Alex's Journal

Saturday, June 18, 2005

7:12PM - I'm Going Crazy

So now that I am working full time I have 2 days off during the week, if that. Anyway I am about to ramble and complain. I am just giving a heads up. Today was my day off and what did I do? Jack shit. Exciting right? Except no not at all. Today sucked. Everyone was working and that lead to having lunch with my mom which wasn't so bad except it gave me quite the belly ache. Still hurts too. You know, sometimes life just sucks. But yeah, I guess I shouldn't really complain. There are things going on around the world that are a trillion times worse than my problems and I feel that I should list them. You see this is sad, too much time on my hands on a fricking SAURDAY.

To start off with the bad things...

1. Girl MIA in Aruba
This really bothers me and everyday I look for updates. First and foremost I believe strongly that it is Ms. Natalee's fault for going off in the first place with boys she does not know. Most boys can not be trusted when it comes to drunk girls. Drunk girl + Guy = Sex Come on people we know this. Though I must say that I feel very bad for the mother and family of this young girl. I really look up to the mother (not the statement I was looking for) because although her daughter has been missing for almost a month now she still believes her daughter is alive and will continue to believe that until further notice or something like that. My heart goes out to the friends and family of Natalee Holloway
2. TSUNAMIS
These tsunamis are really getting to me. When the one a few months ago happened it was tragic and really shook things up. I sound pretty dumb right now but oh well. Anyway, it was devastating. Worse than that, but I can not put it into words. Then boom, here's another burying small helpless children and killing them in seconds. How come we have all this technology and don't use it properly. Can't we have something like "Dorothy" (the machine in TWISTER) to help collect information and let us know when a tsunami is coming. We need a NEW SMARTER President, which leads me to #3
3. George W Bush
Come on man, stop running around your ranch and playinng with your dinky! Nuff said.
4. INS or whoever (probably relates to the jackass above)
Have you all heard about the guy from South Africa who was chopped up in a plane and half of his body landed on a garage roof. It is horrible. The reason why I listed INS is because they are the ones or the leaders of these other countries who make this happen. People should be able to go to any country they want without having to hop up in the wheel well of a plane and taking the risk of becoming sushi. They don't do this for fun folks. He wanted to get the hell out of his country for some reason. Help a brother out.
5. News
The news is what drives me crazy. This is what triggers all this ramble to come out of me. They take a story and juice it up and sell. That's right the sell their stories to the audience so they get more and more viewers and while they are at it they ruin peoples lives. For instance 9.11 they should the people crying on tv, they should the people leaping to their deaths so on and so forth. I have no substance here but yu know what, YOU GET THE POINT!

I am going to stop my list now because I realize I ma going nuts. It doesn't make any sense but you know what that is okay because I know what I meant and that is all that matters. CHEERS!

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Thursday, February 3, 2005

6:50AM - I am so cool!

Definitely don't remember the last time I wrote. A lot has been going on, yet my life really isn't that exciting. Everything is good with the boy. Of course we get on eachother's last nerve all the time, but that happens. I still love him like whoa. Yeah, I'm gay like that. What else is new?

I have recently found a new hobby for myself. Be excited, you ready for this... I want to start knitting and sewing. In the past few weeks, I have looked at so many books and have been to so many knitting stores and fabric stores. I still believe my three favorites are THE STITCH INN in Lahaska, THE QUILT WORKS in Pennington and an online fabric store called FABRIC ATTIC. All three keep me occupied for hours. Anyway, I bought myself a knitting kit but it really isn't for a beginner. That's okay because I am taking a knitting class at school. But you lnow what kind of sucks is that knitting can be kind of tough for left handers. It sucks. I think I should look for a community on here for knitting. Oh wait, I've tried but I don't know how to get myself in. Haha. No, not so funny. Oh, and my other new love is sewing. I actually bought a sucky Brother online and it was all kinds of broken. That pissed me off, I returned it and this week I went out and bought myself a $400 Janome, but it is beautiful and I really need to start working on it, but I want my room TIDY TIDY TIDY before I even think about opening the box.

Okay, let's stop with the knitting and sewing. What else is new? Not so much. Been working a lot, but not so much this past week. And of course this has to be the week I spend a crap load of money. BOO @ spending money, YEA for pretty sewing machine. Okay, I'll go now, hopefully I'll update soon.
Peace out homies!

