|and the convo went something like this;
||[28 Jan 2008|11:28pm]
XtremE0204 (10:38:17 PM): sup?
Auto Response from papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:38:17 PM): out with the old && in with the new <2
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:38:24 PM): lol. hi.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:38:36 PM): im such a brat/baby... im to afraid to talk to you on the phone
XtremE0204 (10:38:41 PM): y?
XtremE0204 (10:38:50 PM): am i intimidating?
XtremE0204 (10:38:51 PM): lol
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:39:01 PM): haha, no lol. the opposite... i usually blurt out the truth
XtremE0204 (10:39:09 PM): like what?
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:39:57 PM): well. okay, to be honest. i HATE playing games. like the mixed signals and all that. and im horrrible at telling if someone is into me. so i usually just make the first move when i like someone
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:40:13 PM): sooo, here i go lol.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:40:16 PM): i like you alot.
XtremE0204 (10:40:17 PM): i think we already made the move....
XtremE0204 (10:40:23 PM): i like you too
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:40:39 PM): ahh,, physically yeah we made it... but theres still all this unspoken stuff that im confused about
XtremE0204 (10:40:55 PM): like what?
XtremE0204 (10:41:20 PM): the 120 miles is the only thing keeping me from being with you.... truthful enough?
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:41:57 PM): idn, well apparently i kept mentioning crystal at your house.. and i want to clear the air... i dont have a connectiong with her, like shes hott and fun and blablabla... but we just mess around and hangout alot.. shes like a bestfreind that likes to kiss me
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:42:24 PM): so, she already knows this, but if i found someone i liked id dump her in a heart beat
XtremE0204 (10:43:47 PM): i understand that. I realllllly like you. seriously. problem is that Ive never had a long distance relationship that works. Im nervous of ruining something good.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:44:08 PM): ruining?..
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:44:13 PM): *jessica moment*
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:44:23 PM): how would it get ruined?
XtremE0204 (10:44:24 PM): messing up
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:44:45 PM): no i know what ruined means lmfao.. i just dont get howw wed e=ruin it
XtremE0204 (10:44:50 PM): well. Its just not worked in my 4 years at college
XtremE0204 (10:45:09 PM): ruined=killing, messing up
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:45:52 PM): i hateee "what ifs" dont you?
XtremE0204 (10:46:07 PM): i haven't stopped thinking about you though.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:46:27 PM): since me cumming twice? haha
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:46:31 PM): thanks by the way
XtremE0204 (10:46:47 PM): lol. yes, but also just you being awesome
XtremE0204 (10:47:03 PM): and forgiving......... since i have shown you my stupid side and you let it go
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:47:32 PM): lol, that was nothing.
XtremE0204 (10:47:54 PM): well, it was still shitty of me
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:48:10 PM): and i always think about you,, but up until... just now it was mostly just contemplating if the feelings were mutual.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:48:29 PM): and i know the long distance thing is shitty,, but honestly; you're so worth it
XtremE0204 (10:48:42 PM): they're mutual, believe me.
XtremE0204 (10:49:29 PM): however, I think we'd be jumping into something that will be rough, at least until my recital is over.
XtremE0204 (10:50:34 PM): I know I can't commit enough time for a g/f until thats over...... I don't expect you to wait for me, but i do hope to god you're still available after feb 20th
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:52:00 PM): ..im not going anywhere. theres just something about you. i'll waituntil like may lol, if it means that after that you would be willing to really try it
XtremE0204 (10:52:01 PM): no comment?
XtremE0204 (10:52:52 PM): im willing..... as long as u understand that my music comes before anything else..... a lot of people (even just friends) can't ahndle being 2nd to anything
XtremE0204 (10:54:17 PM): so????
XtremE0204 (10:54:53 PM): you can still come and see me whenever tho. you're always welcome.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:55:24 PM): lol, that was very honest. im trying to think.... of the truth... well,, you have to wait for things that are worth it, and im willing to compromise.
