at school   
02:49pm 09/10/2003
  im supposed to do this project about Queen Elizabeths Education time period or something, i did enough, I think im done, im gonna go so the lab moderator doesnt bitch at me for bullshitting around...later  
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In The House, In a Heartbeat   
08:28pm 29/09/2003
 
mood: weird
music: Brujeria "Chinga Tu Madre"
BOREDUM!
The freshman at the school are so fucking LAME, this person shall remain nameless but one of them was like im mostly white, but my step dads latin which makes me a little bit (not related by blood!) and she goes "yeah, i can speak a little but of Mexican to. god, people ALWAYS get this wrong, first i'm not mexican, but latin, and mexican and latin are not the same fucking thing (if you believe that, then youre a moron) its like saying that Chinese and Japanese are the same thing and its speaking SPANISH not mexican...jesusgodfuck..

The weather has been getting alot colder lately, yay! i'm sick of this heat.
The weeken went by really slow which is usually a good thing, i had to stay home to make up my groundation, but its ok, i like my room, i can entertain myself for a long time (not the way youre thinking of you silly dingleberry)


I've been feeling sick lately, im not hungry anymore, but after a while, i feel so hungry that im gonna throw up.
People told me before i have a barfing problem, its not like i do it everyweek, or everyday but still, theres nothing wrong with my system, like you care anyways..		  
     
 
Bastard Fuck Guy   
03:13am 28/09/2003
 
mood: lazy
music: Danzig "777"
Its been 10 days, i'm never on track of things. Nothing much happened these pass 10 days anyways, well maybe some but i'm to tired to go into detail. I want to go to the fucking Deftones show, but i dont have the money, or transportation to get there, its gonna be Deftones, Poison the Well, and some other band...i forgot their name.
But i'm definitlely going to go see: DevilDriver w/ SuperJoint Ritual and i need to see Static-X. i couldnt go see Manson either, but i saw him at ozzfest anyway.

Last friday i hung out with some friends, Mark or Marc whatever bought some hairspray and we lit shit on fire near Albertsons, i still have it, its still pretty much full.
Lately "Morris" has been pretty down lately about his situation, i feel pretty bad for him, i wish i could help him but i cant really do anything to help him and anna. Good luck guy

Andrew (Quinonez) told me a few times he wasnt sure if he can visit CA for a while, damnit. And its so fucking weird last week because he was REALLY upset when he called me cause he told me his mom has cancer and meghan broke up with him. Later on, like 20 minutes later he IM's me all happily, he says "!! I HAVE GREAT NEWS MY MOM DOESNT HAVE CANCER!! THe DOCTOR MIXED UP MY MOMS FORM WITH SOMEONE ELSES!!"

For some reason it kinda sounded like something from a movie, but its all good. ""ssteady as shhee goes!"

Everyone has a fucking Blurty journal now, ever since i put the link to my journal in my profile, people have them now.
I suppose i must sleep now, since i have a busy day ahead of me.		  
     
 
Tear The Soulwomb   
05:01pm 18/09/2003
 
mood: peaceful
music: Fear Factory "Body Hammer"
Fuck this fucking heat, why cant it be like it used to be. It always used to be cold, i used to hate it but since this heatwave i actually miss it. I also miss the winter, so many memories and i dunno, theres just something i like about it.
I had to go to the office today and say what happened between me and Tyrone (that bitch i was pissed about) and i had to fill out some form, because the P.E. teacher called me over and said that he was 'harassing' some freshman, and my friend, Tonka, was hella like crying and shaking cause he was so pissed off about what Tyrone did to him, they fought or something like that and me and andrew had to go to the vice principal and tell him shit, whatever.
Im grounded all month for burning stuff in my room, my parents were thinking of sending me to some counseler about my "problems" or "tendencies" with lighting stuff on fire for no reason. i doubt it though-		  
     
 
"I dont know what to say, so what, dont give a fuck right now"   
05:39pm 16/09/2003
 
mood: accomplished
music: Meshuggah "Rational Gaze"
Today was kinda interesting because we were playing volleyball and i was with some guy, who gets annoying after a minute then he kept saying shit like "Why do you listen to angry white boy music, are you mexican, do you speak a word of english, whiteboy" there was more but i wasnt really paying attention then after a while i was starting to get REALLY pissed off then i let it all out when he hit me with the volleyball i just screamed out so fucking loud everyone in the gym was looking at me, i was like "WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM!!! WHAT THE FUCK DID I EVER DO TO YOU!!!!" and i was walking towards him and he was backing away hella fast and was like "uuh it was an accident im sorry i didnt mean to, im sorry" and i said "BULLSHIT FUCKER!" and i spit a on him (lol) and my P.E. teacher Mr Giamonna was like "alex, calm down, take 5, its okay just go take a walk and dont break anything"

Bull-fucking-shit it was an accident, i could see out of the corner of my eye that he was aiming it towards me at the last minute. When i was walking i felt something so strange, i felt so fucking angry but good since i let it all out, in the locker rooms i could see Mr.Giamonna stare at me incase i had the urge to go and punch him.