Current mood: awake
Current music: Computer Noises-LAME LAME LAME
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Friday, November 19, 2004

6:17PM - Darn Skippy

Hey Kiddies. I havn't written in awhile. Ha, look @ m writing like I hav some type of fan base. Whose cool? So yeah, I'm guessing the last time I wrote in here it was a survey, so I am not even going to check. I watched Garden State the other day and it was really good. My dad watched it before m and he said it was pretty good but a little young for him. I loved it. At first I jus thought it was going to be all about drugs and stuff, but no it dug so much deeper. Although I don' do drugs at all it made me look at my life and the relationship I have now and how much I care about the person I have in my life right now. When they climb on top of the baco and scream down in the abyss and then he grabs her and kisses her for the first time it just made my heart melt. God, I am corny but that's ok. I was just a good movie and I recommend it. What else? Oh, I took m mom for her driver's license and she flew thru the course and passed. I'm telling you that woman gets away with murder. It is crazy. And the guy thought I was 15, how cool is that?!?!? God damn it! That drives me fricking insane. HATE IT! Can you sense my anger, hot right? Oh and my dog had surgery. Went well but he can't walk on his right hind leg for awhile so my dad calls him 3 legger and my dog gives a ticked off look like...Hey, F you Buddy. I'll giv you a 3rd leg. Ewww, just realized that sounded kindy crazy. Okay, well I'm gonna go. Se you on the flip side :)

Current mood: energetic
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Friday, October 8, 2004

9:25AM - It's been awhile...

It has been a really long tim since I updated and you know that I can't do any kind of update before doing a survey. Yes, tell me how much you love me <33


Write down 10 facts about yourself that people may or may not know about you.
1. My boyfriend is 8 years older than me
2. I like dissecting fetal pigs
3. I had a dream about a pig who drowned last night (def didnt wanna dissect it)
4. I like to play airplane and think it should be universally played among children
5. I haven't worked out in AWHILE and it shows
6. I want to sell stuff on Ebay
7. Sometimes I think I act like a pregnant woman but nix the swollen feet bs
8. I almost bought Meatloaf CD the other day but it didn't have I Would Do Anything 4 Love
9. We have a gazillion mice in my house, they are cute but they bite, jerks!
10. I love my boy although h gets mad at me lots and sometimes hates me 4 a couple days

Name four bad habits you have
1. I dont think before I spea
2. Bodily Functions
3. I cry and when I do it is uncontrollable
4. Bored easily

Name four things that you wish you had
1. Money
2. Own Apartment
3. That 70's Show on DVD
4.My boy in my new apartment watching That 70's Show sitting on stacks of money

Four Scents You Love
1. Mostly anything coconut
2. Peaches
3. My boy <3
4. Ralph Lauren/Polo Blue

Name four things you'd never wear
1. Spandex pants
2. Goggles to school
3. Cowboy hat in public without joking or halloween
4. Your mom, well maybe

Name four things you are thinking about right now
1. Boy
2. Money
3. Anatomy
4. Having to drive my mom around

Name four things that you have done today
1. Walked crack head dogs
2. Sat here
3. Talked to biffle
4. Slept

Name the last four things you have bought
1. Gas
2. Jeans
3. Sneakers
4. Underwear

Name four drinks you regularly drink
1. Tea
2. OJ
3. Cranberry Juice
4. Tea

Name the last four people you have kissed/been kissed by
1. My <3
2. Melissa
3. Timmy
4. Mommy

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Monday, May 24, 2004

10:19AM - Snap?!?

Jerseyan dies at a N.Y. music fest
Drug overdose blamed as Raritan Twp. teen is found floating in lake

Star-Ledger Staff
The body of a 19-year-old Raritan Township man who died from a drug overdose was found floating early Saturday in the lake of an upstate New York campground where he had attended a music festival.

New York State Police and local paramedics found Adam C. Meisner of Saratoga Drive near the shoreline of the lake shortly after being called at 5 a.m. to Echo Lake Resort and Campground in Coventry Township about another man who was found dead in his tent.

Meisner died from heart failure due to drug use before falling into the water, according to Chenango County Medical Examiner Merrell Thallinger. His death was ruled an accident.

"There was no evidence of drowning," Thallinger said. "There wasn't any water in his lungs."

Meisner graduated last year from Hunterdon Central Regional High School and worked with his father at On Site Fleet Service in East Brunswick. A 10-year member of Boy Scout Troop 194 in Flemington, Meisner was in the process of enlisting in the Navy, said his brother, Eric.

"He was always looking to find his way," said Eric Meisner. "He wanted to serve his country and do what he thought was right with the situation we're in right now."

Meisner and a group of friends from the Flemington area left Friday afternoon for the 175-mile drive to the campground to attend the Gramma Joan's Third Annual Spring Fling Festival. The campground is about 55 miles south of Syracuse.

After they arrived, Meisner and his friends went to dinner with other friends who drove north to attend the three-day festival, said Eric Meisner.

"There was a few different groups from Flemington so he was going back and forth between the groups," said Eric Meisner. "Nobody realized he was missing because they all thought he was with somebody else. It wasn't until four or five hours later that his friends started looking."

As Meisner's friends were searching, police and paramedics arrived to help the other man, identified as Anthony Scanlon, 33, of Sidney, N.Y., Eric Meisner said. The friends told authorities that Meisner was missing and they mounted a search. His body was found soon after in the lake.

The lake is in a secluded area of the campground, on the far side of the pavilion where about 700 people gathered for the music festival, said Echo Lake manager Sayed Khalifa.



