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[16 Jul 2005|10:23pm] heyyy guys.... would anyone happen to have any lyrics on giving second chances....or second chances in general.... thanks so much <3333 Staring at the setting sun No reason to come back again The twilight world in blue and white The needle and the damage done I don't want to feel this way forever A dead letter marked return to sender crywith a smile

[29 Mar 2005|10:21pm] well... spring break is well on its way to being over :/ *sigh*.... its been fun tho, i've spent quite a few days up in rochester, which is always fun!!!! Sunday before i left i went over to hornell and watched aaron, joe, and andy play a lil tennis. Joe and i played chicken with our cars [well, aaron's car lol]. He's so cool that he doesnt even have his license yet, but i let him drive my car around the block lol. OH! duh, last friday i went to the UNC vs. Villanova game for SWEET 16, without a doubt UNC won, of course. It was really fun, and andrew bought me a tee-shirt! woohoo. On easter sunday, my family went up to the Elite Eight game, but i stayed home, i guess andrew got an incredible seat tho, court side and everything & got good pics, which is cool. Unfortunetly, i'm gonn have to start working up at the campground... i called karen today & left a message telling her when i can work..... so let it begin i guess :/. bleh, ah well tho, its money, and good money lol. alright... thats all.... well, aaron's play is this weekend, i finally got the date out of him lol, a lil threatening never hurt anyway :p looking forward to that tho, i think kourt is coming with me!! :) AMY COMES HOME FRIDAY ALSO... WOOOHOOO. well, i'm out, tomorrow i get to play taxi up in the city, yaya lol. night. <33 always. crywith a smile

[22 Mar 2005|09:15pm] ITS SPRING BREAK :) :) :) couldnt be happier.... and tomorrow.... is Erica's 17th Birthday!!! yay!!! crywith a smile

One tragic night, took two lives. [12 Mar 2005|01:28pm] Woohoo, we only had a 4 day week.... yea, only one less day, but still lol. Thursday after school i had to work till 5, then i came home quick and went up to rochester for the night. Nick, Andrew, and i went to the Distillery for dinner. It was pretty good :) we went to blockbuster, switched movies, and then went back to the apartment and watched Shield & made cookies lol..... i wussed out tho, and fell asleep at like 11:30 lol. Friday i took nick to class @ MCC.... good lord, and got lost on the way back lol. But at like 12:30, andrew and i headed over to the mall.... i was shopping for Erica's birthday, which is in 11 days on the 23rd!!!!!!!! THE BIG 1-7!!! how exciting :) :) We ate at wendy's, then andrew had to go to work :( i cleaned the apartment a lil bit, then left at like 3:30. I got home around 4.... so amy, lins, and i decided to go over to Hornell for some chinese.... ok, so if anyone wants chinese, do NOT go to the one by wal-mart, it sucks, and is expensive!. But anyway, afterward we picked up joe and vijay, and went to aaron's..... unfortunetly we couldnt stay long, b.c apparently the roads here were really bad from the snow... but it was alright, i spent the night at aim's, and lins went home.... hah, we had some good talks.... just remembering old stuff, and getting caught up with each other.... it was nice. :) :) While i'm bored today, but gotta babysit @ mrs. curtains tonight.... fuunnnn.... tty lata. RIP. BILLY JO & PAM SMITH. crywith a smile

