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A sojourner... or am I not?
sojourn noun [C] LITERARY
a short period when a person stays in a particular place

I've always thought of myself as a sojourner - one who is merely there for a short period of time, nothing longer.

In many people's lives, I've been but a sojourner. And so were many people in mine.

There's simply nothing known as permanence. And the more I think about it, the more depressed I get. No anchor. No certainty. But thank God there's God, who said that even if the heavens and earth will fade, His Word will still remain. But I digress.

Seeing myself as a sojourner is a huge protection tool to myself. I do not need to keep to a stereotyped role. A typeset image. To uphold or upkeep my promises and pledges. All those "forever and ever" things have far fleeted from me. What can a man boast of the things he'll do tomorrow, when he does not even know what will happen to him tomorrow?

I often feel stifled easily. Which is why you don't see me sticking to a same group of people all the time. (Anyway in these days, no one does that any more. But the point is, I didn't do that even though it was hip to be seen with a same clique all the time)

I thought the time had come for me to leave W02, my cell group. With my workplace in Novena, home in Woodlands and cell group in boon lay, it just didn't make any sense, any longer. Bookstore - my ministry - was another place where I thought I'll sojourn for a while.

But weeks turned into months. I'm still here.

Yet I have moved on.

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