RIP ADAM MEISNER

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Friday, May 21, 2004

9:32PM

I don't think you realize how much you mean to me. Of course we have our disagreements over pety crap, but I love you and would risk my life for you. This may not mean anything to you, but I pour my heart out to you, whether it be through writing, words, or touching you. I have been with you almost one full year, and I wish that it could last a lifetime. However, I know that not all love lasts and that life moves on, the only problem is that when you are gone it will be so hard for me to move on because you are my everything. The night you told me you loved me you made me one of the happiest girls in the world. I will never forget that night. In fact, there ar many nights I will never forget that I have spent with you. I remember when I first saw you on Main street and I told Alex how cute you were and how I could never have you. Then my dream came true and I met you and looked in your eyes and could tell there was something there. We have had to do quite a bit of sneaking around, but it has been worth it because I love you.


Okay, that was all lame and mushy gushy. But I love him and I just found out recently that I may not b able to be with him in about 8 months. Oh jesus, I fel so retarded right now, but I don't plan on erasing it because it is the way I feel. Okay, I got to get back to watching Legally Blonde.


Love you forever JRSG

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9:32PM

I don't think you realize how much you mean to me. Of course we have our disagreements over pety crap, but I love you and would risk my life for you. This may not mean anything to you, but I pour my heart out to you, whether it be through writing, words, or touching you. I have been with you almost one full year, and I wish that it could last a lifetime. However, I know that not all love lasts and that life moves on, the only problem is that when you are gone it will be so hard for me to move on because you are my everything. The night you told me you loved me you made me one of the happiest girls in the world. I will never forget that night. In fact, there ar many nights I will never forget that I have spent with you. I remember when I first saw you on Main street and I told Alex how cute you were and how I could never have you. Then my dream came true and I met you and looked in your eyes and could tell there was something there. We have had to do quite a bit of sneaking around, but it has been worth it because I love you.


Okay, that was all lame and mushy gushy. But I love him and I just found out recently that I may not b able to be with him in about 8 months. Oh jesus, I fel so retarded right now, but I don't plan on erasing it because it is the way I feel. Okay, I got to get back to watching Legally Blonde.


Love you forever JRSG

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12:29PM - That's What's Up

So my aunt and her fam are coming to visit from Colorado. We always seem to have fun when my dad's side of the family gets together. But like always, there are always some problems or arguments, whatever. Anyway, should be good times. They are arriving Thursday or something and we will go out to dinner the night they come in. I think it might be later than Thursday. Anyway, Sunday we are hoping to have a family picnic at Deer Path Park. My dad and I were checking out the park yesterday, and really it is pretty beautiful there. There were tons of geese, and I was very excited to find some very funny (but cool) inbred geese. Of course, I laughed at them because I am nice like that. And we saw a whole bunch of fishies and everything. Just hoping for it to be nic out next Sunday so we can enjoy the park. Monday, my dad and aunt and fam are leaving for Cooperstown (I was supposed to go, but I am in charge of the house). Although, it would have been nice to go, it will be nice to stay home by myself, considering this will be like the first time I am ever home alone for 3 days by myself. I am hoping to have visits from the boy and maybe I could even have someone over to dinner. Good God, I am such a partier. Ha! They will be coming back late Wednesday and Thursday we will be headed to NYC for a Yankees game. I am exicited about that! Yum for DJ. Oh yes! Quick orgasm, sorry! :) So yeah, that is what I have to look forward to and you know I can't end a journal entry without a survey...


o. First name: Alexandra
o. Nickname(s): Alex among others
o. Age: 20
o. Birthday: 9.6.83
o. Hair color: Brown with fading highlights
o. Eye color: Green
o. Glasses: No, but I wanted them bad when I was like 10, I was cool
o. Contacts: Nope
o. Braces: Nope, been told I needed them though
o. Hair short or long: Long
o. Where you now live: NJ
o. Astrology sign: Virgo
o. Chinese zodiac sign: I forget, maybe the pig?
o. Nationality: Irish and German
o. Bad habits: Temper tantrums and lashing out, psycho much?
o. Piercings: 3 in ears
o. Tattoos: None

o. Are you still in school: On Summer break right now from hell or RV, you choose
o. Favorite grade: Senior year
o. Worst grade: Freshman and Sophomore year were tough
o. Favorite teacher: Mrs. Startzel
o. Worst subject: Math all the way
o. Buy or bring lunch: Buy
o. School sports: Not so much
o. High school: Central
o. School activities: Nada

FAVORITE
o. Number: 6 9 and 69
o. Clothing brand: Gap Abercrombie AE
o. Shoes: Platform flip flops
o. Saying: Son of a whore
o. TV show: 90210 and Friends
o. Sport: Gymnastics and Soccer
o. Vegetable: Green Pepper
o. Fruit: Peaches and Strawberries are yummy
o. Movie: To name a few...Blow, Dangerous Minds, 25th Hour and a bunch more
o. Actress: Not sure
o. Actor: Robert Downey Jr. ;)
o. Snack: Fudge Graham PB's
o. Season: Summer
o. Holiday: Birthday
o. Singer: Cat Stevens
o. Music: All kinds of random crap
o. Place to be: Walking with the boy <3
o. Radio station: 96.5, it is good
o. Junk food: Ice cream
o. Fast food place: If any, BK
o. Restaurant: Olive Garden
o. Shape: I don't know
o. Time of day: Afternoon
o. State: California
o. Boy's name: Damian
o. Girl's name: Marly
o. Mall: I don't know since m car is dead and don't go too far
o. Video game: Crash Bandicoot WARPED
o. Shampoo: Herbal Essences
o. Computer game: Solitaire, keep it gangster
o. Car: Eclipse BMW Lexus SC...
o. Music video: Couldn't tell you
o. Month: Mayo
o. Cartoon: Simpsons
o. Song: Superman
o. Scary movie: Scary Movie :)
o. Team: Don't care

