(x3)   
12:15am 04/07/2005
  well hello, Blurty.


Good Charlotte - "We Believe"

There's a woman crying out tonight
Her world has changed, she asks God why
Her only son has died and now her daughter cries
She can't sleep at night

Downtown- another day for all the suits and ties
Another war to fight, there's no regard for life
How do they sleep at night?
How can we make things right?
Just wanna make this right

We believe, We believe, We believe, We believe
We believe, We believe
In this love

We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all our pain
(So let it be)
There's a love that could fall down like rain
(Let us see)
Let forgiveness wash away the pain
(What we need)
And no one really knows what they are searching for
(We believe)
This world is crying for so much more

We believe, We believe, We believe, We believe
We believe, We believe
In this love
We believe, We believe, We believe
We believe, We believe
In this love

So this world is too much for you to take
Just lay it down and follow me
I'll be everything you need
In every way

We believe, We believe, We believe, We believe
We believe, We believe
In this love
In this love
We believe in this love
We believe in this love
We believe in this love
 
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times2.   
05:54pm 29/05/2005
  Chevelle - "The Clincher"

Touch

I'll stand for nothing less
Or never stand again
These are the limits when one's buried
This body's left the soul

Well could we have known
Never would I have helped to nail down

Careful of drifting off
Now losing taste and touch
Turning a pale blue, leaning in to say
This body's left the soul

The brain needs oxygen
Can't sneak around this bait
His catacomb has got me by the chin
This body's left the soul

Well could we have known
Never would I have helped to nail down
With nothing to gain
Here's the clincher, this should be you

Now saturate, now saturate, now saturate, now saturate and touch
Now saturate, now saturate, now saturate, the earth
Now saturate, now saturate, now saturate, the earth

Well could we have known
Never would I have helped to nail down
With nothing to gain
Here's the clincher, this should be you
Made cold and crippled
This happened to be never changing
Holding inside, the phobia of you
Made cold and crippled, ending it all

Now saturate, now saturate, now saturate, now saturate, the earth
Now saturate, now saturate, now saturate
 
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x 3.   
01:08am 11/05/2005
  Relient K - "be my escape"

I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in
So you won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away

And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house, all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go
promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house, all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go
promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house, all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go
promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You
So were You
 
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03:03pm 22/04/2005
  Over It - "Shine"

Stretched past the edge and now I feel like breaking, my back against the wall
There's little left and nothing's here to faze me
Still summer fades to fall
When the meaning feels so far from healing it's still my one cure-all

Still dreams collide where words can't describe
All the distance waiting outside
Will we burn that bridge when we come to it
We'll let our light shine

So stay with me where whispers suffice
To say all the secrets we hide
Will we burn that bridge when we come to it
We'll let our light shine

Let's paint the town a thousand conversations, so many names to know
Drift through the crowd and take my hand to go now, I've got to let you know
A thousand lights shine in the valley below
We're still my brightest star

Still dreams collide where words can't describe
All the distance waiting outside
Will we burn that bridge when we come to it
We'll let our light shine

So stay with me where whispers suffice
To say all the secrets we hide
Will we burn that bridge when we come to it
We'll let our light shine

Don't you love the way a little quiet solves everything
When you can't help wondering how's it gonna be?

Stretched past the edge and now I feel like breaking with my back against the wall
There's little left and nothing's here to faze me
Still summer fades to fall
When the meaning feels so far from healing it's still my one cure-all

Still dreams collide where words can't describe
All the distance waiting outside
Will we burn that bridge when we come to it
We'll let our light shine

So stay with me where whispers suffice
To say all the secrets we hide
Will we burn that bridge when we come to it
We'll let our light shine

So stay with me where whispers suffice
To say all the secrets we hide
Will we burn that bridge when we come to it
We'll let our light shine
 
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*rewind to unmake this world I'm in*   
11:09am 18/04/2005
  heh. sorry for all the lyric posts, but I seem to relate to every song I listen to in some way or another.
*shrugs* that's what happens when music runs your life? : )

hey, hey, hey )
 
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09:56am 18/04/2005
  hmm. sorry if I tend to read between the lines and the hidden story sounded like she wanted to do something, but no one else wanted her to do it so she didn't do it.
SORRY FOR THINKING, REALLY I AM.

sorry for trying to keep this going because there's nothing there anymore. there really isn't. it's hard to be friends when 2 people lead completely different lifestyles. and those pleas about caring about our friendship were just because I don't want to admit there really isn't anything there anymore. because I've had 3 best friends just come and go from my life, NONE OF THEM made an impact on me the way you did and I just thought it'd be different this time, but it's not. things change and as usual, they've changed to the point where there's nothing. I've tried to stay friends with Rachel, but that's pointless cause we were best friends in elementary school and of course we're completely different people now. I tried to stay friends with Moriah, but that was middle school and yup, we're completely different now. and I've tried to stay friends with you, but we're not completely different, but so different that there's barely any common ground to stand on. and you know what's funny. you know who I feel could be my closest friend right now, besides Eric? kate. isn't that funny.

so we don't need to try anymore. it's pointless. and anything I say screws something else up. so I'm done. I'm stopping now.

and for once in my life, I want to say it's all my fault because somehow it is.
 