My friend John said something pretty funny to, "I wasnt surprised how you said that everyone looked at you different because they probably thought you were going to shoot everyone, or 'columbine' the school"

I have a twisted/funny idea to wear a trech coat tomorrow, but nah, maybe.....		  
     
 
Running through the shards of fire and broken glass   
04:58pm 15/09/2003
 
mood: dorky
music: White Zombie "Grease Paint and Monkey Brains"
Yup today was alright, Andrew got in HELLA trouble because since today was Photo Day, one of the photo people parked their cars in our hang out spot so we all threw our backpacks on it and leaned on it, and we all got up and discussed destructive comments on it. Then Andrew scratched on the hood "MYNOR" (which is our friends name) It was hella funny at the time but kinda messed up. And he put in a few more on it with his belt.
We all moved because the security guard came by with the princpal and looked at it. It didnt seem like a big deal, until when we were in line during 6th waiting to get our pictures taken, one of the guys comes up and asks andrew if he scratched the hood and who did it, i tried to hold myself from laughing because he said something about Mynor, luckily he didnt see that big smirk on my face when he said "When i was your age i was a punk rocker to! But in my whole 10 years in this career this hasnt happened, i went to ghetto schools in the ghetto and Oakland and this hasnt happened!". Wow my high school put a dent in his life then.
So then later on andrew is escorted out of class Right when the bell was gonna ring.
Jaime told me he either has to pay $800 for the scratch which i think is way to pricy for about a 6inch scratch. Or he's expelled, which he's probably gonna do and go to Oceana to be with Anna, hopefully they dont send him to Penninsula High.

Yesterday I hung out with josho and we mostly lit stuff on fire, his gf wanted pics of us (mostly him) with our guitar and bass, so she gave us a disposable one and i used my digital for some. We have this decapitated Barney (the dinousaur) head and lit that on fire, when i was holding it. Then i had another idea of lighting my hand on fire, i just got cologne and sprayed it about 30 times and lit it, i have one picture that looks pretty good, i had to hold it for like 8 seconds which doesnt seem like alot but it is when youre on fire.
Then i lit josh's beanie on fire which looked REALLY FUCKING COOL!!! he looked like Sweet Tooth from Twisted Metal. But since i was laughing to hard i kinda stalled and he was like "OH DUDE!! MY HEAD!!!" and we were listening to Coal Chamber, and he was trying to get it out by head banging and moving his head back and forth, and i finally got control and got my pillow and covered it out.
Then we lit Lynch Mob Baby on fire, and it was prettty cool, we're gonna do it again, except outside because my room smelt like colonge and burnt paper mixed. I got really cool pics of it which im gonna save, fo sho'....
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01:55am 14/09/2003
 
mood: crappy
music: Eyehategod "Blank"
I wish Today was tomorrow and the sun was out and not so dead and desolate with the moon hanging over my head, i think im slowly going insane without sleep.......		  
     
 
Insomnia Overdrive   
01:36am 14/09/2003
 
mood: weird
music: Nine Inch Nails "The Great Collapse"
OH my god! i need sleeping pills, im SO TIRED and i try to lie down for a few minutes then i have the urge to get up and do something else, its like a lie down and in my mind i keep thinking i need to finish something or i need to do something, then i get up and do that something, which is usually on the computer.
I heard about people taking those before and depending on those pills to sleep everynight, i wouldnt want to go through with that. I need to talk to someone right now, so i'll get tired.

I feel so unfoucused and out of place yet awake, very awake.....hmm		  
     
 
Hero to Zero   
01:18am 14/09/2003
 
mood: tired
music: Aphex Twin "The Beauty of Being Numb"
Nothing really happened today, my cousins came over from 1 till like 10, tomorrow (today) i have a shit load of hw and stuff. I dont know if i can hang out with alexander.
Fucking Assholes down the street are having a party and i can hear EVERYTHING since my window is open because it is so fucking hot down here.
Luckily my head phones are right here, anyways, my fucking math teacher gives us hw up the ass EVERYDAY!
I keep hearing one guy down the street go "DRINK THE VINEGAR, DRINK THE VINEGAR!!!! WOO!!!!"
and rap music, well just the "BOOOM BO-BO-BO BOOM BOOOOM!!!" sounds of it.
I wish it was still summer, i cant believe im in school already, the summer felt really long, so many memories during that time to.

