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NeW JoUrNaL! [23 Jul 2003|02:54pm] hey i gotta new journal...im not guna update on this one anymore cuz i hate the name...ok well its (out_x_spoken)...later marie andrea post comment

sure?! [21 Jul 2003|08:01pm] [ mood | energetic ] [ music | Smile Empty Soul- Bottom of a Bottle ] today i went n got my hair cut...a good 3 inches off..im liken it so far- lol...but yeah, im deciding or not if i should trun punk. cuz i listen to mostly rock n ish n i feel like a poser triena dress like my sister's type..ya kno?! well, i know id lose a lot of my friends over this dumb situation, but i think its messed up if ppl dont want to b my friend n shyt if im like this ya kno..owell but yeah the only person who im MoSt afraid of really losing is Matt Donnelly...cuz hes like an awesome kid n shyt n is ALWAYS there for me, n he doesnt quite no that im sorta punk...me n courtney went to the beach yesterday with her sister her sisters boyfriend (ant) n her moma..it was pretty cool *exept all the ppl running by n gettin sand all on us..lmao!* n then we went bak to courtneys n me n her hadda good discussion about me turning punk, n she knows alot about me n understands me in like everythin so she told me to do what i want n if i feel like i should i should, n i shouldnt care what people think..n shyt so im really loving her..lol..so yeahh! okay, well if anyone cares to tell me how they feel on this topic then juss comment ;) ...later babes!!!!!! ((i love the song - Bottom oF a BoTTLe!!)) marie andrea 6 comments|post comment

quizes [20 Jul 2003|12:10am] [ mood | crappy ] more more n more quizes, cuz i have NoO life.. If I were a month I would be: january If I were a day of the week I would be: saturday If I were a time of day I would be: 11pm If I were a planet I would be: mars If I were a sea animal I would be: shark If I were a direction I would be: south If I were a piece of furniture I would be: chair If I were a sin I would be: thou shall not kill If I were a historical figure I would be: Franklin If I were a liquid I would be: blood If I were a stone, I would be: rolling ;) If I were a tree, I would be: pine If I were a bird, I would be: blue bird If I were a tool, I would be: screw driver If I were a flower/plant, I would be: white rose If I were a kind of weather, I would be: humitity *cuz not everyone likes it If I were a mythical creature, I would be: big foot..? lmao If I were a musical instrument, I would be: saxafone If I were an animal, I would be: dog! If I were a color, I would be: dark blue If I were a vegetable, I would be: carott If I were a sound, I would be: screams If I were an element, I would be: fire If I were a car, I would be: mustang If I were a song, I would be: Ataris- Boys of Summer If I were a movie, I would be directed by: myself..? If I were a book, I would be written by: that harry potter lady If I were a food, I would be: cherrys If I were a place, I would be: puerto rico If I were a material, I would be: silk If I were a taste, I would be: sweet (like sugar) If I were a scent, I would be: vinilla (cant spell) If I were a religion, I would be: nOnE! If I were a word, I would be: ewh! (lmao) If I were an object, I would be: a knief If I were a body part I would be: wrist If I were a facial expression I would be: annoyed If I were a subject in school I would be: science If I were a comic book character I would be: spiderman If I were a shape I would be a: circle If I were a number I would be: 9 If I were a disease i would be: cancer Your Stripper Name is Brandy! You're the type of girl who got started dancing in clubs... And realized that you were so hot that you should turn pro. You're more of a go-go dancer than a stripper - getting down on stage, but not on laps. Dancing and music are what you're all about, though the cash tips are always a plus! You tend to stick to topless clubs, but if the pay is right, you'll take it all off. While you'll never turn porn star, you enjoy being the hottest cage dancer in town. What's *Your* Stripper Name? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva You Are A Juicy Kisser! About Your Kissing Style: Your lips are totally kissable baby, and you know how to use them. You are the perfect - with the right combo of lips and tongue. It's important to flaunt it, so kiss early and often on dates! What Your Kissing Style Says About You: You're 100% hot, and you know it. You're all about being sexy, all the time. You have no trouble scoring dates or kisses ... Just trouble getting rid of jealous people trying to show you up! You attract attention from every hot guy and girl... even before you show off your kissing skills. Your Personal Kissing Matches and Mismatches: Go out with another Juicy Kisser and you'll be the power couple of the party. Sure, you'll have a ton of hot kisses, but only after everyone there has checked you guys out. Hook it up with a Romantic Kisser and you may have found your soulmate. Romantic Kissers will be attracted to your appeal, and you'll appreciate their loyalty. Keep away from Carnal Kissers! They'll just try to play you for sex, and ruin your reputation in a heartbeat. And Freaky Kissers are way too wild and rough for your style. You prefer pleasure to pain, thank you very much. How Do *You* Kiss? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva marie andrea 1 comment|post comment

