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[23 May 2004|03:10pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | ]

He's not hurting me, he wasn't ever really anything caring about.

There was a week out of the whole thing that I was happy.

Nobody made you do anything except you.

I should have known at first that you'd turn out to be such a jerk, I hated you at first. I thought you were the most annoying guy.

You think you're hot shit? You aren't. You're hardly anything to chase after, I got to know you for your personality. Apparently I missed what you really are: nothing.

I haven't cried for a long time. And I refuse to start now, you aren't worth it. I hope you choke on all your cigarettes.

I gave away all your secrets darling, you're welcome!

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[23 May 2004|02:16pm] are so sexy...and you are all mine!
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[23 May 2004|10:37am]
[ mood | amused ]
[ music | :: I hate everything about you :: ]

I got to talk to Adam this morning, such a sexy college boy. I want him *wink wink* Guess who asked for his digits...ME! Hehe. *gives herself a high five*

I miss Daniel. He's only been gone for one week, but I miss him so. Stupid training.

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[22 May 2004|03:14pm]
[ mood | chipper ]
[ music | :: Don't shed a tear :: Paul Carrack ]

Woo hoo....being SINGLE rocks!

Went out into Batavia last night and got so many beeps walking down the road I lost count, hehe. There were also a few comments shouted out the windows....

" Hey! Can I fuck you!?" well....I'm sure you all know what I responded to that!

" Hey baby!"

" Oh, baby!"


There were also numerous whistles...tell me boys, how do you do that? I've tried but never succeded.

I talked to a few gorgeous boys too, hehe. I do believe that I am finally happy. Happy being alone and away from Mike.

Mike brought me down, we always fought, and frankly, he wasn't good enough for me.

Friday nights with Trina Mo rock....we are just two sexy bitches!

I can't wait to give Christian his kisses, hehe....woo hoo! 2 months with my sexy bitch...This is going to be the best summer ever...

I found Kenny's number, I think I'll give that sexy beast a phone call...

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[21 May 2004|06:34am]
Whoa bitches! It's been sooooo long, hehe.

Well, I'm back! Just needed a few weeks to myself.... *shrug*...sorry, hehe.
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[24 Apr 2004|10:34am]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | :: If I ain't got you :: ]

Last night I completely freaked the hell out, right infront of Trina and, I felt like an ass. Oy vey.....I've only cried that hard two times before and that was when we broke up. We're still together but it doesn't feel like it. This doesn't feel like a relationship, he's never around, and he's too busy to fit me in.

I just need to give him his space but I need closure before I do that, there are too many questions I need the answers to.

I hate feeling like I'm not worth his time , and that's exactly how it is.

Before I wasn't angry, I figured he was busy, and I was ok with that. Now, I'm real pissed. Before I was afraid to call, I felt that I would bother him. Now, I don't give a fuck about bothering him, and I call all the time, just listening to the fucking rings, because that is what my life has succombed to. But ya know what? I have the right to call, I have the right to know where MY boyfriend is when I haven't talked to him in two weeks.

So, if he wants to put me in the position of being the annoying ass girlfriend then so be it, because if I did this shit to him he would be livid.


I don't feel like explaining Friday....let's just say: Walk with Trina, hurt foot, tramp, Marc, Alex, Amy taking up the bed...(grrr) , maniac crying, and sleeping.

Sidenote :: Jessica Simpson SUCKS!

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[20 Apr 2004|07:31pm]
No one gets me. You listen but you don't really hear what I'm saying.

Without him I'm impaired, is that right? Is that fair?

...........Stop giving me advice on my fucking problems when you have never even experienced what I'm going through.

I went outside, and I just say down next to the water. It was so freezing, but I didn't mind. I went out there and I didn't even care who saw, I did it right in the middle of the patio. And I just cried, I just want to be alone. I don't care anymore about anything else, I just don't care. My life is nothingness. There is NOTHING to live for.