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and just to know this feeling... heaven is a place on earth   
01:21am 18/04/2005
  I really do love Eric. really do. I wish I could make him say that this ring is an engagement ring only I wish he'd think of it on his own. because we're so in love. he makes me so happy. even when I'm really sad, I'm still really happy. and it's because I always have him. no matter what else, I have him. and that makes me happy. and I hope he knows that whenever he makes me mad or sad, it's always for some childish reason and at the end of the night, when I go to bed, I wish I could just kiss him and tell him that everything's fine. because I love him. : )

and I love this song... yeah the chorus, "I won't make you...", means I won't make you have sex with me until you're ready to... sex, with someone you love so much, really is amazing...
but yeah... this song seems to hit home right about now...


Something Corporate - "I won't make you"

I'm under attack again my dear, I'm in the way
Got no resolutions, no clever anecdotes to say
And still if I yell at the top of my lungs, will it be the same
I'd fly you a flag, I'd bury this pen into my veins

I wanna feel through you tonight
But I won't make you
I won't make you

The telephone number I got for you says nobody's home
The best thing I can think to do right now is leave it alone
And you had an apology in your mailbox since last July
It's funny when you find the words to say, you find no reply

I wanna feel through you tonight
But I won't make you
I won't make you

Scream my name just one more time

But I won't make you
I won't make you

And it's been hours now
To be here like this
And just to lay you down
And just to taste your lips
And just to keep me up
God I'm tired of sleeping
And just to lay inside you
And just to know this feeling

I wanna feel through you tonight
But I won't make you
I won't make you

Scream my name just one more time

But I won't make you
I won't make you
 
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this really is a great song...   
12:18pm 17/04/2005
 
Nelly Furtado - "Try"

All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry, the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try

Try.. try.. try

All of the moments that already passed
We'll try to go back and make them last
All of the things we want each other to be
We never will be, we never will be
And that's wonderful, and that's life
And that's you, baby
This is me, baby
And we are, we are, we are, we are
we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love
Try...
 
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12:00pm 17/04/2005
  this song will always remind me of my Zishy. : P

the Rocking Horse Winner - "elementary"

it starts with you because you say
you're so easy to talk to
and if you want me then
I'll run with every word
and I'll race anything for you
one plus one equals two buckets of rain
pouring through the holes
and draining me again
still waiting to hear from you
still wanting to be with you

speak, the rhythm flows
breathe to keep me warm
kissing me with intentions for kissing you

as I close my eyes and swim
I can feel the sun
burning through crystal clear
it's almost been one year

elementary steps can lead us to
peace within the core of our hearts
we met on a poor night
you entangled me into your soft-spoken lines
responding with a stare
I found no reason
tell me the reason for pushing you away
three hours far behind
I found no reason
tell me the reason for pushing you away
three hours far behind

champion summer
see you again
when fire lights the charcoal sky
champion summer
see you again
when fire lights the charcoal sky

it starts with you because you say
you're so easy to talk to
and if you want me then
speak, the rhythm flows
breathe to keep me warm
kissing me with intentions for kissing you
 
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09:37pm 16/04/2005
  much prettier. : )

tried to give it a Wicked vibe. ha.
 
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12:57am 16/04/2005
 
music: simple plan - "untitled"
it's a good feeling, to be able to listen to all these realllllly depressing songs and not get reallllllly depressed like I use to. I'm a fucking sucker for sad songs. I don't know- I like emotions. and it's almost a sense of accomplishment that these songs don't get to me anymore because Finally, I don't relate to them.

I have [ almost ] nothing to be sad about. : )

and that makes me happy.
 
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12:21am 16/04/2005
  uck. this journal needs a makeover...  
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12:19am 16/04/2005
 
music: slipknot - "wait and bleed"

You're A Box Full Of Sharp Objects


What The Used Song Are You?
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** ha. of course I am, you silly quiz!!
I mean, it's only my favorite song by the Used.
ANNNNDDDD
I'll give you a dollar if you know what "a box full of sharp objects" is suppose to symbolize, stand for, whatever I'm trying to say. : )
 
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we scare because we care.   
11:13pm 15/04/2005
  soooo.

I've come back to this journal.. I don't know why.
an escape from an escape? : )

I don't know just quite what I plan on posting here... it's not like anyone I'm really good friends with reads my livejournal often, so not like I have to worry about hiding anything.

but still, here I am.