XtremE0204 (10:55:54 PM): im always honest. don't worry bout it.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:56:34 PM): i totally understand that you're driven and you're in college for the music. butt, since you're being to truthful... after feb 20th,,, do you really think you'll have more time?
XtremE0204 (10:57:00 PM): I think youll see me back home a little more than once a month.
XtremE0204 (10:57:29 PM): plus, if you find a friend who can stay overnight here, you're welcome to come down here any weekend
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:58:19 PM): sweet.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (10:58:55 PM): oH! and ive been meaning to ask you,,, are you dating anyone at lv?
XtremE0204 (10:59:04 PM): no.
XtremE0204 (11:00:13 PM): truthfully, girls here suck. I do have some friends who are girls, but there's no connection
XtremE0204 (11:00:17 PM): not like we had
XtremE0204 (11:00:36 PM): have*
XtremE0204 (11:00:39 PM): lol
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:00:51 PM): oh, you and me! lol. that went over my head
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:01:09 PM): yeah, its really wierd.. well, not weird, just different.
XtremE0204 (11:01:17 PM): what is?
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:01:26 PM): our connection
XtremE0204 (11:01:35 PM): how is it weird?
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:01:49 PM): i feel like a little kid lol. i didnt mean wierd,, its wierd in a ...great way
XtremE0204 (11:02:14 PM): like a little kid? how so?
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:02:24 PM): lol, this is coming out all wrong
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:02:36 PM): its like,,, a crush lol.
XtremE0204 (11:02:36 PM): thats what she said
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:02:38 PM): jajajajaj
XtremE0204 (11:02:40 PM): lol
XtremE0204 (11:02:49 PM): you mean hahahaha
XtremE0204 (11:02:57 PM): lol
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:03:02 PM): lol, its the spanish haha lol
XtremE0204 (11:03:18 PM): ok, ang h and j are very colse on the keyboard.
XtremE0204 (11:03:23 PM): and*
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:03:28 PM): lol. yeah that too!
XtremE0204 (11:03:47 PM): damnit, i make a misspelling while making fun of you misspelling
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:04:02 PM): lol, yeah, figures
XtremE0204 (11:05:22 PM): just a warning though, you're going to have to fend off the 300 girls that want me so badly..... lmao jk
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:05:49 PM): lol, well.... speaking of that. i tend to have lots of guy freinds
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:05:58 PM): aand, as you can tell.. i come off as flirty
XtremE0204 (11:06:12 PM): well. don't do anything with them and i don't give a shit
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:06:35 PM): lol, im not THAT flirty lol. and i wouldnt
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:06:58 PM): even just knowing we may have something after like march.. i wouldn't do anything until then either
XtremE0204 (11:07:29 PM): well, just sayin. i told you what happened to my ex who cheated on me...... I get ugly quick.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:07:56 PM): oh, you like your car dont you?
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:08:05 PM): ... yeah, that will get ugly quick if you cheat on me
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:08:05 PM): lol
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:08:10 PM): im vindictive.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:08:29 PM): haha, im kidding, i owuldnt hurt your car.
XtremE0204 (11:08:31 PM): lol. u gona fuck up my car? lol. I have good insurance........
XtremE0204 (11:08:36 PM): jk'
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:08:38 PM): hahahhaaha
XtremE0204 (11:08:59 PM): brb. gotta pee
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:09:17 PM): k
XtremE0204 (11:10:54 PM): bak
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:11:18 PM): : D
XtremE0204 (11:12:47 PM): just a warning, im running on battery power, and my comp blows. so, i got like 10 mins left
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:13:15 PM): k, thats perfect bc i have to get to bed in like 15 mins anyways
XtremE0204 (11:13:24 PM): ic. work tomorrow?
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:13:29 PM): yeaah lol, blows
XtremE0204 (11:13:43 PM): you do dietary where?
