| "but your taste still lingers on my lips like i just placed them upon urs and i starve" |
[Tuesday
September 9th, 2003 @ 5:30pm] |
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ok so yea i lied..i kept this journal..but i dont kno if im going to update it as often..its ugly and i need help with it..i guess ill try to copy and paste the same stuff from dead journal to here..ok i dont want to type no more im thru!
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| no more bibi |
[Monday
March 24th, 2003 @ 8:35pm] |
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no more blurty for jana..im going to use deadjournal now..sorries..i love you all..it was nice while it lasted!!!! this one is being deleted in like a week or so..bi
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[Monday
March 24th, 2003 @ 7:34pm] |
i gots a new journal..i might still write in this one..but i dont know..i might post for a while on both but then ill just end up erasing this one..here it is
www.deadjournal.com/users/o0x0o
talk to you later
<3, me
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| my weekend |
[Monday
March 24th, 2003 @ 5:49pm] |
i feel like writing so im going to update u about my weekend..
felbrugges parti was cancled, i still went to linzys and the wonderful, beautiful kacey was there..so were calling everyone and telling the the parti is cancled..
so nicole came over with lauretta and we were on our way to nicoles house so she could get clothes..then off to quiznos, so nicole could get something to eat then to the corner store to get some stuffs..hehe
then at the corner store there was this really cute kid there..his name was joe we got his # and told him we were going to the beach and told him to meet us there later..
so off to the beach we were..we parked 20 min away from where we actually were..i had to be home at 12:00 so in order for me to get home in time we had to start walking to nicoles car by 11:15..so were walking forever and were all like fuk this..so we went down to the beach and started drinking..lmao between the 5 of us we finished 12 smirnoffs (sp?) in like 10 min..
so this kid joe calls (its like 9ish) and is like "where are u?" and so we tell him and hes like "OK im on the way now" so as were waiting for joe we walked up to the sidewalk and were just talking to random people..so linzy yells "is anyone single" and this gorgeous brazillian(sp?) guy turns around and starts talking to us..his name was aussie i think so whatever somehow we end up bak on the beach and him and linzy just start making out..and were all laughing out asses off..me,lauretta,nicole and kacey..it was great..then he had to go so we walked him to the sidewalk, got his number and he left..
then i decided to yell "holler" at these black boys..it was a HUGE mistake..they pull out all this money and are all like "what would u do for this" and "would u do this for this" so linzy grabs me and starts making out with me..haha boobie on boobie kissing.. (lol dayna) so then we stop and they are all like oh thats nothing..then she starts to kiss kacey for like ever..and then the boys were being all stupid so we told them to leave and b4 they left one of them told me (there were like 7 of them) "u look like u give good head" and im all like omg OK!?
thenjoe finally came and then i left to go pee..nicole took me because i was pretty trashed..then i we got bak and linzy, lauretta and joe are all in the ocean..and im like we need to go its like 11:15..by this time kacey is saying how shes going to throw up and i tell her lets go to the bathroom and u throw some water on your face..so i take her across the street and she goes to the bathroom and then we got bak and linzy was outa the water getting dresses..
so we all started to walk the million miles to nicoles car..kacey was throwing up..so i tell her and linzy to stay there and then well come back and get them so they stay..we try to hitch hike..we finally get a cab in the opposite direction and he saw us across the street on the opposite side and then hes all like oh im not going that way..so we had to get out and then some REALLY nice, GORGEOUS guy tooke us to nicoles car..we got his number and he was from israle(sp?) he was hottness!! then we went and got linzy and kacey
then we went to get kaceys and linzys stuff from my moms car and went to my house and chilled..lol i had just met joe and hes at my house..so they change and shower and eat and then they all finally leave..i kissed them all goodbye and tell them to have fun anf blah blah blah..i dont know what happened after that
FUNNESS huh?!<3
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| "oh no please dont do this to me" |
[Friday
March 21st, 2003 @ 9:10pm] |
well i didnt go to linzy's its all good tho..i dotn kno about felbrugges parti..theres no1 house i can go to after the party and bob red decided to vist me this afternoon so i dont know..linzy really wants me to go..danielle is designated (sp) D so at least ive got someone who will drive :]
theres noting really to talk about..this is al pointless post..i <3 em tho :]
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[Thursday
March 20th, 2003 @ 5:55pm] |
hey you!!
omggg were at war..im honestly scared and upst about it all..i was watching it today and i almost started to cry! :,[ haha i kno how emo..but honestly its hard to look at all those people who are my age fighting for our country..anyways..
this weekend im heading back to my second home, linzy's..were supposed to go to felbruggee's parti but im not shure about it all...if u go to his party..u have to stay the night there..and i dont even know who this kid is..i dont kno ill have to talk to her about it..