I seriously need some sleep before i pass out on the keyboard and................
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EAting My Insides Quietly   
09:21pm 12/09/2003
 
mood: okay
music: Korn "Dead Bodies Everywhere"
Today was ok i guess,
I got a new cell phone, woo hoo!
ITS TO FUCKING HOT!!!!
Yesterday was fun in chemistry, Zach brought some 'grass' and put it on the minature heater, inside a bowl and covered it, just as it started smoking the teacher, Mr.Wong, comes over and starts talking and i walk away with a huge grin on my face while i hint Zach to unplug the burner. Luckily he didnt see what was under the bowl.

Today i just lived my everyday day life, and got in trouble with the P.E. teacher, Mr.Hymen (teehee Hymen) because Mike was being a silly dick gnome and took my sunglasses and ran around the locker room with them, and i climbed over one of them to get him, then some jock tells me to go to his office, then HYMEN started nagging at me for being stupid and not paying attention, but i wasnt really paying attention. I was just in my own little world and i just interupted him and said "What i did was stupid and it wont happen" and i left in the middle of his speech, heheh.

Fucking Freshman fucking piss me off, theyre all like...stupid and trying to act "tough". Theyre fun to pick on
Well im gonna go now		  
     
 
Blood Shed Birth   
05:00pm 10/09/2003
 
mood: hyper
music: Atreyu "Someones Standing on my Chest"
Today was a fun day! In Chemistry we got to burn chemicals over a miniature heater. Of course i decided to take advantage of the situation with the heaters. My friend Zach and I put our pencils and pens on it, which left off a horrible stench Then we put some paper over it but it didnt catch on fire, it just turned brown and let off alot of smoke. In Algebra i just messed around with the chalk boards since we had to work on them for examples. I scratched them a few times and irritated people around me. In P.E. we had a substitute who just made us play volleyball and placed me on a shitty team, at least Andrew was on there so i could talk to him. When we were changing in the locker room these stupid freshman were all like "Dude, do you smoke pot, i did drugs last year, dude, yeah ROCK ON!!!" Then at lunch i was just REALLY hyper, and just running around and acting stupid. Animation class was boring since i had no idea how to work Adobe After Effects. I just messed around with the sound fx. IM bored right now		  
     
 
I'd Kill Myself to Make Everybody Pay   
05:44pm 08/09/2003
 
mood: weird
music: Korn "Porno Creep"
Its been a while since i've updated. Busy with school and work and such but its all good. Well i started school again about 2 weeks ago, so far its ok since i know alot of people from last year.
I'm just sitting here bored,with a fat ass headache.

Yesterday I hung out with John, Xander, Anthony R, and Anthony we just discussed some priorities we have yet to accomplish. We rode our scooters near the Skyline County Prison, on a dog trail. I bet alot of people walk their dogs and get a nice view down there ^_^.

Stupid Hot Topic, fuckin cheap bastards. Last week i bought a Misfits shirt and got alot of flak from josh and ash, "everyone has that shirt!!" then a few hours later i went to FyE music and saw an Aphex Twin CD i wanted REALLY bad, and i need to return the money from the shirt to get the CD, so i go there and ask if i can return it and they say "ooh Are you Sure!!! Do you really want to do this!! You cant return it and get money, you only get store credits! JUST KIDDING!!" so they can tell by my facial expressions and my voice that i seriously want to return it and get my money back, then some lady who works there is giving me attitude and tells me some stuff about never to come back and saying she's kidding. Then I FINALLY get my money back after a 10 minute hassle. God those poor cheapskates only get about $700+ in sales a day, and charge $20 on shirts and $60 on pants, OH NO!! WHAT HAVE I DONE!!! heheheh

Then last saturday and this past saturday i went to kristinas with ash and josh, we were on the trampoline for a while, then i figured out how to do a flip so these past 2 weeks i've been flipping everywhere. But of course i have to stop on the trampoline when ash is giving josh ANOTHER ~grumble *B.J.!* grumble *cough*

I seriously need a job somewhere, to get money and such. But places around here dont regularly hire 15 yr olds. People keep telling me to work at Hot Topic, woop-dee-fuckin-doo! I want to get a job like at a CD Store or Starbucks. If i do work at Starbucks i have to go to training to mix the right coffee mix, but i'll probably end up messing it up and getting fired.

