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Wowowowooowww. [07 Dec 2003|11:52am] [ mood | good ] Well, I thought Lilli was ignoring me for no reason, and that turned out to be true. And because she was ignoring me for no reason, I did the same back. I didn't call her, we didn't hang out, I haven't been at her house, she hasn't randomly driven to my house at 6:30 AM to drive me to school, etc. Her and her friend's just want to ask me for favors. I'm happy to help, but help me back, damn. Me and Lilli's convo this morning: LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: why do ppl lie to me? LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: am i not understanding? XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:04 AM]: what do you meaaan. LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: laura has been lieing to me LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: and i have a feelin ashley too XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:04 AM]: about whaaat LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: laura about stupid shit LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: and ashley about her not having time to hang out XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:04 AM]: ooh. LilLatinChick [10:05 AM]: yeah XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:05 AM]: well to tell you the TRUTH, I think ashley is saying that cause you have been pushing her away. LilLatinChick [10:05 AM]: i have been pushing her away?!?!?!?! LilLatinChick [10:05 AM]: bull shit LilLatinChick [10:05 AM]: ever since she started color guard and goin wit mario she been actin like that dumb bitch Christina. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:05 AM]: me and her talked about a month ago on the way to 3rd period and we were saying how you were doing your own thing now and you really didnt talk to us anymore as much. LilLatinChick [10:06 AM]: i never see you LilLatinChick [10:06 AM]: why don't ya'll ever call me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:06 AM]: cause everytime I call you're always like, "Let me let you go, I have laundry to do." XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:06 AM]: or something XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:06 AM]: and you're alwaaaays always always with nina or laura. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:07 AM]: so I thought, well if Lilli wanted to do something, she'd talk to me. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:07 AM]: but you haven't. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:07 AM]: so I thought, okay she doesnt want to do anything then. LilLatinChick [10:07 AM]: no is that ever since i've been "partying" everyone has treated me different XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: No that has nothing to do with it, cause you know I would go to any party you invited me to. LilLatinChick [10:08 AM]: so i don't say anything anymore cuz it feels like ppl are judging me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: No one is judging you. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: you just think that. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: thats not what I was thinking anyway XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: I was thinking "Lilli doesn't want to hang out anymore cause she has new friends that are obviously more fun to hang out with anyway, so why try?" XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:09 AM]: You know Laura and Nina are crazy, and I'm just laid back, and I can go psychotic when and if you get me in the mood. Remember when you first met me, we were both happy little fuckers, then we started having some serious problems, like my dad beating my mom, me getting molested, my cousin dying, my mom's bitchiness that doesn't help ANYTHING. Then your dad dying, your insecurities, your family problems, your alcoholic mother. And I dont know, but I get that feeling from you now, that you don't really want to talk to me. LilLatinChick [10:09 AM]: no honestly i kinda got fed up with the way you always had something to complain about like ur hair, make-up, etc XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:10 AM]: well whatever it may be, I had that feeling you didn't want to talk to me anymore. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:10 AM]: and yah it might have been my insecurities. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:10 AM]: I know its annoying. If its annoying to you, its even more annoying to me. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:10 AM]: Don't you think I'd LOVE to get over that? XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:11 AM]: But I can't right now. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:11 AM]: Till I get out of this fucking house. Away from all this negativity. Away from 'always having to look your best for everyone'. LilLatinChick [10:11 AM]: and i've been havin some issues with family and myself and i'm trying to solve my own problems first not that i don't care for my friends no more but everyone seems to be doin there own thing then blame me for not hanging out with them (not saying you) XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:11 AM]: Lillllli, I know. But ehhh! I don't know anymoree. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:11 AM]: *farts* LilLatinChick [10:11 AM]: lol XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:12 AM]: comic relife. LilLatinChick [10:12 AM]: it ain't nothing personal but i mean if ya'll gonna act diffrent with me now then that only tells me that ya'll don't want to talk to me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:13 AM]: well dontcha think everyone is thinking the same way? XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:13 AM]: You started hanging out with new people, and ignoring us, so we did the same back cause we didn't want to annoy you. LilLatinChick [10:13 AM]: ashley has always told me she had church functions to go to on weekends and the other day she was like " i haven't gone to one of them in a long time" LilLatinChick [10:14 AM]: i hang out with new people cuz my old friends were leaving me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:14 AM]: Lilli what friends do I have? LilLatinChick [10:14 AM]: you and mike, you and christina, you and drew, forrest, elora, amanda, dusty, beth, diana, ramy, ahmad XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:14 AM]: I have friends, but none that I really hang out with, and trust, and talk to like I talk to you. I don't confide in people, and feel comfortable around them like I am with you Lilli. Me and you have gone through so much, we were always there for each other to get through it. LilLatinChick [10:14 AM]: you and mike espically that shit drove me crazy XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:14 AM]: Mike is a dickface. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:14 AM]: I haven't talked about him to you in about 2 months Lilli XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:15 AM]: He had a girlfriend for two months, and we just became friends. LilLatinChick05 [10:15 AM]: i started hanging out with my other group when it started LilLatinChick [10:15 AM]: when ashley got with mario XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:15 AM]: me and Mike only talk on the bus. We stopped talking as much. LilLatinChick [10:15 AM]: and when christina became a bitch XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:15 AM]: so because I had one new friend, you thought I was ignoring you and turning you away XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:15 AM]: just because of Mike. LilLatinChick [10:15 AM]: all we talked about was mike XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:16 AM]: well think about how much I put up between you and jeffery. I TALKED to jeffery online, and on the phone for you. I always told him how good a person you were, and we always talked about him too when you were in a sappy mood. We'd talk about him for hours, and you couldn't deal with the little random things I said about Mike?! LilLatinChick [10:16 AM]: look i ain't mad at you XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:16 AM]: Im not mad either. LilLatinChick [10:16 AM]: i'm sorry for being a bitch towards you LilLatinChick [10:16 AM]: i understand were u comin from but ashley has been bull shitting me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: okay ashley might be lying to you, but I haven't done anything. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: I've done so much for you, and you've done the same back XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: if you want me to understand you, you gotta understand me back. LilLatinChick [10:17 AM]: everyone has been letting me down XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: i havent lied to you, or talked about you XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: and I've done nothing but defend you LilLatinChick [10:17 AM]: i know u haven't XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: and i was always there for you when you needed something, or advice. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:18 AM]: and you've been there for me too. LilLatinChick [10:18 AM]: i apologize for being a bitch towards you XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:19 AM]: well I guess we've been unknowingly ignoring each other for nothing. haha LilLatinChick [10:19 AM]: hahaha yeah LilLatinChick [10:19 AM]: we dumb XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:19 AM]: no shiiit. LilLatinChick [10:19 AM]: lol XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:19 AM]: slap harley for me and call him a fag too. LilLatinChick [10:19 AM]: lol, okay LilLatinChick [10:21 AM]: u strange XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:21 AM]: me? look at yourself ho. LilLatinChick [10:22 AM]: hey i'm a dumb fuck ...i aint no ho XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:22 AM]: oh yah, thats true. LilLatinChick [10:23 AM]: lol that makes me feel better XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:23 AM]: lol yay LilLatinChick [10:24 AM]: lifes like a dick when it gets hard fuck it XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:24 AM]: lmao. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: you know, this shit between our friends is always going to happen whether we like it or not. Im sure you know that. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: but people change XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: even your friend since you were like 5 LilLatinChick [10:25 AM]: its stupid though there is no need to fucking lie XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: I know that XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: but she feels like she needs to. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: or maybe you might be asuming things. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:26 AM]: but im sure she wont straight out say, "Lilli, I've been lying to you." XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:26 AM]: and things might not be the same either. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:26 AM]: people are going to grow apart for better or worse. LilLatinChick [10:27 AM]: okay if you ask almost every saturday wat u doin u say ooh i think i 'm going to a youth meeting and you go and then i ask u how it went u say ooh i stop going to those a long time ago how would you feel? XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:27 AM]: Okay, so she might be lying but she isn't lying to you cause you've been her best friend lately. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: she's lying cause maybe she feels neglectedddd. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: im not saying its justified XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: cause its not your fault either XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: she shouldn't lie, and keep your relationship going like that XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: she needs to tell you whats buggin her instead of lying to you. LilLatinChick [10:28 AM]: she even told me that she was distancing herself because she needed to and that she understood that i was just givin her her space so i dont see why she says i'm just randomly distancing myself XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:29 AM]: eh, well the next few times you call her, just talk normally, and dont ask to hang out and see if she asks you LilLatinChick [10:29 AM]: so i don't know...but nora i'm sorry i really am XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:29 AM]: for what LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: for a being a bitch XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: you weren't really a bitch Lilli LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: well i have to go to church *fuunnnn* LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: sure i wasn't XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: yaaaaay. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: You weren't. LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: i know u were thinking it LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: hahaha XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: I just thought you were ignoring me for no good reason. LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: oooh XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: cause I didn't do anything wrong. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: and I know I was insecure and gay LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: ur gay LilLatinChick [10:31 AM]: holy fuck XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:31 AM]: Go to church and learn something useful XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:31 AM]: like how to treat Nour LilLatinChick [10:31 AM]: aiite i'lll try LilLatinChick [10:31 AM]: hahaha LilLatinChick [10:31 AM]: shut up So I guess that's settled? See, I'm a good friend. And she is too. We kinda just grew apart cause we were assuming things. But we were both having problems, and didn't know how to deal with it. I just kinda kept to myself, didn't talk about how I was feeling, and she just drank. Way too much. But I don't know if it's going to be like it was before. I just feel like things are different when you grow apart, and it's just not the same even after you work it out. I mean, we all change. Espically in our age you know. We're not the same people that we were when we first met in gym in 7th grade, you know? So..Yah. I miss her, but if we are going to keep pushing each other away, why bother? I love her as a friend though. She really is a good friend. She never deceived me..never talked shit about me..always helped me out. She just thinks that just cause she helped me so many times, she has the lisence to use me, and I don't like that. Or I feel like she's using me..Who knows what her real motives are. I don't even know if I know her anymore. I know the old Lilli, I'm not so sure about the new one.. -Noraaa *Snow is good, right Rob? ;)* Infect the Innocent.