yeAh [19 Jul 2003|06:48pm] [ mood | angry ] i havnt gone out today (other then with my dad, brother n sis to Staten Island to go to his house n out to eat) n yesterday i also stayed in...im in such a bad mood, n dont feel like doing anything- my mom still wont let me get the damn dog...she s such an asshole, i hate her so much. she talkes about me behind me back n expects me not to hear..she thinks im gettin annerxic or bolimic bc she doesnt see me eating anything n when i do im in the bathroom like 5 min later -n in there for like 30 min.- but anyway..i dont care anymore..ive wanted a dog since like i used to hang out with Lisa Meehan (cuz of her dog Sam, not the sam she has now, her first one that got hit by the truck :( i loved Lisa's dogs) n my mom SAYS shes allergic yet whenever she went over Jordans or sumthin shed never get ANY allergies from the dog...i hate it!! oomg, i really do. i want one soo bad no one understands..i never get anything i want from her, i wish i could JUsT onCe atleast ya kno..ugh! i just wanna b like a little kid n throw a hugE hissy fit n then her say yes..but i cant, its fuckin gay..i hate this..i hate everything..oomg. shawn never calls me :( i havnt seen him since thursday *n that was for like an hr* but owell...i jus want to go far far away somwhere...somtimes id rather just live with my dad too..ugh whatever later marie andrea post comment

goD! [18 Jul 2003|06:17pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | Ataris- Boys of Summer ] yeh i went out last night...it was okay we jus played manhunt n hung out...the normal stuff...n Mike Maxwells dog had puppies (pit bulls) they are soooo adorible..i want one so bad, but my moms in a bad mood * like always* and sed no..oomg, when i have kids im so not guna b like her, i cant stand anything she ever does, she goes about things all wrong, i cant stand it- i wish my brother was my father n would let me do things, n actually talked to me unlike my mother..lol anyway- sry...today once again i didnt go out- yet..i hope i go out tonight or sumthin..my eyes gotten worse, n i cant stand it. ugh whatever, im getin outa here...later marie andrea post comment

BoRiNg!!!! zZzz [17 Jul 2003|06:51pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | Good Charlotte- Girls and Boys ] im sooooo bored today...no one called me or anything :( im so bored...hmmm- but yeah my eye is red again n it hurts sooOOOOOooo bad! oomg, i hate my eyes..i must have gotten sumthin in it or sumthin again, its killin me tho! i think im goin to NY with my sisters friends tomorrow to get my belly button peirced! i cant wait!!!! Colin, Ryan, Mike, Sam, Benito, Mookie, AJ n i think thats all- cam to my house today n oomg, lmao! they got me all wet tho -UGH!!- n then they left...n i cam bak inside n sat on the couch n computer all fukkin day..oomg, i think this is the first time i havnt gone out (during the day) all summer now! damNN! i hope i see shawn tonight tho..i miss him hehe..(even tho i seen him last night but its all good *it like how they say "yu miss him even before hes gone" thats how it is with shawn its weird..owell) ookay soo my eye is killin me n im guna go lay down again cuz im watchin Rocket Power...later post comment

im GiLL! hehe [16 Jul 2003|04:07pm] What Finding Nemo Character are You? brought to you by Quizilla **Finding Nemo was such a cute movie!! oomg!! lmao..later post comment