Stupid Poseur Freshman...This one guy wears a Misfits shirt one day and the next he wears a Good Charolette shirt, hmm............		  
     
 
Long Day Kill Me More   
11:06pm 21/08/2003
 
mood: depressed
music: Pantera "Floods"
im fucking not feeling well right, both emotionally and physically, i dont want to type it out right now

Xander came over today anyways, and we watched movies off of consumption junction or steakandcheese.com
We got pretty grossed out by one though, which was Ron Jeremy having sex with some chick, she looks normal so far because you dont see her face, then the camera goes up a bit and its some old woman, AHH!!. MUST WASH EYES!!

After he left, i was talking to john for awhile and we talked about..stuff, the least i can say is that we're gonna broadcast a radio station "legally" I SWEAR!! but it has a 100ft range. so we're probably gonna be the only listeners. And we're starting a Electronica music project, since he's handy at programming and shit like that and i have synth's i can play pretty good and modify, all i need is a sequencer and a drumming program.

god, i seem to never have luck with anything nowadays, if only she would have told me something earlier..........		  
     
 
Mop-Mop-A-Wow   
12:11am 20/08/2003
 
mood: hyper
music: Skinlab "Anthem for a Fallen Star"
Today was registration day for my school, (NOOO!! ITS IN A WEEK!!) and i had to get up like at 7:30 am, but i got up REEALLY slow and i went with Xander like around 8:14, and right when we get there i see a long line to get in, with fucking people that i was happy to get away from, for like 3 months.
My classes suck, i have algebra support FIRST period and algebra second (God i fucking hate math), then i fucking sign up for Art of Video OR Yearbook, but nooooo i went and got Art & Multimedia with a teacher who is constantly happy, WAY to happy! Kinda like a happy where she does not let ANYTHING stand in her way of being happy.
And then i get a shit bottom-locker, What the fuck, i'm a sophomore, the stupid freshman are supposed to get bottom!!
God, this year is gonna suck.

Anyways, I'm fucking thrilled cause im gonna go see ANNA!! on Friday!!!
im bringing Xander and Kristina with me, so i'll have some sorta company when im going down there or something. Im gonna stay there for like a few hours, maybe like from 1 - 7 or 8, but i know im probably gonna want to stay longer anyways...		  
     
 
Mr.X Deepthroats   
05:18pm 13/08/2003
 
mood: hungry
music: White Zombie "Real Solution #9"
The reason for the title was because i was playing Metal Gear Solid 2 earlier and some guys name was "Deepthroat" then he was also known as "Mr.X' so me and my cousin were making fun of it, yeah it was kinda like one of those "you had to be there" moments.

My cousins are over here, and i did almost nothing all day except play video games and listen to music.

Yesterday me, josh, ash, kristina, and bianca went to go see Freddy Vs Jason, that movie is the fuckin' shit!
And one of the previews was the remake of The Texas Chainsaw Massacre. It looks okay, but eh, the original is still the best. Then after the movie we went to Albertsons and i bought 3 energy drinks and nearly barfed after chugging the RockStar drink.

Kristina says i have a barfing problem, like at Great America, we went to the food court to eat after a few rides, and i was feeling like shit. So i was dry heaving in my cup a bit. Oh well as long as it doesnt kill me i'm ok.

Im gonna go watch some movies now.		  
     
 
People Are Strange, when youre a Stranger   
12:52am 11/08/2003
 
mood: sleepy
music: Godspeed You Black Emperor! "Terrible Canyons of Static"
I didnt write in this mo'fucka for like 4 days, so here's where i'll start. I went to the Lake, i tried skiing, but i threw up and ended up with a killer headache when i got on the boat. Got back went to sleep. Next day, my grandmother had a stroke, and went to the hospital (intensive care unit). I visited her yesterday, wow, i havent been so sad/scared in such a long time, she looked terrible, and could barely talk, the speech was slured and incoherent. She's still there, but what scares me the most is that how she can end up like this all in one night. Today i hung out with josh once again, and we went to his gf's house, while we were walking there some stupid middle school kids, and one highschool kid, were all like "Are you guys HIGH AGAIN!!!!" and we didnt know what the fuck they were talking about, and kept asking if we're stoners, and we told them we're crack dealers, and we sell PCP rolled with Maui Wowie, on the streets for $70 an ounce. Dorks believed us. His girlfriend was all pissed at him, for not hanging out with her, because it was "their day". Then uhhh i talked to Anna, damn, i really have to see her in sunnyvale before gay-dick school starts. but im gonna go to sleep now..		  
     
