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|Sunday, January 4th, 2004|
i am finishing THIS blurty and starting a new one, new start new beginnings! im not gonna tell you what the name will be, but i want my last thing said as PULLING IS SOO FUN!
|Saturday, January 3rd, 2004|
new years eve!
HOW FUCKING FUN WAS THAT! my friend helenas family had a party, and me and some other friends were there.about five of us girls? about an hour after we got there one of their friends from school called her house asking if him and a few others could come round. so about another half an hour of drink pina coladas (yum) and making up various alcoholic drinks jonathan w, jon, sophie (jonathan w's cousin) and little sam arrived. we were all getting a bit pissed, more my freinds though,there all lightweights! at midnight we ran out to the streets and shouting "happy new year" at random people. we found this house party so we went and started chatting to them. i was on the street hugging jonathan w and we started pulling. hes a really good kisser! :D i also pulled about 3 other random guys from the house party who i actually didnt speak too.....but.....the next night we all went out for a meal, everyone at the party and a couple more, and me and jonathan w were opposiote each other and he asked me if he was a good pull. i told him he was, and then i asked him if I was a good pull, and he said i was "very very good!" which was quite cool. i dont really fancy him and i dont think i would go out with him but i would pull him again! pulling is sooo fun! :D
|Monday, December 8th, 2003|
im not in school, so i can update properly. i had to cut out last update cos someone came up behind me. today was kinda embarassing cos my friends hav decided that i me and my otha friend (james) suit really well. so the whole of lunch they were talking about it:(
there is someone i think might actually like me, (wow!) my friend called feargus. i always catch him staring at me and smiling at me and stuff, and he is v flirty! lol. hes really sweet but he is my friend AND one of my best mates ex's. im not sure wat to do! help!
|Thursday, December 4th, 2003|
i am in school at the moment and i am sooo bored!
i havnt updated in so long i know! sorry! but nothing much is really happening, pretty shit and average!
umm, kristina has a boyfriend called talal tho.
also i cant remember if i told you that there was a new girl called mikayla at our school and sits with us and no-one likes her! the old new girl left oops :(
i do want a boyfriend but not someone in this school cos i dont like any of them! also i am soooo ugly in my school uniform!
i have to start my new system
|Thursday, October 23rd, 2003|
hello. sorry i havnt posted for a few days. theres not much i really wanna say today really, except today i decided aaron is a bit of a twat. i had maths after english, and on my way to maths i saw him, and his eyse were all bloodshot, and he seemed all doped up. he got high at school! hes an idiot.
today apparently i kept flashing my thong. that is the annoying thing about them! like, in science, i was just sitting on the stool, and my friend flicked it to tell me. that reminds me...i gotta give aaron a wedgie...lol
im going away with my friend next weekend, cos her family has a house by the beach, and we r going there cos it is half term starting tommorow! yay! but i need to pull someone. i know that kinda makes me a bit of a slut, but who gives a shit. my friend smokes, so i can get a cig or two off her too. i dont really smoke, but i get cravings now and then! i am going out to eat tommorow, with my aunt uncle and cousins, cos they live in scotland and we hardly ever see them. its their half term this weeek, so they are coming down! yay!
i cant wait until tommorow! i sometimes really miss my uncle, i dont know why exactly, but i just miss him, thats why i am mainly looking forward to seeing them. :) Current Mood: happyCurrent Music: one more time-daft punk on the radio
|Monday, October 20th, 2003|
ok ok, ignore the aaron thing! i know he wouldnt and doesnt like me, so ignore that! we are just friends!
|Wednesday, October 15th, 2003|
today was ok! at lunchtime aaron kept on hugging me and stuff, and a couple of times pretended to fuck me (lol) anyways, i kinda struggled a bit, as you would if someone was on top of you, and managed to get him off! then, he kinda hugged me from the side, and kissed me!
i was like ok! i didnt say anything, but he went to the feild straight away after though.
anyways , i know he doesnt like me like that (well, i dont think so) but i like him. he hasnt kissed anyone else though! maybe i am special lol
anyways, im crazy, everyone likes aaron, he could have like the pick of everyone in our year!
i will update again, hopefully not always about aaron!
