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Sunday, December 12th, 2004
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1:03 am - Er hem...
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| Saturday, November 27th, 2004
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12:30 am - Discovering what's in you for you
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I had an interesting conversation with a colleague on Thurs over lunch.
It started with saying grace, in which she did with a Buddhist slant - visualising the food feeding Buddha (in her), and the food nourishing her such that she can do more good, and thanking the people and Buddha for the food. Which is basically saying grace. Anyhow, she was amazed at the speed I did my grace, so I explained what went on in the little grace - thanking God for the food, asking Him to bless the food and the fellowship ahead. But I digress.
The highlight of the conversation was hearing how she discovered she's a closeted Buddhist, despite the Christian influence at a young age. Pretty interesting, esp how it weaved into her career outlook - where she desires to do something good to humanity (ok, this is the part where it starts sounding like Ms Wong).
To the extent of becoming a nun. That's funny, because she'll actually look quite good in the nun uniform, after which she said I'll look good in that tudung Catholic nun uniform (ok apologies to Catholics here).
The trend these days is to try out 1 or 2 jobs that are related to your skills, and then ponder where you want to develop from there - the exploratory phase - where you discover who you are and what you want to do.
For me?
Anyway, I went to a wedding dinner (my 35-yr-old cousin finally got married - he's one of my fav cousins because his toys are always very happening) earlier, and there I met his nieces, 2 of whom are Sec 4, and just finished their O'levels.
I asked them what they want to be when they grow up. One wanted to be a nutritionist - the other wanted to be a pathologist - but when I told her she needs to go get a Medicine degree first, she said she's too stupid for that. *Lol* What makes her think that pathologists are stupid people?
It's always interesting to ask kids what their dreams are, and sit back and watch what they'll become a few years down the road.
Yeah. I'm ageing.
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| Monday, November 15th, 2004
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4:19 pm - Moving house
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In order not to clash with the shifting of my office in mid dec, I've decided to move my blog in advance (ok lame).
You can find me here in LJ. A step closer to my parasocial friends. New addie, new life?
Apologies for the lack of interesting stories to tell. Will brush that up in a while when I start leading a more interesting life. =)
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| Thursday, November 11th, 2004
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5:10 pm - 11/11
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It's 11th Nov. Time flies.
Last year's this time, we're all counting down to 23rd Nov - where we had our Good Riddance Party. This year this time, we're just hoping we'll emerge each deadline alive. And hey, we are all still breathing! *pats on everyone's back*
Bloggies' dinner is confirmed. 7pm at Heeren. Confirmed coming are:
- Brownie
- Ash
- Fur
- UU
- Yann
- Dawna
Pending are:
- Weeeeeeeeeeee
- ~Y~ (whom i couldn't reach because my phone won't let me sms her)
Not coming:
- Dotz
Yay I'll get my gym balls tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!! I'm gonna have a new chair that's blue in color and 65cm in diameter soon! wheeeeeeeeeeeee!
For the mugging souls
If you're in the midst of mugging, and have come here to seek solace, take heart, for I'm keeping you (yes YOU!) in my prayers! God will never forsake you, just do your best, and trust God to do the rest!
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12:21 am - SHIFT_the future
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Remember our final presentation for the CS life (ok excl FYP)?
Memory - and this was on the slogans.
Anyway, the topic for today would be... What are we doing to shift our own future?
Some people have a more distinct vision for the future, while the rest sort of fumble along.
Direct route, detoured route, maybe reaching a few pit stops (however you spell that in AR), thorny route, rosy route, you still get there. As I move into the 3rd month of my career, I'm really sort of glad to see some of my friends moving on with their career switches. It just goes to show that what you're doing now need not be what you're doing for the rest of your life, as long as you pick your butt up and MOVE.
I met with 3 non-colleague friends today. One at lunch break, the other at 6.30pm, and the last at 10pm after I knocked off. They all still seem to be enjoying their work, tho the first seemed visibly tired.
Me? I still look decent. Round, cute and fair (albeit the sun-burnt shoulders which no one sees) and save for a few scars on my left leg, i'm pretty clear.
However I'm getting lazy about shaping my future. Sluggish and lethargy really get in the way.
Sometimes I guess we really need to take a nice long break - just be by ourselves. And think of where to shift that gear to.
In other news:
1) We can shift to LJ anytime. Say... next Monday? Since it's supposed to be a public holiday. Ought to have more time to pack things and shift? LOL. Ok that's lame. Next.
2) I think my 30th birthday da shou is a little too late to hold. By the end of the year, I would have attended 4 weddings from now till then. Of which 3 I have to give my own ang pow. Venues? Pan Pac and whatnots. I should start planning for a 25th da shou to recoup the $. *ponders*
3) Financial advisors are scary people. Everytime I bring some policy here and there, they'll have counter points for the other's policy. I should just organise a debate session and let them fight their own case. It's sucking up too much of my time. Eeeeks.