It was cold and I cut. It was perfect.

Don't judge me, you don't understand my pain.

The blade doesn't speak.
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[19 Apr 2004|03:26pm]
*This or That*
Orlando Bloom/Johnny Depp: Johnny Depp
3 Doors Down/3 Days Grace: 3 Doors Down
Bob Marley/Shaggy: neither, thanks
Usher/Farell: Usher
Jessica Simpson/Mandy Moore: Mandy Moore
Horror/Comedy: Comedy
Lake/Beach: Lake
Vhs/Dvds: DVD
Sweet/Sour: sweeeeet
Italian/German: Italian
Yankees/Braves: Yankees
Monkeys/Dolphins: Dolphins
Pinapple/coconut: pineapple
beer/whiskey: beer
gatoraid/poweraid: eww, neither
water/propel: water
gloria jeans/star bucks: star bucks
sandels/tennis shoes: sandals!!!!...wooo hooo....flip flops for life! haha
hair up/hair down: hair down
messy/organized: organized
quiet/talkitive: talkitive
icecream/milk shake: milkshake, mmm
cash/check: cash! cha-ching
whip cream/cool whip: cool whip, because it is oh so cool

*The Opposite Sex*

Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: yes ^_^
Do you LOVE them: oh yes, very much so
Describe them: Tall, brown hair, baby blue eyes, a cute little smile....funny, smartass, loving, and PERFECT
What attracked you to them: his personality, and his sexyness, hehe
If you could change one thing about them what would it be: he's real busy all the time....i'd make him less busy
How long have you known him/her: 10 months? ... *shrug*
Could you see yourself spending the rest of your life with him/her: of course
If single what do you look for in a guy/girl: everything that Mike is...
Does he/she have any tatoos: nope, getting...
Does he/she have any peircings: yup yup, sexy ones *wink wink*

*About You*

Tall/Short: short...5'2".....SHUT UP BITCH
Innie belly button/Outie belly button: innie, hehe
green/blue/or brown eyes: blue, with green/goldish circle in the middle...
white/tan: white
Would you take a bullet for your bestfriend: yes, Trina Mo is my life, without her I've nothin'!
Name a personality trait of yours: sarcastic
What are your nationalities: british
Do you want to be successful in life: yes
What do you want to be when you grow up: lawyer
Do you want to have a family: yup, 4 kids, hehe
What is your dream car: eclipse! oh yes
Do you regret your past: some of my past
Fallen in love: i'm in love now
Been depressed: hell yes....
Missed someone so much you'd do anything to see them: yes
Do you believe in God: no *rolls her eyes*
Thankful for what you have: yes...I'm thankful for all the important people in my life, who are the rays of sunshine, hehe....


Who have you known the longest: trina mo
Do you trust them: yes, with my life
Would you lie just so you could fit in: do i really want to lie about myself so i can be friends with people who don't know the real me? uh, no thanks
What do you love about them: each of them is a very beautiful person inside, they inspire me
Do you see yourself in them: me and trina mo are a mirror image, haha
Have they been there for you when you needed them the most: yes
Would you change anything about them: i wish Trina Mo wasn't such a whore *heheh*
Who's honest: Trina Mo....everyone else liesssssssss
Who's naughty: all of them, they are all naughty with me, hehe

*Name A Song*

Linkin Park: wooo.....hybrid theory, meteora, and reanimation all those cds
P.O.D.: Youth of the Nation
Eminem: my band ft. d12
Usher: yeah
3 Doors Down: When I'm Gone :,( always brings me to tears
Tim McGraw: my best friend
Michael Jackson: rock my world
Boys II Men: on bended knee
Kid Rock: make love to you or some shit...i dunno haha
Simple Plan: ugh....brain freeze
Mandy Moore: In My Pocket
Bon Jovi: Its My Life
Lynard Skynard: uhhhh
311: hmmm
Pink Floyd: eeek
Billy Idol: dancing with myself
Madonna: ray of light
Kenny Chesney: hmm
Martina McBride: there you are
Nirvana: puh~lease
Sir Mix Alot: baby got back? hahahah...

