| "until the day i die" |
[Sunday
December 14th, 2003 @ 6:19pm] |
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Story of the year//until the day i die |
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i want you to post anything that you want. anything. post a story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything.
be sure to post anonymously and honestly. post twice if you'd like, and then put this in your journal to see what your friends have to say
*xo
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| "my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me" |
[Saturday
December 13th, 2003 @ 6:46pm] |
work, work, work, work, work, thats all i do..i have sunday monday and tuesday off..so maybe ill be able to get some sleep those day..
anyways..nothing much new..i love linzy and im tired and im depressed and happy at the same time...im outie..
xox
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[Thursday
December 4th, 2003 @ 3:16pm] |
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further seems forever - pride war |
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boreddd..
A is for - Age: seventeen
B is for - Boyfriend/Girlfriend: no
C is for - Career in future: forensic accountant
D is for - Dad's name: Tim
E is for - Essential item to bring to a party: linzi and nicole and cigarettes
F is for - Favorite song at the moment: too many
G is for - Guy/Girls you've kissed: 10 guys, 2 girls
H is for - Hometown: Ft. lauderdale
I is for - Instruments you play: acoustic guitar
J is for - Job title: employee a wendys
K is for - Kids: eventually
L is for - Living arrangement: mom and dads house
M is for - Mom's name: Sandy
N is for - Number of people you've slept with: four
O is for - Overnight hospital stays: zero
P is for - Phobia[s]: guns and grasshoppers
Q is for - Quote you like: "I pleasure him sexually expecting emotional stimulation in return"
R is for - Relationship that lasted the longest: umm..there have been on and off relationships that have lasted a while..
S is for - Sexual position: ask him..hah!
T is for - tattoos: two, a airy on my back and three stars on my ankel
U is for - Unique trait(s): i dont think i have any
V is for - Vegetable you love: asparagus
W is for - worst habit: smoking
X is for - X-rays you've had: teeth, left writs
Y is for - Yummy food you make: pizza
Z is for - Zodiac sign: aries
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[Saturday
November 29th, 2003 @ 10:56pm] |
Holly lands was fun last night..:]
*us taking aligator alley instad of US 27
*"someones going to jump out from the swaml and kill us..YEA YEA YEA like in 'Gothica'"
*BOO!!
*jeff falling off the 4 wheeler
*Lauren getting her mack on with EVERY fucking guy (including Jeff..yea Linzy we need to talk)
*"My pants are all muddy and burney and ciggarettey"
*"How about some 'flavored water?'"
*me teaching Jeff a big word when he was drunk
*"Say inebriated Jeff..'Ih-neeeeebraaaa-bee-a-WHAT?'" LMAO
*Lauren seeing "Nicoles" ass
*Roaming candel fight
*the fire
*my blanket smelling like campfire
*"OH OH OH gimme a marshmellow, grrrl"
TELL ME MORE LAUREN and NICOLE!!
<3, moi
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[Friday
November 28th, 2003 @ 6:53pm] |
now i think another kitten is going to die :[ its the little black one..shes all throwing up and stuffs..its a sad day around here
me and Quickie and Tim and Jeff are going to Hollylands..i dont kno if i want to go and be around all those loser drunk people..i dont kno..i guess it will be fun to be with Nicole
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[Friday
November 28th, 2003 @ 9:31am] |
this morning when my brother woke up he went and checked on the kittens..and one of them had died :[..i think Mercedes killed it by laying on it..so sad..my mo was crying and stuffs..it was a sad day
R.I.P Kitten
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| "my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me" |
[Friday
November 28th, 2003 @ 1:25am] |
"im the type of person that puts the fone in the frig and trys to hang up the milk"
"Jana dont ever fuck me over, cause i would hate to have to hate you"
haha u crack me upp!