4) We're confirmed having a bloggies dinner on Friday! YAY! How about Marche? Too boring? Err.... ???
5) Are we gonna have a Christmas party? Let's fix a day!
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| Monday, November 8th, 2004
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8:48 pm - Bloggies unite!
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Dear fella bloggies,
In view of the recent discussion over making entries private, I would strongly urge us all to attempt a shift. =)
Anyway, what I wanna say is this.... I miss you all! so much so much... I still can't get over our silly Bintan breakies, our photo-taking at every opportunity, Yenew and Ash's blog bash, and mostly... you all!
How about meeting this Friday for dinner? I promise my uttermost best to appear before 8.30pm this time (errr... sounds cliche. HAA!) and hmm... i'll pass you all the yearbooks as well! How's that?
Respond please!
In other news:
I'm back again... and I will face the music with God by my side and turn it into a hymn.
current mood:  rejuvenated
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| Friday, November 5th, 2004
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12:37 am - Yenew is one happy kiddo
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Same place, same hotel, different partner. *grins*
Anyhow, it's been a stressful week, but thank God the weekend's here! I'm all set to gym, swim, eat and sleep in the self-extended weekend! HEE!
The flu bug's hitting many in the office. Really scary. Like my darling boss was telling me she's ren-ning until Friday to take half day to stay home and rest. tsk tsk tsk.... So poor thing.
Apologies to VK that I couldn't catch you to get the balls coz was trying to rush a draft 1 for a client. Will catch you when you drive by again!
In other news:
We're shifting. YES! To across the road, where the tax collectors are. Perks? Air-conditioned canteen within the building, so no matter rain or shine, I won't starve. There's also a full facility gym in the building, finally am going to have my first try at being an executive gymnie. Downside? Rearrangement of teams - I might not be able to sit beside my fav neighbour!!! Also, it's the open concept thingie, no more cubbie holes.... So keeping my fingers crossed that the one opposite (and those nearby) are nice folks like me! Hopefully eye candies too.. muahahhahhaa...
Will update you all of my getaway adventures when I get back. Till then, take good care! *hugs*
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| Sunday, October 31st, 2004
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3:42 pm - The little girl in the back seat
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A father was driving his little girl on a long trip across some states.
In the first day, the little girl was bursting with questions.
"What will we do if we get hungry?" she asked.
Daddy replied that he'll pull over at a snack house once every few hours to get food.
"What if I need to go wee-wee?" she asked again.
In his quiet manner, Daddy replied that he'll find a restroom for her at the stop-points when she needs one.
And the questions went on and on. Each time, Daddy could answer with confidence, and without fail.
In the second day of the ride, the little girl asked all these questions over again. Without losing a beat, Daddy replied all with patience.
On the third day, something weird happened. The girl was no longer asking questions. The Daddy thought that she had fallen asleep, and checked in the rear mirror. However, the little girl was wide awake with her large watchful eyes darting at the scenery from the side windows.
Being very surprised and concerned, he asked: "Girl, are you ok? Are you sick? Why are you so quiet today? Do you have any questions for me?"
She replied in all earnesty and innocence, "Why should I have any questions? Because Daddy, you're driving."
When people just received Jesus into their lives, and accepted that they have a Heavenly Father watching over them, they have lots of questions. Is He real? Will prayers work? How come I need to attend a cell group? Why are you asking me to atend so many bible studies? Why do we need to read the bible at home? Isn't it more convenient to be a Sunday Christian?
These questions are common, and God will bring people into our lives to answer the questions. Other times, He'll answer us in His own ways: through random thoughts (which aren't so random because they all point to a direction), through songs (could be secular ones as well), through scriptures, through dreams, through visions. But one thing is for sure. As long as you're willing to listen, He'll speak.
When we reach a certain level of maturity, we stop asking. We stop doubting. Or rather, we ask less often. "God God, why is this happening to me? God God, how come I'm not having my breakthrough yet? God, are you real?" That's when we begin to trust Him as the driver, and we understand that by being in God's car, we're going to be safe. Because He knows the destination.
The above is a story told to me, and I've expanded on the explanation to make it more understandable, but unfortunately more luo suo as well. The below is a sequel that speaks of some things that are so real, which I've understood over some time.
The little girl grew up, and Daddy aged. She felt that Daddy's no longer driving at the speed she desires. Daddy's going to boring places. Daddy's out of touch with her dreams, her goals, and her destinations. She takes over the wheel, banishes him to the back seat. When he senses danger in front, he warns her.
"Oh shuddup," she thinks.