WORD ASSOCIATION
o. Eminem: "I swear to ...... god, you rock! Please won't you let me suck your .....?"
o. Hot: Heat
o. Britney Spears: "Oops, I didn't wear gloves, Got stuck in puuuuug, I don't know how to disinfect"
o. NSync: I <3 JT
o. Real world: Entertaining
o. Orange: NAF NAF (nice and fine)
o. Fuck: You
o. Bisexual: J.....
o. Black: babies
o. Insane clown: retarded
o. Linkin Park: Lame
o. Jack: Donkey
o. Rainbow: Rain
o. Cherry: My boy <3
o. Cucumber: Melon
o. Shark: Attack
o. Bat: Bed
o. Leather: Whip
o. Whip: Handcuffs
o. America: Sexual Abuse
o. Water: Pool
o. Volcano: Erruption

PRIVATE LIFE
o. Boyfriend/girlfriend: Orlando
o. Crush: Nope
o. Do you love anyone right now: Yes
o. Have you ever been in love: Yes
o. Ever had sex: Yes
o. How many hearts have you broken: Not so many
o. How many people broke your heart: A couple
o. So what's your significant other like: A big jerk that I love! Make sense>
o. Do you go more by looks or personality: Depends
o. Ever kiss a friend: Yes
o. Are you still friends: Yes
o. Do you smoke: Nope
o. How about weed: Nope
o. Acid: Not so much
o. How about a little ecstasy: No
o. Crack, heroin, anything else: Got to expensive
o. Are you a sissy who drinks Mike's Hard Lemonade and wine coolers: Wine coolers are good for me
o. Prefer beer or liquor: Not so much
o. Last time you got some: Wednesday

FRIENDS
o. Best friend(s): Laura
o. Known longest: Alex
o. How many friends do you think you have: Couple
o. How many do you actually hang out with: 3
o. Who drives you insane: Mother
o. Ever lose a good friend because you took it to the next level: Nope
o. Craziest: Me
o. Loudest: Me
o. Shyest: Laura
o. Best hair: Alex
o. Can always make you laugh: Boy
o. Best eyes: Laura
o. Most athletic: None really
o. Shortest: Me
o. Tallest: Alex
o. Best personality: All a little different, perfect
o. Biggest drug user: Will

THE LAST THING
o. You ate: Egg and bagel
o. you drank: Green tea
o. The last place you went: Pfaltzgraff
o. Last thing you bought: Thirteen on DVD
o. Last person you saw: Sherry
o. Last person you talked to: Mom
o. Last song you heard: Up in The Club

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Friday, May 14, 2004

12:02PM - Ugghh!

So last night I spent som time with my boy. Of course we fought for awhile, but that tends to happen when we haven't seen eachother for awhile. Hey, we even almost broke up. How is that for a heart attack? Not so great! But then everything changed and it got better from there. Blah, last night I felt so sick and thought it was because I at pasta, but no it was def my period, which sucks so bad. But I am always a little relieved when I get it since I've been with my boy. I mean I love babies but I am just not ready for that responsiblity at all. Lately, I have been noticing how sweet babies are and how good I am with them but I am not ready to b a mothr at all. And, I don't know what I would do if I were to get pregnant now. I be in deep .... if you know what I mean!?!?! So yeah, I think I'm going to stop talking about this stuff bc it is making my cramps worse :( I really need to go on the pill again

Bye Kiddies

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Friday, May 7, 2004

6:39PM - Bet You Can Guess...

[ Current Clothes ] Beater and pajama pants
[ Current Mood ] Anxious
[ Current Music ] None
[ Current Taste ] OJ
[ Current Make-up ] Nothing
[ Current Hair ] Up and chilling (does that work?)
[ Current Annoyance] I need to get more shopping done
[ Current Smell ] Dogs if that works for you
[ Current Desktop Picture ] Pretty flower
[ Current Book you're reading ] A good one, everybody needs to stop making fun of me for reading Judy Blume
[ Current CD in CD Player] Godzilla soundtrack
[ Current DVD in player] Wayne's World
[ Current Refreshment ] Orizzle Jizzle
[ Current Worry ] The boys gift

- L A S T P E R S O N -

[ You Touched ] My baby boy
[ You Talked to ] Do dogs count as people?
[ You Hugged ] My boy
[ You Instant messaged ] D
[ You Yelled At ] Dogs again!?!?!
[ You Kissed ] My boy


