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Fear brings out the worst in us
For the nth time since the 9 weeks I'm working full time, I experienced an outburst of anger.

This time unfortunately, it came outwardly, instead of just fuming within. It shocked my colleagues. HAHA. They never thought the friendly little xiao er zi would ever have such a side.

But that is me. Before I came to know God.

Often, I'll lose my temper. I'll get irritated. I'll just snap.

Nowadays, that side of me manifest under certain triggers. Stress, anxiety, and other bad things -> all attributable to focusing on the problems, and not on God.

Seriously, I'm clouded with fear at work. I had a new mentality. I'll tender when pushed over my line.

Often, I feel handicapped by my lack of numeracy. I can't count. I'm careless. And that's been the case ever since I started my Math classes.

To make things worse, I need to think. I need to do a lot of small things. And I need to do bigger things from next week onwards because I'm gonna be mangerless for at least 2 months.

But God knows what I'm going through. Tonight, He spoke strongly into my life, my fears, my worries about being inadequate through Allan. His strength will be made perfect in my weakness

"Whatever you can't do in your capacity, God will do it for me, and He will be glorified, for all who saw will come to know it is His work, not mine."

Current Mood: optimistic