Wowowowooowww. [07 Dec 2003|11:49am] [ mood | good ] Well, I thought Lilli was ignoring me for no reason, and that turned out to be true. And because she was ignoring me for no reason, I did the same back. I didn't call her, we didn't hang out, I haven't been at her house, she hasn't randomly driven to my house at 6:30 AM to drive me to school, etc. Her and her friend's just want to ask me for favors. I'm happy to help, but help me back, damn. Me and Lilli's convo this morning: LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: why do ppl lie to me? LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: am i not understanding? XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:04 AM]: what do you meaaan. LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: laura has been lieing to me LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: and i have a feelin ashley too XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:04 AM]: about whaaat LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: laura about stupid shit LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: and ashley about her not having time to hang out XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:04 AM]: ooh. LilLatinChick [10:05 AM]: yeah XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:05 AM]: well to tell you the TRUTH, I think ashley is saying that cause you have been pushing her away. LilLatinChick [10:05 AM]: i have been pushing her away?!?!?!?! LilLatinChick [10:05 AM]: bull shit LilLatinChick [10:05 AM]: ever since she started color guard and goin wit mario she been actin like that dumb bitch Christina. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:05 AM]: me and her talked about a month ago on the way to 3rd period and we were saying how you were doing your own thing now and you really didnt talk to us anymore as much. LilLatinChick [10:06 AM]: i never see you LilLatinChick [10:06 AM]: why don't ya'll ever call me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:06 AM]: cause everytime I call you're always like, "Let me let you go, I have laundry to do." XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:06 AM]: or something XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:06 AM]: and you're alwaaaays always always with nina or laura. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:07 AM]: so I thought, well if Lilli wanted to do something, she'd talk to me. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:07 AM]: but you haven't. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:07 AM]: so I thought, okay she doesnt want to do anything then. LilLatinChick [10:07 AM]: no is that ever since i've been "partying" everyone has treated me different XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: No that has nothing to do with it, cause you know I would go to any party you invited me to. LilLatinChick [10:08 AM]: so i don't say anything anymore cuz it feels like ppl are judging me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: No one is judging you. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: you just think that. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: thats not what I was thinking anyway XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: I was thinking "Lilli doesn't want to hang out anymore cause she has new friends that are obviously more fun to hang out with anyway, so why try?" XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:09 AM]: You know Laura and Nina are crazy, and I'm just laid back, and I can go psychotic when and if you get me in the mood. Remember when you first met me, we were both happy little fuckers, then we started having some serious problems, like my dad beating my mom, me getting molested, my cousin dying, my mom's bitchiness that doesn't help ANYTHING. Then your dad dying, your insecurities, your family problems, your alcoholic mother. And I dont know, but I get that feeling from you now, that you don't really want to talk to me. LilLatinChick [10:09 AM]: no honestly i kinda got fed up with the way you always had something to complain about like ur hair, make-up, etc XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:10 AM]: well whatever it may be, I had that feeling you didn't want to talk to me anymore. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:10 AM]: and yah it might have been my insecurities. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:10 AM]: I know its annoying. If its annoying to you, its even more annoying to me. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:10 AM]: Don't you think I'd LOVE to get over that? XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:11 AM]: But I can't right now. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:11 AM]: Till I get out of this fucking house. Away from all this negativity. Away from 'always having to look your best for everyone'. LilLatinChick [10:11 AM]: and i've been havin some issues with family and myself and i'm trying to solve my own problems first not that i don't care for my friends no more but everyone seems to be doin there own thing then blame me for not hanging out with them (not saying you) XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:11 AM]: Lillllli, I know. But ehhh! I don't know anymoree. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:11 AM]: *farts* LilLatinChick [10:11 AM]: lol XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:12 AM]: comic relife. LilLatinChick [10:12 AM]: it ain't nothing personal but i mean if ya'll gonna act diffrent with me now then that only tells me that ya'll don't want to talk to me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:13 AM]: well dontcha think everyone is thinking the same way? XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:13 AM]: You started hanging out with new people, and ignoring us, so we did the same back cause we didn't want to annoy you. LilLatinChick [10:13 AM]: ashley has always told me she had church functions to go to on weekends and the other day she was like " i haven't gone to one of them in a long time" LilLatinChick [10:14 AM]: i hang out with new people cuz my old friends were leaving me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:14 AM]: Lilli what friends do I have? LilLatinChick [10:14 AM]: you and mike, you and christina, you and drew, forrest, elora, amanda, dusty, beth, diana, ramy, ahmad XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:14 AM]: I have friends, but none that I really hang out with, and trust, and talk to like I talk to you. I don't confide in people, and feel comfortable around them like I am with you Lilli. Me and you have gone through so much, we were always there for each other to get through it. LilLatinChick [10:14 AM]: you and mike espically that shit drove me crazy XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:14 AM]: Mike is a dickface. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:14 AM]: I haven't talked about him to you in about 2 months Lilli XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:15 AM]: He had a girlfriend for two months, and we just became friends. LilLatinChick05 [10:15 AM]: i started hanging out with my other group when it started LilLatinChick [10:15 AM]: when ashley got with mario XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:15 AM]: me and Mike only talk on the bus. We stopped talking as much. LilLatinChick [10:15 AM]: and when christina became a bitch XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:15 AM]: so because I had one new friend, you thought I was ignoring you and turning you away XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:15 AM]: just because of Mike. LilLatinChick [10:15 AM]: all we talked about was mike XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:16 AM]: well think about how much I put up between you and jeffery. I TALKED to jeffery online, and on the phone for you. I always told him how good a person you were, and we always talked about him too when you were in a sappy mood. We'd talk about him for hours, and you couldn't deal with the little random things I said about Mike?! LilLatinChick [10:16 AM]: look i ain't mad at you XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:16 AM]: Im not mad either. LilLatinChick [10:16 AM]: i'm sorry for being a bitch towards you LilLatinChick [10:16 AM]: i understand were u comin from but ashley has been bull shitting me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: okay ashley might be lying to you, but I haven't done anything. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: I've done so much for you, and you've done the same back XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: if you want me to understand you, you gotta understand me back. LilLatinChick [10:17 AM]: everyone has been letting me down XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: i havent lied to you, or talked about you XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: and I've done nothing but defend you LilLatinChick [10:17 AM]: i know u haven't XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: and i was always there for you when you needed something, or advice. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:18 AM]: and you've been there for me too. LilLatinChick [10:18 AM]: i apologize for being a bitch towards you XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:19 AM]: well I guess we've been unknowingly ignoring each other for nothing. haha LilLatinChick [10:19 AM]: hahaha yeah LilLatinChick [10:19 AM]: we dumb XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:19 AM]: no shiiit. LilLatinChick [10:19 AM]: lol XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:19 AM]: slap harley for me and call him a fag too. LilLatinChick [10:19 AM]: lol, okay LilLatinChick [10:21 AM]: u strange XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:21 AM]: me? look at yourself ho. LilLatinChick [10:22 AM]: hey i'm a dumb fuck ...i aint no ho XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:22 AM]: oh yah, thats true. LilLatinChick [10:23 AM]: lol that makes me feel better XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:23 AM]: lol yay LilLatinChick [10:24 AM]: lifes like a dick when it gets hard fuck it XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:24 AM]: lmao. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: you know, this shit between our friends is always going to happen whether we like it or not. Im sure you know that. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: but people change XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: even your friend since you were like 5 LilLatinChick [10:25 AM]: its stupid though there is no need to fucking lie XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: I know that XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: but she feels like she needs to. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: or maybe you might be asuming things. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:26 AM]: but im sure she wont straight out say, "Lilli, I've been lying to you." XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:26 AM]: and things might not be the same either. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:26 AM]: people are going to grow apart for better or worse. LilLatinChick [10:27 AM]: okay if you ask almost every saturday wat u doin u say ooh i think i 'm going to a youth meeting and you go and then i ask u how it went u say ooh i stop going to those a long time ago how would you feel? XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:27 AM]: Okay, so she might be lying but she isn't lying to you cause you've been her best friend lately. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: she's lying cause maybe she feels neglectedddd. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: im not saying its justified XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: cause its not your fault either XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: she shouldn't lie, and keep your relationship going like that XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: she needs to tell you whats buggin her instead of lying to you. LilLatinChick [10:28 AM]: she even told me that she was distancing herself because she needed to and that she understood that i was just givin her her space so i dont see why she says i'm just randomly distancing myself XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:29 AM]: eh, well the next few times you call her, just talk normally, and dont ask to hang out and see if she asks you LilLatinChick [10:29 AM]: so i don't know...but nora i'm sorry i really am XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:29 AM]: for what LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: for a being a bitch XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: you weren't really a bitch Lilli LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: well i have to go to church *fuunnnn* LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: sure i wasn't XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: yaaaaay. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: You weren't. LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: i know u were thinking it LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: hahaha XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: I just thought you were ignoring me for no good reason. LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: oooh XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: cause I didn't do anything wrong. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: and I know I was insecure and gay LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: ur gay LilLatinChick [10:31 AM]: holy fuck XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:31 AM]: Go to church and learn something useful XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:31 AM]: like how to treat Nour LilLatinChick [10:31 AM]: aiite i'lll try LilLatinChick [10:31 AM]: hahaha LilLatinChick [10:31 AM]: shut up So I guess that's settled? See, I'm a good friend. And she is too. We kinda just grew apart cause we were assuming things. But we were both having problems, and didn't know how to deal with it. I just kinda kept to myself, didn't talk about how I was feeling, and she just drank. Way too much. But I don't know if it's going to be like it was before. I just feel like things are different when you grow apart, and it's just not the same even after you work it out. I mean, we all change. Espically in our age you know. We're not the same people that we were when we first met in gym in 7th grade, you know? So..Yah. I miss her, but if we are going to keep pushing each other away, why bother? I love her as a friend though. She really is a good friend. She never deceived me..never talked shit about me..always helped me out. She just thinks that just cause she helped me so many times, she has the lisence to use me, and I don't like that. Or I feel like she's using me..Who knows what her real motives are. I don't even know if I know her anymore. I know the old Lilli, I'm not so sure about the new one.. -Noraaa *Snow is good, right Rob? ;)* Infect the Innocent.