CuTe n TrUe StoRy!!! :D [16 Jul 2003|03:32pm] I found this story its kinda weird, but in a way makes so much sense... One day, all the vices and virtues were gathered together and were more bored than ever. Suddenly, Ingenious came up with an idea: "Let's play hide and seek!" All of them liked the idea and immediately Madness shouted: "I want to count, I want to count!" And since nobody was crazy enough to want to seek Madness, all the others agreed. Madness leaned against a tree and started to count: "One, two, three..." As Madness counted, the vices and virtues went hiding. Tenderness hung itself on the horn of the moon... Treason hid in a pile of garbage... Fondness curled up between the clouds... and Passion went to the centre of the earth.... Lie said that it would hide under a stone, but hid at the bottom of the lake... whilst Avarice entered a sack that he ended up breaking. And Madness continued to count: .... "seventy nine, eighty, eighty one..." By this time, all the vices and virtues were already hidden - except Love. For undecided as Love is, he could not decide where to hide. And this should not surprise us, because we all know how difficult it is to hide Love. Madness: "...ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven..." Just when Madness got to one hundred.........Love jumped into a rose bush where he hid. And Madness turned around and shouted: "I'm coming, I'm coming!" As Madness turned around, Laziness was the first to be found, because Laziness had no energy to hide. Then he spotted Tenderness in the horn of the moon, Lie at the bottom of the lake and Passion at the centre of the earth. One by one, Madness found them all - except Love. Madness was getting desperate, unable to find Love. Envious of Love, Envy whispered to Madness: "You only need to find Love, and Love is hiding in the rose bush." Madness grabbed a wooden pitch fork and stabbed wildly at the rosebush. Madness stabbed and stabbed until a heartbreaking cry made him stop. Love appeared from the rose bush, covering his face with his hands. Between his fingers ran two trickles of blood from his eyes. Madness, so anxious to find Love, had stabbed out Love's eyes with a pitch fork. "What have I done! What have I done!" Madness shouted. "I have left you blind! How can I repair it?" And Love answered: "You cannot repair my eyes. But if you want to do something for me, you can be my guide." And so it came about that from that day on, Love is blind and is always accompanied by Madness ... marie andrea post comment

ThIs KiD! [15 Jul 2003|11:35am] this kid has sooo many tattoos!! lmao (its gary): Hvacbmx9 [11:20 AM]: hey whats up? XxMarie14xX [11:20 AM]: hey babe! nuthin yu Hvacbmx9 [11:21 AM]: im bored as hell...i just got back from the tattoo place XxMarie14xX [11:21 AM]: ohh dam!N wud u get? lol Hvacbmx9 [11:22 AM]: i got flames going up my arm...and bout a month ago i got gaetano across my stomach Hvacbmx9 [11:22 AM]: i should say arms..** XxMarie14xX [11:22 AM]: ooomg! yea i heard about gaetano! oomg..i wanna see them soo bad tho Hvacbmx9 [11:23 AM]: who told you bout my name Hvacbmx9 [11:23 AM]: ? XxMarie14xX [11:23 AM]: teresa Hvacbmx9 [11:23 AM]: yeah its nice as hell XxMarie14xX [11:23 AM]: damn Hvacbmx9 [11:24 AM]: i should be going back in bout a week or 2 to get a barcode on the back of my nack XxMarie14xX [11:24 AM]: ooman XxMarie14xX [11:24 AM]: yur all loaded up! XxMarie14xX [11:25 AM]: ooman Hvacbmx9 [11:25 AM]: yepp...i have..7 Hvacbmx9 [11:25 AM]: brb XxMarie14xX [11:25 AM]: daMn XxMarie14xX [11:25 AM]: ok this kid has a tattoo on his left arm (sayin "BMX") n another on his back thats a big fox symbol n it says "FOX RACING" n then on his shoulder blades he has two nadical stars..now he got the "GAETANO" on his stomache (which is his real name by the way) and he has on his two arms the flames..i have yet to see the Gaetano n the flame ones but otherwise they are awesome..lol (soon to com the barcode one) ook...ill stop talkin bout his tattoos..later marie andrea post comment

