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| 12:06am 29/07/2003 | |||
| Yeah my ears are ringing its really really annoying just cause normally its only one ear but not tonight its two....you know i think its cool to know when someones thinking about u or talking about you but it gets annoying and it makes you paranoid cause not only do you know who it is but you dont know what their saying....They could be saying i love tonya...or they could be like dude tonyas a who...or they could be like i have a crush on tonya or they could just totally hate you you never know and thats what gets me paranoid about it..I think thats the only thing im paranoid with..That and cheating im always thinking someones cheating on me but thats because almost every relationship ive been in i've been cheated on and its really hard to trust someone...So yeah....I think im starting to not trust a certain person...im not gonna name any one because that would be kinda pointless and im not sure if im starting to not trust em' so im not gonna mention any names..cause i think its pointless and redundant cause im sure im just yeah cooco or something LOL bixety bye. | |||
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| 09:11pm 26/07/2003 | |||
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Hey wow its been awhile since i like updated this journal i think its cause i prefer Dj more LOL only cause its more my style you know dark and black lol so yea arwhead9182: see ya later bleeny LOL jons awesome........... So yeah here i am sitting at home....I have to deal with my phamily tomorrow *roles eyes* i think im gonna lock my self in my computer room LOL i know im anti social to my phamily *shrugs* who can blame me i mean they dont understand me at all they like know nothing about me they think they do but they really dont.......I have dark secrets that they will never learn unless i just come out and tell them which i wont so yeah............Tuesday i stayed the night at kats house at least i think it was tuesday *shrugs* and i was in such a weird mood i made her mom laugh so hard she like almost pee'd her pants...And then kat did one of those mask thingys and i helped her peel it off her face it was really groddie yet really funny......I saw jamie and lindsay today yeah they were handing out flyers at some place and got kicked out..........Kats like obsessed with lindsay but yet kats straight *roles eyes* i love kat and all but she looks up to me an offly lot....Shes even trying to change her sexuality to be like mine and i dont want that i want her to be who she wants and i know she doesnt want to be me.......She'd be a better person if she was her self and not me.....Im like ignorant,and im a bitch,and im just a very very i dunno how to put this actually lol i honestly dont know myself alot anymore......I know enough about me but deep down inside i have no clue who i am at all......But owell i'll never learn myself maybe its ment to be that way who knows LOL.............. Well yeah im gonna get going so i'll talk to you later bixety bi... |
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| 08:12pm 14/07/2003 | |||
| Yeah work was ok....I work the front register..Thats very very confusing....I made a new friend shes new to so we just kinda started talking...her names amanda....i saw my old friend krystal shes cool...And oh yeah i get free pop!!!! they have coke,oragan,pink,and other things o and dr.Pepper!!! so yeah its cool....My night manager is pretty cool his names erin......and i dont remember anything else oh yeah i look like a dork in a red shirt and a blue hat with black pants with my shirt tucked in and a apron on LOL its pretty funny...My ass shows thats not cool i hate showing my ass...lol it was funny me and amanda didnt know if we had to tuck our shirts in and so we didnt and michelle was like hey ladies tuck ur shirts in if i have to show my ass you have to show ur ass it was so funny.....well im gonna go my knee hurts as usual lol..biz bye | |||
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| "I just wasnt ment to be butch,im never gonna know why im a....SISSY" SAYS Andre | |||
| 10:45am 12/07/2003 | |||
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Bullshit By: Tonya Wilson 7/12/03 I'm Sick of it all every night you make me wanna die you talk about my friends you dont even fucking know them Your worried about me drinking you cant tell me what i cant do when ur a fucking drunk in the making i have no respect for you i dont even want to be here i'm only staying cause of mom you such an asshole dad i wouldnt be shocked if ur the reason the reason im a lesbain. you show me the true male side and it show me that i dont wanna be apart of it you say you love me but i doubt it you'll never hurt me? HAHA bullshit!!!!! you hurt me all the fucking time your the reason i smoke your the reason i drink your th reason i wanna die!! You hurt me emotionally and mentally your the reason i carved into my arm You think im weak but you know nothing about me Once i get the money im splitting im going to california, FOR GOOD!!! Yeah what up? I cried myself to sleep last night WOOHOO lol... im going to kats house tonight im getting drunk yay i need it to much drama..I'm moving to cali when i get the money i dont care... I want to get away from my dad and going to a friends house isnt far enough so im telling my mom when i get the money im going..I'll graduate there that or i might stay till i graduate if i can handle being here that long..I think im gonna ignore my dad...so yeah....well uh what to talk about *thinks* no clue LOL my knee hurts i have a bandage on it and its funny lol when i walk i can feel the muscle moving and it feels funny....and and and im gonna go now buh bye. |