Wowowowooowww. [07 Dec 2003|11:49am] [ mood | good ] Well, I thought Lilli was ignoring me for no reason, and that turned out to be true. And because she was ignoring me for no reason, I did the same back. I didn't call her, we didn't hang out, I haven't been at her house, she hasn't randomly driven to my house at 6:30 AM to drive me to school, etc. Her and her friend's just want to ask me for favors. I'm happy to help, but help me back, damn. Me and Lilli's convo this morning: LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: why do ppl lie to me? LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: am i not understanding? XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:04 AM]: what do you meaaan. LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: laura has been lieing to me LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: and i have a feelin ashley too XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:04 AM]: about whaaat LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: laura about stupid shit LilLatinChick [10:04 AM]: and ashley about her not having time to hang out XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:04 AM]: ooh. LilLatinChick [10:05 AM]: yeah XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:05 AM]: well to tell you the TRUTH, I think ashley is saying that cause you have been pushing her away. LilLatinChick [10:05 AM]: i have been pushing her away?!?!?!?! LilLatinChick [10:05 AM]: bull shit LilLatinChick [10:05 AM]: ever since she started color guard and goin wit mario she been actin like that dumb bitch Christina. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:05 AM]: me and her talked about a month ago on the way to 3rd period and we were saying how you were doing your own thing now and you really didnt talk to us anymore as much. LilLatinChick [10:06 AM]: i never see you LilLatinChick [10:06 AM]: why don't ya'll ever call me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:06 AM]: cause everytime I call you're always like, "Let me let you go, I have laundry to do." XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:06 AM]: or something XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:06 AM]: and you're alwaaaays always always with nina or laura. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:07 AM]: so I thought, well if Lilli wanted to do something, she'd talk to me. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:07 AM]: but you haven't. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:07 AM]: so I thought, okay she doesnt want to do anything then. LilLatinChick [10:07 AM]: no is that ever since i've been "partying" everyone has treated me different XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: No that has nothing to do with it, cause you know I would go to any party you invited me to. LilLatinChick [10:08 AM]: so i don't say anything anymore cuz it feels like ppl are judging me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: No one is judging you. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: you just think that. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: thats not what I was thinking anyway XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:08 AM]: I was thinking "Lilli doesn't want to hang out anymore cause she has new friends that are obviously more fun to hang out with anyway, so why try?" XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:09 AM]: You know Laura and Nina are crazy, and I'm just laid back, and I can go psychotic when and if you get me in the mood. Remember when you first met me, we were both happy little fuckers, then we started having some serious problems, like my dad beating my mom, me getting molested, my cousin dying, my mom's bitchiness that doesn't help ANYTHING. Then your dad dying, your insecurities, your family problems, your alcoholic mother. And I dont know, but I get that feeling from you now, that you don't really want to talk to me. LilLatinChick [10:09 AM]: no honestly i kinda got fed up with the way you always had something to complain about like ur hair, make-up, etc XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:10 AM]: well whatever it may be, I had that feeling you didn't want to talk to me anymore. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:10 AM]: and yah it might have been my insecurities. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:10 AM]: I know its annoying. If its annoying to you, its even more annoying to me. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:10 AM]: Don't you think I'd LOVE to get over that? XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:11 AM]: But I can't right now. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:11 AM]: Till I get out of this fucking house. Away from all this negativity. Away from 'always having to look your best for everyone'. LilLatinChick [10:11 AM]: and i've been havin some issues with family and myself and i'm trying to solve my own problems first not that i don't care for my friends no more but everyone seems to be doin there own thing then blame me for not hanging out with them (not saying you) XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:11 AM]: Lillllli, I know. But ehhh! I don't know anymoree. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:11 AM]: *farts* LilLatinChick [10:11 AM]: lol XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:12 AM]: comic relife. LilLatinChick [10:12 AM]: it ain't nothing personal but i mean if ya'll gonna act diffrent with me now then that only tells me that ya'll don't want to talk to me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:13 AM]: well dontcha think everyone is thinking the same way? XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:13 AM]: You started hanging out with new people, and ignoring us, so we did the same back cause we didn't want to annoy you. LilLatinChick [10:13 AM]: ashley has always told me she had church functions to go to on weekends and the other day she was like " i haven't gone to one of them in a long time" LilLatinChick [10:14 AM]: i hang out with new people cuz my old friends were leaving me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:14 AM]: Lilli what friends do I have? LilLatinChick [10:14 AM]: you and mike, you and christina, you and drew, forrest, elora, amanda, dusty, beth, diana, ramy, ahmad XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:14 AM]: I have friends, but none that I really hang out with, and trust, and talk to like I talk to you. I don't confide in people, and feel comfortable around them like I am with you Lilli. Me and you have gone through so much, we were always there for each other to get through it. LilLatinChick [10:14 AM]: you and mike espically that shit drove me crazy XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:14 AM]: Mike is a dickface. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:14 AM]: I haven't talked about him to you in about 2 months Lilli XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:15 AM]: He had a girlfriend for two months, and we just became friends. LilLatinChick05 [10:15 AM]: i started hanging out with my other group when it started LilLatinChick [10:15 AM]: when ashley got with mario XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:15 AM]: me and Mike only talk on the bus. We stopped talking as much. LilLatinChick [10:15 AM]: and when christina became a bitch XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:15 AM]: so because I had one new friend, you thought I was ignoring you and turning you away XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:15 AM]: just because of Mike. LilLatinChick [10:15 AM]: all we talked about was mike XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:16 AM]: well think about how much I put up between you and jeffery. I TALKED to jeffery online, and on the phone for you. I always told him how good a person you were, and we always talked about him too when you were in a sappy mood. We'd talk about him for hours, and you couldn't deal with the little random things I said about Mike?! LilLatinChick [10:16 AM]: look i ain't mad at you XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:16 AM]: Im not mad either. LilLatinChick [10:16 AM]: i'm sorry for being a bitch towards you LilLatinChick [10:16 AM]: i understand were u comin from but ashley has been bull shitting me XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: okay ashley might be lying to you, but I haven't done anything. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: I've done so much for you, and you've done the same back XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: if you want me to understand you, you gotta understand me back. LilLatinChick [10:17 AM]: everyone has been letting me down XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: i havent lied to you, or talked about you XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: and I've done nothing but defend you LilLatinChick [10:17 AM]: i know u haven't XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:17 AM]: and i was always there for you when you needed something, or advice. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:18 AM]: and you've been there for me too. LilLatinChick [10:18 AM]: i apologize for being a bitch towards you XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:19 AM]: well I guess we've been unknowingly ignoring each other for nothing. haha LilLatinChick [10:19 AM]: hahaha yeah LilLatinChick [10:19 AM]: we dumb XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:19 AM]: no shiiit. LilLatinChick [10:19 AM]: lol XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:19 AM]: slap harley for me and call him a fag too. LilLatinChick [10:19 AM]: lol, okay LilLatinChick [10:21 AM]: u strange XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:21 AM]: me? look at yourself ho. LilLatinChick [10:22 AM]: hey i'm a dumb fuck ...i aint no ho XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:22 AM]: oh yah, thats true. LilLatinChick [10:23 AM]: lol that makes me feel better XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:23 AM]: lol yay LilLatinChick [10:24 AM]: lifes like a dick when it gets hard fuck it XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:24 AM]: lmao. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: you know, this shit between our friends is always going to happen whether we like it or not. Im sure you know that. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: but people change XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: even your friend since you were like 5 LilLatinChick [10:25 AM]: its stupid though there is no need to fucking lie XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: I know that XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: but she feels like she needs to. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:25 AM]: or maybe you might be asuming things. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:26 AM]: but im sure she wont straight out say, "Lilli, I've been lying to you." XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:26 AM]: and things might not be the same either. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:26 AM]: people are going to grow apart for better or worse. LilLatinChick [10:27 AM]: okay if you ask almost every saturday wat u doin u say ooh i think i 'm going to a youth meeting and you go and then i ask u how it went u say ooh i stop going to those a long time ago how would you feel? XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:27 AM]: Okay, so she might be lying but she isn't lying to you cause you've been her best friend lately. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: she's lying cause maybe she feels neglectedddd. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: im not saying its justified XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: cause its not your fault either XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: she shouldn't lie, and keep your relationship going like that XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:28 AM]: she needs to tell you whats buggin her instead of lying to you. LilLatinChick [10:28 AM]: she even told me that she was distancing herself because she needed to and that she understood that i was just givin her her space so i dont see why she says i'm just randomly distancing myself XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:29 AM]: eh, well the next few times you call her, just talk normally, and dont ask to hang out and see if she asks you LilLatinChick [10:29 AM]: so i don't know...but nora i'm sorry i really am XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:29 AM]: for what LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: for a being a bitch XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: you weren't really a bitch Lilli LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: well i have to go to church *fuunnnn* LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: sure i wasn't XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: yaaaaay. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: You weren't. LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: i know u were thinking it LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: hahaha XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: I just thought you were ignoring me for no good reason. LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: oooh XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: cause I didn't do anything wrong. XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:30 AM]: and I know I was insecure and gay LilLatinChick [10:30 AM]: ur gay LilLatinChick [10:31 AM]: holy fuck XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:31 AM]: Go to church and learn something useful XxSoAdChiCkAxX [10:31 AM]: like how to treat Nour LilLatinChick [10:31 AM]: aiite i'lll try LilLatinChick [10:31 AM]: hahaha LilLatinChick [10:31 AM]: shut up So I guess that's settled? See, I'm a good friend. And she is too. We kinda just grew apart cause we were assuming things. But we were both having problems, and didn't know how to deal with it. I just kinda kept to myself, didn't talk about how I was feeling, and she just drank. Way too much. But I don't know if it's going to be like it was before. I just feel like things are different when you grow apart, and it's just not the same even after you work it out. I mean, we all change. Espically in our age you know. We're not the same people that we were when we first met in gym in 7th grade, you know? So..Yah. I miss her, but if we are going to keep pushing each other away, why bother? I love her as a friend though. She really is a good friend. She never deceived me..never talked shit about me..always helped me out. She just thinks that just cause she helped me so many times, she has the lisence to use me, and I don't like that. Or I feel like she's using me..Who knows what her real motives are. I don't even know if I know her anymore. I know the old Lilli, I'm not so sure about the new one.. -Noraaa *Snow is good, right Rob? ;)* Infect the Innocent.

