Lo Siento Mucho!   
05:59pm 01/12/2003
 
mood: calm
music: 50 Cent- What Up Gangsta
Gah..have been neglecting my poor old Blurty journal ever since I started my new site and its just been so hectic with school that I haven't been able to update here when I'm being stupid and I am not able to put in the correct codes and stuff to make my site look decent..so I will try my hardest to do so..and whenever I feel that I cannot put my "real" feelings down on the site so I can just rant and rave about anyone I want to here and pretend there's no problem in my site lol except for nathalia..can't talk about her since she reads this hahah jk like I have any problems with Nat..besides she hasn't been on at all so I haven't talked to my best buddy in the longest time..=[ so yes..that's just an update to any loser reading this =P adios
 
     

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Daddy Day Care   
08:04pm 15/11/2003
 
mood: amused
music: Raphael Saadiq - Be Here
GREAT GREAT MOVIE RIGHT HERE!! and the cutest boy ever is in there..hes so cute!! ahhhh....cuteness...i just want to hug him and play with him and read him stories...you know im talking about a little kid right? lol =D anyways its a great movie..watch it!! so funny..
 
     

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hypocrite   
02:18pm 30/10/2003
 
mood: annoyed
i hate hypocrites..but im a hypocrite sometimes too...that so hypocritical..damnit
 
     

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Xangas   
09:27pm 29/10/2003
 
mood: aggravated
music: Utada Hikaru - First Love
its quite annoying how almost everyone i know has a xanga..don't get me wrong, i like the layouts people put on xangas and the music that you can put in em is great! and not to mention pictures..i love pictures! but the thing is...EVERYONE has one and its just the anti-conformist in me that just hates that..ive seen many, many blogs/sites that have come and gone, but this one just seems to be getting bigger!! remember myprofile.com and xprofiles? i went for such sites and they would be old news quicker than i could get mines to look nice =] but xangas..everyones getting one and theirs just keeps getting nicer and such...like i said i hate conforming to such things like this but then the other part of me goes "o0o!! look at the pretty designs!! and the music! how cool! why dont i make one right now!?" even today i was looking through so many xangas to get the feel and see the different designs ppl put into them..and gosh there's such a variety..its amazing..yet annoying ^^ if i DO go ahead and make a xanga, i bet that everyone's just going to move onto some other site that's even cooler than xanga..that's what's holding me back..im no wiz at graphics and html..so what's the use right? oh well.....in the mean time ..WHAT AM I GOING TO BE FOR HALLOWEEN!?!??!?!?!? >
 
     

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Fire!!!   
08:53pm 26/10/2003
 
mood: anxious
fire is everywhere. many injured, a handful dead..my friends' houses have been burned down to the ground and there is no school tomorrow..all this caused by a lost hunter who fired a shot for help and i guess ignited a nearby tree...what an IDIOT..hopefully the fires don't get near my house..although the news said that the winds would turn our way..please God..save our homes..i pray for all those who have already lost theirs..may God help them through this terrible, terrible time.

two friends that broke up are getting back together..all with my help..i feel so pleased ^^
 
     

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05:30am 24/10/2003
  my friend broke up with my other friend today =[  
     

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One Month!   
09:21pm 21/10/2003
 
mood: cheerful
music: Kai - Heart To Heart
one month one month one month! a month from today..tino and i became "official" HAHA xD woOoOoOo...
 
     

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today sucked sorta...   
09:52pm 12/10/2003
 
mood: tired
music: Jason Mraz-The Remedy
arrived at 11:40 at oscars..thought tino would be there and i was ready to apologize that i was late but he wasnt there yet..waited 2 minutes and ronald goes hey tinos over there! and then he had that laugh so i was like shut up..and then i turn around and tino's actually there lol

ronalds mom makes us eat....even though i dont really eat...the breadsticks werent that great for some reason >< me and tino exchanged beanie babies and he would just hold it for the rest of the day..i took out a yellow perm marker from his pocket and started writing all these things on napkins..tino kept most of the napkins that i wrote on haha..tino and ronald were joking around and ronald saying that tino shouldnt start feedin it or something like ian did with his bear...and then tino would make these jokes...i dont remember what they were but they usually made me either say okay tino..or something like its funny but ...oh i dont know...