xx Current Mood: loved
|Monday, October 13th, 2003|
ah! ok, guys, you wont understand, but periods are evil. i might have to go on the pill cos mine os so bad. anyway! kristina is now going out with talal, magalis boyfriends best friend! hee hee
im not jealous at all. i was thinking, yeah i would like a boyfriend, but im not gonna be all like "i hate kris cos she has one" talals ok, i dont think we get on very well though! oh well, ill get over it.
i was very happy in science today, cos we were talking and lewis (who has decided he wants to be called louis!) asked me and chloe who we would change bodys and places with in this school. i said i would change with chloe as she had great legs, and she said me as she wants my bum! i have NEVER liked my bum, but that made me all...yay!
i am getting on with everyone really well at the moment, and although yesterday i was almost bursting into tears, i am in a generally happy mood!
i love pe at the moment! its soo fun cos we ae doing basketball and gymnastics at the moment, and i love doing both of them! plus, we are inside the sports hall at the moment, which is so much better as it is cold outside :(
comment if you feel like it!xx Current Mood: happyCurrent Music: eastenders theme tune!
|Saturday, October 4th, 2003|
ok, i said no! i told him i did like him kinda, but it would be too complicated. he agreed and we are still friends! yay!
anyways, i went shopping today with my friend kristina, and i got new underwear. i got a gorgeous black, lacy bra with little pink flowers on it, and a matching thong. i also found out today when i was trying on the bra that i have actually gone up a size, which i hadn realized, from a 36b to a 34c!
i also bought my friend magali a cute purse, a black one which is the the boob part of a corset, i cant explain! but its cool, but i need to get my other friend hayley her birthday present too, as its both of their birthdays in two weeks time!
i want to say something about chloe. what i said about her changing, it is true and stuff, but i went over the top! especially about the friends thing. i re-read it, and it sounded really selfish. i didnt actually mean it like that. it meant to be like, yeah its good to get friends, but she shouldnt just meet them through other people. also, some people at school are picking on her a bit, about her skirts. admittadly they are short, but she does have long legs, so if i was to wear one of her skirts, it would look longer on me then her, as i am shorter than her. this also happened to my friend magali, when she first started wearing her school skirt which is also kinda short for school, but everyone is used to it now. i hope chloe reads this entry, she wont though, as although she has my blurty addy, she never looks on it.
a new girl started at our school on thursday, and she seems nice. her name is mikayla, and she hangs round with us at the bench. (by the way, the bench is where me and my most of my best school friends hang out at lunch and break and talk the whole time about sex, embarrasing things, anything random! it is very fun) also another girl called sadie is there too. she is from new jersey, and she came to our school a few weeks ago. she kinda got bitched about by some people, but yesterday we had this big discussion as she seemed really down, and now we are going from a "fresh start", which i am really glad about as i felt sorry for her.
when i am wearing my bra-thong combo i feel really good! i am in a very good mood today! comment if you want, whatever! x
Current Mood: sexy
|Thursday, October 2nd, 2003|
|PROS AND CONS
ok, i am going to now make my pros and cons list!
*hes my brothers friend
*he likes me
*hes really nice *i dont like him LOADS
*we get along REALLY well *i like other people too
OK, EQUAL! THAT DOESNT HELP! IM SURE THERE ARE LOADS MORE FOR BOTH! AHHHH! x Current Mood: aggravatedCurrent Music: song from donnie darko, i love that movie!
|Wednesday, October 1st, 2003|
OMG I NEED FUCKING HELP! ANYONE WHO IS GOOD AT LOVE ADVICE! ok, this guy who i used to call "x" as i thought i liked him, told me the other day that HE likes ME. then he asked me if i likes him and would go out with him, and i felt rude! i told him i need time to think, about going out with him. the thing is, he is my older brothers friend and that would confuse things just a little bit! also, i think i MIGHT like him, but im not completly sure. he asked me to text him when i was sure, but i dont know what i think or what to tell him.
ahhh! if only people actually commented on my journal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
|Saturday, September 27th, 2003|
ok, i know this seems strange, but i have decided to get another peircing, maybe a nipple one!! on my sixteenth birthday, i am gonna go and get it done! i will take my friend charlotte to hold my hand! i really wanna find out how much it hurts though! oh well. i am in a good mood, tommorow i am going to meet up with my bestest friend jenny, and we are going to go to a little cafe called roccoco. we have been there before, i have preobably told you about it, but still, it was fun, and im sure it will be tommorow too! she HAS too show me these pictures she took last time i saw her, apparently there is a really god one of me, and i swear i cant think of ANY good photos of me that i have seen! i miss her loads as she goes to a different school as me, but oh well. i wish i was sixteen tommorow. i would get it now, but my mum would never let me. she thinks peircings are gross, so. i have my ears done (seven times actually!) but what can you do! ok, i know she doesnt read this, so i can say this.