I <3 P.O.D.
I can't stop listening to them, it's an addiction. I truly cannot wait until they come back in concert. they're so fucking great live, it's crazy. one of THE BEST shows I've ever seen, period.

420 is coming up... I don't know why I smoke. and I'm not even addicted or something. I'd be fine if I was told I could never EVER smoke up again. and yet I still do it. maybe it's because I have nothing better to do. maybe it's because if Eric and I are alone and stoned, there's always sex. ; ) ha. jk. maybe it's just a last "rebellion" before I really start to settle down. I mean, I don't want to do it forever and there's no way in hell I will let my husband smoke up. at least not while our kids are young... ha maybe once the kids are all grown and out of our hands, I'll let him, but once we're married, it stops. but I'm young and I'm having fun- more power to me.

I can't wait til I'm 21. I've found my latest love - Southern Comfort and Coke. ha. Eric had run to mcdonalds with Jeremy's brother and Jimmy and Hoss came back to the apartment with a cup of SoCo and coke and he didn't really remember me as Eric's girlfriend cause I've never really talked to him, but damn. he started flirting and hitting on me. it was so fucking hilarious because he was drunk. : ) it's always nice to get hit on. but yeah. he shared his cup with me and hence how I discovered my love.

otherwise, things are things.

things with Eric are great. I wish I could get a good picture of my ring. : ) it's real pretty... I can't believe we've been together for a little over 2 years..


that's all for now, boyfriend is here : )
 
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01:40am 04/01/2004
 

aloha.

i started a new livejournal.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/x_starshine_x

: )
 
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*sigh*   
06:19pm 03/01/2004
 

i *heart* my so-called life.


from episode 7...

performed by Jared Leto himself

"red"

I'm going nowhere
Going nowhere fast
Drowning in my memory
Living in the past
Everything looked black till I found her
She's all I need and that?s what I
say I call her RED

She's my shelter from the strom
She's the place to rest my head
Late at night she keeps me warm
I call her RED
 
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03:05pm 03/01/2004
 
mood: happy
music: brittney mitchell


boyfriends are always good for something.. : )

from his journal on new years day:

"any fish
i was sleeping with my girlfriend last night
(no i wasent fucking her, get your fucking mind out of the gutter)
and i woke up somewhere during the night
and i stared at her for a good 15 minutes
she was so pretty and cute wrapped up in her blankets
i gave her a kiss on the cheek and she didn't wake up
at that moment i was the happiest i have ever been
that is where i wanted to be the rest of my life
she was so pretty
i love her"


: )
 
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*sigh*   
04:53pm 02/01/2004
 

this is why it's always good to have a Jake around...

from his journal:

"so, it's a new year and all that. everyone will make (and most likely break) all their resolutions. i think i've been over this but, i don't believe in those things. it's pointless to me to plan for an entire year. so, instead of that, this year my resolution is to have none. that's right, it will make me feel better at the end of 2004 to know that i did whatever i wanted, however i wanted at the moment i did said action. i'll do what my heart and mind tell me is right this year. nothing more, nothing less."


i agree.
 
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05:38am 29/12/2003
 
mood: sleepy
music: brand new - "am i wrong?"


blah.
work today 6-2.
but at least shelly is the morning manager [ i think ] all week
so i dont have to deal with korinne in the mornings..


but anyways.

i just want to state for the record
that i love my boyfriend with all my heart..
i just get in these moods...
and in those moods i can't help but concentrate on everything negative...
but i do love him.
and the thought of breaking up with him hasn't crossed my mind..
: )
he makes me smile.
and most importantly, he makes me happy.


x<3x
katie o.
 
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: D   
05:14am 29/12/2003
 

holy smokes. : D

from Jake's livejournal:
[ he was talking about how he had 2 weird dreams... this is the second one he talked about ]

.TWO.) Chris and i went to a Green Day show at some venue that doesn't exist, but was really cool...but before i could get there, i had to break out of this weird warehouse place that was all boobytrapped, and this guy that looked like Gary Sinease was chasing me, and i had a kitty in my pocket...so after i got out of the place through a side exit i had to cut through a school yard that was next door and run to my house to meet Chris. in the school yard there was a cheerleading squad practicing in the snow (there was about 6 or 8 inches on the ground) to Motion City Soundtrack's Capital H. when we got to the show, the band came out and played, then stopped and said they'd be back. i saw Zuko [ zukos_euphoria ] and her friend Katie-O. except Katie didn't look like Katie at all, it wasn't her, but that's what she looked like in my dream for some reason. Chris and Zuko left to go to Chris's car for something, and Katie and i ended up making out(?). weird...again, all i remember. i think there was also some mosh pit action in this dream someplace.


oh if only... ; )

hehe nah just kidding.
sorry jakey, i'm taken.

oh and i know you're jealous kate. : P hehe
 
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