Ugh ugh ughhh... [04 Dec 2003|07:17pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | Alby ya habibbb ] Well my day was kinda shitty. I woke up late, looked like shit, it was raining outside, wet socks all day. Then I went to first period, and my International Business teacher gave us three practice essays to do to help us get ready for our Final Exam Essay next week. But I didn't want to work on them cause I had a US History essay to do today right after first period. My US History teacher told us yesterday what the topics were most likely going to be. And he said one of the topics might ask for the causes of the Civil War..So I looked it up on the internet in International Business since it's a computer class and all..So the first 30 minutes of class the teacher didn't notice me writing a Civil War essay..but then he got up, saw me, took it up, made me log off, and handwrite my assignment. Then he threatened to email my teacher about it, but never did THANK GOD. Technically it's called cheating..but I really wasn't going to use it in my US History class cause I sit in the front and it would be so obvious..So I get to my US History class, ready to write my essay..We get the topics..I look through them to find the Causes of the Civil War. But instead, the only topic about the Civil war asked, "What events in the 1850's lead to the Civil War.." OKAY, that's NOT the topic I got in trouble for researching..So I was screwed. The topic I was looking up in my International Business class was the causes of the Civil War, not the events in the 1850's that caused it..So I had to write a whole paper full of BULLSHIT basically. It sounded okay, but I didn't really answer the question like I would have liked to :(. Then while I was writing my essay, someone comes in with a note and gave it to my teacher. And my teacher said, "She's in the middle of her essay, I'll send her when she's done...*Pause, reads, sighs*..." I was thinking, "Haha someone's in trouble..well it's not me, I never get called out of class.." I turn in my paper, and I get yelled out for writing on the back of the paper ON ACCIDENT..and then he gives me the note and it said I had to go to the discipline office..I was thinking, "FUCKING GREAT. MY FUCKING DICKHEAD TEACHER PROBABLY TURNED ME IN FOR CHEATING." So I go in and I'm greeted by this lovely lady who gave me the worse attitude possible when I walked into the office. She was like, "Take a seat, he'll be with you sooner or later.." And she kinda looked me up and down and nudged at a chair..So I'm sitting watching the weather channel..and the office guy goes, "Okay, next victim.." So I walk in, and he's like, "Nora you have 8 tardies. You should be suspended for this, but I'm going to only give you a day of in school suspension since we haven't had any trouble with you before." So I'm thinking, "COULD THIS DAY GET ANY BETTER!?!" He was so sweet though. He's always sweet to me. I love him<3 So I got my in school suspension form and everything and I have that next Tuesday..Heh, then the rest of my day was okay I guess. I didn't even talk to Mike on the bus cause he pissed me off. He asked me how I was, and I was like, "Cold and wet." and he was like, "Wet from the rain or...*pause*..." I was like, "Ugh..all you guys are the same." And I put my hood over my head, leaned against the window and slept." Then I got home, tried to make soup and BURNED IT. Don't ask HOW the fuck I managed to do that. So I didn't have anything to eat. And so now I'm here. I guess my day could have been worse, right? Sure. Haha, Anyway, hope you guys have a greeeaaattt night. *Muahs* Infect the Innocent.

