Ouch. Today was not the greatest day in the world. I was not looking foward to the afternoon because I had a Dentist appointment and I really just don't like those. My sister and I have the weakest teeth in the world. I think it is genetic on my Mom's side. Her teeth are pretty weak as well.


Anyway, I went over there expecting to get a few out of the many cavities I have filled. Only to find out as my favorite Dentist in the world (not being sarcastic, he really is the best dentist I have ever had even though I hate going) was drilling away that I was going to end up needing a Root Canal.


Okay, so I have never really known what a root canal was, all I thought of was that scene in Finding Nemo where the guy is screaming while getting his teeth drilled. I won't go into details since they are boring but they ended up getting these metal files that looked like toothpicks and scraped the nerves out of my tooth. Well, they had to give me over 10 shots of novacaine because all I have is scar tissue in my mouth from my two jaw surgeries. Since scar tissue does not absorb as well as normal tissue they kept having to inject me to stay numb. So a few of the times were really painful. The shots only lasted about 15 to 20 minutes before they needed to give me another one. These shots are supposed to last 2 to 3 hours.


Anyway, he was not able to finish it for fear that my jaw would be in pain for a week from staying open so long. So I get the rest of it filled up on Thursday. The nerves are scraped out, but the actual tooth needs to be filled up.


I left there in more pain than I have felt in a while. I think most of it is contributed to the fact I had those 10 shots since I supposively have no nerve endings in the tooth I can't think of what else it could be. Any pressure on it hurts, and the dentist hooked me up with some Codine.


I took one while at Gingers because I was starting to feel pain. I ended up getting really "drunk". I have never been drunk before but Kristle and Ginger were telling me that it was how I was acting. I was laughing at everything I saw and singing "Ocho Ocho" - A Filipino pop song.


Anyway, the codine is making me tired, and I have so much work to do with the websites I have to do for the Church and my Dads friend. I have to get on the ball with those before I get way to busy with school.
 
Current Mood: drained

So this weekend was pretty crazy. It was so much fun though.

On Friday we went to the Morningstar Ministries Ranch with the youth group. I was not going to go at first, but I am so glad that I decided to. Long story short I got to ride a massive thoroughbred horse. It was HUGE! His name is Gatago. And he was a beautiful dark brown color. I was the only one who has ridden before so they gave me the biggest one of the bunch. Ironically I have only rode a horse about 3 times in the past 5 years. The only reason I have ridden one recently was because my best friend and roomie Nikki has horses.

I was the only one who was allowed to ride the horse more than once, with the youthgroup we were only allowed to walk around the arena which was really boring. But then I was able to actually trot and cantor the second time around. The trot about killed me and threw me off because he is very choppy when it comes to trotting, but the cantor was amazing. I actually rode around the arena while he ran. I never fell off. It was amazing. I have been so sore though because of riding for so long. I am going to volunteer there in the summer.

Sunday went to church like normal. Today has been pretty eventful. One of my very close friends here in San Antonio is having marital problems. Her husband threw the phone at her. He actually has showed signs of violence two other times in the past. He has pushed and shoved her down. Not sure what is going to happen, but I do have her kids with me at the house and she is in the other room talking to my mom.

Anyway, I have so many websites to work on right now. Ugh.
 
Current Mood: melancholy

So I got a letter today.

It was from a really good friend of mine.

I didn't really expect it, but I opened it and read it. I thank God for such wonderful, Godly and encouraging friends. The letter really got me to think a bit. Really helped me understand and look at what I am going through from a different angle.

It also reminded me to keep trying and to push through what I am going through. The letter brought back what my friend Andrew had told me a week ago

"There was this man, this man absolutely loved and served God. One day God put a huge rock in front of this man and told him to push the rock. With no hesitation the man started pushing the rock. It would not budge. So he kept pushing and pushing and pushing. It would not even move a millimeter. Day after day the man kept on pushing, with no success. A year passed and finally the man threw his hands up in the air and said "I give up! I can't move this rock! Why can't I do it? I can't get it to move! Why God? Why did you have me do this when I can't?" God then brought a mirror down and told the man "Look, look at yourself - I told you to push the rock, not to move it-I can move the rock with no problem, I don't need your help moving it. I just wanted you to push." The man looked at the mirror and saw himself. His muscles were bigger, he was healthier, he was STRONGER. He then realized, why God had him pushing the rock. Just keep pushing through Vikkie- It will make you stronger"

Andrews words hit my heart like a sucker punch. I had never thought of it that way. And soon after Jeff gave me wonderful encouragement and has been doing devotions with me. And then to receive a letter today from another friend has really helped. Thank you Josiah, the letter has helped me more than you will ever know.