some questions.... [15 Jul 2003|11:32am] [ mood | bored ] [ .001. ] Name: Marie [ .002. ] Gender: girl [ .003. ] Age: 14 [ .004. ] Birthday: january o4 [ .005. ] Height: 5'5 [ .006. ] Hair color: brown [ .007. ] Eye color: brown [ .008. ] Zodiac sign: capricorn [ .009. ] How many languages do you know: 1 1/2 (lol) [ .010. ] Piercings you have: 6 (in ears) n soon to com MoRe ;) [ .011. ] Tattoos you have: none yet ? S C H O O L ? [ .012. ] Are you still in school: no summer school for me (fresh@OBHS) [ .013. ] Favorite grade: 6th [ .015. ] Favorite teacher: mrs.miller [ .016. ] Least favorite teacher: mr. barrett ; mrs. fischer [ .017. ] Favorite subject: math n science [ .018. ] Least favorite subject: LA/L [ .019. ] Most humiliating moment: i duno (too many to remember) ? F A V O R I T E ? [ .020. ] Number: 5 [ .021. ] Tv show: simpsons ; friends ; will & grace ; futurama ; family guy etc. [ .022. ] Vegetable: carrott [ .023. ] Fruit: pear :/ [ .024. ] Movies: too many (Pirates of the Carribean was gOoD tho) [ .025. ] Candy: candy apple [ .026. ] Ice cream flavor: strawberry [ .027. ] Color: black ; blue ; red [ .028. ] Season: summer ; winter [ .029. ] Holiday: x-mas [ .030. ] Thing in your room: bed [ .031. ] Place to be: outside with the MP crew!! [ .032. ] Food/drink: duno [ .033. ] Fast food: wendys ;) [ .034. ] Restaurant: Outback [ .035. ] Time of day: night [ .036. ] Country: USA!!!! [ .037. ] State: cali. [ .038. ] Car: jetta n mustang [ .039. ] Word: chaaa! [ .040. ] Month: july ? T H I S OR T H A T ? [ .041. ] Rock or rap: ugh! both ;) [ .042. ] Rock or pop: rock [ .043. ] Rock or r&b: ugh...duno [ .044. ] Hot or cold: hot [ .045. ] Winter or summer: botHH! [ .046. ] Spring or fall: spring (hate leaves! lol) [ .047. ] Football or basketball: football [ .048. ] Inside or outside: outside [ .049. ] Tattoos or piercings: piercings [ .050. ] Coke or pepsi: Pepsi [ .051. ] Tall or short: tall ? H A V E / W O U L D Y O U E V E R . . ? [ .052. ] Been in love: rather not state [ .053. ] Cried when someone died: yea!! [ .054. ] Lied: who hasnt [ .055. ] Lie to your parents: yea [ .056. ] Been to a concert: nopE!! :( [ .057. ] Talked back to an adult: course [ .058. ] Got pulled over: (cant cuz i cant drive) [ .059. ] Broke a law: yea yea yeah [ .060. ] Given money to a homeless person: not yet [ .061. ] Tried to kill yourself: shhhh! [ .062. ] Cried to get out of trouble: yeA ? P R I V A T E ? [ .063. ] Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: yeah (shawn) [ .064. ] Do you want one: well i have one so im good [ .065. ] Have you ever been in love: GRR! [ .066. ] Who was your first kiss: i THINK steve fallon [ .067. ] How many hearts have you broken: yu kno i hav no clue [ .068. ] How many people broke your heart: only a few (gary n matt) ? YOUR FRIENDS../AQUaINTANCES? [ .069. ] Best friends: jay ; sibel ; kris ; shawn ; steveE ; frankC ; n whole MP crew [ .070. ] Known longest: jay ; sibel ; frankie n mike [ .071. ] Wish you talked to more: gary ; ryan mcmahon ; jesus [ .072. ] Wish you saw more: everyone [ .073. ] How many friends do you think you have: i duno (dont feel like counting either) [ .074. ] Who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: jay ; sibel ; kris (alla them + MP crew ;) ) [ .075. ] Craziest: evErYoNE!!! [ .076. ] Loudest: EvRyOne! [ .077. ] Shyest: kurt (only sumtimes tho) [ .078. ] Best hair: um..lol jay [ .079. ] Can always make you laugh: jay ; shawn (etc) [ .080. ] Best eyes: shawns change color!!!! [ .081. ] Shortest: eddie [ .082. ] Tallest: chris [ .083. ] Nicest: alla them [ .084. ] Easier to talk to: boys or girls: i duno..im normally with guys so i duno ? W H A T D I D Y O U D O ? [ .085. ] Last birthday: just had (strawberry cheese) cake n went out to eat with the fam. [ .086. ] Thanksgiving: went to my grandmas [ .087. ] Halloween: went trick-or-treating with jay n them [ .088. ] Easter: stayed home mostly (made a short visit to grandma) [ .089. ] Valentine's day: stayed home all night! :( ? T H E L A S T . . ? [ .090. ] Thing you ate: cereal (rice crispies) [ .091. ] Thing you drank: iced tea [ .092. ] Place you went: frankies [ .093. ] Person you saw: peter my brother [ .094. ] Person you talked to: steveE online [ .095. ] Person you hugged: jay (last night) [ .096. ] Person you laughed with: shawn *last night ? F I N A L Q U E S T I O N S ? [ .097. ] I want: food [ .097. ] I wish: i hada better fone [ .098. ] I miss: everything n everyone [ .099. ] Do you talk a lot: only sumtimes (rare) [ .100. ] Are you spoiled: i dont think so. im just really bored cuz no one called me yet today :( lol so yeah...later marie andrea post comment