Weee. [03 Dec 2003|10:17pm] [ mood | bored ] Uhh yah, we are doing some gay reveiws for our final exams in computer applications. Some of the questions are; 1. What is a mouse? 2. What is double clicking? 3. What is pointing? So I said fuck it, cause this is REALLY pointless! Anyway, I haven't updated in a while actually. But nothing has been happening. Same shit over and over, that's all. Mom's a bitch, Mike is a fag..etc. So, not much to talk about. I'll come up with something soon though cause it's supposed to be an eventful weekend. Have a good day everyone<3333 -Noraaa Infect the Innocent.

Four newer pics... [29 Nov 2003|09:53pm] [ mood | sleepy ] Okay I know I look retarded. Shut up. Yah they are pretty small too. Today has been sooo boring. My cousin and her husband just left to go see some more of our family in Tennessee. She left with pnemounia on my bed too. She was sick all day today and spent the whole day in MY bed coughing, sneezing, and blowing her nose. I hope I don't get what she has. Crystal broke up with Mike. It's gunna be like old times between me and him, *sighs* Next weekend I'm gunna go see Ramy. Me and my brother are spending the night there. That's gunna be intresting... I'm gunna go read something, and stop wasting time on this stupid thing. Goodnight everyone, sweet dreams. <33333 -Noraaa *Rob, I think you've seen these already, heh. Oh well ;D. To tell you the truth you're the only one who reads this, and Tye maybe, and Moodofyours. I forgot you name sorry. (7) Infect the Innocent.

Haha. [29 Nov 2003|03:19pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | My mom is a slut. ] What do people really think about you? by Raven319 Name Age favorite song Parents think You're lazy Strangers think You have bigger boobs than Pam Friends think You're wonderful Created with quill18's MemeGen! I did it in 21 seconds. I deserved a B+!! Take the How Dexterous Are You? Quiz!! (3) Infect the Innocent.

Tonight... [29 Nov 2003|02:30am] [ mood | geeky ] Around 5 we all started getting ready to go to the mall with my cousin and her husband. I called Diana and Raymond and told them to meet us there, so they said they would. When I was done getting ready, I thought I looked real good, but my cousin was like, "Wash your face, and lemme do your make up for you. You wear too much for your age. I didn't even wear that much make up." That pissed me off, cause first of all, I only wear eye make up. I put on black eyeliner, and white shadow, and that's it. I don't need foundation and all that shit that suffocates your face. I just add detail to my eyes, so what. I liked the way I looked, so I was like fuck it, no. I won't wash my face off for you, ho. And then my mom was complaining about what I was wearing, and she said it didn't match, when it DID. I was wearing a denim jacket with black pants, and a black shirt under the jacket. What's so not matching about that?! So I changed like 50 times. I don't know why I have to satisfy everyone. Anyway, so we left the house at 6, got to the Mall of Georgia at 7, and Raymond saw me waiting for him outside of Barnes and Noble. My God..I haven't seen him in 6 or 7 months and he got soo fucking hot. He went to Lebanon this summer, and lives about 45 minutes away which is why I haven't seen him. Diana didn't come, it was just him. I have really strong feelings for this boy. Since I was like 10. Me and him just alwaaays had something. His real name is Ramy, so that's what I'm going to refer to him as. We always flirted, and he always looked out for me and cared about me, and I just really love this kid. I've known him since I was about 4 or 5, so I've known him my whole life. He's a year younger than me though. I personally like older guys, but he's just perfect. I know I sound retarded, but you guys just don't knowww. He's always complimenting me, and worrying about me..I know he cares about me, and I guess that's what attracts me to him the most. He's been through so much shit too, which attracts me to guys too. Just knowing that they've experienced things, and know more about things emotionally than I do also attracts me to them. His dad died three years ago, and just a lot of bullshit that went along with it. Like no one told him that his died till he was gone and buried and things that just scar people emotionally. He's been through a lot and I respect him for everything he's been through and how he handles things and his veiws in life. And his personality is so laid back like mine, we just always have something to talk about. We usually stay up all night talking or doing something when I spend the night or he spends the night. It's really hard to get him mad. I don't know. I guess if you've had feelings for someone since an early age and it still exists when you are older and mature, then it's real right? I wouldn't know, I'm asking. He loves kids just like me too. Today when we went to drop him off, me my mom and cousin went down to say hi to his family and talk and yadda yadda ya. His little 4 yr old cousin was there and it was just so cute how he played with her, and how she stuck to him cause she loved him sooo much. She wouldn't leave him alone. We were upstairs in his room, and he was playing something on PS2, the little girl was in his arms, and I was on his bed playing with his hair and massaging his head. It was so cute. And when I was about to leave, he said bye and kinda just looked into my eyes for a long time. It felt like a long time atleast. Where we just gaze at each other for a while..That happened like 3 times tonight. We'd be talking and we just stare at each other for a while, then we keep doing whatever it was we were doing. I don't know..I'm gunna stop being mushy gushy now. lol. I bought 3 books at Barnes and Noble. They were astrology type things. I've been getting really into that recently. Astrology, horoscopes, personalities, etc..I've always been a very spiritual person, always in touch with my emotions. I'm looking forward to reading those too. I really want to study that stuff one day, psychology too. I'm into the mind, and personality, and people in general. I took psychology/sociology for a year and I had like a 98 all year. That kinda shit intrests me, art too. Photography, paintings, literature, creative intellegence, etc..even though I can't draw or paint for shit..haha. Anyway, I'm going to bed now. This was an intresting entry, lets see how many comments I get, hint hint. ;D Goodnight everyone, sweet dreams<3333333 -Noraaa Infect the Innocent.

Horoscope/Personality Report [28 Nov 2003|11:45am] [ mood | surprised ] Your Daily Horoscope from Astrology.com: November 28, 2003 No matter how staunch your own views are on a controversial subject, allow yourself to listen to someone else's opinion. You may be surprised at how convincing an argument the 'other side' is capable of making right now, and although no one is asking you to change your stance, you may do so voluntarily, You always thought you had an open mind before, but what you're hearing today makes you wonder if it's been a little more closed than you've been willing to admit. My personality report Section 1: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation You are, in many ways, an eternal child. Your mind is bright, alert, curious, flexible, playful, and always eager for new experiences - and your attention span is often quite brief. You grasp ideas quickly and once your initial curiosity has been satisfied, you want to go on to something else. You crave frequent change, variety, meeting new situations and people. Section 2: Mental Interests and Abilities You are highly interested in inner, subjective, and personal issues, and your thinking is based more on feelings, intuition, personal experiences, and prejudices rather than reason or logic. Intellectual abilities and accomplishments without heart or soul mean little to you. You are empathic and would be an excellent counselor, for you are a sensitive listener and deeply interested in a person's feelings and inner life. In addition to psychology, you are drawn to education, art, poetry, music, or mythology. You are especially confident about speaking in public, and you will also open up and share your thoughts in small, intimate groups. You enjoy keeping a diary or personal journal and reading the chronicles of others' lives and personal development. Damn, they fucking got everything right on the dot. Every little thing about this was true, 100%. (1) Infect the Innocent.