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:13:44 PM): buuut once i start getting pay checks i can come down a little more often
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:13:52 PM): no, i work with stocks
XtremE0204 (11:13:58 PM): oh, thats cool
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:13:58 PM): like the stock market
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:14:08 PM): ehh,, lol people are angry when it comes to money
XtremE0204 (11:14:27 PM): what do you do with them? lol
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:15:10 PM): i like, set up accounts with prudential and cigna
XtremE0204 (11:15:17 PM): wow. thats cool
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:15:19 PM): and sometimes i deal with peoples health benefits
XtremE0204 (11:15:53 PM): i love how you say youre the brazilian jessica but youre actually very smart, lol
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:16:30 PM): lol, im pretty booksmart, which most people dont believe. but i have,,, nooo common sense
XtremE0204 (11:17:08 PM): lol. you have street smarts, which i don't have
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:17:20 PM): oh! oh!
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:17:26 PM): question, before you get kicked off
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:17:39 PM): its been on my mind since sat. night.
XtremE0204 (11:17:47 PM): yeah?
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:18:03 PM): lol, this is going to come out really wierd... but why didnt you want to have sex with me?
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:18:14 PM): i kind of felt like i did something wrong??
XtremE0204 (11:19:02 PM): because i really like you. I try to be classy, I don't feel as though we realllly know enough yet. I feel as though you should know a person's job before you do that, lol. Understand?
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:19:33 PM): oh. fair enough lol
XtremE0204 (11:20:19 PM): i didn't mean to offend you.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:20:25 PM): thats just not the typical guy thing lol. i just assumed since i was sleeping in your bed you were going to try something, and then you didnt and i was like.. "?!" lol, and thats were even more confusion came in.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:20:37 PM): oh no, it didnt offend me,, i was just reaaally shocked, and in a way impressed
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:20:40 PM): times 10 lol
XtremE0204 (11:21:27 PM): well, i try, lol. jk
XtremE0204 (11:21:52 PM): my parents raised me right...... don't know what happened to my brother, lmao
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:21:59 PM): lol, hes,,,, a charecter
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:22:27 PM): i think i grew on him by the end of the night lol.. he was all... whyyyy arent you guys dating yet?! its apparent eric likes you! lol.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:22:57 PM): and he was telling me that you're finally listening to him,, bc hes been telling you to get an exotic girl for the longest time. hes so cute. i want him and crystal to hook up
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:23:06 PM): they both need a good lay with no connections
XtremE0204 (11:23:27 PM): warning: hes a major player. Ive never seen him stay loyal to a girl.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:23:32 PM): never?
XtremE0204 (11:23:36 PM): my battery's dying
XtremE0204 (11:23:53 PM): not to my recollection
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:24:04 PM): k, wellll, ill text you tomorrow night. hopefully we'll be able to talk to a while longer
XtremE0204 (11:24:24 PM): you're allowed to call me..... lol. ill call u some time tomorrow
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:24:32 PM): and thanks for coming on tonite : D. i've wanted to say this since... well since i came to lv
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:24:50 PM): lol, i wanst sure actually bc i know you're busy. just wanted you to know you have total space.
XtremE0204 (11:25:18 PM): icic. its quite alright. hope I didn't upset u...... just until feb 20th I need to have 1 focus
XtremE0204 (11:25:29 PM): BTW, you better be here that night......
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:25:42 PM): oh i will,, ill call of work if i have to
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:25:48 PM): offff
XtremE0204 (11:25:51 PM): 7:30 feb 20th.
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:26:05 PM): k, you'll have to keep reminding me.
XtremE0204 (11:26:18 PM): i will, dont worry
papeRxheaRts x 2 (11:26:19 PM): but, goodnight, and... you're great! lol
XtremE0204 (11:26:38 PM): night hun. and youre amazing.... i think i told u that a binch of times
XtremE0204 (11:26:42 PM): bunch*
andddddd, im so stoked. i finally have someone that's worth my time! and i know itll work.. and its actually great bc i need my space,,, which he has to give me lol. and i wont see him 24/7 so it'll be a million times greater when i do see him and kiss those AMAZING lips of his.
OHOHOH..! and btw, he likes to bite! ahhhhh i was sooo intrigued and shocked!. hes great and i caaan't wait until feb 20th!