we walked to zany brainy and then old navy and then to ross...didnt do much..came back and auntie asks us to get all of reggies friends into the theater so we could watch a movie..we ended up watching intolerable cruelty bc reggies party was watching school of rock...i regret watching int cruelty now and wished that we could have watched school of rock...there was some "hand-action" but that was it...it ended when tino started playing with the erin bear and said that she wanted some valentino bear hugs so i went to get it out of my bag (used two hands) and after i put him back we just never got to hold hands again..=( but i would sometimes lean against him (tino removed the arm rest) but i was like telling myself to not fall asleep on tino lest i drool or something ^^ but yeah i sorta leaned on him...dont know if he was uncomfortable or not..we left the theaters earlier than reggies party did so we just walked to memories then bath and body works and then ban..

didnt do much at ban though...just looked at books and stuff..we couldnt find a chair so we just would sit in the middle of the aisles and stuff...we read each others horoscope books and stuff..."pisces can have their heads in the clouds, are very accepting of people...etc" we stayed until 4 30 where we left to go to the park

park wasn't that great cuz there were baseball games going on and stuff...we couldnt go on the playground either bc there were people over there...=( so we just walked sorta..ronalds mom was there around 5 so he and jess were behind a really tall bush and hugged....for a long time.......lol and then ronald later told me that his mom asked if jess was his gf or something and he said no...jessica then called her brother to pick her up and then it was just me and tino...we talk and stuff but not alot...just sort of sitting on the bench....my mom and dad come pick me up and tell me to tell tino that we'll drop him off so that he doesn't have to walk home..so yeah we drop off tino and then my mom goes no wonder tino never gets fat...he walks such a long distance!

tino later tells me that he went to a restaurant after and his mom allowed him to try a vietnamese food cept it had peanuts and his dad goes pretty soon you'll kiss a girl but you have to make sure that she hasn't eaten any peanuts or else you'll get sick and we'll know and tino thinks that his dad might know...but hes not sure....

overall ..this day was just okay...it wasn't great ...probably cuz there was a lack of planning involved...and that theres not much to do there....maybe we should have gone to a mall or something? or maybe someones house..or something...but yeah.....it was okay....could have been better.....yeah....now im really tired so yeah...
 
     

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last night   
07:59pm 07/10/2003
 
mood: cheerful
music: Mandy Moore - Cry
tino went on and off a couple of times last night...and the last time he went on we didnt stop talking until 11! so that was like 2 hours and 30 minutes that we talked....and we talked about a lot of things! lol (ill send you the talk nat) and he emailed me his pictures with his hair short..he's cute!! and then he goes is there an olp/saints homecoming? cuz i want to ask you to my homecoming...and i was like hahah you already did and he goes oh yeah...and then we talk about how theres a valentino bear and an erin bear and how he's going to give me his special valentino bear (its in the chat nat) and how ill give him my erin bear...and nicknames....i might call him zero...hahah "zero my hero" lol and having "our" song...gosh tino can be really sappy and sweet when he wants to! sigh.....=)

i got a 135/135 on my poetry notebook!!! woooooo and my grade of a C went to a B in the English Accel. class! wOot! and we are going on a field trip to Old Town and we have to speak Spanish the whole time! hahahah
 
     

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being high and dance lessons   
08:39pm 06/10/2003
 
mood: amused
music: Juanes - Es Por Ti...
man....so high from yesterday....i was laughing at my chocolate milk cuz it was "organic" so i looked at the label and it said "no HORMONES, antibiotics, and synthetic pesticides.." and then talking about "slutty devils" since jess is going to be one for halloween...and all this other talk that made me all laughing and stuff.....yes yes...