Yah... [27 Nov 2003|07:38pm] [ mood | indifferent ] Well, when my dad woke up at 1PM he asked my mom if the turkey was in the oven. She said, "No I'm not cooking. Go to your brother's house since you all want to go so bad." So now, everyone is here, and I don't know. I don't feel guilty at all. She didn't want to come it was her choice. We were all going to stay home for her, but she didn't want that. It wouldn't be that good anyway. But still...we were willing. She wasn't. She was saying it in this pissed off bitchy attitude too, so my dad gave in and said fine. So that is why I'm here tonight, at my uncle's house. It's better this way. She always wants to be alone. -Noraaa Infect the Innocent.

lol I'm sure no one will read this cause it's really long. Fuckerrrs. Fine, skip RIGHT over it. [27 Nov 2003|11:51am] [ mood | blank ] The past couple of days have been craazzyy, and I like it. Our holiday started Tuesday, and ends after Thursday. We were supposed to have school Monday and Tuesday, but I didn't go Tuesday even though I should of. So Tuesday, I got dressed in normal clothes since I didn't have any holiday-looking clothes to wear yet. My dad took us to IHOP, *without my mom cause she was working* and when we pulled into the parking lot, my cousins, and my uncle and his wife *my mom hates my uncle's wife with a passion* and my uncle's wife's sister, and her husband, and their three kids. So we said hey, started talking a little, etc. My sister went with all of them to Malibu to go go karting, and me my bro and dad went inside to eat. Oh dear Lorrrrd, our waiter was so fiiineee, I was having multiple orgasms in my seat. He looked Puerto Rican. Anyway, so after that it was about noon, and we went to the mall which was right next door to get me some clothes. So I got an outfit, and a purse, and shoes, and yadda yadda yaa for like $160 total. That's not bad considering everything I got was good shit. So after we left the mall, we went to my house so I could change and go to my uncle's house (The one we saw earlier who has the wife my mom HATES). When we got there my mom was giving us all this bullshit, trying to piss us off, and telling us to clean right before we were about to leave (because we were going to my uncle's house, and she wasn't gunna go cause she hates his wife, lol. I'm trying not to confuse anyone..) She wanted us to clean cause my cousin and her husband were coming to visit. She's the cousin who's wedding I went to this summer in Ohio. So we finally got to leave, and she stayed home and cleaned. We got back around 11:30PM, and my cousin and her husband were supposed to be at our house around 2:30AM..so my mom made us clean and she was yelling and screaming at us, and fighting with my dad. She finally went to bed at 1:30AM, and I stayed up for them till 2:30AM. So they came, my dad woke up, we all talked for an hour and went to bed. They got my room, so I slept on my brother's nasty ass floor full of fleas from my cat. So my legs are all itchy and shit. Then last night we went to my uncle's again without my mom (cause she was at work when we left around 5:30) so that my cousin and her husband could go see my uncle, aunt, my aunt's sister and her kids, and our cousins, etc. So the kids, and me watched movies in the den while the adults talked in the living room. I swear every kid wanted to snuggle with me during the movie. I had a little boy under both of my arms, and a little girl in my lap. It was cute though. <333 We watched movies until 8, and everyone decided we wanted to go out and eat. So all 18 of us went out to eat. These racist white fuckers were looking at my aunt and her sister cause they wore those veils over their heads. They made it obvious they were looking too, and he didn't care. He kept doing it to piss them off. And they were trying to walk past him behind his chair, and he wouldn't even scoot up. He was sitting with his hands behind his head, his leg crossed, and his tummy out. So he took up a lot of space, and he wouldn't move for them, so they walked around the other side. What the fuck asshole. So I kept giving them dirty looks not giving a shit if they saw me. I was pointing them out to everyone at our table, I was like, loook he's racist!! It was funny..anyway, so when we were done eating, all 18 of our asses went back to my uncle's house. We stayed there till about 1AM, and went home to my mommm. Me and my cousin woke her up and talked till about 3AM. So yaaah. That was my whole two days. I like when there's a lot of people around, and there's always something to do. I like people not paying any attention to me. I don't know. When there's a lot of people around it's not just about Nora all the time. And they let the little things slide more too. But when there's no one here, they don't. Atleast my mom doesn't. That's why I wanna move into a big ass family where there is always people around. Anyway, today is Thanksgiving, and I'm sure my aunt and her husband are going to go to my uncle's house, and my family is staying home since my mom hates my uncle's wife. EVERY YEAR, every single fucking year since I remember, we switched years for Thanksgiving. One year we had to do the dinner, one year my aunt did it, then the next year my mom did it, then the year after that my aunt did it...we invited more people...so we always had like maybe 25-30 people over at Thanksgiving. And since my mom hates everyone, and can't just go because we want her too, it's just going to be the five of us. I think that's fucking selfish though. We were ALL invited to my aunt's but she didn't want to go. She won't even go for us. She just needs to get over herself, for real. It pisses me off. Everyone is going over there but us. AND it's the last day of our holiday today and everyone is celebrating Thanksgving there, and the last day of our holiday. But I'm stuck here, with the psycho. And she's going to pretend like EVERYTHING is okay when it's not. My parents are going to fight since there's no one here. They're going to fight over the past few days. I just don't want to be here this Thanksgiving. I hope everyone else's is real good though. <333333333 -Noraaa (1) Infect the Innocent.

Wee. [24 Nov 2003|05:47pm] [ mood | hungry ] [ music | Blink 182 ;x Shut up... ] Yah, I'm cooking. I'm not cleaning though. Not today! Fuck cleaning! Yah! Alright. Today was okay. Nothing happened. Normal, decent, rainy day. I hate when people point out my faults, and my insecurities. Fuck off. I know them already. No need to remind me unless you want this fist up your ass, alright? Okay. ;D Bye! Infect the Innocent.

Thank God [23 Nov 2003|09:13pm] [ mood | grateful ] [ music | Suga suga how you get sooo flyyy ] Thank God I'm done with this shitty project. It took me just about ALL fucking day to do. I haven't done anything but work on this, sleep, and have cramps all day. Oh and get bitched at. We also didn't have water ALLLL day till now, cause the plumbers outside fucked it up at like 10AM this morning, and they just fixed it now. And I'm not cramping. So I'm happy nowww. Thank God this school week is only TWO days, then our Eid Holiday is on Wednesday I think. I still don't have any clothes, thanks to my mom. But oh well. I don't need it that bad. My dad might let me take Tuesday off of school to go get some though. And I have to stay after school Monday I think, for detention. Yuck. Just cause I was tardy five time this semester. That sucks. Oh well, I'm going to go get ready for bed. Goodnight everyone. Sweet dreams. Infect the Innocent.

Owwww. [23 Nov 2003|04:40pm] [ music | CRAMPING = SHITTY MOOD ] I have a fucking project to do. So far it's taken me three hours on this fucking computer. I have cramps like a bitch, so I stopped, slept for two hours, woke up, and now my cramps are fucking worse. And on top of that I've been fighting with my mom all morning/day. She had a day off, so I had to put up with her shit. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. :( Infect the Innocent.