[06 Mar 2005|05:05pm] alright, its been way to long since i've updated, so i'm holding a pledge, and i'm gonna update more often. Its like i have nothing to reflect back on from this year, egh, i dont like that. but anyway, lets see..... This winter i took up skiing [alphine that is]. Ok, so i sucked, but it was like the most fun i've had in the winter.... if you know me, you know that i hate NY for the snow and cold, but skiing actually made it fun. And Sectionals was a blast, i had my best times and met some new ppl. AND OH MAN, Batavia Boys.... god bless. lol, love em. they will deff. be missed nxt year tho, specially Dustin. mmm, mmmmmm. :) And well, as jeni as referred them as, then 'old group' seems to be gone. Its quite sad how ppl and things change just like that. I assume its for the best, and we still have memories to look back on, so i guess its not all bad. Everyone is just going off in their own direction it seems. I mean, i'm happy dont get me wrong, and it seems as though everyone else is. * As far as school ::: this year is kicking my ass. Talk about a lot of shit to worry about, i mean, i've been holding my gpa above a 90 all year, but its hard, and stressful. And Math & Chem, good lord, i hope i pass those regents' at the end of the year! Right now we're workin on the Junior Critique and that has enough stress in it alone. I mean, its worth like what, 20% of our grade..... agh. I suppose i'll make it through tho, and no final exam, and we'll have it done before spring break, so thats a plus. This year is deff. a learning one tho, not just about certain subjects, but about yourself as well..... idk how to explain it, but it seems like we're tested alot... what we can handle, who we are, and friends are all factors. I'm happy with who i am tho. :) other subjects to touch on.. Boys :::: ok, ok, so i'm still stuck on aaron. Its like, idk, theres just something about him, but we've hung out a lot more, and he even asked me to his senior ball..... which should be pretty fun..... its just.... theres no lable on us, and i know your prolly thinking, well why would you want one, but its hard & annoying, like when ppl ask if your dating, cause you cant say yes, b.c you are, but its not exactly no, b.c you act as if your in a relationship... blah, time will tell i suppose! ok, i doubt anyone is gonna read all i've written today, so i'm just gonna hold off on the rest for another time. i'll be posting soon! love always. 1 hopeless romantics crywith a smile

green eyes [09 Jan 2005|12:03am] holy shit.... has it been forever since i've updated..... Well a lot has happened. Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Years all have past.... and to be honest, none of them were that good.It still doesnt feel like x-mas has past, we're just getting snow, and idk, it just doesnt feel like it. School is alright i guess..... its just about half way through.... and mid-terms are coming up.... that should be fun, specially with the 2 day English Regents.... meh. ahh well tho. i'm still working at the boring library lol. Me and Kourt make it through alright i guess. All the happiness from Aaron eventually went away.... its shitty, but obviously not worth what i put into it. It was fun while it lasted however. X-mas break was fun tho.... met some new avoca ppl & went to swain quite a bit. was a good time. oh yea, theres an update... i'm doing Ski Team this year.... yea, so i havent been skiing since 4th grade, but its deff. fun, and i'm enjoying it. The sad thing about friendships tho, is most come to an end or atleast get weaker..... and its depressing b.c vanessa & jeni arent as close to us as it used to be....their awesome and i miss em. : / meh. I basically just hang out with the erica's now.... its always fun tho. i love em both to death. ok, so maybe a lot hasnt happened, this is still my boring life, nothing to exciting.....i'm out i guess peace bitches. crywith a smile

[01 Nov 2004|03:54pm] aahh, i havent updated in forever... its kind of depressing. Everything has been so busy lately tho. but ahh! no more working at the campground! i'm done for the year! SO HAPPY!!! and last wkend i was with my girls, its so awesome... just like old times. i deff. missed em. but on sat. we went to TGIFridays, the mall, and then went to see "The Grudge"... what a perfect day, specially since fri. was vanessa's 17th Birthday! <333 We deff. had a good time. Halloween this year was lame tho,i was just here passing out candy to the lil kids.... i mean, their cute, dont get me wrong, but yea, i deff. wish i was with my friends lol ahh well tho.... oh man, and i started talking to Aaron again <33 so yea, overall, everything is good. i'm happy. :) :) <33 Hilary crywith a smile