*Do You Like*

Football: yes
Nascar: eh
Basketball: yes
Baseball: yes
Surfing: yes
Dancing: YES
Poetry: YES
Drawing: yes
Partiing: mm hmm
Boys/girls: *hehehe*
Snakes: ahhhh nooooo
Sponge Bob: fuck him
Taking bubble baths: yes
Writing Lyrics: used to...

*The 5 W\'s and H*
Who are you: Rachel Marie
Why did you take this survey: I was bored
When did you start this: i dont fucking remember...
What\\\'s LJ username: xxxglass_tearsx
Where are you going after this: *shrug*
How long did this take you: tooo longgggg
Uhmm: i agree
Did this entertain you: no
Will you put this in your LJ: yes
Will you tell your friends about this: i wont go out of my way to tell them
Tired yet: more fed up
Are you going to get off the computer: lol no
Going to get out of the house today: yes
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[18 Apr 2004|06:35pm]
[ Current Mood ] pretty good {rare}
[ Current Music ] none...watching a lifetime movie
[ Current Taste ] chocolate
[ Current Make-up ] eye liner, mascara, lip gloss
[ Current Hair ] down, nothing special
[ Current Annoyance ] all the AIM alerts going off
[ Current Smell ] chocolate
[ Current Favorite Group ] linkin park
[ Current Book you're reading ] . Betrayl in death
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] light pink
[ Current Refreshment ] n0ne
[ Current Worry ] if Mike is o.k.

[ You Touched ] mama
[ You Talked to ] mama
[ You Hugged ] mama
[ You Instant messaged ] corey
[ You Yelled At ] the dog
[ You Kissed ] Mike

[ Kill ] no comment....
[ Slap ] ^^^^
[ Get Really Wasted With ] Trina Mo
[ Get High With ] Mike :p
[ Look Like] Carmen Electra

-W H O-
[makes u laugh the most?] Trina Mo
[makes you smile] Mike
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them] Mike
[is easiest to talk to] Mike

-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] yes, his name is Mike...and he never gets on anyway
[save aol/aim conversations] sometimes
[cried because of someone saying something to you] yes

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[smoke cigarettes] i light them ^_^
[obsessive] one word : deodorant....hehe Trina Mo knows how it is...
[could u live without the computer?] no, haha
[color ur hair] NO WAY JOSE....all natural
[habla espanol] si!
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?] 200
[drink alchohol?] yesssss
[like watching sunrises or sunset] yup ^_^
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain] emotional pain

-N U M B E R-
[of times I have had my heart broken? ] it breaks quite often
[of hearts have broken? ] two
[of guys I have kissed?] hehehe, enough
[of scars on my body?] too many
[of things in my past that I regret?] a few....having to do with grades, not trying hard enough...

_______Your Life_______
[x] they call me: Rachel, Rachel Marie, Rachie, Rach
[x] sex: female
[x] my first breath of air: July 29th
[x] status: happily taken
[x] best friends: Trina Mo, Brian, Jerrica, Brandon, Josh

[x] most memorable memory: kissing Michael James in the rain ^_^
[x] worst?: Shadow dying....
[x] first word uttered?: Dada
[x] first best friend ever!?: Jessica

[x] love is: happy
[x] first love: Michael James
[x] love or lust?: l0ve
[x] is it possible to be in love w/ more than one person at the same time: not in my opinion
[x] when love hurts, you: cry, write, sing, _ _ _
[x] true or false: all you need is love: true
[x] is there such thing as love @ first sight?: never experienced it
[x] are you in love right now?: yes, very in love
[x] how many times have you been in love?: this would be the first time

_______Opposite Sex_______
[x] turn ons: everything about my baby, hehe
[x] do your parent's opinion on your bf/gf matter to you?: a bit, yes, but it wouldn't keep me from him, if they had a bad opinion of him
[x] what kinda hair style?: long, so I can play with it, hehe
[x] the sweetest thing a member of the opposite sex can do for you?: travel any distance just for one kiss
[x] where do you go to meet new people?: anywhere
[x] are you the type of person to HOLLER and ask for numbers?: no thanks...