•CRAZY BITCH• [22 Nov 2003|11:54am] [ mood | angry ] Yah well, yesterday we got to the mall about 6:30PM. We looked around, I got an of idea what I wanted to wear. I bought a pair of jeans, went to The Limited, tried on some stuff. It all looked good on me, but she didn't want to buy anything, YET. Okay, our holiday is less than a week away, and Friday was the last day for us to get stuff. But she doesn't understand that. So I bought a pair of jeans but they weren't for the holiday or anything. So then we go to Limited TOO, for my little sister, to RETURN STUFF. And after that, we sat in there for another hour for my sister to try on clothes. What the fuck. She got her clothes already, ad we were just wasting time. So I told my mom to meet me at Express. Okay I looked around and tried stuff on for a half hour. There was a lot of good stuff. My mom comes like 15 minutes later, and she wanted to go to Riches to return some of her jewelry. Then we left. ....Yah. Okay. Then I was like "Go to Wal-mart I want to go pick up pictures." And my brother was like, "Yah, and I want to buy fish." So she decided to stay in the car while we went inside. I paid for the pictures, and the fish. We were only gone for like 20 minutes. She was the one who wanted to wait in the car. She didn't tell us to hurry up or anything. So we go back out to the car, and she is PISSSSSED. Over nothing. Like REALLLY pissed. To the point where she was seriously screaming at the top of her lungs. She was parked in front of Wal-mart, her window was open, and everyone was looking at her as they walked by. She was screaming at my brother she was like, "THROW THE FISH AWAY!!!" He was like, "No, I'm not throwing them away." She screamed the same thing maybe 6 or 7 times. Then she unbuckled her seat belt, got out of the car, went over to my brother's side of the car, opened the door, dug her nails into his leg, and screamed "THROW THE GOD DAMN FISH AWAY!!" Like, I've never seen her scream like that before in public. She was fucking going crazy because she had to wait 20 minutes in the car. AND IT WAS HER CHOICE TO WAIT FOR US TOO. My brother was like, "DON'T TOUCH ME. AND I'M NOT THROWING THEM AWAY." And they did this for about three minutes. And she was like, "Okay, I'll show you what's going to happen when we get home." And I was like, "What difference did it make anyway if you had to wait 20 minutes for us? You were probably on your cell phone talking to Wendy. Supposidly Wendy." She stopped the car and she was like, "WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN!!?!??!?!" And she took my cd player and she was so ready to throw it out the window. Then I was like, "If you were in SUCH a rush to get home, then why didn't you tell us to hurry up, or why did you bing us here anyway? You could have said no. You knew it would take some time to do what we had to do, and you agreed." And she just kept going crazy and screaming her ass off. She was like, "I HAD TO WAIT 20 MINUTES OUT HERE FOR YOUR ASS TO GET BACK." I was like, "Yah it's all about how YOU feel. Do you even HEAR yourself? Do you hear how psycho you are going just because you had to wait in the car for 20 minutes?!" And she was like, "SHUT THE HELL UP!!" And she started cursing stuff like damn this religion and damn God, REALLY REALLY bad stuff to say in Arabic. All because she had to wait fucking 20 minutes. The ride home was quiet. We got home. DUN DUN DUNNN. She went crazy the second we got in. She screamed at my brother telling him to put the fishes in her room. My dad told me and my bro just to do what she says because he doesn't want a headache. So my brother did. Then 10 minutes later he put them in the aquarium with the other fish. My mom went psychooo again. She starts yelling to my dad, like, "I TOLD HIM NOT TO DO THAT AND HE DID IT ANYWAY!!!!!!" So my dad was like, "Zeyad take out the three fish you bought." So my brother took out three little goldfish, lmfao. He bought like three bigger fish, not goldfish. But she didn't know. Then she found the note Amanda wrote me, that she left on the door saying to be ready by 8AM tommorow morning so I could go to her Psychology class with her at this college I'm thinking of going to. And my mom told me to forget about it. So I yelled at her, I was like, "You are the reason I don't want to be what I've always wanted to be. And it's going to be your fault if I don't do anything with my life. I'm blaming you for everything because of the way you treated me." And she just told me to put a peice of shit in my mouth and go to my room. Then she started telling my dad how she had to wait an HOUR outside, and that my brother said he would hit her, and that I was cussing at her, and she was just lying right out her ass. Fucking slut. I didn't curse ONCE. My brother would NEVER say he'd hit her. And he didn't. And there's no way in hell we spent an hour at Wal-mart, and she knows it. She waited 20 minutes. We picked up pictures, fish, and left. That's it. 20 minutes. Not a fucking hour. I heard all that bullshit she told my dad and I told him, I was like "Baba she's crazy. You didn't hear how she was screaming when we got in the car. Everyone was looking at us." And my brother was like, "And she dug her nails into my leg, and she wouldn't let go of me." And my mom was like, "Don't lie, I didn't touch you. You think you would actually let me hit you?" WHAT THE FUCKKK. I was like, "BABA SHE'S CRAZY, SHE DID HURT HIM, AND SHE WAS SCREAMING, SHE'S EXAGERRATING EVERYTHING TO MAKE US LOOK BAD WHEN WE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG." And my dad started yelling at me to go to bed. He took her fucking side. But he only did it because he didn't want to hear her bullshit. And when she went to her room, I was like, "I can't wait till I leave this house. I'm never going to speak to you again. I won't even pick up a phone and call you. And Zeyad and Nooreen either. They won't want to talk to you once they leave this house and see how good everything is out side of this house. Believe me. Then Baba is going to leave you, and you're going to be all alone. Just watch. You're going to be so alone." I know that was harsh, but it's the truth. She was like, "SHUT UP, YOU'RE SO FUCKING DISRESPECTFUL!!!" and I was like, "You think we would talk to you this way if you treated us right?!" And she told me to put shit in my mouth again and go to bed. lol. So that's it. My mom is fucking crazy. Who doesn't agree?! -Noraaa (2) Infect the Innocent.

