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| 02:38pm 04/05/2003 |
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mood:  depressed music: sleepwalking//blindside
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I've seen my ignorance. Therefore I have deleted ALL the entries that talk nonstop about Jerry. I've realized what I've done is obsessive and stupid. I'm losing my friends. I'm not listening to what they're telling me. I've lost a particularly good friend and now I fear I can NEVER get her back. NEVER. In the midst of this, I've decided NOT to kill myself. I've thought it over. I got to thinking there's nothing to live for anymore. But no. I've gotten help and support from the people who still choose to be my friends. Surprise, people STILL care for me. HaHa. And no, I'm not feeling sorry for myself. And no, I won't take any fake sympathy. Don't even try it. I'll just spit in your face. Most likely. |
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| 09:00pm 29/04/2003 |
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mood:  ditzy music: wondering//good charlotte
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hee its slipknot. yippee.
leah i know im the devil's spawn so i stole the survey. :p
-Current mood:: blank music:: weezer//hash pipe taste:: chinese food makeup:: right now...black eyeliner berry lipgloss (yay) and powder which is a shocking shade of beige... hair:: its down and i straightened it soo it looks avril lavigne-ish annoyance::these damn pop up ads smell:: peaches...air freshener favorite artist:: hm...salvador dali. or do you mean music? ...i dont know. desktop picture:: invader zim and gir (kik ass desktop theme...!) favorite group:: weezer...slipknot... book you're reading:: im illiterate. cd in cd player:: box car racer dvd in player:: my mom uses it for cds :P refreshment:: coke worry:: wat the hells going on?
-last person you touched:: does my cat count you talked to:: my sister you hugged:: ? i dont normally allow people to touch me you instant messaged:: scott you yelled at:: haylee...bitch thinks i stuff my bra. you kissed:: ahem i dont 'kiss'...
-favorite food:: beef jerky drink:: sprite color:: blue, black, red, pink :p album:: the vines//highly evolved shoes:: i only have 1 pair (my vans with the flame and gir laces) candy:: starburst animal:: cat *meow* tv show:: the simpsons, invader zim, clone high movie:: donnie darko dance:: ? song:: blackout//hed pe vegetable:: celery fruit:: strawberry cartoon:: invader zim
-are you understanding:: sometimes arrogant:: no insecure:: yea interesting:: no random:: yea hungry:: no friendly:: sometimes smart:: no and yea moody:: yea childish:: sometimes independant:: yea hardworking:: no organized:: no healthy:: sorta emotionally stable:: HELL no shy:: yea difficult:: sometimes attractive:: NO bored easily:: yea messy:: yea thirsty:: well now i am... responsible:: sha no obsessed:: i can be angry:: YES! GET OUT OF MY WAY! lol sad:: ::sniffles:: yesh... happy:: im angry and sad so i might as well be hyper:: nope trusting:: no i have issues in that area talkative:: no legal:: no i was cloned ILLEGALLY!
-who do you want to kill:: you. slap:: haylee get really wasted with:: haha i dont know look like:: i dont know not myself talk to:: jerry ::sniffles:: talk to online:: matt dammit he better get on
-fill in the blanks in the morning i am:: u.g.l.y all i need is:: a futon love is:: a battlefield! ::sings:: im afraid of:: clowns...! i dream about:: i dont know...it reminds me of salvador dali
-have you ever pictured your crush naked:: ::cough:: no... actually seen your crush naked:: in the immortal words of leah...yea jerry has his own porn site....www.mydicksnameiskevin.com...lol been in love:: not truly cried when someone died:: yesh...kurt cobain (i was only 4 lol) lied:: no shit...
-which is better coke or pepsi:: coke flowers or candy:: flowers tall or short:: dont ask me that thats like deciding between my own children!
-with the opposite sex what do you notice first:: eyes, teef, hair, and sometimes legs....lol last person you slow danced with:: i dont dance dammit! worst question to ask:: ARE YOU GAY?!?! turn ons:: spiky hair and paleness (actually just jerrys paleness...o.o)
-who makes you laugh the most:: jesse, amanda and matt :p makes you smile:: need i mention his name? gives you a fuzzy feeling when you see them:: (see above) do you have a crush on:: (see above) has a crush on you:: haha how can you suggest? is easiest to talk to:: matt
-do you ever sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to IM you:: uh...no...::sheepishly:: save aol/aim conversations:: im not THAT crazy. wish you were a member of the opposite sex:: never thought about it...? cried because someone said something to you:: yes.
-have you ever fallen for your BFF:: no been rejected:: wat the hell do you think? rejected somone:: poor thing. ::sniffles:: used someone:: yes. this girl whitney had a kik ass pool so i only went over there to swim in it. o, and her brother was HOTT. been cheated on:: no done something you regret:: yea.
-do you/are you smoke:: no. i have. but it sucked :p obsessive:: i can be ::cough:: could you live without the computer:: NO color your hair:: yes. ever get off the computer:: eventually. habla espanol:: excuse me? how many people are on your buddy list:: 21. drink:: sometimes. like watching the sunrise:: no. wat hurts the most: physical or emotional pain:: emotional. definately. trust other too easily:: depends on the person.
-number of times your hearts been broken:: countless. of hearts you've broken:: haha none. of continents you've lived in:: 2 (north america and europe ;D) of close friends:: i don't enjoy getting close to people anymore. of cd's you own:: not much all the cool ones got stolen. of scars you have:: do you think i examine myself? of things in your past that you regret:: am i supposed to count...?
-I want:: some food have:: water wish:: i had a life miss:: my bed...i need some sleep hear:: a magical flute... search:: for my long lost brother... lol wonder:: wats for dinner love:: music ache:: for a graham cracker care:: about my hair :o always:: sleep am not:: cool dance:: NOT!! lol sing:: to my cats cry:: alot don't always:: think before i speak fight:: with those critters in mario 64 write:: poetry...im very deep...lol win:: never lose:: alot confuse:: many people listen:: well can usually be found:: on the computer; in my room either listening to music, watching tv or playing video games need:: a life am happy with:: my music should have:: silence by blindside |
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| 05:29pm 19/04/2003 |
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mood:  indescribable music: tomorrow//sr-71
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"Don't touch this unless you are nude." -a sticker on benji's guitar in the 'motivation proclamation' video-
damn.
KILL IT! AHHH!
yea. ookkk...? |
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