WeEkEnD... [07 Jul 2003|10:21pm] [ mood | happy ] this weekend was AwEsOmE!!!!!!! lol...details: JuLy 4Th (FrIdAy) i went to jordans at like 5 n her dad was like "OHHHHH!! 'M' HAS ARRIVED! LET THE PARTY BEGIN" hahahaha he soo funny...but yeah me jordan n like all of her cuzins were hangin out n stuff for a while it was pretty cool, i wish i was apart of their family..lol. but yeah we like juss hung out n ish..Barry White died :( n yeah..then at like 830 we went outside n seen *shawn n greg n everyone n hung out n then walked down the block n watched the fireworks..we stood in the middle n walked in circles cuz sooo many ppl were lightin big fireworks off..it was pretty cool..then we like tried running to the Germinos cuz they were doin them too n the cops were in town...hehe..but we didnt run fast enough...but atleast i got to tell some other ppl to stop cuz the cops were here (i was like "YOOOOOOOOOOOO" for like an hr till i got to there lawn..) ahah man it was cool...then we juss hung out n stuff.. JuLy 5tH (SaTuRdAy) i spoke to *shawn online n he cam to my house (him n franklin) at like 5 n (gabby cam). n we hung out until we met up with frankie n mike..then at like 8 ish we called greg n chris n everyone n we played manhunt n then we juss hung out till ppl hadda go home..then shawns mommy called at like 11:12 (pm) n he hadda go home n then he asked me out n i sed yes n stuff n then yeah it was cool (hes a cutie).... JuLy 6Th (sUnDaY) i woke up at like 10 n gabby called me to com out n stuff n then i cam out at like 12:50 (pm) n we went fishin with them..it was pretty fun.. frankie caught a BIG cat fish (atleast a foot long) lol..he like jumped in after it n ooman. then we got home at like 4 n hung out at eddies house..me n gabby tried playin ping pong but im not too good..lol..n then i was about to like fall asleep on shawn..(hes so cute*)..n then shawn hadda leave :( n then at like 730 we went to Fun Time n played lazar tag n stuff n games it was cool but i wish shawn went (he hadda get ready for maryland)..hes guna b gone for like a week n ima miss him..lol..but yeah then we got home n hung out more.. MP CREW RULES!! lol -n tomorrow frankies makin pankakes...hahaha LMAO! the "size of the step" right? haha yeah frank..cant wait! lol...later marie andrea 4 comments|post comment

UpDaTeD DeLeTiOns [06 Jul 2003|12:20am] these following people have recently been deleted off of my "Friends" list: babydreamz --> i dont even remember adding you, sorry fighter4life --> took me off yours starryeyedgrl --> took me off yours stephaknee --> took me off yours n yu dont talk to me anymore :( urxunderxgr0und --> whered yu go babe?! lol *changed it a thousand times* post comment

YvoNNe's PaRtY [26 Jun 2003|09:00pm] [ mood | lazy ] today i went to yvonnes party..i left at like 155 to get danny n courtney n then got there at like 230ish...ther were alot of ppl there i dont feel like really naming everyone so i wont...but yeah it was a pretty cool party (the hot tubs wheres it all happens) haha lmao! Jesus n his thinG! that was soo funny...but man ryan n lionel puched me in the pool with my shorts on n then ryan n tim went to go push me in again so i jus jumped in..lol..i dont reallt feel like typing all of the details of the day but overall it was pretty cool...i have another party tomrrow (luke's party) n ugh man, im so goin everywhere this week .. yaY ;) .. lol.. but man tim is GoOD hhahahaha LMAO!!!...later marie andrea 14 comments|post comment