I thank God for the encouragement I have gotten.

Blah. I am not feeling well at all. Go figure, anytime I get near the holidays I start feeling sick. It stinks. Oh well, at least it is when I am off and not when I am in classes. But, it still stinks. I think I want to crawl into bed. Only thing is...there is really no bed to crawl into. The kids are playing the playstation in the room. Anyway, the Chiefs lost. Go figure. I threw up last night a few times and not to be graphic it felt like boiling water. Ugh.



Anyway, I think I am going to attempt to find a bed or something. Happy Turkey Day all! I hope that everyone is able to have a spirit of thankfulness even after the holiday and the football games ;)

Is it just me...or has Robin Williams really aged? Wow. At least he ages well.

I am STUFFED! I mean fuller than I have been in a long time. Oops. I guess I ate too much bread and soup at Panera and then attempted to wash it down with a frozen coffee drink. I honestly feel like I am going to puke.

It is amazing how much of my positive energy I get from my sister. I picked her up from the Airport this past Saturday. We have had a blast since she has been here. We went to Nashville yesterday and shopped at Opry Mills Mall. It was fun stuff. She got herself some really nice clothes and I got myself two tops. We then ate at the Aquarium restraunt which was amazing in itself. I absolutely love aquariums! They are my favorite place to go. I would go to the same aquarium over and over if I had the time and money. I don't know what it is about them, but I absolutely LOVE them.

Ooh! Dun Dun Dun Dun! Monday Night Football! Go Chiefs! Go Chiefs! Go!!

I will finish this up later. The game is on!

Well. I have been to tired to write lately, so I am finally writing.
I stayed up really late on Election Night thinking that they would call the Winner, of course they didn't but I woke up to joyous news that President Bush will still be our President. I said a "Thank-You" prayer to God, and went on throughout my Day.

The night before I hung out at Student Union where they had a couple big screens on with the News Programs on. There was the Democrat Side, and The Republican Side. I have NEVER seen the Student Union SO packed with students. It was an awesome sight. I was really proud of our school. Even though there were political differences and we were booing each other, it was done with class, and the Unity was stronger than the differences. No one personally attacked on another. I am so proud of everyone for that. Emotions ran high, but not high enough to cause a ruckus.

On another note...things have been kind of here and there for me. Been going through some rough patches through out the day. I feel like I am at the brink of change but am not sure what is going on. I don't have the strength to write anything too deep here, but that is how I am feeling.

So yeah...I went shopping last night. Bought exactly what I had planned. A Pretty purple shirt to match this gorgeous necklace I have and some black shoes. I am going shopping this Sunday for a dress to wear at my sister's Miss Philippine Pageant. I am looking foward to it.

Some of my family is coming in for Homecoming here at school tonight. I will have my girls with me tonight. They wanted to see my apartment so I am excited to have them over.

Well..must do homework now.

It ticks just like a Timex
It never lets up on you
Who said life was easy
The job is never through
It'll run us 'til we're ragged
It'll harden our hearts
And love could use a day of rest
Before we both start falling apart
Pray that it's raining on Sunday
Stormin' like crazy


Well, I woke up a bit this morning and it was sunny, so I put the pillow over my head to catch a little bit more sleep and then I heard it storming...then it became bright and sunny again. Almost felt like I was in Texas. The weather in Texas changes extremes about 5 times in one day. I wish I was home.

This weekend has been a bit of a relaxed one. I have done some homework, and just kind of lounged around. Watched a movie here at the apartment with Erin on Friday, then watched another one last night. I hit a hard creative block last night. I need to make a website design for one of my websites and I just couldn't. I sat there for three hours making design after design...they all looked like poo. Definitely not what I was looking for. So I just gave up and decided to just search for some images. I found a few that I may use, but I am just going to have to see. Ugh.

Well, today is a fun filled day of group meetings, chapel, and homework. I have to get a newsletter somehow online and finish a fwe other of my projects.