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[Thursday
November 27th, 2003 @ 5:56pm] |
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
i had to work last night..it was ok..we were really packed..i had fun tho..im tired and i want to sleep but i cant cause i have to cook..ok im out
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| stolded from linzy |
[Sunday
November 23rd, 2003 @ 6:55pm] |
last cigarette: about 9:30
last car ride: umm on thursday when we all skipped
last kiss: lol when i was with linzy on thursday..only because there was a mistle toe..but with a boy was with ben like 898 years ago
last good cry: last ngiht
last library book checked out: umm i duno?
last movie seen: texas chainsaw masscure
last book read: Go Ask Alice
last cuss word uttered: "shut up dumbass"
last beverage drank: mountian dew
last food consumed: mexican pizza
last crush: anthony and ben
last phone call: linzy
last tv show watched: umm something on mtv
last time showered: like an hour ago
last shoes worn: flip flops
last cd played: a burnt cd
last item bought: insence
last downloaded: placebo - every me, every you
last annoyance: my brother
last disappointment: myself
last soda drank: mountian dew
last thing written: umm...oh my schedule for work
last key used: k
last word spoken: dumbass
last sleep: like 3-5pm.
last im: nevin
last sexual fantasy: umm i dont kno? ;]
last weird encounter: talking to amber
last ice cream eaten: umm i cant member
last time amused: thursday when we skipped
last time wanting to die: last night..like seriously
last time in love: never
last time hugged: friday
last time scolded: last night
last time resentful: umm..i dont member
last chair sat in: da one im in now
last lipstick used: lip gloss playa! friday..
last shirt worn: the one im wearing now?
last time dancing: jeez umm..when i was with linzy probaby
last poster looked at: boys night out thingy
last show attended: take action tour..with PTW playa!
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| chelseas thoughts about josh |
[Friday
November 21st, 2003 @ 9:41pm] |
XLaAnGeLiTa143X (9:16:19 PM): If I have to go to prom alone and be stuck with all those damn friends of mine and their happy coupleness I'll slice myself
XLaAnGeLiTa143X (9:16:20 PM): ugh
xxheartxyouxx (9:16:34 PM): lol...thank gawd i got out when i did
xxheartxyouxx (9:16:39 PM): u can come hang with me and linzy
xxheartxyouxx (9:16:57 PM): i dont see how u can be around them always making out..i cant stand it and im never around them
XLaAnGeLiTa143X (9:17:19 PM): I dunno--I have mixed feelings about it all
xxheartxyouxx (9:17:27 PM): yuck
xxheartxyouxx (9:17:29 PM): like what
XLaAnGeLiTa143X (9:17:38 PM): I love them all individually (well except Josh) but when they get with their "parnters" it drives me crazy
xxheartxyouxx (9:17:52 PM): y not josh..cause hes just josh
xxheartxyouxx (9:18:01 PM): ahaha u kno how hes gained like 898 pounds??
XLaAnGeLiTa143X (9:18:07 PM): LOLOLOL
xxheartxyouxx (9:18:17 PM): we got him in his better years
XLaAnGeLiTa143X (9:18:19 PM): you know its funny, because I was saying to my friend Corrie how I'm so over him because he's so fat and ugly
xxheartxyouxx (9:18:21 PM): WTF HAPPENED TO HIM
xxheartxyouxx (9:18:30 PM): how did he gain so much weight
XLaAnGeLiTa143X (9:18:45 PM): and im like "I know I sound like a hypocrite, how could I talk, but I've ALWAYS been fat and he liked me anyway so wtf ever"
xxheartxyouxx (9:18:54 PM): lol
XLaAnGeLiTa143X (9:19:37 PM): at least I'm a pretty fat girl--he's an ugly fat boy
xxheartxyouxx (9:19:41 PM): today i looked at him and he looked like this kid ben i dated over the summer..just for a split second..and it scared the shit outta me
xxheartxyouxx (9:19:42 PM): LMAO!
xxheartxyouxx (9:19:46 PM): aww i love you chelsea
XLaAnGeLiTa143X (9:19:54 PM): lol
XLaAnGeLiTa143X (9:20:02 PM): at least my tits are an ASSET to my body, not a FLAW
xxheartxyouxx (9:20:08 PM): no but how did he gain so much weight
XLaAnGeLiTa143X (9:20:11 PM): boys are not supposed to HAVE big saggy boobies, someone should tell him that
xxheartxyouxx (9:20:15 PM): LMFAO!!!!
xxheartxyouxx (9:20:19 PM): omg!!!1
xxheartxyouxx (9:20:23 PM): ahah this is goign in my journal!
haha i love that girl!
