une citrouille's Blurty|
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une citrouille's Blurty:
|Sunday, November 2nd, 2003|
i never thought.
i hate you a lot...sometimes.
Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: blink 182 -- Adam's Song
|Saturday, November 1st, 2003|
I have made yet another blurty. I believe that this is the third one I have made. I asked Katie for a codeto get a livejournal so could quite possibly get one of those. It's not as if I have anything better to do. Plus Diary-x. com is confusing anyway. I might stick with diaryland..who knows. Some one should come up with another diary site where you can make your own template whenever you want. All you would have to write is BACKGROUND COLOR-BLACK or whatever. That would fucking rule. But it's probably impossible. Oh well.
I changed my AIM screen name today. It's une x citrouille. it means Pumpkin Queen in French. Without the "x" of course.
I want to go to those shows at the Miller house but like, I wouldn't feel like I fit in. I don't really talk to Katie that much and none of my friends are up for that stuff. I don't know whether it's they don't know about it or they do but they aren't as open minded about music as other people tend to be. But whatever it is I wish they would get over it. I also wish I could make new friends. I don't feel comfortable around April anymore because she is Bi. Possibly. I personally think that she is doing it for attention but oh well. What can you do?
Sometimes I feel like I should break up with Cory for a while. Just to see what things are like without him you know? But then I really get to thinking and I realize that maybe we will have to have a break sooner or later but I'd rather it be later. I don't know why. This kid Bruce likes me. April told me this morning and she said that he likes me because I'm really nice, and we share opinions and some other stuff. I think that's cool. I like him a little bit too I guess. We just met last night and he likes me...that's never happened to me before. And I guess it's understandable to want a break since we're meeting all these people and well since Cory is the first boyfriend I have ever had I guess I should consider my options or something like that. But it isn't like I want to marry anyone else. I really do want to spend the rest of my life with him..after highschool. I feel terrible about thinking this stuff though because I told him he might hurt himself and I would feel responsible. I really do love him...but I like a lot of people too. I don't know. Maybe I just miss being single a little bit.
So now that you know everything I have ever thought....I should go.
Current Mood: guilty
Current Music: Here Without You -- 3 Doors Down