- F A V O R I T E -

[ Food ] Pasta
[ Drink ] Green Tea
[ Color ] Orange Blue and Pink
[ Album ] Couldn't answer that
[ Shoes ] Hoe boots are the way to go
[ Candy ] I'm not sure now...
[ Animal ] Monkeys
[ TV Show ] 90210 and Friends
[ Movie ] Stand By Me, Amrican Beauty, and lots others
[ Song ] Wild World
[ Vegetable ] Cucumbers
[ Fruit ] Peaches and Strawberries
[ Cartoon ] Simpsons


- D O Y O U E V E R -

[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] My someone special doesn't have IM, so no
[save aol/aim conversations] Used to
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex] Onc in awhile
[cry because of someone saying something to you] Of course and a half


- H A V E Y O U E V E R -

[fallen for your best friend] Not so much
[been rejected] Yes
[rejected] Yes and a couple times it has been hard
[been cheated on] nope
[done something you regret] Yes

- D O Y O U -

[smoke cigarettes] Eww no
[could you live without the computer?] Yes
[color your hair] every once in a while
[ever get off the computer] Yes
[how many peeps are on your buddylist?] No so many
[drink alchohol?] sometimes
[like watching sunrises or sunset] yeah i had a dream the other day about one setting the sky on fire
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?] E to the motional
[ get involved with after school stuff] Not so much
[ make a fool out of yourself often?] Like its my job

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6:39PM - Bet You Can Guess...

[ Current Clothes ] Beater and pajama pants
[ Current Mood ] Anxious
[ Current Music ] None
[ Current Taste ] OJ
[ Current Make-up ] Nothing
[ Current Hair ] Up and chilling (does that work?)
[ Current Annoyance] I need to get more shopping done
[ Current Smell ] Dogs if that works for you
[ Current Desktop Picture ] Pretty flower
[ Current Book you're reading ] A good one, everybody needs to stop making fun of me for reading Judy Blume
[ Current CD in CD Player] Godzilla soundtrack
[ Current DVD in player] Wayne's World
[ Current Refreshment ] Orizzle Jizzle
[ Current Worry ] The boys gift

- L A S T P E R S O N -

[ You Touched ] My baby boy
[ You Talked to ] Do dogs count as people?
[ You Hugged ] My boy
[ You Instant messaged ] D
[ You Yelled At ] Dogs again!?!?!
[ You Kissed ] My boy


- F A V O R I T E -

[ Food ] Pasta
[ Drink ] Green Tea
[ Color ] Orange Blue and Pink
[ Album ] Couldn't answer that
[ Shoes ] Hoe boots are the way to go
[ Candy ] I'm not sure now...
[ Animal ] Monkeys
[ TV Show ] 90210 and Friends
[ Movie ] Stand By Me, Amrican Beauty, and lots others
[ Song ] Wild World
[ Vegetable ] Cucumbers
[ Fruit ] Peaches and Strawberries
[ Cartoon ] Simpsons


- D O Y O U E V E R -

[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] My someone special doesn't have IM, so no
[save aol/aim conversations] Used to
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex] Onc in awhile
[cry because of someone saying something to you] Of course and a half


- H A V E Y O U E V E R -

[fallen for your best friend] Not so much
[been rejected] Yes
[rejected] Yes and a couple times it has been hard
[been cheated on] nope
[done something you regret] Yes

- D O Y O U -

[smoke cigarettes] Eww no
[could you live without the computer?] Yes
[color your hair] every once in a while
[ever get off the computer] Yes
[how many peeps are on your buddylist?] No so many
[drink alchohol?] sometimes
[like watching sunrises or sunset] yeah i had a dream the other day about one setting the sky on fire
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?] E to the motional
[ get involved with after school stuff] Not so much
[ make a fool out of yourself often?] Like its my job

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Friday, April 30, 2004

1:15PM - Sexiled like Whoa!?!?!

Okay, so first I want to ask if I just made up my own word, sexiled? You know, like when a person is exhiled(?) from their country or whatever. Except I'm not exhiled from my country at all, I am sexiled. And, here is where my explanation comes in. I miss my boyfriend like crazy. I haven't seen him all week and today especially the sex thing is really aggravating me. Maybe a little too scary for my readers to read, but I don't care. So, this morning I was going nuts, actually no it started last night. But really, there was nothing I could do about my little problem until I saw my baby. Okay, I'll stop talking about that now. So, right now I'm chilling at my crib (yeah, it's a crib bc I'm gangsta) trying to kick this cold. Man, it's been with me all week and I've had to work all week. And since I haven't been able to s my boyfriend with both of us working Nyquil has been my lover this past week. God, it was so good to me. But I don't think it could handle me bc I finished it off in like 24 hours. Oops! Oh well, at least it made me feel better. Have to love meds that knock you out. So, I'm chilling here writing to you sipping my gin and juice (green tea) to make myself feel all better so I can enjoy my weekend :)
Last night, I took Rocky on the longest walk ever and he definitely hated me for it. Especially since this dog is a BIT overweight and I think he likes it that way. But yeah, he kept trying to go on roads that lead back to our house but I wasn't feeling it. We actually had been walking everynight but since I got this cold last night was the first time in awhile. So, it was really good for both of us. What else is new? Oh, I was approved for a credit card and I'm waiting to get that in the mail. Fun times! Actually dangrous times, but it's all good. Hold on, I'm going to go check the mail...Oh yeah, definitely didn't get the credit card but I did get the TODAY IN HUNTERDON, which is awesome. Ahhh YEAH, for th Police Blotter. Let's see if there's anything good... well hot Ryan Pasko was in there for cocaine and syringes and stuff. It's okay, he's still hot and this kid Blaze who also went to jail for otstanding tickets. He really wasn't hot though so he doesn's gt any admiration from me. Alright, well I think I'm going to look at the rst of the paper and drink my tea.

