| Still Kickin.... |
[26 Nov 2009|09:19pm] |
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Well, Kenna is 8 and Carson is 5. Time is flying by. My life is still in limbo. I live with my parents-ever since our house foreclosed during the Countrywide home loan scam. Trent and I are still together...but he lives with his mother since he hates my mother. I can't live there because there's only one bedroom for all four of us. Also, i can't have my animals there so here I sit. Trent has been unemployed for a full year now. He's going to school. We can't make ends meet and says we can't get a place of our own until he's off unemployment because he doesn't know when it will run out. But he wont get a job because his mother tells him he needs to focus on school work. Which is great if you're 15. But when you're 31 and living with your mother with your two kids living apart from you, it's time to put priorities straight. I'm stressed beyond belief. I don't want to live with my crazy mother. I want my own house with my own stuff and my own life. I'm going to be 27 in March. This is getting rediculous. Trent used to work full time and go to school full time but for some reason he's lost all ambition. Maybe just because he doesn't want to live with us? I don't know but I'm losing my mind. I've decided to move out on my own. It'll be tight. Bills will be almost impossible to make but it'll be better than having a miserable home life. Time to move on....
Trent still wont marry me. I brought it up one time and he said he wanted to marry me while we were camping...then a few weeks later I asked him if he wanted to get engaged soon and he was like WTF?! Seemed reasonable since we've been together for 7 years and people are usually engaged for a few years before they get married. But he got pissed for some reason. So I'm sure, another Christmas will go by that I don;t get a ring even though that's all I really want. Today was Thanksgiving...the first Holiday we spent apart because he hates my mother. I went with him to his family thing but then he skipped mine because he hates it here. That's really fair. Anyways, I quit school but I'm considering going back.
I guess that's about it. Find me on myspace at myspace.com/butterflybetta or on facebook: Carrie Ruggaber
Night Blurty...miss you!
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