during spanish, we had to put pieces of lettres (?) (lyrics) together to a song by Juanes - Es Por Ti... (which is the coolest spanish song i know) and it has the nicest lyrics and he has an okay voice lol (made me think of someone in particular when i heard the lyrics...=D )

dance lessons were interesting...now i know how to salsa! and the guys hands were like either sweaty, clammy, warm, dry....etc. lol it was pretty funny and then mae had to go out on the dance floor with her partner alone so we were cheering her on lol

tino told me he won me this rainbow bear thingy from the oktoberfest! ^^ and then hes all like his mom said, " Tino, I think Ehrin likes you." HAHAH she thinks i like him goodness.....

my mom goes ehrin, if you had a boyfriend...thats something you would tell me right? (my auntie had called my mom to tell her that my cousin (who's 13) broke up with her boyfriend and was asking if my mom was sure i didnt have a boyfriend! HAHAHAH

my dad looks at the ring tino gave me and goes ehrin are you trying to be "punky" or something? and i tell him no...i just found it around the house and it looked pretty cool.....

ian knows about ronald and jess...he was like freaking out! (found out from his xanga...i told ronald to be careful with his xanga!!!)
 
     

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Street Fair/Oktoberfest   
10:30pm 04/10/2003
 
mood: giddy
music: Kc and Jojo - Crazy (Fav. Slow Song!!)
Street Fair and Oktoberfest )
 
     

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Disneyland and after...   
06:31pm 03/10/2003
 
mood: hungry
music: 702 - I Still Love You
Its pretty long so i just put it in a link okay??
Disneyland!! )

After Disneyland )
ps. math quiz = D (before), math test = B (after) OH YES!!! RAISED IT TWO GRADES!
english test= 96/108 which is a B+ ?? i dont remember....but its still good!!!
 
     

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02:29pm 27/09/2003
  turned in my poetry notebook ....such crap....made me so mad that i procrastinated and waited til the last day...stayed up til 1 in the morning to finish it..but its such crap that staying up that late was worthless...

i bombed the test....i mean we havent gotten it yet but i feel like i did..and my grade right now is a C!! how is that possible you may ask? well high schools not like middle school where i used to get A's and the occasion B/B+...work is harder and they expect much more than a dinky 3 paragraph on your essays...so pissed at myself for doing that..

in spanish i got a 29/30 on my tape recorder portfolio! but only have an 89 in the class....what's that?? a B+ or something?

tino called last night....just to say hi....cuz i left my number in his yearbook! lol it was fun....just talking about nothing of importance...how he should do his hair when he cuts it..how his sister teases him occasionally about me...about wanting to hang up since its long distance (escondido and mira mesa) and not...until 5 minutes later....and saying bye for a long time..and other stuff....lol yeah......
 
     

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"Official"   
06:54pm 21/09/2003
 
mood: bouncy
music: Mariah Carey- Thank God I Found You
TODAY WAS THE BEST! =D sighs dreamily....tino is now "officially" my "boyfriend" hahahah! i thought this day would never come...or atleast not today! It was a bit soon..but oh well =) lots of jokes and stuff today as well since tino was being all smooth ^^:

-me: my name means island...how gay!
-tino: man id like to live on an island..an ehrin island...
-nat: HAHAHAH
-me: omg...lol

nat says something like she loves you tino but tino isnt really paying attention and i blurt out yeah i love you tino..and ronald and nat hear and im look o0! and then tino goes what what? and then all the while i want to see his id card and i go if you show me ill tell you and then he shows it to me later and then i have to tell him...but then all of a sudden i cant look him straight in the eye! lol it was weird.. and then we went to jamba juice and on the way he kept saying please tell me and im like no later and it keeps on going to the point where he says ill start begging! ill go on both knees! and then we were like at the cross walk and there were people and i was like SHH!! lol and then he kept saying tell me!!! in like a whispery voice..(^^) and then i try to look at him but hes just...*mumbles* way to cute cough cough anyways yeah i couldnt look at him for some odd reason and i get a vietnamese book cuz i couldnt even say that i said i love you to him! and then i marked the pages with the words and then he finds out and he starts saying "you love me! she loves me! she loves me!!" and then it was really funny cuz he was following me all over the place.. and then ronald gave him my picture and hes like saying all these things about copying and having it "in my pocket" and then i try to snatch it away from him but then i just grab the wallet and then im just holding onto the wallet while walking and hes holding onto the other side of the wallet and nat said it seemed like we're holding hands and i was like pulling him while i was walking around and hes like this is fun!! lol

