Amanda jean's Blurty

well i am going on 10 months now being clean an sober...its so fucking hard at times i jus want a line when i am upset. But i know thats not the answer the answer is to walk through my fear,pain, and to always have faith. I am 19 yrs old and being clean an sober at such a young age is hella hard but then again i can wake up remembering what i did the nite before. I am pregnant wit my first child an i am very excited. Iv been going to alot of meetings lately....Kendall an i broke up along time ago thats my babys daddy. An in the time being i met someone new name Domenic. I cant explain alot other than i havent felt this way since i was 16. we broke up last saturday...and i cant believe i am going this crazy i cant think. There was sumthing wit Dom and it wasnt jus the motorcycle rides to Santa Cruz, or the nites at the river,romantic dinners or the calls, or txt. Its so much that i cant forget. but what i need 2 do is jus forget and move on an act like we never had anything. That time he rubbed my belly an says what we guna name lil peaches Hunny. Thats when i really fell for him. I know i shouldnt always think bout that stufff buts its hella hard. Well today i am guna go be bored.....

Current Mood: Missin him like CRAZY