now im in over my head with something i said,
completely misread, im better off dead
n now I can see how fake yu can be
this hypocrisy is beginnin to get to me..
im too awake for this to b a nightmare!
when will all my problems disappear?
am i just going crazy from the fear?
drop dead, a bullet to my head
yur words are like a gun in hand
i never thought it would end up this way,
yu got somethin to say?
dont wanna hear it if it gets in my way
while waiting so frustrating,
im so sick of,
all this tension not to mention,
im so sick of, sick of you!
who are these voices in my head?
i cant go on like this, living like the dead
i havent slept so long, feeling sad i dread
im talking to myself, forgot what i just said
self-destruction taking over its so easy to pretend
introduction to this nightmare fanticiesmay never end
can anyone help me drag my heels?
im running overtime, i cant hold down my meals
my mind is racing by, like pulling out my teeth
we've lost it all in hopeless dreaming
AM I JUST LOSING GRIP!
all i know is ive heard this all before, realitys a bore
yu ask me to believe in somethin they provide
cant bring myself to do what yu want me to
this is who we are and nothings gonna change
silence is screamin in my head
stuck on repeat, not much longer ill be dead
so just forget me, im losing my mind
n i dont think you could save me this time
its dragging on, im wearing thin
i cant stop these walls they keep caving in
its gone too far, wheres my mind?
why cant time stop fear this paranoia?
no matter what I say, yu turn your back away
its never guna break yu, its never guna make yu fall
another day another day in paradise
if yu only knew wouldnt it be nice
get away get away get away, im about to detonate
everythin to prove, nothin to loose
this time were on our way to tragedy
ill fall into yu, i dont believe that this is real
yu say its wrong, but its right for me
i wont look down, wont say im sorry
i know that only god can judge me
n if i make it through today, will tomorrow be the same
m i just running in place n if i stumble and i fall
should i get up and carry on, will it all just be the same
its me against the world and i dont care, i dont care
no one in this industry understands the life i lead
when i see them on the streets they got nuthin to say
Hey, now, there's nothing for free
ill wash my bloody hands and well start a new life
i dont know much at all, i dont know wrong from right
all i know is that i love you tonight
standing over her, she begged me not to do
what i knew i had to do cause im so in love with you
yu know the happiest day of my life
i swear the happiest day of my life
is the day that i die!
when i think about my life
i wonder if i will survive
to live to see in 25 or will i just fall?
please dont walk away, i know yu wanna stay
some say that time change, best friends can become strangers
then ever since i met yu, i never could forget yu
i only wanna get yu right here next to me
if yu want me to wait, i would wait for you
if yu tell me to stay, i would stay right through
if yu dont wanna say anything at all, im happy wondering
i gave up on yu a long time ago. how can yu blame me?
we made plans to meet and yu never showed, yu kept me waitin
they said everythin would work out just fine, they said yud help me
but as it turns out it was all a lie, n theyre off someplace far away laughin at me
yuve been there for me one time in my life, but it didnt matter
yu came n went so fast all my hope n faith in yu shattered
n now here i sit alone in this room, no one to confide in
yu watched all my dreams come apart at the seams, yu laughed, yu left, yu waited in hiding
bless me dark father i have sinned, ive done it before and ill do it again
cuz it keeps me warm, and makes yu smile, been beneath me all the while
bless me dark father i cant win, without yu im as good as dead
cuz yu keep me warm, yu make me smile, yuve been on my shoulder all the while
there are things that used to make me smile, one of them was yu for just a little while
yu left me for dead so far away, i replaced yu with fear and shame
yull be happy on the day I die
there are things that used to make me laugh, but now theyre deeply buried in the past
i dont care who yuve been sleepin with these days, yur outta my hair
its growin just above my smiling face that i wear, every night i drink myself to sleep
not thinkin about yu, not thinkin about anything at all
n im tired of sleepin with myself, im tired, all these drinks and drugs no longer help
im tired of lying about not thinking of you, mayb my friend peter can tell me what to do
because i need yu more than yu need me, because i want yu more i kno
because i cared way more, because i really felt that yu felt so much more i know
i've been up all night long counting days that all went wrong
i opened my bedroom window, i wish this pain was gone
there are no useful drugs to escape from feeling numb
i remember an amazing birthday, i remember when i was young
i feel so mad, i feel so angry, i feel so callused
so lost, confused, again. i feel so cheap, so used, unfaithful
i never seen nothin like yu before, i can kick yu higher than yu can kick me
i can kick yu way up into a tree, who wants a taste of my oo-long tea? Ho ha ho ha ho chi chi
(HAHAHAHHAHA LMFAO "not lyrics")
another day left waiting, alone in my room with no calls from yu
so i call yu up, but yu let me down, falling down around everyone except yourself
another day left crying, with yu in my room with nothing left to do
yu say that its not right, yu said its over now. stand still annoyed with no one around
yur graceful, yur grace falls, down around me in my eyes
yur lovely, yur love leaves, so easily in my eyes
i doubt my own dreams, i lie in my sleep
n dont sleep to dream, yet everything that i see is haunting me
im trying to scream but i cant breathe…can anybody hear me?
im tryin to dream but i cant sleep…can anyone shield me?
i shut my eyes and hold my cries to myself, my prides in the shitter
but I…wont quit, never quit
what i excel in best is my excessiveness
of deprecation, i hate myself sometimes
how can i be down when all that i want is in my reach
whats wrong with me? Fuck it
and now it seems that i have found nothing at all
i want to hear yur voice out loud, slow it down, without it all
im choking on nothing, its clear in my head - im screaming for somethin
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all, on my own
marry me, stay the same, lie to me and try to say yu never will
for awhile i was cleaner than now, then i started to destroy myself
with things that i love now the things that i hate, until it finally broke me
give it to me, give me all...whatever yu want
its never been me to want this much from yu i can see
it tears me up...
each day gets more and more like the last day, still i can see it coming
while im standing in the river drowning, this could be my chance to break out
this could be my chance to say goodbye. at last its finally over
couldnt take this town much longer, bein half dead wasnt what i planned to be
now im ready to be free!!!!!
white it out like glittering wax butterflies
--> ThAtS aLL FoLkS! <--