all i need to survive this weekend it a pack of malbro lights ::ahh air::
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[Wednesday
March 19th, 2003 @ 7:45pm] |
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unsung zeros//louder than words |
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emilee called me jaja..i swear it..ive got proof :
XxheartxyouxX (7:43:08 PM): man i wish my hair would stay the same way it was as soon as i get out of the shower
LouDerThNwRdS (7:43:16 PM): lol you kno wut jaja..be quiet
LouDerThNwRdS (7:43:20 PM): jaja ahhahhaah
XxheartxyouxX (7:43:30 PM): that was classic
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[Wednesday
March 19th, 2003 @ 7:17pm] |
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i feel so horribly fat right now..i just ate dinner and i feel too fat..someone needs to help me on my journal..i want a new font and i need a new layout thing..i want it to be bigger :] thanks
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[Wednesday
March 19th, 2003 @ 6:48pm] |
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i think i had a pretty good day..i woke up feeling good..
the day went good..me and *D* were reminicing(sp) about the old nintendo and duck hunt..haha that was the best game..i ruled the fuqing game.
then i got home and i was in the mood to clean..so i cleaned..and now the whole house is clean and smells good :] im in the best mood ive been in, in a while..and ill ive been drinking is diet everything and water :] yAy! go ME!
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[Wednesday
March 19th, 2003 @ 6:01pm] |
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just trying something out..lets see if this works
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[Tuesday
March 18th, 2003 @ 7:07pm] |
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yesterday i went to maegans house to help her with her accounting work..little did i know that everyday after skool she smokes..it was me lindsay maegan and jen<3..so whatever i smoked with them and it was a good high..unlike the other night..
today emilee had isp for the whole day..she was terrible missed in 6th period. RIP emilee mc Govern for one day! lol <3 you gurlll!
i need to change lifestlyes..i need to go on some kind of diet..some kind any kind. something that works tho..i need to listen and obey my parents more but its bullshit..everyday its the same stuff..clean this..mop this..sweep this..if we had a bigger house there would be no argument to do shit because we would have space to move around in..i just need to honestly change myself ALOT..gawd how i wish i was skinny :[
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[Sunday
March 16th, 2003 @ 7:19pm] |
my weekend was great!
i want to start off by saying thank you to lindsay and jessica..thank you for taking care of me in my incompentent hours..i love you guys and u are the best for putting up with my shit..and im sorrie..
ok so friday night was good..i stayed at lindsays all weekend..we saw dayna at nicks house so we went over to talk for a lil bit..shes so pretty..i wish i looked like her..so whatever we talked and then went back to lindsays..and then her mom and moms bf left and kenny came over
he was alreadi high when he got there..he bough the wrong cigarettes..but oh well..and then he was comming down really hard on lindsay about some of the problems shes had in the past..and i just though it was wrong but theres nothing i can do now..so then he took one of OUR bars..and he left because we werent doing anything..
so me and lindsya get ready..then we hear from jessica that we were going to hang out with her..so we talk to kenny online and he says yea he come with us to jessicas but not now cause he just took and oxy-cotton..so whatever..me and lindsay just walked to applebees
MAYSON WORKS at applebess..omg i got butterflies seeing him..hes so gorgeous..so laurie calls lindsyas and tells us she'll hang out with us.so we tell her to meet us at applebees..so they do and it was 3 other people with her..then jessica calls us and she meets us at applebees..and we all leave to go to franco's(lauries friend) friends house..
we get to his house..and mind you this is like around 9:30ish (lindsay has to be home at 12:00) so whatever we hang out there at his friends house..and we were drinking..this is all outside...and then lindsay decided to become a pole dance and dance on the basketball thing..then she was in a chugging contest..lol so whatever..then me and jesscia and lindsay go back to applebees cause the other people went to robbiw mills party and we saw MAYSON again..and he was sitting at the table in front of us and i couldnt stop looking at him..then we ordered food and kasey who works at applebees took us home..jessica stayed too! YaY! :]
me and jessica were up for an hour trying to think of them name Mike Morehouse..LMAO! MOREHOUSE!
