus started moving so I trot out of the way and then the bus. Then he toots his horn at me and yells SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT! I look at him with this very indifferent face and continue my walk to class. Is it strange that my heart rate didn't go up and that I wasn't scared at all? I mean I wasn't the slight bit rattled by it. umm i'm weird. So yea one day this week Stacy comes and knocks on my door and brings these two girls Lindsay and Susan to my door and we all just chit chat and whatever and then Stacy leaves and has to go to sleep. I sit there and talk to them for EVER they are just laughing and giggling and stuff. It was fun. I told them to come and talk to me anytime. I think they came yesterday. I was telling them the bus story so that was funny to them apparently. I went to work out the other day. I did the olymptical and then I got on the treadmill. What was I thinking. Our rec center is soo cool. If u bring your own headphones u can listen to the TV as u work out on the lil running machines right in front of the TVs. It was cool. I was on the MTV stations mostly. So I got on the treadmill and did the weight loss program. blah. I was soooo tired. I saw how everything increased the incline included. Not fun. My thighs hurt I was tore up..

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Date:2003-09-11 20:24
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Mood: giddy
Music:Daisy Dukes--Unknown

Today so far has been ok. I had an Anthropology at 8..yuck. Usually it isn't that bad but for some reason today. It was terrible. We had an assignment to turn in and she was like. do u know how to do it? I just gave her my paper. I didn't wanna hear the noise. I went and checked my answers with these other girls and I had all of mine right. Whoop whoop. I came back sitting next to freeloader Molly and this hoe talked on the phone during the first 15 minutes of class. I am like..girl if you don't get off that phone. From what I got, she was talking to her ex-boyfriend out of state and they wer arguing over who does the worst stuff when drunk. I couldn't concentrate I wanted to just put her out of her misery and throw that damn phone against a wall. I just sat there patiently and waited until she got off of the phone. THEN she stopped taking notes I am like..girl u are stupid. We took notes for probably a complete hour and 15 minutes. It was awful. I cam back and took a nice nap. Woke up, went to Shana's room, we got on the bus, and we compared answers about the pre-lab. Me and my official lab partner Allison had a lot of fun doing the lab together. She is pretty cool. I think she is in the loser sorority but she's still cool. We just giggled and messed stuff up and asked our TA for the answers. Cool. I came home and started to finish my English paper and Jordan called and I brought him up to my room and me, him, and my roomie just chit chatted. At 6 I went to the lobby to go to Torch Night which is required by our lil gay scholarship thingy. I went and I walked over there with Stacy and I saw all the other RA's and I was like..well Stacy i'll go seat with my friends. She was like. No. I was like I thought this was like RA VIP. She was like no sit by me I was like ok. So we sat there and laughed at everybody and pointed out the hot guys. The beginning of the program was pretty lame. I was like about to go to sleep but it was ok. Then James McBride got up there and spoke and it was pretty comical. We enjoyed him. The purpose of Torch Night is for the Senior class to pass on the legacy or whatever to the freshman class. It was a candle under every seat and the beginning of the rows started and ironically Stacy asked could she "light my fire" I was like Oh yea! So she was like..Aww I passed the legacy on to u..blah blah blah followed by some more yappy sappy stuff. It was cool. Stacy's got a good heart and that was a really sweet thought of her.. Aww I'm miss her next year. Good Times Good Times Man

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Date:2003-09-10 16:16
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Mood: worried
Music:My Heart Will Go On--Celine Dion

Today has been a crazy day. When I got back in the room my friend called me. She was depressed over this guy and I was telling her to not worry about it. We decided that she needed a new man. She went out Sunday night and apparently her and her roomie found some. They went out Monday night and hung out with them apparently (frat boys) She called me and I can't remember exactly what she was saying but the gist of the convo was that she got raped. I was like dumbfounded. I had no idea what to do. I told her to make sure she gets some kind of test. Luckily she was on birth control which will hopefully help out the pregnant situation. Apparently they got soo drunk they stayed at some frat house and when she woke up some guy was having sex with her. I was really concerned about her but she seemed to be blowing it off and I was like. this is a big deal. So she hung up and I was just in awe about what happened. Bad stuff does happen these days. I think I have just been in a bubble and never realized that this stuff IS real. She called me Tuesday and asked me did I want to go out to lunch with her, but I had just got breakfast. She said that she didn't want to walk by herself. So I told her that I would go but she was like ..don't worry about it or whatever. So she walked to get a new ID and something to eat. I called her about 1 and told her I was gonna come to her dorm but she said she was gonna take a nap. That was cool. I saw her today and I was like hey and she just looked so sad. I think people may think that she is being bitchy but they have no idea what happens to people. They just assume. We talked and she said that she told her mom and brother and they were trying to comfort her and stuff. We left that class and went to our other class that we had together and she was like that's not the first time it has happened to me. I was raped before and it took my virginity.... I was like..oh my God. That's so horrible. She's such a strong girl though. I mean she took this with some much need coolness. I am proud of her, but I am worried about her physical and mental health. This girl has been scared for life. Her friend who went with her doesn't even believe that it happened because the guy she is boning is he's best friend. What a stupid hoe.. I wish her the best, I might call her now. I love her man and it hurts that someone hurt her.

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