Have fun kiddies!

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Friday, April 23, 2004

12:59PM - Kinda Know What It's Like...

We've all seen the man @ the liquor store beggin 4 ur change
The hair on his face is dirty, dreadlocked & full of mange
He ask the man for what he could spare w/ shame in his eyes
Get a job u fuckin slob's all he replied


God forbid u ever had 2 walk a mile in his shoes
Cause then u really might know what it's like 2 sing the blues
Then u really might know what it's like

Mary got pregnant from a kid named Tom who said he was in love
He said don't worry about a thing baby doll I'm the man u've been dreamin of
But 3 months later he said he won't date her or return her call
And she sweared god damn if I find that man I'm cuttin off his balls
And then she heads 4 the clinic & she gets some static walkin thru the doors
They call her a killer, & they call her a sinner, & they call her a whore


God forbid u ever had to walk a mile in her shoes
Cause then u really might know what it's like 2 have 2 choose
Then u really might know what it's like


I've seen a rich man beg
I've seen a good man sin
I've seen a tough man cry
I've seen a loser win
And a sad man grin
I heard an honest man lie
I've seen the good side of bad
And the down side of up
And everything between
I licked the silver spoon
Drank from the golden cup
Smoked the finest green
I stroked daddies dimes @ least a couple of times
Before I broke their <3
U know where it ends
Yo, it usually depends on where u start


I knew this kid named Max
He used 2 get fat stacks out on the corner w/ drugs
He liked 2 hang out late @ night
Liked 2 get shit faced
And keep pace w/ thugs
Until late 1 night there was a big gun fight
Max lost his head
He pulled out his chrome .45
Talked some shit
And wound up dead
Now his wife & his kids r caught in the midst of all of his pain
U know it crumbles that way
At least that's what they say when u play the game


God forbid u ever had 2 wake up 2 hear the news
Cause then u really might know what it's like 2 have to lose
Then u really might know what it's like
2 have to lose...

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12:59PM - Kinda Know What It's Like...

We've all seen the man @ the liquor store beggin 4 ur change
The hair on his face is dirty, dreadlocked & full of mange
He ask the man for what he could spare w/ shame in his eyes
Get a job u fuckin slob's all he replied


God forbid u ever had 2 walk a mile in his shoes
Cause then u really might know what it's like 2 sing the blues
Then u really might know what it's like

Mary got pregnant from a kid named Tom who said he was in love
He said don't worry about a thing baby doll I'm the man u've been dreamin of
But 3 months later he said he won't date her or return her call
And she sweared god damn if I find that man I'm cuttin off his balls
And then she heads 4 the clinic & she gets some static walkin thru the doors
They call her a killer, & they call her a sinner, & they call her a whore


God forbid u ever had to walk a mile in her shoes
Cause then u really might know what it's like 2 have 2 choose
Then u really might know what it's like


I've seen a rich man beg
I've seen a good man sin
I've seen a tough man cry
I've seen a loser win
And a sad man grin
I heard an honest man lie
I've seen the good side of bad
And the down side of up
And everything between
I licked the silver spoon
Drank from the golden cup
Smoked the finest green
I stroked daddies dimes @ least a couple of times
Before I broke their <3
U know where it ends
Yo, it usually depends on where u start


I knew this kid named Max
He used 2 get fat stacks out on the corner w/ drugs
He liked 2 hang out late @ night
Liked 2 get shit faced
And keep pace w/ thugs
Until late 1 night there was a big gun fight
Max lost his head
He pulled out his chrome .45
Talked some shit
And wound up dead
Now his wife & his kids r caught in the midst of all of his pain
U know it crumbles that way
At least that's what they say when u play the game


God forbid u ever had 2 wake up 2 hear the news
Cause then u really might know what it's like 2 have to lose
Then u really might know what it's like
2 have to lose...