So then saturday mornin jessica went home kinda early and me and linday watched tv again..thenw e cleaned the pool jumped in and got readi again..we walked to applebees again and kyle whelp was with us..he walked with us and jessica met us there..i saw MAYSON again ::sigh:: :] we told the waiter that it was kyle's birthday..haha it got like 7 ballons..and his reaction was priceless..kyle is the funniest kid i know..he was funni the whole night..if i tell u everything he did it would be the longest post in the world..
so then we left applebees.. we were supposed to hang out with ashley and her brother but her mom said we coudnt stay the night so we just hung out..as we were waiting for ashley we walked to dairy queen and kyle had all his ballons and he was walking around liek a fairy with his shirt and all..
then we found a bowling ball and he names it wilson..(this was one of the best nights ive had in a looooooooong time..except for later) then we went back adn waited in front of applebees and lindsay and kyle were sucking the helieum from the ballons..that was HILARIOUS! so then ashley, mike, and nicole show up..and we go back to applebees and they ate and we went back to ashleys house so we could get more cars cause there was to many of us in one car..
so mike went home and ashley and nicole take us to the farm stop to get cigarettes, but its closed and so we all went back to lindsays and kyle walked home and nicole and ashley drove home..
then the worst part of my night happend..i dont want to talk about it in here, becasue only 4 people who know about it, including myself..it was by far the worst one ive ever had..and if u nkow about it u know what im talking about..the beginning of my journal is dedicated to the people who babysat me..thank you and i love you
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[Thursday
March 13th, 2003 @ 7:48pm] |
XxheartxyouxX (7:46:16 PM): i love you
SaY HeY2BaHmOo (7:46:17 PM): loser
SaY HeY2BaHmOo (7:46:22 PM): i heart u too
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[Wednesday
March 12th, 2003 @ 8:03pm] |
XxheartxyouxX (7:50:15 PM): oops
Cruheat (7:50:25 PM): what happened?
XxheartxyouxX (7:50:54 PM): i was kiked off
XxheartxyouxX (7:51:55 PM): i <3 you
Cruheat (7:52:09 PM): yay!!!!!!
XxheartxyouxX (7:52:19 PM): haha
XxheartxyouxX (7:52:36 PM): ur posed to say i <3 you too
Cruheat (7:52:57 PM): i would but i cant figure out how to make that damn heart
XxheartxyouxX (7:53:05 PM): lol
XxheartxyouxX (7:53:12 PM): shift the comma button and a 3
Cruheat (7:53:31 PM): i
Cruheat (7:54:33 PM): your supposed to say yay
XxheartxyouxX (7:54:38 PM): lol u didnt say it tho
Cruheat (7:55:00 PM): i didnt?
XxheartxyouxX (7:55:06 PM): noooooooo
XxheartxyouxX (7:55:09 PM): all u said was i
Cruheat (7:55:45 PM): well how about i just spell it out
Cruheat (7:55:53 PM): ;-)
XxheartxyouxX (7:56:02 PM): lol
XxheartxyouxX (7:56:03 PM): ok
Cruheat (7:56:20 PM): I LOVE U 2!!!!
XxheartxyouxX (7:56:36 PM): YaY!
Cruheat (7:57:44 PM): there it is
XxheartxyouxX (7:57:47 PM): im happy
XxheartxyouxX (7:57:52 PM): its going in my journal
Cruheat (7:58:21 PM): alright, i made it into the journal
XxheartxyouxX (7:58:38 PM): YAY!
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[Wednesday
March 12th, 2003 @ 9:02am] |
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[Tuesday
March 11th, 2003 @ 4:22pm] |
-*1 MINUTE AGO: drinking water*-
-*1 DAY AGO: on the phone*-
-*1 WEEK AGO: on the computer*-
-*1 YEAR AGO: breaking up with someone*-
-*I HURT: myself*-
-*I LOVE: some people*-
-*I HATE: people at my school*-
-*I FEAR: the future*-
-*I HOPE: to be <3ed*-
-*I FEEL: like crying*-
-*I LISTEN: to musik*-
-*I HIDE: my insecurities(sp)*-
-*I DRIVE:my moms car*-
-*I PLAY: games*-
-*I MISS: being <3ed*-
-*I LEARNED: that people lie/suxxx*-
-*I KNOW: what u did last summer*-
-*I WAIT: for <3*-
-*I NEED: someone to <3 me*-
-*I THINK: about you*-
-*Current Clothes: jeans and a t-shirt*-
-*Current Mood: for you ray emo*-
-*Current Music: plain white t's*-
-*Current Taste: water*-
-*Current Hair: spikey?*-
-*Current Annoyance: the sound of the weather channel man*-
-*Current Smell: dinner*-
-*Current thing I should be Doing:homework*-
-*Current Desktop Picture: marlyin monroe*-
-*Current Favorite bands/singers: alottt*-
-*Current Book: the great gatsby (english) and the perks of being a wallflower*-
-*Current Movie In VCR: signlanguage tape*-
-*Current Refreshment: water*-
-*Current Worry: way to many and to personal*-
-*Current Crush: people<3*-
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