_______Picky Picky_______
[x] dog or cat: kitty cat
[x] short or long hair: long
[x] sunshine or rain: rain
[x] moon or sun: moon
[x] 1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 1 best friend
[x] summer or winter: summer
[x] written letters or e-mails: written letters
[x] play station or nintendo: neither...
[x] car or motorcycle: car, vrrrroooommmm
[x] house party or club: club
[x] sing or dance: sing

[x] how are you today? just lovely
[x] what pants are you wearing right now? i'm wearing shorts, red ones
[x] what shirt are you wearing right now? grey shirt
[x] what song are u listening to right now? none
[x] how is the weather right now? horrible, storm - darkness, rain, hail, 80 mile an hour wind
[x] last person you talked to on the phone? Kolleen
[x] last dream you can remember? something about Mike
[x] who are you talking to right now? Chase
[x] what time is it? 6:17pm

_______More About YOU!_______
[x] what are the last four digits of your phone number? 9566
[x] if u were a crayon, what color would you be? baby blue, hehe
[x] have you ever almost died? oh accident
[x] have u ever won any special award? yes, awards for my grades, singing
[x] what's the stupidest thing u have ever done? started stupid arguments with my baby
[x] how many kids do you want to have? 4
[x] son's name? Brighton
[x] daughter's name? Damaris
[x] shampoo? pantene pro-v
[x] what are you most scared of? losing Michael James
[x] how many TV's do you have in your house? 5
[x] do you have your own TV? yes
[x] have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone? my toe *pout*
[x] who do you dream about? Mike
[x] who do you tell your dreams to? Trina
[x] is cheerleading a sport? yes
[x] how many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Pop? ? 69

_______You And Love_______
[x] do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend? yessss hehe
[x] where would you like to go on your honeymoon? England
[x] what do you like most of the opposite sex? their hair, cologne
[x] do you find yourself attractive? no
[x] do others find you attractive? they lie when they say they do

. : You : .
Birthplace: hospital
Current Location: my computer chair
Height: 5'2
Hair Color: brown
Eye Color: blue
Righty or Lefty: Righty.
Sign: Leo
Status: takennnnnn

. : Favorites : .
Color: baby blue
Place: my bed
Number: 29
Smell: Mike, hehe
CD: Hybrid Theory ~ Linkin Park
TV Show: Survivor
Radio Station: 98.5

. : One or the Other : .
McDonalds or Burger King: burger king
Short or Long Hair: long
Boy or Girl: boy
Nike or Adidas: adidas
Pepsi or Coke: coke
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Single or Group Dates: single

. : More About You : .
Your Heritage: British
Your Weakness: Mike
Your Most Overused Phrase on Messenger: cha cha cha, or.... *rolls her eyes*
Your Bedtime: 10pm on week days, hehe, and whenever on the weekends
Smoke: no
Cuss: oh yes
Take a Shower Everyday: of course
Have a Crush: yes
Believe in Yourself: yes
Get Motion Sickness: yes
Think You're Attractive: no
Get Along With Your Parent(s): yes
Play an Instrument: piano
Been on Stage: yes
Been Dumped: yes
Gone Skinnydipping: yes
Dyed Your Hair: fuck no
Been Called a Tease: yes....GRRRR
Been Beaten Up: no
Age You Hope to be Married: 23
Number of Kids You Want to Have: 4
Name of Your Kids: Brighton, Tristin, Damaris, Sierra
Describe Your Dream Wedding: lots of white, tons of flowers, big puffy dress, beautiful church
How do You Want to Die: in my sleep
Where do You Want to go to College: university at buffalo
What do You Want to be When You Grow Up: Lawyer
What Country Would You Most Like to Visit: Anyplace exotic
What Are You Going to do There: take fucking pictures, I don't know
Been in Love?: now i am
Been Kissed?: yes
Gotten a Hickie?: hehe
Had Sex?: hey! i'm a little angel