-tino: "ooo im getting some ehrin action! *looks at my pic and its like the only pic in his wallet* ooo ehrin action!! oh yes..."

while taking pics im sitting on one arm of this huge barnes and nobles chair and tinos on the other arm of the chair and nats sitting in the middle of the chair and then all of a sudden when the picture was being taken, tino puts his arm around me!! lol! i was trying not to burst out laughing when the pic was being taken...hopefully i can get a copy from jessica ^^

-me: gosh my lips are so dry! you have chapstick nat??
-nat: no..i don't sor---
-tino: ive got some chapstick!!!
-everyone else: o0;;
-nat and ronald: you know itd be kind of like you know....yeah..
-me: nevermind nevermind!!
-tino: u sure...okay

and yeah theres probably more but i forget...

man today was soooo great.....nothing can compare!! unless we have another party or go to an amusement park where we actually do something..lol we were jsut hanging around nat cuz she had to do her hw and we didnt want to leave her =) ah...but yeah today was really great....soooo happy so happy.. ^^;;;;;;;;
 
     

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RIP Grandpa   
04:49pm 19/09/2003
 
mood: discontent
music: Stacie Orrico- More to Life
-Mom came back on Wednesday night/ Thursday morning
-Grandpa passed away today at around 11/12 here, 2 ish 3 in PI
-Moms leaving again on Thursday to attend funeral..
-OLP dance tonight at 7-10

i feel so uncomfortable cuz im going to have a fun time tonight while my aunties and uncles are crying because their dad passed away...and i was going to spend some time with my friends....sigh..
 
     

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Tino!   
09:18pm 15/09/2003
 
mood: ecstatic
music: Michelle Branch-Everywhere
Someone imed me today and gave me a picture cuz he wasnt so good with words. On the picture was a girl and a boy in a park, sitting in a swing set next to each other. The girl was labeled Ehrin and the boy was labeled Tino. (^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;) its way cute nat!! ill try to email it to you! Jess made a chat and he said that this must be the happiest day in his most tragic life...or something to that effect...hehe and he said that hes going to write a song now lol! and then ronald said he got inspired as well..and all is well in the world.....SIGH......and then he says that he's leaving and gives me a lot of hugs...and then smiles a lot and all the other tino stuff lol and i gave him hugs and everyone a hug and now im high and all this other stuff =D and then he signed off then he signs on again and goes ah..im missing you already! then gives me another quick hug and i sneak him another hug and then he says he'll try to go on tomorrow....^^ life is just SWELL right now...=D
 
     

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11:34pm 13/09/2003
 
mood: amused
Pink
Pink Chii


Chobits - What Color Chii Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla


what a coincidence..lol...too bad the fonts in pink and you cant really see it...but its okay i like chobits ^^
 
     

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Jessica   
07:28pm 13/09/2003
 
mood: aggravated
music: Carol Banawa-Stay with me
i was talking to ronald and nat today about my little...dilemma...and ron says i should tell and nat says that i should be hesitant because of the friendship problem...i agree with both..i dont want a barrier from the awkwardness but then i half want him to know and see what he does..but now i know what the answer is to the latter..thanks to my friend jessica...

Read more... )

and jess thinks im jo..and jo married that old fogey bhaer guy...not saying tinos..an old fogey..=D

so yeah...hopefully it wont be too awkward..
 
