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I want these-->http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&category=63889&item=5319105655&rd=1
A lot.
Alright, so I'm not too keen on the 6 1/2" heel, because I'm already tall, so this looks like a premonition for death if I put these on.
But, they are sexy. And I will be sexy in them.
Ah...clothes. Ah...new look this year.
So I'm going to stick to my usual chucks, jeans, band shirt & what-not look. But I plan on giving it a little more "oomph" this year. I'm loving the idea of pinning and sewing stuff onto my shirts, altering clothes, and re-doing myself as well. I plan on getting a few new piercings. Next on the list? (besides the already planned lip on the side) Temple piercings. That's right, you heard me. Temple. It looks like this-->http://www.bmezine.com/pierce/11-surface/A40803/high/surfacepiercing.jpg
Call me crazy, but I think they're oober cute! And I want them. A lot.
Might suck it up and stop being a pussy and get that Scorpio tat on the back of my neck with the neck piercing to go along with, and debating the dying of my bangs to a bright cherry red. If I like that, the whole head goes. Going to try some new make-up techniques, too. Perhaps I'll look into actually learning how to apply liquid eyeliner. That stuff is seriously the work of Satan.
So the look for Marissa this year? Same old comfy "semi-punk" look, with some alterations, but I'm also going to try something a little bit more girlie-sexy. Not stupid frilly mini skirts with stiletto heels girlie...*gag* More like...plaid mini skirts with thigh highs and some rocker shirts. Nice.
I cannot wait to browse for clothes and accessories. *grin* I can't wait to change myself around again and be different. I'm getting boring. I'm getting bored of myself. This however, requires money...must....go...jobhunt...for...better...pay!
Note to self: Get haircut tonight. Can't take the growing out process of the hair again. Blah! Keep bangs long...
I was happy the other day. We went food shopping and I ran a muck in ACME. We bought cereal. This makes me happy. I loooove cereal. What makes me even more happy is that we got 3 boxes, and in my Golden Grahams, I got a prize. A mini hacky sack soccer ball.
It's the little things in life that bring me so much joy.
Seriously. The little, minute things can always make me so happy. I notice them so much more than people think.
I have a new favorite shampoo and conditioner scent. V05's "Strawberries & Cream". Oh...my...God. It smells like the strawberries and cream cream savers candy!! It makes me want to sniff my own hair...I smell like a rainbow now. :o)
Hilton said the funniest thing the other night on the phone, and I'm putting it in here right.........now--> "I'm retracting my M-16 from your foxhole!!!"
HAH!
Long story, but still...it amuses me. *shrug*
I have orientation at BCC tonight. A Part of me wants to go, and a part of me doesn't.
I really want to leave NJ. There is nothing for me here anymore. Besides the obvious of my loved ones, and family. But, no matter where I go, I'll always love them...so that doesn't matter. I just feel like I have nothing to look forward to.
I really don't. Damnitt.
A Trans Am came through my line today at work...God those cars are sexy. *orgasm* It makes me want one even more...
Do you know what it feels like to miss someone and something soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo (to be continued...) much? It hurts. A lot. Actually, a lot a lot. Yep, that one gets 2 "a lot's". Has it ever seemed like something was ripped away from you out of nowhere, and it was one way before, and then suddenly completely different?
I can't stop thinking.
Why is it that I bottle everything inside? Perhaps it's because I want to protect myself from...something. Perhaps it's just that I'm horrid at talking, or perhaps it's just that I suck at life.
Hmm...I'll pick the last one.
I love my new phone. I keep playing with it. I love the way I can just say someones' name and it'll call them for me. That's right bitch, I own you. You do what I say, Kyocera!
I need to get my car insepcted...and fixed...and washed. Damn you, Charlotte.
I can't wait to set a date for me and Leyla to go to South Street. I miss that place, and I miss her! ;o) Damn I love that sexy rump on that Turk...*yeow!*
My [cell] phone is ringing.
It's TJ.
"Cup", he says.
That makes me happy. I love that nickname.
The sunburn on the back of my leg from 2 1/2 weeks ago is still peeling. I love tan lines.
Arielle, Ashley, and Aunt Terry have food poisoning. I hope they feel better. Damn breaded Zucchini.
So, I don't know how much longer I can put on a fake smile and get away with it. I'm thinking that I'm a really transparent person. Fuck.
You made me smile.
You were an escape from everything that got me down.
I looked forward to getting through my day if it meant seeing or talking to you.
I loved every time I got to see you because it always meant that I'd have fun.
You always took my breath away..
I knew it would get to me. But I didn't think it would get to me this much.
I lie. Yes I did.
Those are my thoughts for the day.
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