. : Best : .
Song: too many
Movie: Unfaithful
Eye Color: blue
Hair Color: brown
Articles of Clothing: tank tops

. : Number : .
Of People I can Trust With my Life: 4
Of CD's that I Own: 105
Of Movies that I Own: a lot..
Of Piercings: i have a lot of holes, however, I no longer put the rings in
Of Tattoo's: 0
Of Concerts You've Been To: none
Of Classes You've Failed: 0
Of ex boyfriends/girlfriends: dont keep track...
Of Kisses: like I really counted....

God, that survey was long and gay
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[18 Apr 2004|11:15am]

emo kid

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[18 Apr 2004|11:07am]
Which Member of Linkin Park are you obsessed with? by ambrosiadanielle
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Which Member of Linkin Park?Chester
How many times a day do you think about him?10
Does he think about you?every second of every minute
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Which Linkin Parker will you have sex with? by big_empty
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[17 Apr 2004|12:23am]
[ mood | full ]
[ music | :: my heartbeat :: ]

I found tons of pictures of Mike tonight....and then I found the infamous note....

.....I couldn't help it....I cried like the first time I read it. He makes me happy. I can't deny that even when we are apart from each other and haven't talked for a week....I love him more each day.

I feel so indebted to him, for all the happiness and laughter he's given me..

I LOVE Mike more than anything, and I always will.

Nothing will keep me from loving him, nothing can and nothing will.

I love you baby, forever and for always!

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[16 Apr 2004|09:21pm]
I fucking hate you with all I have! And yes I took it off!
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[16 Apr 2004|07:52pm]
Tonight I plan on sitting by the phone, watching a lifetime movie, eating popcorn, and drinking vodka while thinking to myself:

" This sucks and so do you."

I won't get a phone call tonight, I know it. I can feeeeeel it. No, actually, any idiot could have predicted you wouldn't call me considering that's your usual thing these days.

It's been almost three weeks since you've called me, why break down and talk to your girlfriend now? Seems kinda ridiculous to break such a awesome record!

" Why do you insist on sitting by the phone?" You may ask.

Well, on the off chance that perhaps he will call! Because all I want in this life is to talk to him.

Fuck this.

I want to slit my wrists.
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[15 Apr 2004|09:20pm]
I just don't even know if you care anymore.
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[14 Apr 2004|09:39pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | :: Waiting :: Finch ]

Basically, right now...I'm just fed up with you getting my hopes up...I don't understand why you have to tell me you'll do things when you won't...

I wouldn't get so mad half the time if you just told me exactly what was going to happen....but no, I'm sitting here waiting for always....because I believe that you're somehow going to manage to fit me into your busy schedule....

Clearly I'm living in some fantasy world....

.....If you only have time for you right now, then tell me...and I'll let you do you...

I'm writing again, these letters to you
On much I know
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here
The thought stops my heart

Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?

.......I want you to know that I miss you......

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[14 Apr 2004|06:48pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | King of the Hill ]

I love my Michael James so much I could just die!

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[13 Apr 2004|08:27pm]
I've given up on 9:01 phone calls...

.......but I'm trying to not give up on you
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[12 Apr 2004|09:43pm]
You are so homosexual.
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[10 Apr 2004|04:17pm]
ample boobs

You Have Ample Boobs!

No doubt about it, you have one hell of a rack

No matter what you wear, you're a walking boob attack

Other girls might get jealous - and say your boobs are fake

But you smile knowing their boyfriends are yours to take!

What's Good About Your Boobs?

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