CHLOE HAS CHANGED. i dont know if its good or bad. some things are good, before she was quite mumsy, now she wants to go out and have a good time more often, but sometimes, like the other day, she is bloody annoying. she wants to meet some of my friends from out of school, and thats fine, but she wont drop the fucking subject. i will sort something out! the thing is, she wants to meet new people, and get some more friends from out of school, but the thing is, just because she is going to meet my friends, that doesnt mean they will be hers! its like shes using me to get new friends, well, actually, MY friends. i know that sound possesive and jealous, but she needs to start like a club or talk to new people, insted of trying to get new friends that are actually my friends. they are really different though, im not sure they would get on anyway. i will let her meet them though, but only when she stops fucking nagging me about it! she has to realise, she cant just demand to meet my friends, i want her too meet them, but i want her to stop pushing it! anyway, enough moaning! Current Mood: annoyedCurrent Music: no superman-scrubs theme
|Tuesday, September 23rd, 2003|
hello my little peroshkas, i know i havnt spoken to you for ages, but i have been REALLY busy! nothing that i can say was very amazing, but it was still fun.
Now, horny is not the right word to used, because im really not "horny" but, I know this sounds really odd, but today i just felt, like, i wanna fuck! is there anything wrong with that? im not all sex-crazed heehee, but i just thought, that is sometihng i wouldnt mind doing soon. not in a sluttish way, but still! tommrow i am babysitting for a little girl with my friend chloe, and that will be good, i need a ciggarette though, the other day i was craving, and they were at chloes house! ah! i will have at least one tommorow though. i did this questionarre thing yesterday, and on the top, it said, do you smoke? and i was like, yeah, but not often! but, i only sent it to chloe, as shes the only one that does it too, but she left her e-mail open, and her brother tom read it! he was like "i didnt know charlotte m smoked" and then chloe told him she did too, then he was like "so do i!" so we are all bad bad smokers! hee hee. he is 16 though, so he is legal! anyways, i will stop boring you now, although i am actually only boring myself, as no-one reads this! Current Mood: hornyCurrent Music: the coral-dreaming of you!
|Thursday, September 18th, 2003|
i dont have much to say today, apart from the fact that i cant write! i had a total mental block yesterday and today! and we were writing part of our english coursework story. im gonna get a U! (ungraded)
i still like N! i wish i could see him again! Current Mood: pleased
|Wednesday, September 17th, 2003|
Ok, Chloe has been really stressed at the moment, i know she does have some reasons to be, but im slightly worried. although she has the address to this journal, she doesnt read it, so i can say what i want to.
also, me and and her have kinda started smoking a bit, not all the time or anything, but occasionally. she never seems to want one though! the other day i really wanted one, but she didnt so i didnt push it.