•CRAZY BITCH• [22 Nov 2003|11:52am] [ mood | angry ] Yah well, yesterday we got to the mall about 6:30PM. We looked around, I got an of idea what I wanted to wear. I bought a pair of jeans, went to The Limited, tried on some stuff. It all looked good on me, but she didn't want to buy anything, YET. Okay, our holiday is less than a week away, and Friday was the last day for us to get stuff. But she doesn't understand that. So I bought a pair of jeans but they weren't for the holiday or anything. So then we go to Limited TOO, for my little sister, to RETURN STUFF. And after that, we sat in there for another hour for my sister to try on clothes. What the fuck. She got her clothes already, ad we were just wasting time. So I told my mom to meet me at Express. Okay I looked around and tried stuff on for a half hour. There was a lot of good stuff. My mom comes like 15 minutes later, and she wanted to go to Riches to return some of her jewelry. Then we left. ....Yah. Okay. Then I was like "Go to Wal-mart I want to go pick up pictures." And my brother was like, "Yah, and I want to buy fish." So she decided to stay in the car while we went inside. I paid for the pictures, and the fish. We were only gone for like 20 minutes. She was the one who wanted to wait in the car. She didn't tell us to hurry up or anything. So we go back out to the car, and she is PISSSSSED. Over nothing. Like REALLLY pissed. To the point where she was seriously screaming at the top of her lungs. She was parked in front of Wal-mart, her window was open, and everyone was looking at her as they walked by. She was screaming at my brother she was like, "THROW THE FISH AWAY!!!" He was like, "No, I'm not throwing them away." She screamed the same thing maybe 6 or 7 times. Then she unbuckled her seat belt, got out of the car, went over to my brother's side of the car, opened the door, dug her nails into his leg, and screamed "THROW THE GOD DAMN FISH AWAY!!" Like, I've never seen her scream like that before in public. She was fucking going crazy because she had to wait 20 minutes in the car. AND IT WAS HER CHOICE TO WAIT FOR US TOO. My brother was like, "DON'T TOUCH ME. AND I'M NOT THROWING THEM AWAY." And they did this for about three minutes. And she was like, "Okay, I'll show you what's going to happen when we get home." And I was like, "What difference did it make anyway if you had to wait 20 minutes for us? You were probably on your cell phone talking to Wendy. Supposidly Wendy." She stopped the car and she was like, "WHAT IS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN!!?!??!?!" And she took my cd player and she was so ready to throw it out the window. Then I was like, "If you were in SUCH a rush to get home, then why didn't you tell us to hurry up, or why did you bing us here anyway? You could have said no. You knew it would take some time to do what we had to do, and you agreed." And she just kept going crazy and screaming her ass off. She was like, "I HAD TO WAIT 20 MINUTES OUT HERE FOR YOUR ASS TO GET BACK." I was like, "Yah it's all about how YOU feel. Do you even HEAR yourself? Do you hear how psycho you are going just because you had to wait in the car for 20 minutes?!" And she was like, "SHUT THE HELL UP!!" And she started cursing stuff like damn this religion and damn God, REALLY REALLY bad stuff to say in Arabic. All because she had to wait fucking 20 minutes. The ride home was quiet. We got home. DUN DUN DUNNN. She went crazy the second we got in. She screamed at my brother telling him to put the fishes in her room. My dad told me and my bro just to do what she says because he doesn't want a headache. So my brother did. Then 10 minutes later he put them in the aquarium with the other fish. My mom went psychooo again. She starts yelling to my dad, like, "I TOLD HIM NOT TO DO THAT AND HE DID IT ANYWAY!!!!!!" So my dad was like, "Zeyad take out the three fish you bought." So my brother took out three little goldfish, lmfao. He bought like three bigger fish, not goldfish. But she didn't know. Then she found the note Amanda wrote me, that she left on the door saying to be ready by 8AM tommorow morning so I could go to her Psychology class with her at this college I'm thinking of going to. And my mom told me to forget about it. So I yelled at her, I was like, "You are the reason I don't want to be what I've always wanted to be. And it's going to be your fault if I don't do anything with my life. I'm blaming you for everything because of the way you treated me." And she just told me to put a peice of shit in my mouth and go to my room. Then she started telling my dad how she had to wait an HOUR outside, and that my brother said he would hit her, and that I was cussing at her, and she was just lying right out her ass. Fucking slut. I didn't curse ONCE. My brother would NEVER say he'd hit her. And he didn't. And there's no way in hell we spent an hour at Wal-mart, and she knows it. She waited 20 minutes. We picked up pictures, fish, and left. That's it. 20 minutes. Not a fucking hour. I heard all that bullshit she told my dad and I told him, I was like "Baba she's crazy. You didn't hear how she was screaming when we got in the car. Everyone was looking at us." And my brother was like, "And she dug her nails into my leg, and she wouldn't let go of me." And my mom was like, "Don't lie, I didn't touch you. You think you would actually let me hit you?" WHAT THE FUCKKK. I was like, "BABA SHE'S CRAZY, SHE DID HURT HIM, AND SHE WAS SCREAMING, SHE'S EXAGERRATING EVERYTHING TO MAKE US LOOK BAD WHEN WE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG." And my dad started yelling at me to go to bed. He took her fucking side. But he only did it because he didn't want to hear her bullshit. And when she went to her room, I was like, "I can't wait till I leave this house. I'm never going to speak to you again. I won't even pick up a phone and call you. And Zeyad and Nooreen either. They won't want to talk to you once they leave this house and see how good everything is out side of this house. Believe me. Then Baba is going to leave you, and you're going to be all alone. Just watch. You're going to be so alone." I know that was harsh, but it's the truth. She was like, "SHUT UP, YOU'RE SO FUCKING DISRESPECTFUL!!!" and I was like, "You think we would talk to you this way if you treated us right?!" And she told me to put shit in my mouth again and go to bed. lol. So that's it. My mom is fucking crazy. Who doesn't agree?! -Noraaa Infect the Innocent.

•Ehh..• [21 Nov 2003|11:45pm] [ mood | sad ] My mom is fucking crazy. I'll elaborate on that tommorrow. All my friend's are; a. Pissed off b. Sad c. Sick d. Lonely e. Or all of the above. *Hugs everyone* Me tooo guys.<333333 -Noraaa Infect the Innocent.

Oooo... [20 Nov 2003|10:50pm] [ mood | lonely ] Your Daily Horoscope from Astrology.com: November 20, 2003 Your attitude makes you appear to be the perfect mix of brains and beauty, so don't be surprised if you're sought after by people who might not normally give you a second glance. The time is right for action, not talk -- someone who wants to stay at home and have a discussion rather than get out and really live their life is not the right person for you to be with. You can't wait to get something started, and although you know you will probably move on before the grand finale, you imagine it will be spectacular. "One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: that word is love." - Sophocles - Infect the Innocent.

Poopieee. [20 Nov 2003|05:17pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Blink 182 - "All Of This" ] Yah new Blink is pretty good. lol. Don't even start the bullshit comments. I like it so NYAH. Mike told me he'd break up with his girlfriend for me. He said he'd much rather be with me than her. He's more comfortable with me. And he can joke with me without me getting mad over nothing. But just the other day he told me he loved her, and now he wants to break up with her and they've only been together a month. So, Uh, does that mean he loves me too? He told me that once, but I don't know about now. Even if he said he did, I don't know what his intentions are. He told me I was sexy as hell, and he would fuck me, and I'm just thinking, "Oh what a sweet talker..." Why does he DO THAT. He's all sweet, then he says he wants to fuck me. JUST SHUT UP. Ugh, I hate this girl at lunch, she annoys the SHIT out of me. She was making fun of this mentally retarded girl, saying she was ugly. What the fuck. FUCK YOU. So I told Brad, and Brad told Steven. And so Steven took his water bottle and poured water into the back part of her pants. Lmfao. It was so hilarious. She got pissed, and confronted Brad about it, and he was like, "I HEARD YOU SAY THAT MENTALLY RETARDED GIRL WAS UGLY. SHE'S FUCKING MENTALLY RETARDED, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?!" She was like, "It's none of yo' damn businessss. Stay out of my God damn business. And anyway, what mentally retarded girl? And if I want to call someone ugly, I WILL. YOU'RE UGLY, BYE!" Lmfao, stupid Freshman. It was cool Brad didn't mention my name, since I was standing right there. I was the one who told him, and he didn't really hear anything, and he got yelled at for it. But he still didn't point to me and told her to ask me! So yay. But tommorow, if she messes with him, or Steven, I'll back them up. They're fucking seniors, HOT seniors, and that little girl is messing with them lol. I wouldn't have had the balls to do that if I was a Freshman. It was really entertaining. Ow, Elora just slapped me. =[ I have really bad cramps. Oh, and I'm hungry. Okay, lol. Byeee. Have a good day everyone. <33333 -Noraaa (1) Infect the Innocent.

Poopieee. [20 Nov 2003|05:15pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | Blink 182 - "All Of This" ] Yah new Blink is pretty good. lol. Don't even start the bullshit comments. I like it so NYAH. Mike told me he'd break up with his girlfriend for me. He said he'd much rather be with me than her. He's more comfortable with me. And he can joke with me without me getting mad over nothing. But just the other day he told me he loved her, and now he wants to break up with her and they've only been together a month. So, Uh, does that mean he loves me too? He told me that once, but I don't know about now. Even if he said he did, I don't know what his intentions are. He told me I was sexy as hell, and he would fuck me, and I'm just thinking, "Oh what a sweet talker..." Why does he DO THAT. He's all sweet, then he says he wants to fuck me. JUST SHUT UP. Ugh, I hate this girl at lunch, she annoys the SHIT out of me. She was making fun of this mentally retarded girl, saying she was ugly. What the fuck. FUCK YOU. So I told Brad, and Brad told Steven. And so Steven took his water bottle and poured water into the back part of her pants. Lmfao. It was so hilarious. She got pissed, and confronted Brad about it, and he was like, "I HEARD YOU SAY THAT MENTALLY RETARDED GIRL WAS UGLY. SHE'S FUCKING MENTALLY RETARDED, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?!" She was like, "It's none of yo' damn businessss. Stay out of my God damn business. And anyway, what mentally retarded girl? And if I want to call someone ugly, I WILL. YOU'RE UGLY, BYE!" Lmfao, stupid Freshman. It was cool Brad didn't mention my name, since I was standing right there. I was the one who told him, and he didn't really hear anything, and he got yelled at for it. But he still didn't point to me and told her to ask me! So yay. But tommorow, if she messes with him, or Steven, I'll back them up. They're fucking seniors, HOT seniors, and that little girl is messing with them lol. I wouldn't have had the balls to do that if I was a Freshman. It was really entertaining. Ow, Elora just slapped me. =[ I have really bad cramps. Oh, and I'm hungry. Okay, lol. Byeee. Have a good day everyone. <33333 -Noraaa Infect the Innocent.

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