So Daddy fell silent. And after a while, the girl drives like he's no longer around.
One thing she has forgotten. The man who accompanied her as she grew up, provided for her when she was down and out, the man who gave her life - has blended into nothingness at the first instance she could drive by herself.
Will we all become ungrateful after we've overcome trials with God's help? Is backsliding a non-issue?
Throughout history, great teachers like Confucius have taught us to yin2 shui3 shi1 yuan2, qu3 zhu1 she4 hui4, yong4 zhu1 she4 hui4. Yet more often than not, we fail to acknowledge the origin of all things. The giver of all gifts.
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| Friday, October 29th, 2004
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11:56 pm - I love him, but I love God more
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Slightly over a year ago, I first got to know her. She seems to be bubbly and sincere. And she said she's very open to Christianity, and in fact has been to many services while she was in Holland. Now that she's back in Singapore, I asked if she'd find a church to belong. Nah she said. She's still not convinced, and is still waiting for a you3 yuan2 ren2 to invite her to church.
I jumped right into it and told her I want to be that you3 yuan2 ren2. She accepted Jesus into her heart as her Lord and Savior the first night she stepped into CHC. Even I was shocked.
On the way home, she asked me why I was so shocked. Then I told her I didn't know you would accept Jesus this very night. Then she told me, no one ever asked her if she wanted that. =)
Then I realised, when she received Christ into her life, she didn't know she had to bid the other gods farewell. "Can't I believe in God and gods?" came her innocent reply.
One year later, she's near her Million Dollar Round Table. One night she told me, "it's a significant night, because tonight is the night I started tithing". Another pleasant surprise. And she said, "I was waiting for you or L to ask me to tithe actually, but none of you asked."
Because to me, all these things should be out of your own heart, out of your own conviction, and out of prompting by the Holy Spirit. It'll lose its meaning if I had to ask you to do that.
She's already halfway through Getting Started, and I must say I'm proud of her. Tonight was the second consecutive Friday she came for service (since those irregular appearances). It is a sacrifice to come into the house of the Lord to praise and worship Him, because she's taking time off her work which could lead to more deals and business. However, it is evident that God has already won her heart.
So tonight, in the cab, she told me about her emotional baggage, and I could tell she really means it when she told me, "ya I love him, but I love God more".
This is love. True love.
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12:33 am - The big fat moon that hangs overhead
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As I trudged home from the MRT station, I realised the moon was big, round, and bright till it's almost white. And I've been in a nostalgic mood recently, and thus drew the following conclusion:
Our past is like the moon. Sometimes the season isn't right, and we don't see it. Sometimes it illuminates our path. Sometimes it spooks us.
In other news:
My treasure hunt on wheels is going to be held in the afternoon of 20th Nov, Sat! Anyone free to come? Can blade/cycle (in fur's case, be driven by the front cyclist) from checkpoint to checkpoint and play exciting games that we all love (guess?) and to end the day, we're going to have a bbq, on my cell group's bill. *beams* who's game? Come come, support your friend who harbours a secret ambition to organise future healthy outings with all of you!!!
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| Wednesday, October 27th, 2004
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10:29 pm - Baring it all
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Fangs, daggers and what nots.
Somehow today I exposed myself to a full-fledged season of fang-baring. Pretty scary.
Story is ... someone screwed up along the way, people jump in and get defensive, screams some nasty words, throw in some daggers, people cry, people get hurt and people nurse grievances and stock up on ammunitions, preparing for future battles.
Of course your peace-loving friend was a bystander in all these, albeit watching a delayed telecast.
But still it is scary.
FW is delayed by a day. Just have to pray really hard that this wraps up by the 10th Dec, else there goes my Christmas.
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| Tuesday, October 26th, 2004
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10:42 pm - 3 little birds
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Once upon a time, there were 3 birds. One was Blackbird, one was Orangebird and one was Bluebird. They are all living in a bird park. Bluebird was most senior, followed by orange, then black. Blue and Orange have long learnt the survival skills - singing the songs that people like to hear, behaving well and performing without glitches.
Blackbird however, was never content. She could only crow, and so weren't liked by the other birds and the people in the park. Though she was well-fed, she yearned for more. So she asked her seniors if they liked the status quo.
Lo and behold! Bluebird and Orangebird were well on the equilibrium scale, and contented. Afterall, they have the attention they crave for, could deliver what was expected, and had food to eat, shelter to rest and play in.
Blackbird thought otherwise. Birds belong to the skies, not to a park.
So one day, she flew away, chasing her dreams, much to Blue and Orange's bewilderment.
She never came back.
-an excerpt from The Revenge of the Dim Sum Doll!es by Selena Tan-
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| Sunday, October 24th, 2004
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5:24 pm - Doormats
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It's funny when you talk to some ultra serious people, find them worrying about the most trivial of things, and then catch yourself thinking "ooops, I've been there too".