 
San Francisco, The City Where the air smells of Urine   
12:00am 07/08/2003
 
mood: satisfied
music: Chris Clark "Slow Spines"
Today i was in San Francisco, Fisher Man's Wharf. I noticed 2 smells of that part: Fish and Urine.
But most of SF smells like piss because every where you step, a bum took a piss there.

ARRGH im tired of porno-adds popping up on my computer every hour!

..and i miss downloading music for free, my program was Kazaa Lite, now the fucking RIAA is shutting everyone off with a lawsuit. If you hate the RIAA as much as i (and probably almost every person who "shared" music) go to this website, www.boycott-riaa.com.

Tomorrow im going to a lake as i said before, which is like 3 hours away from here (San Bruno)
So i guess i need sleep cause we're supposed to go hella early. ........		  
     
 
Welcome to The PornO HoloCaust   
12:47am 06/08/2003
 
mood: lazy
music: Aphex Twin "Windowlicker"
Wow, i did nothing all day, i went to my aunts for like an hour, then my parents left, so i got to be home alone. I didnt really do anything, i just listened to my music pretty loud and watched "snuff" films at a high volume too. Then for some odd reason, i went into my sisters room, and borrowed her 80's compilation CD, which is mostly 80's Chart Topping New Wave Artists. I have to say my favorite song on it, is Gary Numan's "Cars". Tomorrow I'm going to Fisher Mens Wharf in San Francisco, then on Thursday im going to some lake resort called, "A Wet Pleasure" heheheheh. God, i've been out almost everyday, i need to stay home, and be alone until we go back to that hellhole, school. One year, i want to completely seclude myself in some isolated area, maybe an underground home, haha that would be hella cool. I must go do other stuff now.........		  
     
 
LYNCH MOB!!!!   
01:50am 05/08/2003
 
mood: energetic
music: Danzig "See All You Were"
I was supposed to go to Great America, but josh forgot his wallet with his WOW card in there, and after i hung up with him, it was hella late, so i felt lazy and decided to go next week. So instead, josh came over and i was intoxicated on grass . After a few minutes we went to ashley's house. I kept laughing at everything the whole time, and making jokes that her and josh should be on Maury for "Abusive Girlfriends Hitting Nice Guys!" But she just does it in a playful way. He's gonna go with her to Disneyland in November, and i was saying when he's sleeping, the whole family is gonna come and smother him with pillows, or else theyre gonna recreate "Psycho" when he's in the shower and stab him, but instead they find him on the shitter with a newspaper, and turn back in disgust, hahahaha, oh god i havent laughed so hard where i felt like puking in such a long time. Then we left and went to Xanders house, for awhile and wathced some Happy Tree Friends, thats the funniest shit a warped human being would find funny. which consists of Happy animals (squirrels and rabbits) being killed in some funny way, but with an innocent *cute* beginning. Then they get disembowled and bloodsplatters everywhere, i recommend this to anyone with a warped mind and check them out at (www.happytreefriends.com), in my rating it gets 4 out of 5 Happy Faces. Im gonna go chat with some people,		  
     
 
CaSualities in thE Static AgE   
12:35am 04/08/2003
 
mood: dorky
music: Misfits "Static Age"
Today i went to my friend, josh's, house. I brought my guitar and amp over, we played for a while in his cousins play room. I started looking through their toys and found some shit we can use. We found a stuffed Barney doll, and cut its head off. And he put the head on top of his bass, hahaha, then we drew lines under his eyes, and a big X on its forehead. So i guess thats a new trend we're gonna set, putting stuffed animals heads on our instruments. and being the fucking pyro i am, i lit the lower torso on fire, the stitchings burnt fast, but the cotton just shrunk. Then we saw some "hardcore rappers" from a middle school (parkside), and yelled at them, it was 2 wiggers and 2 chicks. We were just screaming, and yelling at them. I was screaming and josh was yelling retarted gibberish at them. Then we watched some of Dogma, then i found a babydoll in the room, and he drew on its face while i drew offensive material on the body, and stuck nails through the lower torso, and i had a sick idea to get fake blood, or ketchup and throw the doll in the toilet with the legs sticking up, and splatter the toilet seat and walls with the blood, and take a picture. YEAAAH. but we didnt do it. Tomorrow me, Kristina, and Josh are going to Great America. For the last time, this summer. FUCK! I'm gonna go do other "stuff" now, Goodbye		  
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