PasT FeW DaYs [25 Jun 2003|09:37pm] [ mood | sleepy ] the past few days i was with Courtney... Yesterday (Tuesday) i went to courtneys at like 1230 then we went to the beach with me, her, her sister (krista), n her sisters boyfriend (anthony)..me n court played gameboy (hahahaha) n then i slept n she read like a thousand pages in her *nEw* harry potter book..then we went in the water ("ill never let go jack!!") haha...then we went home at like 530ish...then i went bak to my house n took a shower n then coutney n kerry cam by n we went to the movies to go see Finding Nemo (that was an awesome move "i was like woow, n then he was like woow, n then we were like WOOOOW!" hahaha..DUDE!!" that was a cute movie!! go see it) n then i went bak to court's house n TRIED to watch Italian Job, but i was waYy to tired n fell asleep.. Today (Wednesday) Krista went n woke me n courtney up at 630 juss lettin us kno that we had 3 hours to sleep b4 we hadda get up..lmao! haha...then we got up at lik 930 n got ready to go to Hurrican Harbor..we left n i got burnt as hell..lol so did court..haha, it was awesome with them again, theyre all cool as hell..i went on the like rainbow body slide (the one that goes straight down) it was AWESOmE..lol i didnt think id do it but i did, it was cool, me krista n ant went on it...court wouldnt :( lol...but i dont feel like typing all the details but overall it was fun..then we went to the mall (Freehold) n yeah..then i went bak to courtneys n watched tv till like 830-9 ish..then her mom took me home n i seen Jordan, Julia, n Jess outside..so i went out n talked to them for a little bit (but i couldnt for long cuz the bugs were too nasty..lol)..then i went in, n now im here..lol not much fun now, but yeah...okay, later marie andrea post comment

[21 Jun 2003|11:05pm] [ mood | depressed ] one day im guna end up seriously killing myself i cant stand how, no one likes me anymore..i feel like such a fuckin loser..n im losing all my friends..its like i do one thing, like one person n fuckin ppl hate me..i cant stand anything anymore...i juss wanna die, ima seriously do it one day- i had a dream that i drouded myself the other night, n normally when i get a dream thats like for real it normally happens..so i dont care- later 5 comments|post comment

ConGrAtS!!! [19 Jun 2003|04:22pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | O-Town- These are the Days ] YaY! we finally outta here!!! lol, thank god!!!! CONGRATS GRADS IN CLASs OF 2003 FrOM CSMS!!! yeAHH! cant believe all these years are gone, hope to see yu all n keep in contact with over the HS years!!! good luck to everyone!!!! :D later wE dId iT!!!! -- MarIE AnDrEa 2 comments|post comment

8th Grade Formal [13 Jun 2003|11:40pm] [ mood | confused ] i looked outside at like 5 cuz i saw Julia drive up all dressed so i went out to see n then Gabbi cam out n stuff n i was talkin to them, then theyre like GO GET DRESSED WERE TAKIN PICS...so i went in n got dressed, n cam bak out to infront of jordans then me jay n julia took a few pics infront of her house (red, white n blue- lol the color n order of our dresses)..then gabbi cam bak out n we went infront of the Carpinteri's house and took more pics, then went to Kristins house cuz she didnt feel like walkin 2 feet to the carpinteri's lol...so we went there..n took more pics with me + jay + julia + kris + russ + gabbi + nick..they were cute. then at like 610 i left for Ryans..i got ther like 615-620 ish n he was in the shower..hahaha then he finished getin all dressed up (so cute) n he gave me a corsage (sooooo adorible- smelled nice)..then me n ryan went outside to take a few pics..then we waited for Jesus to com n so me n ryan (well ryan didnt really..lmao ryan) were talkin to his mom n dad..so funny. then jesus got there n we took a few pics and then left (me n ryan almost forgot our tickets...then we left n got there n it was an alright overall dance..coulda been better (but like always- i fucked it uP)...everyone looked sOoO good...most the night i was with dorian talkin bout "we mambellis..." hahaha lmao dor..n some spent with ryan which was wrong..then i went home with Kristin, Julz, Jay n Russ in the "limo" hahahah..they had lights n everythin in there..lmaO! so cute. but i wish i was able to go bak to her house n hang out with them, but i couldnt cuz it was too late cuz i had school tomorrow..then after school my moms like "i would have allowed yu to stay home today" ugH! (uhhhhh jay n dor...hahahaha so funy)...then i slept like the whole night tonight- n i got 3 calls, but didnt talk cuz i was sleepin *i felt popular* lol..ok, ima go- cuz i dont have anything more to talk about- later CoNgRaTs GrAdS : c/o '03 *marie andrea post comment