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Saturday, April 17, 2004

9:19AM - Riding In Cars With Boys

My dad and I decide to go out for pizza last night, so we call in the order and decide to pick up some groceries at Shop Rite, thinking it would be normal trip to the grocery store. Boy, was I wrong. So, as we ar walking in I see this car with a system and tinted windows and a guy sitting in the drivers seat, he is maybe anywhere from 19-24, and I am looking at this car and I'm thinking hey that guy looks familiar, and of course since I'm nosey I look in the passenger seat, but when I look at the passenger seat this little skinny corny looking white girl is stepping out of the car. I watch this girl as she is walking in the store, and as the car passes I realize I have no idea who the guy is but this set up is still bugging me. So, I'm about 3 or 4 people behind this little girl, and when I say little I mean like 12-14 (not even) years old. This girl is wearing the usual of what a 17 year old girl from around here would wear on a hot day...low rider jeans but she has on this unusual tiny tank top that is just really too short. I mean really this girl is YOUNG with glasses and long scraggly hair. So anyway, I'm walking down the aisles and I'm walking and I see this little girl in the pharmacy aisles and I see her fidgeting through the condoms, or what I thought was the condoms. So, she is all nervous kind of worried that someone is going to see her, and I see her find what she was looking for...EPT! And, I don't care who you are, you know what that is. So, she finds it and runs to the U scan(of course) and hides it behind her back. Yikes! By now, I have already have had 2 <3 attacks. Call me crazy but this is just not right! So, I'm all freaked, and I definitely tell my dad about it. Okay, that's all, but come on guys say it with me...YIKES!


Brenda's got a Baby

I hear Brenda's got a baby
But Brenda's barely got a brain
A damn shame
That girl can hardly spell her name
(Thats not our problem thats up 2 Brenda's family)
Well let me show u how it affects the whole community
Now Brenda never really knew her moms & her dad was a junky
Went in debt to his arms, its sad
Cuz I bet Brenda doesnt even know
Just cuz ur in the ghetto doesnt mean u cant grow
But oh thats a thought, my own revelation
Do whatever it takes 2 resist the temptation
Brenda got herself a boyfriend
Her boyfriend was her cousin now lets watch the joy end
She tried 2 hide her pregnancy from her family
Who didn't really care 2 see or give a damn if she
Went out & had a church of kids
As long as when the check came they got first dibs
Now Brenda’s belly is gettin bigger
But no 1 seems 2 notice ne change in her figure
She's 12 years old & shes havin a baby
In love w/ the molester, whose sexin her crazy
& yet she thinks that hell b w/ her 4ever
& dreams of a world w/ the 2 of them r 2gether
WHATEVER
He left her & she had the baby solo she had it on the bathroom floor & didnt no so She didnt no wat 2 throw away & wat 2 keep
She wrapped the baby up & threw him in the trash heap
I guess she thought she'd get away
Wouldnt hear the cries
She didnt realize
How much that lil baby had her eyes
Now the babys in the trash heap ballin
Momma cant help her but it hurts 2 hear her callin
Brenda wants 2 run away
Momma say u makin me lose pay the social workers here everyday
Now Brenda's got 2 make her own way
Cant go 2 her family they wont let her stay
No money no babysitter she couldnt keep a job
She tried 2 sell crack but end up gettin robbed
So now whats next there aint nothin left 2 sell
So she sees sex as a way of leavin hell
Its payin the rent so she really cant complain
Prostitute found slain & Brenda's her name
She's got a baby

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Friday, April 16, 2004

7:56AM - Careful Lady...

Hey kiddies! As you know, I like to pretend I have multiple readers bc I'm that cool. So yeah, I don't remember what I wrote about last so I will start with the New York trip. I think I already did that but we shall do it again. It was a good show and my new best friend is the wicked witch of the west. Oh yes, I <3 the greenies. I reall know how to spread the love. What the F? The limo was can I say phat? Have to love the mirrors on the cielings. They could really come in handy. Then there was the mini bar which was nice. i really enjoyed my virgin green tea. Damn, its good when I think I'm cool and put it in a champagne glass. :) Oh, and the kids who we went with were cool too. What else? I got my wheel and tire in the mail on Tuesday and we put that on yesterday, with really only a few complications. Like always. So now, we just have to wait for Court to get my car insured today, then we go register, get plates and then tak it up to Vac's to get the allignment fixed and I'm set to pimp the streets car style again. It's funny now that I don't have my car I realized how many people I had met when I started driving. Even my baby. Love him. Saw him yesterday, of course we fought for awhile and then attempted to set up his voicemail but didn't get that finished :P Eww, apparently some guy is moving in for awhile in Edin's room. God, please gag me. First of all, I can't stand Edin bc he is a piece of shit, and not like a small piece of shit either. I just will not be able to 2 f'ing Edin's. My poor baby couldn't stand Edin so he is sleeping in the living room right now. Poor kid. Bc apparently he a kid. Not Quite. Okay, I'm bored maybe I will write later. Now, it's time to be ghetto. Yes sir!