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| The Bubbles Been Popped and im fucking sick of ur shit | |||
| 05:50pm 06/07/2003 | |||
| Yeah im sick of people saying shit and doing little immature things....They think its amusing but its not but hey im not gonna let it bring me down... Im just gonna point and laugh at them for being dumbass for fucking up their friendships that they may never have and if they do they will never be as strong as they were.... so yeah im back from camping it sucked this guy asked me out i said no but he wouldnt stop asking me out so i was like dude im a lesbain and i have a girlfriend that i love very much he still asked me but owell hes gone WOOHOO LOL well im gonna go punch some stuff right now and think about my revenge *Makes a fist and punches hand really fucking hard* See ya | |||
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| 11:42am 27/06/2003 | |||
 Hazel Eyes What Color Eyes Should You Have? brought to you by Quizilla ^ Um I think i'll stick with my eyes that i can never tell what color they are.  Cute Flirt What Kind of FLIRT are you? brought to you by Quizilla ^OK i am anything but cute i think im more of a shy flirt so yeah  you are the "you suck, and that's sad" happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit brutal. which happy bunny are you? brought to you by Quizilla ^HAHAHA I'm Truthful!!! i Knew i was LOL  Glock17. Everyone loves you. G-Dawgs and Cops alike fancy you. Aren't you just special? What handgun are you? brought to you by Quizilla ^Yeah im special alright.....SPEICAIL ED!!!!! |
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| 11:32am 21/06/2003 | |||
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You say you want a break but why do i feel that its more then just that why do i feel as if you want something more or someone else? This world is full of lies and i thought i had found someone who wouldnt break me why do i have a feeling you cheated on me? My intutions have been so right when it comes to relationships i knew that we would be ending soon so should i trust my intution ? And go ahead and say that she was cheating on me and she couldnt tell me so she said she wanted a break when really she wants to break up to go with another Either way im hurt but you could tell me the truth instead of making up an excuss and saying you need a break If you want it to end say it but dont hold me down with you Dont keep me hanging on when your with someone else Thats tourcher and its not fair you were all i ever wanted all i ever needed why you had the need to lie is beyond me I dont know what to do anymore I know i love you but how can i be with some one who has cheated on me ? I know i could do it but the trust in the relationship will be very low my head is aching and my heart is confused. This world is falling and yet all i want is you. |
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| 06:25pm 11/06/2003 | ||||
Yeah i have a cut on my hand a cut on my shoulder i almost fell off a roof it was great i love my new job.Um yeah i work with don at construction we mostly put sidding on the house but most of the time when were at his boss's house i play fetch with the dog so yeah hey i get paid so i dont care. I made up my mind the first day of school next year im gonna surpirse everyone and wear a skirt to school while in the process remaining a freak. Well thats if i can fit into the clothes at hot topic i dunno with my big ass hips and my ghetto booty i might not be able to LOL. I found a pair of hooker boots that i really really really want their like $50.00 which isnt to bad cause their really nice. So yeah saturedays going to be great! i get to drive the mountaineer woohoo, were stealling a humming bird flag off of a light post and its going to be great. Then were pulling a prank on jamie which is going to be hillarious i dont know what were doing yet so yeah. Im driving to see lisa, i miss her i have no one to pick on in school anymore. Cherish started crying today cause she wont see mrs.moyer any more until next year actually she wont even have mrs moyer because shes not teaching the sophmores next year. I hope cherish and i get to hang out this summer. She is so hott, so is her best friend amanda. They both have the coolest personalitys i can sit there and hit on them and they dont even care hell they even flirt back even though their straight.Their just so sure of their sexuality that they can joke around about it and thats so fucking awesome.Oh yesterday cherish said that when i touch people they have to go to therapy so now i wont touch her and im like mad at her so yeah but im not really really mad at her im just pretending to be cause you know she loves me. LOL I'm talking to mia right now WOOHOO next week i wont be able to talk to her for awhile i dont think. I work like monday thru Friday 7am-7pm. To bad i only get paid $10 a day if i was getting paid by the hour i'd be rich with that kind of schedule. My mom wants me to put applications in for the actuall fast food restruants because construction isnt paying enough for me to get my car out on the road. O well im having fun with it im gonna stick with it for awhile before i leave.And even then maybe i can still work both jobs i'd be rich then all though i'd have to give one up when school starts cause i wont be able to do all three. I'm like having a huge obsession with marilyn manson hes like my god!! hes like so fucking hott!! but his lips are ugly thats the only thing i dont like about him. I love his music and hes just kool, like when he ripped up the bible at one of his concert that was kick ass.So yeah. You know another good band i've only heard one song cause my computers being gay and wont download the rest of them but anyways Razed In Black their fucking kool their like gothic techno and its awesome the only song i know is oh my goth and its just got that beat that i can dance to. Dude three days grace is so fucking kool *sings three days grace* I hate everything about you,why do i love you!!!!!!! i hate everything about you why do i love you..........