ok, fucking upset! i dont know why, its at school that i feel upset, not out with friends from out of school, i dont know what it is! im only upset with my girlfriends though, no my boyfriends, which is really weird. like james, he used to really piss me off, but i am getting on with him really well at the moment! which is good
i spent way over an hour on the phone to jenny, my best friend last night. it was really great to talk to her. im really pleased, because she goes to a different school, so i dont see her all the time, but after four years, we are still best friends and still in good contact. :)
my mum wants me to go to this fucking church thing, but i really dont want to go. shes all like, "i want you to go, for your own good" but i dont need to know it. and its nothing to do with the people that go there either! some of them are pretty good friends of mine, but i REALLY dont want to go!!! im not sure how to tell her though, ive already tried but she keeps pushing it. ahh! if anyone at all reads this, please post comments. :( Current Mood: stressedCurrent Music: incubus (again)-i wish you were here
|Thursday, September 11th, 2003|
omg! i like him so much! why?!?!? i need help! im such a fucking idiot!? i have LOADS of homework to do for tommrow, but insted i am adding about N! ahhh! i really dont know why i like him so much! i really really need help! why do i write this? no one reads it! if they did they would post note! x
|Wednesday, September 10th, 2003|
so today was ok i suppose, i got on quite well with hayley today actually. kristina got really pissed off with everything today, especially lewis! at lunchtime, she was just eating her sandwich (butter and ham) and lewis pissed her off a bit, so she shoved it in his face, he had butter and ham all over him. he got so pissed off with her! they had this huge argument, and like, the whole playground was watching, and he was sooooo pissed off! all the rest of us at the bench were pissing ourselves, it was so funny! but then lewis was like, im a vegaterian, i dont fucking ham thrown all over my face, so we then relised that it was kinda rude, but still funny! kristinas pissing me off at the moment, its so obvious when she wants attention! she puts on this "im really sad, upset and depressed" face, and when we ask her whats wrong shes like "oh nothing" when she so obviously wants us to fucking ask her again! anyways, i have to have a bath, x
|Tuesday, September 9th, 2003|
ok, so today started well, i was in a really good mood, and i was having a pretty day (as i got my hair cut and stuff yesterday!) , and it was my friend Kristina's birthday, so it was fun. But i went back to her house after school with magali, and they just took the piss out of me, so i called my mum to ask her what time i had to be home, she said, 7.30 so i could do my homework, but i told them it was 6.30, so they couldnt keep doing it! i dont know why, but everyone takes the piss out of me! anyways, i dont care! i really like n! i kept thinking about him today and yesterday! i had to walk a different way home yesterday, because i had to go straight to the hairdressers, and my friends jenny and scarlett told me that they might see me, and then mentioned how the sometimes see him and his friends walking home past there.i was like "oooo, might see him again before the weekend!" i didnt :( but i can live with that for now! im pissed off, so, i have to go and do homework (fucking bloody homework) oh, andi already hate one of my teachers!
Current Mood: in love (sorta)!
|Sunday, September 7th, 2003|
ok, im confused. when i am hinting at people they dont realise, when im not, they think i am! whats up with that! anyways, today im doing nothing, so i will be bored! i might just phone loads of people for chats, that would be ok, so, my list is...call...jenny, scarlett, charlotte, chloe, KITTY (very important!). i will call kitz in a sec.
then i have to clean the bathrooms (for money yay), but at least i have my warm new hoodie to keep me toasty! :) x Current Mood: cheerfulCurrent Music: romeo and juliet soundtrack(hee hee) - radiohead
|Saturday, September 6th, 2003|
ok, nothing has really happened yet today, although i am going to my friends party at three, and then i am going to a barbeque later after that. my friend scarlett asked if i wanted to go down to the park and get pissed with loads of her friends from drayton, but i couldnt if i was going out with my parents later. i still like N! something really rude happend to my friend, she told three people a big secret of hers, and she only told me and two others for a reason. then soemhow its leaked out to other people. three other people guessed it, but still some people must have been told because now loads of people know, not people that shes really friends with. im not gonna say her situation, but someone who has been told or found out must have been telling people. she got really upset, and i feel so sorry for her. i would hate to be in her situation. this is another reason i dont tell anyone my secrets! because some of my friends have big mouths (not offencively, but its true) and i know that some of them would tell loads of people. i would rather tell one friend i can definatly trust, or no-one at all. i kept fucking crying the other day, i think everything was getting to me. every little thing was upsetting me! now i know that those things are so timy, and stupid, im a fucking idiot. it was so funny after school yesterday, well, in business studies then afterwards, because i was being a spaz through the whole lesson, i was so stupid, and i kept on laughing. i had to get my shoes from my locker after and so i moved my pe bag from kristinas locker to mine, locked mine, then remembered my shoes. i was like "well done spastic charlotte!" and kristina was like, "spastic charlotte and super kristina!" and it was so funny! we are a crime-fighting duo called super kristina and spastic charlotte! i was almost fucking pissing myself! OMG! on monday im getting my hair cut, at this great salon, and they were like, she can get it done cheaper (because its kinda expensive there) if she would model for a supervised traniee! so i will be a hair model for one of them! anyways, i will fill you in tonight maybe if i can, if not, i will tommorow! x Current Mood: sillyCurrent Music: muse-feeling good