[07 Sep 2004|12:49am] just some of my favs... And there were so many fewer questions When stars were still just the h o le s to heaven Losing hope is easy When your only friend is gone And every time you look around Well, it all, it all just seems to change The mark was left Man it's never the same Next time that you shoot Make sure that you aim Open windows with passing cars A brand new night With the same old stars My words are true I'll see the world and have more fun than you My stories told Will be ones of adventure with my girls by my side Stories untold The streets outside of New York are paved in g ol d crywith a smile

[07 Sep 2004|12:44am] egh, school in 2 days.... it just seems so unreal. summer...... what summer? crywith a smile

[06 Sep 2004|05:56pm] "We've got to get better," I said, "It's all in your head." We could live through these letters or forget it all together See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away Just ask the question come untie the knot Say you won't care Say you won't care Retrace the steps as if we forgot Say you won't care Say you won't care Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt And there's one thing I can do nothing about Well all that we need is just a reaction, It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore If chasing our dreams is just a distraction, I want to remember when I know that I can't go back. My fav. TBS song.... "new american classic" :: i suggest downloading it if you havent already. :) crywith a smile

[03 Sep 2004|10:40pm] Just some of my favs... -_-The jaded memories are telling me to forget my regrets Another thing I cannot bring myself to totally forget 'and autumn comes, it doesn't ask it just walks in where it left you last you never know when it starts until there's fog inside the glass around your summer heart. *Just cause things aren't what they seem It doesn't mean you shouldn't d r ea m. Just don't get your hopes to high cause when things don't turn out right, you world comes crashing down. --Counting stars wishing I was okay Crashing down was my biggest mistake I never ever ever meant to h ur t you I only did what I had to Counting stars again Hey, I'll take this day by day by day Under the covers I'm okay I guess Life's too short and i feel small ::ive tried so many times and i swore that was the last but i thought of your smile all over again and i swear to you its not easy to tell you its not hard i w is h it wasnt that easy to just let us f a l l apart **And there were so many fewer questions When stars were still just the h o le s to heaven crywith a smile

hmh [03 Sep 2004|10:36pm] OUCH. crywith a smile

[02 Sep 2004|01:35pm] Bayside <33 "Just Enough To Love You" Push me out from the darkness To a sky that's colored blue Somewhere someone's finding happiness While I'm still here so hung up on you Nothing is real And I want you to know That I'm not alright When you tear open my chest I'll try not to flinch Won't make promises You taught me that. I'm still losing what's left of my self esteem And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most So I'll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know The easiest things to fake are feelings to fool someone else And I've been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell A failed apology A day too late but now I see That all you really want's to see me dangle neck first from a tree But what would you need me for You've got friends galore And all you'll ever be to me is a stupid lying excuse for a person I could call But I know that you won't be there to pick up the phone You don't have time for me I could call but I know you won't get the phone Don't have time for me I hate myself For loving you like this I hate myself for hating myself Just enough to love you Just enough to love you crywith a smile

[02 Sep 2004|11:03am] She's just waiting for the summertime when the weathers fine She could hitch a ride out of town And so far away from that low town good for nothing mistake making fool With excuses like baby that was a long time ago But that's just a euphemism if you want the truth he was out of control But a short times just a long time then your mind just won't let it go .::. Jack Johnson <33 oooh oooh. crywith a smile

[02 Sep 2004|11:01am] COHEED AND CAMBRIA <33 "A Favor House Atlantic" Your eyes tell the stories of a day you wish you could Recall the moments that once have Retrack the footsteps that brought us to this favor I wouldn't ask this of you Good eye, sniper Here I'll shoot, you run The words you scribbled on the walls With the loss of friends you didn't have I'll call you when the time is right Are you in or are you out? For them all to know the end of us all Run quick, they're behind us Didn't think we'd ever make it This close to safety in one piece Now you wanna kill me in the act of what could maybe Save us from sleep and what we are Good eye, sniper Now I shoot, you run The words you scribbled on the walls With the loss of friends you didn't have I'll call you when the time is right Are you in or are you out? For them all to know the end of us all Bye bye beautiful Don't bother to write Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars Face step, let down. Face step, step down. The words you scribbled on the walls With the loss of friends you didn't have I'll call you when the time is right Are you in or are you out? For them all to know Bye bye beautiful Don't bother to write Disturbed by your words and they're calling all cars Face step, let down. Face step, step down. crywith a smile