*guitar* everytime we lie awake after every hit we take every feeling that i get but i havent missed you yet only when i stop to think about it....... *drums* i hate everything about you why do i love you!! i hate everything about you why do i love you!!!!!!only when i stop to think about you i know only when you stop to think about me do you know...... *guitar,drums*i hate everything about you why do i love you you hate every thing about me why do you love me i hate you hate i hate you love me i hate everything aobut you why do i love you !!!! *changes song* I know I prefer to hurt it seems to comfort me and burn I never asked for it - question. I never wanted it to end I know that I die gracefully in vain I know inside deteriorates in pain you're such a part of me I can't believe it's real I crawl in my black box to hide I welcome misery with pride take turns in whipping me I bleed enjoy the fantasy and greed I know that I die gracefully in vain I know inside deteriorates in pain you're such a part of me I can't believe it's real Oh my Goth! Subject to your world Oh my Goth! Take pleasure in my hurt *woohoo RAZED IN BLACK!!!!* |
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| 04:26pm 29/05/2003 | |||
| Yeah my daddy caught me smoking a ciggeratte. And my mommy said that i can smoke as long as i dont do it in the house or around them. | |||
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| 12:26pm 25/04/2003 | ||||
My head wont stop itching i think its cause of the hair spray *thinks* it has to be so yeah i have nothing really to talk about. OH yeah lol i was being mean to mia last night supposedly but she liked it cause she was laughing at everything i said so yeah it was great i finally told her that im not really fond of ashley so yeah shes like i can relate to it but i told her that if i ever went to cali i'd hang out with ashley i just like wouldnt respect her or anything unless like she did something to make up for what she said but yeah anyways. My mommy and daddy are gonna kill me for the phone bill last night we talked for like 3 hours hahaha and then like two earlier yesterday. * now i will tell you what i've done for you 50,000 tears i've cried* sorry evanescence i love them amy lee is so fucking HOTT!! Well g2g buh bye. |
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| 06:01pm 24/04/2003 | |||
| Yeah i have my hair braided woohoo!! it only took 4 1/2 hours lol last time it took like 5 or 6 but i got my hair cut since then. Well g2g buh bye | |||
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| 02:15pm 13/04/2003 | |||
| yeah i past my segment two written exam now all i have to do is pass my road test and then i get my liscence YAY!! spring break is in like 3 1/2 days im still sick its now sunday and i've been sick since last sunday so i've been sick for a week oh goodie my girlfriends at her aunts house and i dont know when shes gonna be back i miss her i havent talked to her for like three days now and its like killing me her dads gonna let her take a train here in june if she gets no f's on her report card. so yeah i have something to look forward to. well g2g buh bye. | |||
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| 02:04pm 30/03/2003 | |||
| CHEERS JUST MAKE PEOPLE LOOK STUPID ORGASMS MAKE PEOPLE FEEL GOOD | |||
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| 07:59pm 26/03/2003 | |||
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LOL today in the gym locker room the preps were singing "jesus loves me" and i got pissed so i started yelling " THE BIBLE IS BULLSHIT,THE CORAN IS A LIE!" it was so fucking funny. i crack myself up sometimes well g2g buh bye. |
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| 06:56pm 25/03/2003 | |||
| Hey was up? not much her yeah i dont know why i update this shiknet i have no friends haha thats probably why i dont update alot cause i have nothing to look forward to reading darn what ashame not! Yeah you probably dont know my whole story but yeah jamie and i are friends again woohoo we like talked everything out like adults and we hung out over the weekend i have a new nickname general cunt lol well g2g buh bye | |||
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| 05:36pm 13/03/2003 | ||||
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| 05:31pm 11/03/2003 | ||||
Yeah i miss my girlfriend mia,she lives in california and i live in michigan. I cant wait till this summer woohoo shes coming here to visit me for like two weeks or something like that were gonna have so much fun LOL. She wants to met cherish. They were talking last night and cherish told mia to tell me to kiss cherish but mia was like uh no! but my mouse said she'd kiss you it was so fucking hilarious i was gonna die laughing. My friend jon told me that i was from california knowing that i wasnt and i was like i wish then he goes you know if you got a tan and became really really dark people might actually think that ur from california LOL. that was great he also said the 60's loved me cause im so fucking pale, im so pale i kinda glow under a black light thats pathetic but hey i love being pale.Its a gift what can i say?wait why would i be asking you that you dont know what i can and cant say do ya? didnt think so HEY Crystal!!! yeah like we need to hang out sometime. well g2g buh bye. |
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