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Coming out to dad
My plan was to come out to my dad some time after I come back from my grad trip #2. After all, the time is drawing nearer, and it's just time to be out and honest about it.

So I was eating dinner at the table, and he was doing some chores over the basin. I was eating, and praying "God God, is this the time to tell him?" And so, I stilled my heart, prepared for the worst and while praying, told him the truth.

And my oh my. A strange calmness came over him.

"shui bian ni. papa bu yao guan ni de shi"

And there I went silently... "thank God... phew.." And I thought it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be.
I added, "Do you wanna come and watch?"
He: "No."

The real drama started after dinner, when I'm having my fudge choc cake with him watching tv in the living room.

He: "I can't go and watch you getting baptised, because we belong to different religions. Our house is buddhist, and i really hate to see different religions in the same household. I think you shouldnt rush into this. Wait till you get married. You can be baptised into christianity/catholism and even Islam, according to your significant other!"

Me: ......

He: "So many pple don't get baptised you know. They join the activities for fun. It's ok. I also don't get ordained into Buddhism what"

Me: "Well, that's because you don't believe in buddhism."

He: *lack of defence* "Chinese usually don't have faith mah. They just do coz tradition"

Me: "Just because YOU don't have faith don't mean other chinese don't have faith. My pastor, his parents, most of the 16000 in CHC are chinese."

He: ...continues....

Me: *finishes my choc cake*

But anyhow, I've come out to him, and so the next thing is to pray that he'll accept my decision, and even bless me. 26th June, Sat.

Hey dad, I really hope you'll turn up.

Current Mood: disappointed