Much love

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Wednesday, April 7, 2004

2:08PM - Eventful Week

This will probably be the most evenful week of my life, which is realy pretty sad. But yeah, got a lot of stuff to do this week and tonight I'm going NYC. It has been awhile since I've been there. I went this summer, but it was kind of lame. So, yeah I'll start from the beginning of the week...
Monday- All I remember about Mnoday is that I got in a huge fight with Rolando and was pissed off at the world about that. I screamed, I cried, and almost punched him in th face. He then went to the grocery store to pick up some food and whatever, and told me to wait for him. I was so pissed off though so I just got on my bike and left after 2 minutes. Then I got home and went and bought a pair of black boots for NYC. I was happy because all the boots were 50% off. So I only had to spend $20 which was hot. Then we went to the gorcery store got a lot of stuff there and then cam home and had dinner at like 9pm, which is really late for us. Yeah, so Monday sucked pretty hardcore. Oh wait, I also went to th bank with Mike to cash my paycheck. You needed to know that because apparently that makes my day exciting.
Tuesday- Class in the morning came home and watchd some television. My dad came home at 3pm and we took the dogs for a really long walk. It was beautiful out so I didn't mind it at all and my dogs can actually be a lot of fun and also pretty chill sometimes. Yeah I know, they actually are able to calm down sometimes it's crazy. What else? Oh, I listened to a lot of Bob Marley yesterday before our walk so I was actually pretty chill myself. I told my dad I felt like I had ben smooking weed. He loves me. We came back, dropped off my jacket at the dry cleaners and then came back home, and I went for a long ass bike ride and saw way too many people I know. I stopped at R's house to drop off a letter I wrote to him, but he wasn't home at all. In fact, he didn't get home from work until like 8pm. So yeah, I got hurt too and felt like I took a bullet to the stomach but it's all good. I had a lot of people beeping at me which pissed me off, shouldn't because I used to harrass people like whoa. So here's a list of som of the people I saw: Paco, Trudy, Florida, John, Josie, Walter(who like made his car so gay), Frank's Man, John, and a whole bunch of other people. I even saw Momma Corolla. God, she is such a cute little lady. If only she knew I saw her husband in his boxers. Haha. So, I got home around 7:30pm and had some pasta. Then I called Rolando we talkd about things and I told him about the letter and I miss him and hopefully I will get to see him tomorrow night. Then I won the wheel and tire on Ebay last night for $160. Yikes! But it is definitely worth it. Then I paid for it and then went to bed.
Wednesday- Otherwise known as today. I got up early walked the dogs and then came in and watched television for a little while in the morning. Then I went for a bike ride and layed(?) out in the sun for awhile and jumped on the trampoline and then I cam inside and now I'm on here. I have to take my shower soon and get ready for tonight. We are actually going in a limo which is pretty cool. I should bring some Cristal because apparently my name is Puff Daddy and you can get wasted before you go to see a show. I'm getting back pretty late tonight, but it should b a really good time.
Still to Come...
Thursday- I am working from 9-5:30 which is good. Happy about that, because ofcourse I really need the money. Then hopefully I get to go see my baby because I really I haven't spent time with him since Saturday.
Friday- Going out with Laura! We are celebrating her acceptance into TCNJ :)
Saturday- Working and then hopefully sleeping with my boy. Miss my cutie. Yikes, almost just said my cutie with a booty. What the Freak?
Sunday-Getting right with the Lord? Except not. HAPPY EASTER! ^^(Bunny Ears for you)

Okay, so I'm going to go start getting ready. Much love to all my brothers who kept it real?!?!

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Sunday, April 4, 2004

9:16PM - My Dad is Great!

My dad and I were coming home from picking up Chinese food and decides to tell me the greatest thing that he ever did, it just made me love him that much more...

He was going into Krauszers which is like the United States version of South America...but anyway, he pulls in to pick up food before work and he gets out of the car and sees this kid in front of him who is trying to walk like a Pimp, ok so really he was a Mike Torres wannabe. So, this kid is walking real slow and pimp like and my dad walks up behind him and whispers in his ear YOU'VE GOT IT GOING ON!

I <3 mi padre


Also, had a huge scare and thought my boyfriend died today! I finally got in touch with him at home. You can't believe how much I love this kid...or MAN.


Had 2 share that all with you, when you really equals myself
Damn, I'm cool ;)

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9:16PM - My Dad is Great!

My dad and I were coming home from picking up Chinese food and decides to tell me the greatest thing that he ever did, it just made me love him that much more...

He was going into Krauszers which is like the United States version of South America...but anyway, he pulls in to pick up food before work and he gets out of the car and sees this kid in front of him who is trying to walk like a Pimp, ok so really he was a Mike Torres wannabe. So, this kid is walking real slow and pimp like and my dad walks up behind him and whispers in his ear YOU'VE GOT IT GOING ON!

I <3 mi padre


Also, had a huge scare and thought my boyfriend died today! I finally got in touch with him at home. You can't believe how much I love this kid...or MAN.


Had 2 share that all with you, when you really equals myself
Damn, I'm cool ;)

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Friday, April 2, 2004

12:55PM - SALE SALE SALE

Need to sell stuff to get money, I'm thinking I'm going to post a bunch of stuff on ebay. Maybe I will even sell th trampoline. We shall see.

Lex

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