thank god for jeni. [01 Sep 2004|11:01pm] i first of all want to say CONGRATULATIONS TO ERICA LEIGH FOR PASSING HER ROAD TEST TODAY!!!! [9/1] and she got the fat guy too lol.... ahh, im so happy for her :) :) i went up n saw her tonight & got some ice-cream, it was awesome and i got to see her kickass car haha, we'll deff. have to pimp around in that suckah. **yea... today was boring, just cleaned [my dad is on a cleaning kick, he did the carpet today :x ].... then went to work at 3 till 7... & went to see erica... whoowh. Tom. i think im gonna work for Kourt at the lib. from 3:30 till 5, & hopefully Jeni will be home in time to go with me to the Avoca Varsity Guys tourney in Cohocton! ahh, i havent hung out with her in like forever, i miss her!! Good Luck to the Wayland-Cohocton Girls Varsity Soccer Team at the Letchworth Tourney this wkend also! wish i could be there ladies!! kick some ass ;) hah, i'll end with this.... YaY JeNi: dude i was so like emril today Hilary03HC: whoa! what did you make YaY JeNi: well, i just made the box mashed potatos:-[ but i said "BAM".."let's take it up another notch".. as i through some salt in Hilary03HC: ahahha, lmao YaY JeNi: i think my dad thought i was crazy Hilary03HC: lol Hilary03HC: thats so funny jeni YaY JeNi: so i was like cool, BAM YaY JeNi: it was perfect tho, since i cant cook like him i can throw my salt like him ::: lmao jeni, that deff. made me day :) :) ::: 2 hopeless romanticss crywith a smile

.. the new interest... [31 Aug 2004|12:01am] FOR FELIX LYRICS :) :) Stolen From The Start A girl. A pretty face. A guy who’s always up in space Is called by her to please come down. A time, when things are fake, relationships made for the sake Of good times without being bound. Is he a fool? cause he feels like one almost everyday when he calls her on the phone and she’s not there. And is it cool if he leaves like seven messages Cause it seems like maybe that’s more than she care bare? She doesn’t know just how he feels He lies awake wondering how he’ll steal Her heart but he don’t know that he Stole it from the start, yeah he stole it from the start. He thinks about her past when like a hundred guys Would ask her for her number everyday She wants something that lasts a guy who wont lose interest fast And always has something to say But she’s a fool cause she has this longing for him but she’s Scared to tell him and find out what he’ll say He has a rule that he can never seem too interested Cause he’s scared that she might feel the same way And she wishes he loved her, when there’s no other he’d prefer Songs To You Its Sunday night tonite I’m worthless cause I’m wondering where you are and I cant sleep Without your eyes closed next to mine and its killing me to think with this you’re fine Please girl I don’t know If I can live without you When all that I need is you by my side tonite my arms around you No place to turn talk to my friends but all they tell me is to “give up man shes gone” But they don’t know what I know the lines of your face the way your smile glows Please girl I don’t know If I can live without you When all I can I think of is you by my side, tonite my arms around you Sometimes you’re here, sometimes your gone Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me about you Do you think of me when your alone Give me a sign to give up or be with you now crywith a smile