SoMe LyRiCs ThAt RePrEsEnT hOw I FeeL! (me) [06 Jun 2003|06:54pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | ALL ] SuM 41 LyRiCs now im in over my head with something i said, completely misread, im better off dead n now I can see how fake yu can be this hypocrisy is beginnin to get to me.. im too awake for this to b a nightmare! when will all my problems disappear? am i just going crazy from the fear? drop dead, a bullet to my head yur words are like a gun in hand i never thought it would end up this way, yu got somethin to say? dont wanna hear it if it gets in my way while waiting so frustrating, im so sick of, all this tension not to mention, im so sick of, sick of you! who are these voices in my head? i cant go on like this, living like the dead i havent slept so long, feeling sad i dread im talking to myself, forgot what i just said self-destruction taking over its so easy to pretend introduction to this nightmare fanticiesmay never end can anyone help me drag my heels? im running overtime, i cant hold down my meals my mind is racing by, like pulling out my teeth we've lost it all in hopeless dreaming AM I JUST LOSING GRIP! all i know is ive heard this all before, realitys a bore yu ask me to believe in somethin they provide cant bring myself to do what yu want me to this is who we are and nothings gonna change silence is screamin in my head stuck on repeat, not much longer ill be dead so just forget me, im losing my mind n i dont think you could save me this time its dragging on, im wearing thin i cant stop these walls they keep caving in its gone too far, wheres my mind? why cant time stop fear this paranoia? no matter what I say, yu turn your back away its never guna break yu, its never guna make yu fall another day another day in paradise if yu only knew wouldnt it be nice get away get away get away, im about to detonate everythin to prove, nothin to loose this time were on our way to tragedy ill fall into yu, i dont believe that this is real GoOd ChArLoTTe LyRiCs yu say its wrong, but its right for me i wont look down, wont say im sorry i know that only god can judge me n if i make it through today, will tomorrow be the same m i just running in place n if i stumble and i fall should i get up and carry on, will it all just be the same its me against the world and i dont care, i dont care no one in this industry understands the life i lead when i see them on the streets they got nuthin to say Hey, now, there's nothing for free ill wash my bloody hands and well start a new life i dont know much at all, i dont know wrong from right all i know is that i love you tonight standing over her, she begged me not to do what i knew i had to do cause im so in love with you yu know the happiest day of my life i swear the happiest day of my life is the day that i die! when i think about my life i wonder if i will survive to live to see in 25 or will i just fall? please dont walk away, i know yu wanna stay some say that time change, best friends can become strangers then ever since i met yu, i never could forget yu i only wanna get yu right here next to me if yu want me to wait, i would wait for you if yu tell me to stay, i would stay right through if yu dont wanna say anything at all, im happy wondering ALkaLiNe TrIo LyRiCs i gave up on yu a long time ago. how can yu blame me? we made plans to meet and yu never showed, yu kept me waitin they said everythin would work out just fine, they said yud help me but as it turns out it was all a lie, n theyre off someplace far away laughin at me yuve been there for me one time in my life, but it didnt matter yu came n went so fast all my hope n faith in yu shattered n now here i sit alone in this room, no one to confide in yu watched all my dreams come apart at the seams, yu laughed, yu left, yu waited in hiding bless me dark father i have sinned, ive done it before and ill do it again cuz it keeps me warm, and makes yu smile, been beneath me all the while bless me dark father i cant win, without yu im as good as dead cuz yu keep me warm, yu make me smile, yuve been on my shoulder all the while there are things that used to make me smile, one of them was yu for just a little while yu left me for dead so far away, i replaced yu with fear and shame yull be happy on the day I die there are things that used to make me laugh, but now theyre deeply buried in the past i dont care who yuve been sleepin with these days, yur outta my hair its growin just above my smiling face that i wear, every night i drink myself to sleep not thinkin about yu, not thinkin about anything at all n im tired of sleepin with myself, im tired, all these drinks and drugs no longer help im tired of lying about not thinking of you, mayb my friend peter can tell me what to do BoX CaR RaCeR LyRiCs because i need yu more than yu need me, because i want yu more i kno because i cared way more, because i really felt that yu felt so much more i know i've been up all night long counting days that all went wrong i opened my bedroom window, i wish this pain was gone there are no useful drugs to escape from feeling numb i remember an amazing birthday, i remember when i was young i feel so mad, i feel so angry, i feel so callused so lost, confused, again. i feel so cheap, so used, unfaithful CkY LyRiCs i never seen nothin like yu before, i can kick yu higher than yu can kick me i can kick yu way up into a tree, who wants a taste of my oo-long tea? Ho ha ho ha ho chi chi (HAHAHAHHAHA LMFAO "not lyrics") RuFiO LyRiCs another day left waiting, alone in my room with no calls from yu so i call yu up, but yu let me down, falling down around everyone except yourself another day left crying, with yu in my room with nothing left to do yu say that its not right, yu said its over now. stand still annoyed with no one around yur graceful, yur grace falls, down around me in my eyes yur lovely, yur love leaves, so easily in my eyes TaPrOoT LyRiCs i doubt my own dreams, i lie in my sleep n dont sleep to dream, yet everything that i see is haunting me im trying to scream but i cant breathe…can anybody hear me? im tryin to dream but i cant sleep…can anyone shield me? i shut my eyes and hold my cries to myself, my prides in the shitter but I…wont quit, never quit what i excel in best is my excessiveness of deprecation, i hate myself sometimes how can i be down when all that i want is in my reach whats wrong with me? Fuck it ThE UsEd LyRiCs and now it seems that i have found nothing at all i want to hear yur voice out loud, slow it down, without it all im choking on nothing, its clear in my head - im screaming for somethin knowing nothing is better than knowing at all, on my own marry me, stay the same, lie to me and try to say yu never will for awhile i was cleaner than now, then i started to destroy myself with things that i love now the things that i hate, until it finally broke me CHOKE ME! give it to me, give me all...whatever yu want its never been me to want this much from yu i can see it tears me up... each day gets more and more like the last day, still i can see it coming while im standing in the river drowning, this could be my chance to break out this could be my chance to say goodbye. at last its finally over couldnt take this town much longer, bein half dead wasnt what i planned to be now im ready to be free!!!!! white it out like glittering wax butterflies --> ThAtS aLL FoLkS! <-- thats all ima do for now- im pretty sure its a lot..ttyl.. BeByGurL --> MaRiE AnDrEa 1 comment|post comment