Recently I've been spending more time talking to my neighbour, and realised that she's always (well it seems like always) upset over some thing or the other.
I think everything boils down to this: She detests feeling like a doormat.
Well, no one appreciates a clean doormat, but once the doormat is wet or dirty, thousands of complaints fly before you can say... yucks! Doormats are also stepped upon. But hey, that's their role? Their purpose.
Human beings are in a different class. Pastor says we're in God's class. We won't be doormats unless we think it. So before we wallow in despair and laments about the fact that we're being doormats, no matter what brand, color or type, let us snap out of that and believe that no one can make a doormat out of me unless I allow them to. =)
*In other news*
I went for an Asian Films marathon on Sat, and my oh my, my fever soared to 38.2 degrees by night. Decolgen is good. One pill and I'm off to ECP to do my usual 2 hrs of blading on Sunday morning.
I've also finally caught up with bloggies' entries for the week. It's been crazy, and next week looks crazier. But everytime I think of my beloved bloggies, I know I'm not alone to run this journey! *hugs* Everyone, let's hang on till we next meet again!
And oh! I have an intern under my my team's wing since last Wed. It's quite... errr.. different to change roles from an intern to an intern's advisor suddenly. Hmmm... But hey, of course I'm nice. *big wide grin*
Yenew's always feeling hungry. Not that I'm on my sandwich diet. I'm more on the healthy diet, if you get what I mean. I also try to adhere to the 10 glasses of water, no water before and after food theory. But I'm still hungry. Guess it must be the greedy yenew yearning for.... say.... 2 piece chicken? Hmm.. how about... pizza? Pasta? Or simply Thai (oops I mean phat thai)? And the ice-cream? Fried banana balls? All that is history. *tears* Only chicken marcoroni soup for yenew these lunches (unless otherwise specified). Ahhh.. At least dinner's served in half hour, so I shan't go and sleep the hunger off. I shall... anticipate..... *evil laughter*
Last bit of news: I'm totally recovered from my fever, despite ignoring a warning sms from Ms Wong not to appear this morning in ECP.
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| Friday, October 22nd, 2004
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11:28 pm - Thumbs up to those who work 15-hr days
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My body really isn't built to work more than 12 hours. I'm feeling sick all over. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeks....
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| Wednesday, October 20th, 2004
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11:17 pm - Life
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Dinner, dessert, and a glass of wine. That sums it all.
Yearbook Updates
I've collected for Poki, Wee, UU, Ash (as per request). Out of kaypoh-ness, I collected for Dawn, Dotz, ~Y~ and Yann. ~Y~ and Yann hasn't paid, according to records. I didn't have cash on me, so HY gave me his UOB number, which you all can bank transfer the $20 to. It looks really good, but yenew only appeared once. But the essence of CS is captured, despite our Hobbit gowns. Thumbs up to the creative talent in the class of '04.
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| Tuesday, October 19th, 2004
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8:43 pm
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| Sunday, October 17th, 2004
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8:46 pm - Tea break?
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When I ranted about T-brake, KH was so happy and said "ok ok, let's tea break now" when we were 5min into our blading. Sharon was pretty traumatised tho, coz she just had lunch.
HAHA. Anyway, yenew's been t-ing all afternoon. Pretty ok about it now, just that it didn't seem to brake well too. *ponders*
Anyhow, as usual, i bumped into weird pple in ECP.
Today I saw sharon (401) and elaine (401), her bf, and dog Milo.
Intesting. =)
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12:48 am - Murphy
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He must be a smart man, because his law holds often.
Important question to ex-CSians:
Who ordered the yearbook but have yet to collect? I'm meeting HY on wed to collect, do drop me an SMS by Mon night so that I can collect for you. This announcement only applies to those who paid $20!
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| Saturday, October 16th, 2004
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12:40 pm - Moving on
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I checked the rear mirror, but no idea if I should step on the accelerator and go.
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12:47 am - Kukup is out, next better player?
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Hi bloggies! Kukup's officially cancelled. Shall we set an afternoon to nuah together? I propose to use Fur's house! muahahhaa....
In other news...
1) I'm empathising with the L more and more... for reasons more than one.
2) I'm going blading with people of higher skill... hopefully I get to master T-brake this time round (I know I've always been saying that)
3) The most heartening news today is that the 1 hour I spent was translated into a B3, by the grace of God!
4) The most heartening news yesterday is that the intern is coming in next Monday. *phew*
5) Baoyu and Biru are two of my station masters for 7th Nov ECP game. Ms Wong and Jia still pending!
6) I've got at least one hot date next week. *beams*
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