i hope you wished for, longer goodbyes. [30 Aug 2004|10:50pm] Well this morning everyone woke up around 12:30 er so... it was funny, cause last night, Chaffer was like 'mooing' in his sleep and brad was like yelling at his mom... good lord lol. I got up tho, n got some cereal then took a shower.... Andrew got ready, then we went to the mall so he could get a new cell phone. We stopped at AE first, so i got a belt and a pair of sunglasses....Andrew ended up getting the same phone as me, i didnt care tho, cause its a pretty sweet phone. We went out to lunch at Arby's... then came home....Yea, so i havent been doing to much since i've been home, haha....just watching tv, painting my nails, and cleaning my room.* but i didnt finally start tanning down in my basement haha, its about time, i hate being so white :X I guess im going to bed soon, and then tom. erica might come over before...or if not before, her and i are going to the guys varsity soccer game down in bath :) :) *g'night * muahh. ::: i deff. miss my girls tho.... specially VANESSA AND JENI :: <33 you girls tho. always. 7 hopeless romanticss crywith a smile

..the good times... [29 Aug 2004|10:18pm] yaya, well the wkend ended up being pretty good. Sat. i had to work 9-4... and it was the corn roast wkend so it was slow and only 3 activities doing on, including the corn roast, and the corn was good haha. I came home after work b.c erica and i were supposed to do something, but it ended up that she was at the races, and spent the night there instead.... yea, kinda sucked cause i cancelled my plans to go to the city for that, but ahh well i guess. Nick and i went on an ice-cream run for sundaes for my 'rents, and kourt was working, haha she's so cute. lol. yea, so i stayed home for the night, but eh, it was alright haha. Sunday [aka today].... well i got up and got ready, then cleaned the car, and went and picked up James in Avoca @ around 12:30 and him and i went to the Motocross Races in Cohocton. We met up with Erica there, and watched a few races, it was sweet, Donny and Mike did a really awesome job, it was pretty cool with all the campers and tents set up down there......we left around 3. I dropped erica off at her g'mas' then took James home. I came home and went swimming b.c it was so god damn hot haha, then got ready... and nick, andrew, and brad headed up to the apt, so i came up also. Its sweet, i've been watching Lifetime movies haha, and made andrew and i a chicken pot pie, and just drinking smirnoff 0:) haha. @ about 1:30 AM, andrew, brad and i went to Wegmans', haha, just like last time, our late night shopping.... yea, so we picked up a few things & came back... we all ended up going to bed around 3 er so.... so yea, it was a fun time :) :) crywith a smile

SocCer babay [27 Aug 2004|12:48pm] Well yesterday ended up being a pretty good day. @ 1 i went up to the library to help out on the Float for the Parade.... but only a couple of kids showed up, so i just helped Jennifer put everything together.... then Teri, Jennifer and i went to Teri's parents to put the sides on the wagon and i had to paint the waves for the boat. Then at about 5, Andrew came and i got me, and i picked up my checks from the library & cashed em, then came home..... i went swimming quick & waited for my mom to get home so i could take the car....which wasnt untill like 4:30. The original plan was for Erica and I to go over to Hornell, and then to Cohocton for the girls' scrimmages... but instead, i went down to d*rock to Rite-Aid and then to Sub-way for some dinner, and then picked up Erica and we went to Cohocton. We met Vanessa and Andrew there... and then lins came and eventually Travis. We watched the Avoca Varsity Girls team... unfortunetly tho, they didnt end up winning any of their scrimmages... ahh well tho. At about 8, all the Avoca guys came, it was nice to see em :) :) and even Asshole aka Brandon came lol. John did too, but i had to be home by 9, so i couldnt talk for very long. It was a pretty good time tho. :) ** eeh last night tho... at like midnight, i kept hearing like shit moving in the bushes... which there is a window right behind me, and then window was open to the screen... and omg i was so incredibly scared, b.c earlier i had heard like a car door slam... it was creepy..... i managed to get through it tho, at at about 1 i went upstairs to bed, i was beat** This morning i woke up at about 11... its shitty,cause i cant really do anything b.c i have to work in justa lil bit. So therefor my day will consist of, watching tv, getting ready, then going to work 3- 9 er 10... FUN. egh, w.e tho. tty lata. <33 Hilary crywith a smile

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