HoRRibLe [01 Jun 2003|04:18pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | Sum41- All Messed Up ] !*~ YeStErDaY ~*! yesterday, i went out with my aunt for like 2 hrs with my sis..n then i cam home n my mom got on the fone with some AT&T ppl n started yellin at them cuz sum shyt n then i can like about to fall asleep on the couch cuz i was tired n so shes like "GO TO BED IF YUR TIRED, DONT SIT HERE" n she was all yellin n stuff n i was like "I CANT CUZ KATIE" cuz i have to sleep in my sisters room cuz everyones home (Peter has my room), so i couldnt sleep cuz she was getin ready to go somewher or sumthin n i couldnt sleep wit her in there n so my mom started yellin at my sis cuz i wanted to sleep even tho i didnt care if she was in ther or w.e n stuff n katies like "SHE CAN TELL ME TO TURN OFF THE MUSIC FOR HER TO SLEEP IF SHE NEEDED TO" n was like yellin at me..grrrrr!...so then i jus sat there on the couch juss bored doin nuthing at ALL cept sittin ther, n my mom sed "GO SOMEWHERE! LEAVE!! GO ANYWHERE BUT HERE!" n i didnt feel like arguing with her so i got my CD player put on my shoes n left to walk round in the rain for almost 3 hours..n then cam home n my moms like "where have yu been?!" n i was like "yu told me to leave so i left" n she got all madd..ugh i get soo aggravated with her sometimes.. !*~ ToDaY ~*! i juss woke up to my mom yelling n then got up n drank some juice n cleaned up round tha house a lil..n then cam online...BoReDnEsS! laterz I nEeD a LiFe!! post comment

LiFe SuKs [26 May 2003|07:47pm] [ mood | grumpy ] i hate life sumtimes..it juss bites yu in the ass---- n dont it hurt?! HELL YEAH! sry, my papa died this morning..im soo madd i didnt get to see him b4 he died, if only he coulda held out for a week we (me my dad n my sis) woulda went to Puerto Rico for 2 months to b with him..but NOOO! he jus hadda die...ugh, damn it..im so fuckin madd right now..DDDDAAAAMMMMNNNN IIIITTTT! im goin- cant stand anything anymore..later MaRiE AnDrEa + LiFe = DeAtH 5 comments|post comment

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