     

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10:07pm 12/09/2003
 
mood: pissed off
music: Beyonce-Baby Boy
today hurts..it hurts really bad...i dont know why..all the emotions just...pulling me two different ways and its overwhelming..school is overwhelming..feelings are overwhelming..saw most of my friends at gscs and at wv...it was nice..but then everything after that was ..not that great...i didnt even get to stay with my friend nat..i felt like crying and depressed on the way home..


Confusing, overwhelming
Happy and Meloncholy all the same
High School and Middle School friends don't mix
Unknown feelings and jokes
Peer into the looking glass
You are on the outside looking in
Accept it.

i know its not a poem, just a few phrases that i thought of and decided to jot down..maybe ill write next friday..if i dont have too much homework..
 
     

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joy oh joy...dum de dum de dum...   
08:27pm 08/09/2003
 
mood: ecstatic
music: *love music in my head* HAHA JK!!!
ah...just found out yesterday that some certain person that shall not be named reciprocated his feelings ^^ (reciprocated..yeah..i just had math =] ) but he doesn't know my feelings for him...cuz i dont even know if he likes me still..he just told a friend of mine *who promised to not tell anyone! but still told me cuz she felt it was oh so important for me to know* that he started liking me last year....if only i knew! i mean we weren't even like..close friends then? he was just a guy that was kinda....nice and interesting to me =D it was only later in the year that we got close and stuff..so yeah...WHO COULD LIKE ME?? im too ugly >< probably why he didn't know for sure if he really liked me or just "lusted" as he put it to my friend...HAH! sigh...too bad its like we'll almost close to barely see each other....damn....only time someone has "feelings" for me and i like em too...i find out to late...dash it all haha..btw..the friend might tell him that i like him! and she was all saying that if she told him i wouldn't know but would know he liked me so it would be like he knows i like him but he doesn't know that i know he likes me....shes crazy! hopefully she wont tell......>< lol

second thing i found out today was that the friend mentioned above had told the guy she liked that she liked him and he told her that he felt the same way *i like(d?) him as well...but AWWWW how cute ^^* and yeah...i just never knew that and she didnt feel like telling me until like..now?! gee thanks for your late confidance in me jle! lol anyways....so now its all like.....different sorta...

had a dream last night....it was about the whole liking me subject...cept it was different people? i was at some place..like a house and it had this HUGE ass playground in the back (me reminiscing about gscs playground?) and it was like hella cool..cuz it had like everything! slides, stairs, swings..etc and then i guess some of my friends were there but i dont remember, and then meghan m wanted to show me something at the top of the slide and then i guess i was thinking i was going to try to jump off and see if i could fly (WTF??) but that didnt happen cuz we were at the top of a slide and she accidentally pushed me and i guess i dragged her down the slide as well and we actually were like...acting all friendly like? ( me and meghan aren't close friends...she's more like an aquaintence) and then this flip guy from this teleserye i watch with my mother is in it...and then i ask where mehgan went (obviously some time has passed) and i have lost mehgan..somewhere..and im asking these people where she is cuz she wanted me to go back up the stairs with her to try that flying thing!? and then the flip guy took me outside to look for her..and then all of a sudden he wraps his arms around me and kisses my forehead!!! (cue for the awwing and how cute-ing) and then i guess im all pissed or upset or surprised but then i say gee you think im that tall?? cuz he kissed me really high on the forehead..but in real life i wouldn't act that way! cuz i mean he's kissing me from behind and he probably couldnt see..and gee...id be pretty flattered! but anyyyways i act all weird and rude and just sorta....leave him and then thats it.....gosh that thought just MADE MY DAY!! i just kept thinking about it..like how it sorta all relates to what i was thinking that night before i went to sleep..oh yeah! i also had a part in there where i went into my locker and found my socks..cuz i was wondering if i left a fresh pair of socks in my locker..and today i found out that i did! so yeah....i was thinking about all these things and i had a WONDERFUL DREAM!!! =];;;;;;;;;;;;; so happy!!

ps. to nat: i know you enjoyed this lil dream of mine as much as i did! ^^
 
     

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