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| "jeff the 'emo'" |
[Friday
November 21st, 2003 @ 10:31am] |
esterday was "senior skip day"..it was me, linzy, nicole, tim and jeff..it was fun..we went to dennys then to nicoles house and hung out thurrr..haha got to practice more guitar..then went to sawgrass for a couple of hours..WE DRESSED UP JEFF..me and linzy dressed him up like a little emo boy..aww e was in a tight shirt and stuff..hehe he was so cute..then we went back to nicoles house and them me and linzy and jeff went to the cigarette shop and then to skool to drop off laurens soccer stuff and then back to nicoles..we almost got caught by her mom driving her car but we were all good :]
<3<3<3 i love you linzy
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[Tuesday
November 18th, 2003 @ 8:45am] |
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Mercedes ended up having 5 kittens..3 grey ones 1 white one and a black one with grey stripes..aww
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[Monday
November 17th, 2003 @ 7:33pm] |
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mercedes just had two more kittens..she had what i think is a solid black one and one thats like she is..black and white with grey all stripes..AWW IMA GRANDMA!
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| "this is the last song" |
[Monday
November 17th, 2003 @ 7:08pm] |
hey hey hey guess whose might have landed at job at wendys? mee..i have to go tomorrow to fill out all the tax information..at least i think thats what im going for..anyways my mom and dad and everyone says i got the job.. GO ME?
my brother got a job too..hes working at the pet store in the same shopping center as wendys..damn things are going good around hurrr..
yesterday i was at linzys..we had a lot of fun..from me falling and practically breaking the whole wall down to me and kelley learning "Seven Nation Army" on the acoustic..my middle finger still hurts Kel! haha
i had a very deep, good conversation with Anthony last night..he had me crying and all but it was good..gawd i like him a lot...
Mannys getting his tattoo done right now..hes going to kall me when hes done and i think hes comming over to show me..HOLLA
i think Mercedes is going to have her kittens tonight or tomorrow day..aww yea! more kittens..
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[Monday
November 10th, 2003 @ 8:43pm] |
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yea it is about him so get over it..
My feelings for you arent explicit. I pleasure you sexually expecting emotional stimulation in return. I cant tell my feelings from uncertiantity. The thought of you fills me with ecstasy. While other feelings bring the blade to my wrist and blood to the floor. Your meaningless kisses fill my lips. My feelings become stronger as your words become engaging. Insecurties consume me. Prohibiting me from being intimate. The non-existance of your feelings hinder you from being sincere. Thoughts and feelings of you flow through me like water. But in the end my feelings are sentimate and existent, contradictory to you.
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[Monday
November 10th, 2003 @ 9:11am] |
yea so i hung out with Ben on friday night while EVERYONE was getting their freak on at homecomming..i got some closure about what happened the first time with us..and then again i kinda re-opened it again..he told me he though about me a lot and he was really concerned about me being...
he couldnt eat, sleep, drink, go to work or focus on anything because he was extremly worried about me..now that makes me feel like the bad guy because i never called him to tell him everything was ok..but back then i knew he didnt deserve a call from me telling him i was ok..but were friends now..and i think were going to try to work some things out..we both need to mature and kno how each other feel about on another..it was nice to cuddle with him again :]
i need to finish telling you the story linzy
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[Sunday
September 28th, 2003 @ 8:15pm] |
Friday
*went to the show
*saw the most disgusting, disturbing video i have ever seen in my life..it was from a slaughter house and it was showing cows, pigs, chickens, and turkeys being killed..it was horrible..i want to be a vegan now..hehe
*baked Nicoles cake
*stayed the night at Mannys
Saturday
*frosted Nicoles cake
*didnt get home till 3 and i was posed to be home at 10. whoops
*got home and helped my dad
*Nicole, Linzy and Lauren all came to get the cake and i went with them
*went to Nicoles
*Ashley and Calichio came over
*went to Jcs GAYYY party
*ended up picking up Kacey
*went home and Linzy stayed the night
Sunday
*GOT AC IN THE HOUSE!
*linzy was in the attic all day..ha
NICOLES IS GOING TO KICK JONATHAN JOSEPH PERQUE'S ASSSSSSSS! CAUSE HE HAS A LITTLE DICKKK!
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[Friday
September 19th, 2003 @ 10:27am] |
im so tired..i feel asleep on the fone with manny last night and today..hes so sweet and so unhurmful i hate all the people who have every hurt him in his life..hes such an amazing person and hes so smart and hes help me thru a lot in the last couple of days..Thank You Manny
my brother and i got into a really big fight last night..thats why my eye is the way it is..he slammed my head against the wall because i wanted to take the fone into my room to talk to Manny and to kall my mom..thats all that will be said about that..
ive been doing really well in school too..i got a 100% on my MAth test that was yesterday..i got a 92% on my signlanguage test that was yesterday and i got a 100% on my english SAT vocab Test that was today! YaY! go me!
Austin concerns me more and more evereyday..I love you, Austin
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| "and all the best deceptions and the clever cover storie awards, go to you" |
[Thursday
September 18th, 2003 @ 6:38pm] |
-i wish someone would rip out my uterus
-i wonder what manny thinks of me
-i wonder if ben thinks about what happened
-i really need a cough drop
-its really cold
-Mr. Feilds is really annoying
-i miss being kissed (even by u linzy)
-who fucking cares about quantty demand? I DONT!
-i like my hair today
-im sorry Matt
-i wish him and i were talking
-i was told i looked pretty today
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| "why dp your eyes paralyze" |
[Sunday
September 14th, 2003 @ 4:19pm] |
Friday
*went to the foot ball game..we actually won
*went to chili's (it was too packed so we went to the best place)
*went to Dennys
*spit spitballs at each other all night
*Ashley had to go get Colby and Stev-0 in the ghet-0
Satrday
*Linzy kalls me at like 8 in the mornin but she didnt wake me up
*kalled her at 11 when i got up and she wanted me to come to the beach
*my dad took me and my brother to John U. Lloyd to meet Linzy, Lauren and Angela
*me and Linzy flashed everyone on shore
*acting like whales
*"RrrrrrBrrrrRrrrrBrrrr"
*some old guy next to us was smoking a dubie at the beach! HA! SHIBBY!
*at the beach till about 4:30
*as we are waiting for Nicole to get us, Linzy starts dancing
*some hotttt guy was slapped because he was staring at Linzy while she was dancing
*they clapped when we left
*Nicole picked us all up when she got off work
*Hatian packed Quickie Nickie's car
*Dropped off my brother and Nicole got her kitten
*Nicole dropped me off at my grandmas to drop the other kittne off to my cousin
*My cousin took me back to my house to get readi for our night
*Nicole and Linzy went to dinner while i got readi (Becuase im the poor and fat girl)
*Dropped Linzy off after dinner and Nicole picked me up
*stold some of mom and dads hasheeb! HA!
*went back to go get Linzy
*went to Matt Bradley's house (ahh hes fucking hott)
*everyone got drunk and high cept for me and Nicole
*were going to go to the beach but didnt
*saw Bob and Matt M.
*LINZY DIDNT DANCE! YaY!
*cant wait for the PTW show the 26th!
*tonight is the Dashboard Confessional, Brand New and MXPX show! guess whose not going? :[
*came home and grubbed like whoa! :]
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